The apology about the updates these days. As I wrote, I became more and more tired.

I used to be enthusiastic about updating, but gradually I found that this enthusiasm was getting smaller and smaller.

I also know the benefits of renewal, but I feel weak all over.

I'm extremely tired these days and don't want to move at all. So I calmed down, examined myself, and found the reasons.

Although I am still writing, my heart has lost its direction and lost its original touch.

I wonder if you have this feeling?

When you repeat something, your work, your studies, etc., just as you go, you find it strange.

Why do I do something like this? Why do I keep doing something like this?

You feel unhappy, very tired, and getting tired. But why do you continue to do this?

If you calm down and think, on the surface, what drives you is a "sense of responsibility" or "interests and hobbies", but when you look deeper, you will find that this may be a kind of fear.

If you don’t study hard, your classmates will surpass you.

If I don’t update, what will my readers think of you? If I don’t succeed, how will relatives and friends think of you?

I'm scared of this.

Fear is like a whip, following closely behind, whipping me and making me move forward. Every whip reduces my interest by one point.

I used to love writing so much, and I wrote for writing. But in the past few days, I was so disgusted and never thought about starting writing.

On the road to writers, I kept walking, I knew my direction was right and I was moving forward. But my heart was lost without realizing it.

In the circle of writers, many people write for money. Most people pay attention to their grades and are excited about good recommendations on a website. They are happy and upset about more and more readers pay attention to them. They are upset about losing money and become bad for bad reviews.

It’s human nature. In fact, this is exactly my past journey.

But now, I figured it out.

This is not my philosophy.

I started writing books because of my hobbies. There is a fan of my works. When I wrote that book, I was very enthusiastic, and the highest record was 11 updates a day.

At that time, I moved myself.

I am crazy and crazy.

This is my original intention of writing. Maybe it is different from most people.

Many times, guys, we are scared about being different from others.

What impressed me most was that when I was in elementary school, the school wore school uniforms at the flag-raising ceremony, and I forgot. I looked at the classmates around me, all wearing school uniforms, and I felt very uncomfortable at that time. It was as if I was isolated by everyone, standing alone at the other end of the world.

But now I shrugged and said - then it's different from others.

There are no two identical leaves in this world. People are different.

I regained my original intention of writing - for the sake of being moved and for the sake of being fun.

I want to write for the sake of my interest. This is doing something I like very much, and I will get so much fun from it. And this kind of fun will make me full of joy in typing, and the speed of time passes is unimaginable.

Instead of being whipped by fear like a slave, your head is always filled with: you must do this, otherwise the consequences will be serious. You must update this way, how much do you have to update every day, how far are you still from achieving your daily writing tasks...

So, everyone... I will continue to write.

I said that Gu Zhenren is never a priest. But Gu Zhenren also needs to grow.

Anyone is growing.

Growth comes at a price.

The updates these days are a huge price. I understand.

But I feel very rewarding - I feel relaxed now, as if I have regained myself.

I will continue to move forward, and Chu Yun will become stronger and stronger.

As for the update issue...

sorry!

To be honest, I can't guarantee it. I don't know how many updates will be in the next day.

I don't know how bad or how good I am in now?

It is possible to update every three days. It is possible to update every three days. It is also possible to update every three days. What? It is 11 days? It is impossible at present... Maybe in the future, who knows.

Students, you have to let me breathe. Your urge to update has put too much pressure on me.

It should be clear that before I work hard and get excited, I have to find the joy of writing.

I will give myself time, and you will also give me some time.

Let me be calm.

I have to find my own rhythm. Only by walking like this will I be quicker.

Ahem, I'm finished speaking.

The above is my mental journey. I was originally a personal **, so there is no need to explain it clearly. However, it has not been updated these days, which has brought a lot of disappointment to all readers and friends. I apologize for this. The above is an explanation for you.

In the days before, you brought me a lot of joy, support and encouragement.

Thank you for not giving up and not giving up.

I love you all!

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