The moment she decided to come out, Song Yu was calmer and more relaxed than she imagined.

He notified Song Jin and Lin Rong, told them that he had important things to talk about, and asked them if they would be home at night. The answer was yes.

Driving back home, it was Lin Rong who opened the door. Her eyes were red and moist, as if she had just cried. Song Yu had a bad expectation in his mind, but Lin Rong didn't say anything.

"Xiaoyu, you're back."

Song Jin sat on the sofa, not looking at Song Yu, and only asked him what was wrong with him coming back so late.

Song Yu first explained to him his plan to change the topic in a clear and logical manner, but Song Jin questioned him, "Even if Professor Zhang agrees to change your topic now, it's already so late and the semester is almost over. Are you sure?"

Are there any teachers willing to accept you?"

"So I can also postpone my graduation. Professor Zhang used his private life to put pressure on me and hinder my graduation. I've had enough. Even if I continue to stay in his research group, he will not let me graduate smoothly if I don't agree with his decision."

Yeah, it’s better to leave early.”

Song Jin was silent for a long time before speaking in a low voice, "If you are really not interested in Miss Zhang, we will not force you."

"Not only am I not interested in Miss Zhang, I may not be interested in dating Miss Li or Miss Wang who may appear in the future, or any girl who seems to be a good match in everyone's eyes." Song Yu stood up straight, "Dad, Mom

, although you always say that I have never let you down, but I actually do not meet your expectations for a son, but I have never been able to say it."

"I like men, and I already have a relationship." Song Yu said frankly, "So I will not form a family with any woman. I can't lie to myself, nor can I deceive or hurt others. I know you advise me to fall in love.

It’s not that you really want me to continue the Song family, I just think I’m too lonely, but can you imagine how painful it will be for a woman to marry someone like me in her life?”

"I won't do such a thing, so please give up this idea. Even if I live alone in the future, I can still live well."

After hearing these words, Lin Rong finally couldn't help it and asked him in tears: "Really? Do you really feel like this?"

Song Jin picked up a piece of paper from the sofa and threw it in front of Song Yu. The paper, as thin as a blade, fluttered, cutting through the solemn air, and finally landed at Song Yu's feet.

He lowered his eyes, glanced at the beginning, and became convinced.

Song Jin's voice was shaking, but he couldn't tell whether it was because of anger or sadness.

"Song Yu. Don't tell me that the person you keep talking about...is your brother."

He thought he would feel nothing, but the feeling of exposing his struggling past in front of his parents was indeed more uncomfortable than he imagined. He was very grateful that his father's upbringing did not let him say "Don't you feel disgusted?"

"In this case.

"Yes." Song Yu said, "It's Le Zhishi, but he is not my brother. Our relationship is normal and does not violate the law."

"You are so shameless, Song Yu, what are you thinking about? Apart from having no blood relationship with you, what is the difference between him and your biological brother! You watched me bring him back back then!"

In anger, Song Yu's face stung, and he convinced himself to be numb, but he knew that this was not so easy to accept. In the eyes of his parents, indeed, Le Zhishi was no different from their biological son, even because

He is an orphan, so he is even more protective. He simply steps on his father's most untouchable bottom line.

When he heard his father stand up tremblingly, he frowned and looked at him, and said to him angrily and weakly: "Song Yu, please wake up."

Song Yu's calm appearance finally cracked.

"Dad, after all these years, am I still not sober enough?"

Is the manual hidden in the computer really addressed to Le Zhishi’s future partner?

Not at all, this was just a warning to himself when Song Yu was struggling the most and confused, reminding him that there would definitely be someone who would accompany Le Zhi in the future, reminding himself to remember his identity and boundaries. No matter what he said about these things

No matter how well you do it, you can only sign it as [Le Zhishi’s brother] at the end.

The person in the future does not need any communication manual at all, as long as he has the favor of Le Zhishi, it is enough.

"How many times do you think I revised this letter?" Song Yu said calmly: "Eleven drafts."

He tried hard to control his emotions and sound calmer. It was over anyway.

"Whenever I feel like I can't stand it anymore, when I see Le Zhi, I think to myself, I really like him, why can't it be me? Whenever that happens, I can't sleep, so I open the file and modify it.

, delete some words that cannot and should not be put in it, and try to make these expressions look more like a normal brother. Then tell myself, this is what I should do. Those feelings are like scraps and should not be

exist."

With a sad smile on his pale face, he looked at his parents.

"You should find them all, type them out, and go from the first draft to the eleventh draft. How spectacular."

"After reading this, you will feel that I am so noble."

The manual with various precautions lay quietly on the cold floor, palely carrying Song Yu who revised his wording five years ago. He changed the words that made the young man feel heartbroken and shed tears, and deleted the words about music.

Be aware of your future partner's hostility and out-of-bounds requests, and learn to accept her or his presence calmly.

During many sleepless nights, he learned to say "Hello, nice to meet you" at the beginning of the letter, and learned to send the blessing "May you be happy and happy" at the end.

Then with each revision, the final signature became more and more acceptable.

The printed words looked the same as Song Yu himself, neat, calm, and devoid of emotion, giving the young and ignorant him a decent and mature shell that an adult should have. But many Song Yus years ago

, seems to be standing here at this moment, accompanying him as he experiences this explosion.

And Le Zhi, who existed in every draft but had never been included in the reading list, was also stunned in place at this time. The quarrels and conflicts that made him stop just now were like a heavy punch in the chest, but these words only

It's a real sharp knife. The moment it pierces, it's so sharp that it doesn't hurt. It won't hurt until your senses react.

Big drops of tears fell on it, almost tearing away the indifferent printed matter, peeling off the fragile soul hidden in the paper, allowing him to be freed.

"Lele, what's wrong with you?" Lin Rong wiped her tears and stood up to look at him, "Why did you come here like this? Are you sick?"

Hearing these words, Le Zhi felt even more painful.

He tried hard not to shake, to be calmer, lowered his hand holding the piece of paper, wiped the tears from his face, and looked at them.

"Uncle Song, Aunt Rong, I'm sorry."

Le Zhi thought that kneeling down at this moment might seem like a threat, so he bowed deeply and formally.

"I'm not sorry. I'm really sorry for letting you down. Aunt Rong, do you remember that I was sick before? You came to school to see me. It was during that time that I took advantage of my illness to ask Song Yu

Confessed."

He closed his eyes, opened them again, and said with certainty every word, "So in the final analysis, it was me who took the initiative. If there was really any inducement, it was all me who induced Song Yu to do it. Here,

In this relationship, Song Yu is actually very passive."

Le Zhishi's eyes were red and her lips were pale, but her eyes were very bright, firm and calm. "I have had strong separation anxiety from Song Yu since I was a child. I was anxious to an abnormal level at one time, so I did a lot of extraordinary things since I was a child."

His actions, such as forcing me to sleep in the same bed with him, wanting to hold hands with him, wanting to hug him, even when he was just my brother, I wanted to kiss him, even the so-called confession was me having a fever and crying.

I told him when I was here. Tell me, how could Song Yu reject me in that situation?"

He took all the responsibility on himself, the motive and the source were all his, and everything had nothing to do with Song Yu.

"Because Song Yu always wanted to keep a distance from me and stay away from me, so my need for him is actually a bit pathological."

As he said this, he actually laughed, "It's like an allergy. The doctor says you can't eat this and you can't eat that because you are allergic and may die if you eat it. Well, I won't touch it. Although I have been doing this for more than ten years

I'm very obedient, but actually sometimes I really want to eat. Now I want to stay with someone, but I can't. So I want to stay with him and I'm going crazy."

"I don't understand. Why do you have so many adverse reactions when you like someone who is obviously not allergic?"

"When I found out that I liked him, I felt really uncomfortable. I couldn't think about what I would do if Song Yu got together with someone else one day. But when we did get together, I felt tortured again. I didn't dare to come back to see you.

, and I don’t dare to call you. My life is a burden to any family, and it is difficult to support me. I am so selfish. You raise me as your biological son, but I do this kind of thing."

His hands clenched tightly unconsciously, and the paper was crinkled.

Seeing the little son who was always smiling now gritting his teeth and saying these words, neither Song Jin nor Lin Rong could speak.

"Actually, I have thought about it," Le Zhishi forced a smile and told them his previous plan in a relatively relaxed tone. "At first, I thought Song Yu was forced to agree to me, so I thought this paragraph could be

I have to cherish the time when I am in love with him, and then wait until...when he feels that enough is enough, I will leave this home. I will go to a place where no one knows me, work hard to make money, and then secretly transfer money to my card at home.

.”

Le Zhi lowered his head and took out his cell phone with some embarrassment, rummaged through it, and began to speak in confusion, "I, what I have recorded is... the money I have spent since I was a child, but, I only started to remember those things before when I was in the third year of junior high school.

I can only find a rough estimate of annual expenses online, but I have records of everything later. I, I want to multiply the money several times more, and then, when I make money, in addition to the money that is enough for me to eat and rent a house

A little, and I will send the rest of the money back. Of course, these cannot repay your efforts at all, nor can they make up for your emotional losses, but it is better than nothing."

Hearing this, Song Jin sat back on the sofa in despair, shaking his head silently.

But he did not stop when he was happy. He found the schedule in his mobile phone and showed it to them, as if he was discussing a happy family trip. "I have seen many places suitable for settling, both at home and abroad. They

Housing prices, consumption levels, and rent, I have made plans for all these."

"You see, I actually have a plan, right? Yunnan is very good. Yunnan is so beautiful and far away from here. It feels like a good place to hide. I can rent a small house and raise a kitten.

. Or you can stay in one place for a while and move around like that kind of agent. It’s cool, but you may earn less that way, and you won’t be able to pay back..."

The puppy walking on the street may not be a stray. The world is big and the world is at home.

Only when you are nurtured tenderly once and then lost is the real wandering.

Every word and sentence spoken by Le Zhishi stuck in the hearts of the two parents. No one thought that in this harmonious and beautiful home, the two children were living under a burden that could collapse at any time.

What is even more unimaginable to them is that Le Zhishi counts the burden he has placed on the family every day, hoping to pay it off in his lifetime.

Lin Rong finally couldn't listen anymore and interrupted him with tears streaming down her face, "Lele! You...how can you think about this?"

Le Zhishi endured it again and again. He wanted to laugh, but in the end he seemed to cry out of laughter.

"Because I don't want to see Song Yu with anyone else."

"Aunt Rong, I really love him very much." Le Zhishi held back the tears stubbornly, for fear that if they continued to flow out, he would appear to be not sincere and firm enough, "And later, after we got together, I realized that Song Yu also loved me.

, he can’t live without me. Do you know that sometimes he can’t even sleep alone, takes a lot of pills, and feels like he’s sick. I’m so scared.”

He muttered "I'm really scared" and kept repeating the words "I'm sorry".

"Uncle, Aunt Rong, I know that I have made a big mistake, I really know it. But if he will be happier when he sees me, it doesn't matter if we don't date, as long as I can accompany him. Other people's comments

I don't care at all about people and opinions, and I'm not even afraid of being abandoned. This kind of trust must seem blind to you, but the only thing I'm afraid of is that Song Yu will not live well, be unhealthy, and be unhappy."

His lips and fingers were trembling when he heard the news. He lowered his head, a little annoyed that he couldn't control his emotions and acted so vulnerable.

"Really, there are so many good cities in the world, but I have nowhere to go."
Chapter completed!