In the hazy room, steady sunlight shines in from the small window.

“···”

You Ye got off Su Yao in silence and sat blankly aside, like a porcelain doll that had lost its color.

"ha···"

Su Yao looked at her with hateful eyes, "You don't know. You will never understand this feeling."

"No one cares, everything is buried deep in their hearts."

"Even if I tell someone, it will end badly in an instant. In the end, I will have to bear it myself."

"How many times do you think I have to go through this before I make this decision?"

"Do you know how I felt when I sent Xia Xianyue away?"

"Yes, it is true that you are independent and smart. You are many times more advanced than a stupid human like me, right? As a living being."

"That's why it's like this. You are selfish and have no care to tie me here. Let me ask you, what is the meaning of this?"

“···”

You Ye remained silent and did not answer.

"You can't tell, right?"

"Okay, let me tell you for you."

"Because you are arrogant. You think you can solve it as easily as usual this time. You think there is nothing you can't do in this world."

"You are completely unable to understand what I have gone through, and you are completely unable to understand the decisions I have made. You look down on me."

"That's normal, because you are stronger than me. You can easily do things that I can't do. It's even thanks to you that she and I can live safely until now."

"But think about it on the other hand, what would happen without you?"

"Not having you means that I won't encounter troubles that ordinary people won't encounter, and I won't have to wander around Crescent Island at all."

"Xia Xianyue will be killed, and I can avoid it myself."

"How awesome it is to be able to turn back time. How satisfying it would be to be able to load files and play life as a game?"

"But I already knew it the first time I almost couldn't change something bad."

"Weakness and ignorance are never obstacles to survival, arrogance is."

"So after that I was cautious. I never felt like I was special."

"But even so, bad things still happen."

"It's okay to say that everything has changed and everything is back on track."

"But can you really feel how I felt when I shot and killed the mother and son in court?"

"Do you know what choices I made later?"

"Of course you wouldn't know. How could I go out of my way to say such a thing."

"call--"

Su Yao took a deep breath and said, "At that time, I thought I had the opportunity to refuse the love game and give up the opportunity to start a new life."

"I was probably crazy by then."

"But I couldn't die. I was forced to go back."

"I'm slowly getting back on track again. I see things are getting better, but you have problems again."

"If there is a problem, it doesn't matter. After all, I still have the motivation to solve it."

"Since I was willing to meet Xia Xianyue, I never thought of giving up on you. But what did you do?"

"Even though I didn't know if you knew me at that time, I still came here without fear of death."

"Seeing that things seem to be turning around, you have your own opinions. I wasted critical time without any preparation. When I go back, it will be too late for many things."

"But even so, I still haven't given up."

"I think the worst case scenario is that I'll persuade you to live in a strange place with me. I'll always find a way."

"You know? I don't want to die, and I don't want to leave my life to that kind of inexplicable and strange game."

"And how did you do it?"

"It's so simple."

"Who doesn't want to be a good person? If you die in front of me, people will mistakenly think that I surrender to you, and let you explode and bloom some kind of healing flower."

"There was no room for me to speak."

"What a disgusting decision. What if I really want to stay there and be a hero as you said? Should I say that a person like me is so heartless and unjust that I am not even willing to die for you?"

"But you are obviously sure that people like me will definitely come back. Taking advantage of this, you cover up everything you have done before and pretend that nothing happened."

"Yes, I can indeed come back."

"I also paid a price for it. How funny is it? I paid a heavy price to come back and ended up being tied up here."

"You can do whatever you want. Just keep tying me up like this. It'll be fast anyway. Anyway, Xia Xianyue won't come back no matter how I recycle it."

"The only thing that can wait now is for me to be driven crazy by you after so many cycles."

“···”

Youye's little hands rested on her thighs, her head lowered.

At this moment, it seemed that even the originally shiny and soft hair had dimmed a bit.

Gradually.

Su Yao noticed that her slender shoulders were slightly hunched, and crystal clear tears fell on the back of her small, white hands, and then slid down her thighs, spreading to the sheets and leaving a light water color.

"Aren't you going to say something?"

Su Yao looked away and looked out the window. However, the curtains were closed tightly and all he could see was the curtains swaying.

“···”

"Woo."

A very small whimper.

Seeing her, she finally raised her hand and kept wiping her eyes.

"...You Ye has never thought like that."

"Woo..."

"sorry···"

"Youye just... doesn't want to be separated from my eldest brother."

"Don't disappear."

"Woooo..."

Seeing that she was finally willing to raise her face to face him.

It's just that the expression that was indifferent just now is now completely wet with tears. He wipes the tears with his hands helplessly, completely like a child.

I've seen her like this occasionally.

Ahhh.

Su Yao has not yet suffered from Alzheimer's disease and can recall a previous separation. You Ye had the same expression when she left to go around the world alone to solve her problems.

Neither.

What I have now is...a more sad look.

It's powerless.

Because I know there is nothing I can do, I show this ugly look in front of myself.

It would be somewhat unbearable to see it.

"Crying can't change the facts."

"The price for my coming back is this. Looping in an illusory world where no one is here."

"Anyway, you are very smart. If you lie, you will know it right away."

"Then there's no need for me to lie to you."

"The only possibility I can think of is that the love game still needs to use me to have fun. It won't just watch me die in such an inexplicable place."

"If I send you all away, maybe I will have a chance to go back."

"But if you keep doing this, I will just cycle in endless time. After a certain number of times, it is not a lie to say that I hate you."

"Let me ask...who can endure the repetition of the world millions of times and being deprived of the days to come..."

"I am not at all like the person in the myth of Sisyphus who moves rocks day after day and loves life even though he knows it is so boring."
To be continued...