Chapter 257 The chirping of cicadas in winter (5)

Author: Dragon Fruit Tycoon

Chapter 257 The chirping of cicadas in winter (5)

"The moment I woke up, I knew that it was not my dream. He spent the whole night cleaning my body with warm water and putting bandages on my wounds. He took good care of me very carefully.

, let me survive.”

"But, I don't have any expectations for my own survival. Even if I survive these few days, what's the use? I've already smeared my wounds with the blood of living corpses. There's absolutely no way I can survive.

, within 14 days, the virus in my body will break out and I will become a walking zombie."

"So it's better to die at that moment. I'm very good at lying. For new people I know, I can easily tell what kind of character they are, and then show how they like or hate them according to their character."

"If I think they have the value to keep me in a relationship, I will try my best to show the personality they like. Otherwise, I will make the other person hate me as soon as possible."

"After I regained consciousness, I tried hard to make him hate me. I tried to use words to stimulate him, let him drop me, or let him abuse me. I behaved very annoyingly. According to my expectations, Baidu

More than ninety percent of men will stay away from such a character."

Tang Xue finished her last bite of ice cream and wiped her butter-stained lips with a tissue.

"But why do you do this? Didn't he save your life? Didn't you say you regarded him as a great hero?"

"Because I can't think of any way to repay him for what he has done to me." Tang Xue rested her elbows on the table, supported her face, and looked out the window: "There were so many living corpses surrounding the iron cage at that time. I never

I have never seen such a large number of living corpses gathered together, I feel like endless living corpses are gathering together to eat me."

"Thinking about it with ordinary people's thinking, that amount is impossible to break through no matter how you think about it. However, he told me to let me wait and he would rescue me soon. He really did it. He didn't

Using clever tricks, he used brute force to chop off the heads of all the living corpses surrounding the iron cage."

"He took a huge risk, possibly a risk of death, to fight an endless stream of living corpses in my eyes, and he gave me food and water, very precious food and water."

"After he rescued me, he didn't simply let me go and rest. He stayed up all night. He cleaned my wounds with warm water and put a bandage on me. That night, he continued to wipe me with warm water.

My body is trying to help me maintain my body temperature in the cold environment."

"Even if they are biological parents, can they say that they can do this?"

"He is just a stranger. I can't figure out what value I have for a stranger to take such a big risk and spend so much energy."

"Facing his efforts, I just feel a deep sense of powerlessness."

"If I were still about 8 years old, I would probably believe in fairy tales. I believe that when I am in danger, there will be Prince Charming who will kill the monster with a sword. I believe that he will take me to a magnificent palace.

I believe that the prince is a kind person and will come forward when someone asks for help."

"But I am already 18 years old. I have lived in hell for 6 years. My heart is on the verge of death. After returning to reality, I don't think I can repay the price of 'living' at all."

Tang Xue watched the crowds coming and going, and the men and women holding hands were reflected in her pupils.

"From my current point of view, it is true that my psychology at that time was close to distortion. Ideal and reality were colliding violently in front of my eyes. This is a bit ridiculous, although I always say that I don't believe in fairy tales.

, in fact, I am just looking for an excuse. I very much hope that the ideal fairy tale will happen to me, but I deeply believe that this is impossible."

"I thought about it many times later, why I didn't dare to stab my own throat with a knife when I was so desperate."

"After thinking about it for a long time, I finally figured it out. I am expecting a miracle to happen. I am not willing to die like that. The protagonist of the animation I watched in kindergarten once said that as long as you truly believe, the magic of miracles will happen. In kindergarten, I said this

I have no doubt that when I was three years old, I would hold a light-up magic wand and recite those spells that sounded funny to adults, and follow the animated characters to learn magic movements."

"But my mother told me that magic was fake. One day, my mother and father divorced and she left home. At that time, I still believed in magic and miracles. I worked very hard to cast spells in my room and hugged her.

I held my magic wand and made a wish to it to let my mother go home. It was the magic wand my mother bought for me, but the magic failed. My father married another strange woman. I gradually grew up to the age where I no longer watch cartoons.

I stopped doing those childish things, I put my magic wand away and put it in the back of my closet."

"But the little girl who believed in magic did not die. She was just hidden by me, deep in my heart. Even I can't find her where she is."

"Is it magic?" the woman sighed: "I have also been at that age. The world of children is always full of beauty."

"When the disaster broke out, I was just a 12-year-old child." Tang Xue said.

"Then what? You haven't said why you tried every means to make him hate you."

"Because, at that moment, I once again realized the existence of the girl who believed in magic and miracles in my heart. She actually ran out and tried to convince me. She said, you see, the world is not what you think it is, but

I don’t believe what she said. What she said has never come true. I prayed when I was fleeing, I prayed when I lived with my sister in the gathering place, and I prayed when I saw my sister’s body, but nothing happened.

, there is no hope, only despair surrounds me."

"I want to deny her. This time I want to prove that I am right. I want to tell her that you are just a childish kid in kindergarten."

"I want to tell her that the world is not what she said it is at all. She is totally wrong. She has no idea what reality is. The world is not as beautiful as she imagined. The world is cruel and ruthless. Human beings are

This kind of creature is extremely ugly, a creature driven by desire, and there is no so-called shining point at all."

"I will be saved just because the person who saved me is expecting something. He needs my gratitude and needs to gain a psychological high point. Furthermore, he may be a bachelor and he needs a woman to let him vent his desires. He

You don’t simply want to save me, you just want to use this move to exchange something with me.”

"Perhaps with a little resentment, because my private parts were also bandaged, and some nasty things may have been done to me when I was unconscious."

"You are an idealist."

"Yes, I am a complete idealist, and my mysophobia is very serious. Therefore, the first moment I woke up, I did not express my gratitude to him or complain to him. Although I wanted to rely on him, but

He showed strong resistance, and I had a secret joy in thinking that I actually expected him to throw me in the snow and expect him to do violence to me."

"That way I can prove that I'm right, and I can say to the little girl in my heart, look, this is what he really looks like. Once he doesn't get what he wants, he will show his true colors.

Once I don't meet his inner expectations, he will abandon me. He is not simply doing good things at all."

"At the same time, I can get inner comfort, and I can die with peace of mind, because I no longer need to repay what he has done to me. If he abandons me, I can die with the illusion of him. If he treats me

If he is violent, I will tell him that I am actually infected, so that he saved my life and I saved his, which can offset his kindness to me, or so I think."

"However, if you look at the essence through the surface of the phenomenon, maybe you don't think so." The woman knocked on the table: "From a psychological point of view, this may be excessive defense. Have you ever thought about it?

This is actually a kind of subconscious test. You are testing him to see if he meets your imagination of perfection."

"Maybe," Tang Xue said softly: "Ninety-nine percent of the men on this planet would leave me behind when faced with that kind of situation. To be honest, I have thought about it in my shoes, and I probably can't bear it either.

Myself, but he is very special, he really never thought about asking for anything from me, he just heard a person asking for help, and then extended a helping hand to the person in difficulty, that's all.

"

"He is a very pure and good person. No matter whether the person in the iron cage is male or female, old or young, even a puppy, as long as he expresses a signal for help, he will definitely save it.

, he is such a person.”

"So, because you acted annoying and he didn't abandon you, have you finally let go of him?"

"No, I faced another problem at that time. I discovered his inhuman identity. From various details, I deduced that he was not a human being. He probably had no experience in deceiving others.

In my eyes, all his disguises are full of holes."

"The situation has become complicated again. It has changed from the story of the prince and princess to beauty and the beast."

"It's hard for me to describe my inner state clearly. At least when he took me to the first stronghold, I still didn't trust him. It was a temporary stronghold with very poor conditions and limited food and water storage.

To be honest, seeing the scene there, I once again felt huge pressure. I only have ten days left in my life, just like a short-lived cicada. Within ten days, I may not even be able to walk on the ground.

I couldn't do it, and I had to continue to consume the little food and water he had. The feeling of guilt and guilt kept growing in my heart. I began to regret and regret why I didn't die in that iron cage. It might have been much easier that way.

.”

"In short, my pressure keeps increasing, and I finally reached the limit on the way to the villa -"

"What he said may be true. He may really have a big house with food and water in it. But even if all this is true, I can't accept it calmly. I only have a dozen years left in my life."

Damn it, what should I do? Do you want to enjoy these ten days?"

"Am I going to pretend that I don't see his inhuman identity, pretend to be a stupid woman, put on a mask that he will like, and let myself live the last ten days with peace of mind? I want to enjoy what he has given me.

I can't repay you with anything, and then die? Do I want to admit defeat? To the person who believes in miracles and magic? "

"Don't be ridiculous! I don't want it. I strangled the little girl who was talking in my heart. I strangled her neck and crawled into the snow. I looked at him rushing over and laughed heartily. I felt

I won. Miracles, fairy tales and magic are all lies! I don’t believe it! He will definitely leave me behind! Maybe he will take the opportunity to eat my flesh and drink my blood! He will definitely call me a madman.

, scolding him for rescuing a madman."

"It sounds like you're crazy."

"It's not that I'm crazy, it's that I don't want to admit my inner feelings."

"Then, what happened again."

"I lost, completely lost to him. Only he could redeem me at that time. I fell in love with him and understood what a wonderful feeling love is. My inner defenses were completely defeated.

It doesn't matter even if he lies, it doesn't matter even if I die in ten days, it doesn't matter even if he is not a human being, I saw his shining heart and I just want to stay by his side. Apart from that, nothing else matters.

important."

"But, is it really okay? Are you sure this is love? It sounds more like a feeling of admiration. He hopes you can come back to live here. You can still meet in the future. He said you are welcome at any time.

You go find him."

"I refuse. I am very sure that this is love, a girl's love."

"Is there any evidence?"
To be continued...