Li Yan habitually took out his cigarette. Of course he could understand this story. Not only could he understand it, but such a direct reminder also brought back some memories for him.

Everyone will have their youthful and prosperous years, and those will often become a very precious part of the memories in the future. Li Yan chose to forget them. Now that Qiao Huanxuan mentioned them one by one, his heartstrings were also plucked. He couldn't help but

There is sadness.

After he lit up the cigarette, he took a drag and saw Qiao Huanxuan looking at him. He felt that something should be done. Even if he was really listening to a story, he should applaud and shout "Hello" after hearing it.

"Well, that girl is you, and the squad leader inside, you mean me?"

"What about you?" Qiao Huanxuan asked. Am I sitting here wasting my time telling someone else's story? It feels like a child's play. "I don't remember this thing clearly, and I'm not good at telling stories, so

I can't tell the story from another person's perspective like you. But I can clarify a few key points.

"Continue. First, there is the issue of secret love. I don't think there should be one, but you were very good at that time and I was also very good." Li Yan was sweating. Why does this feel like self-promotion? "Anyway, we should be sympathetic to each other. At that time, we should be sympathetic to each other.

Everyone has a crush on you at this age. Opposites definitely do attract each other, but at most it is a fragile emotion in adolescence. It cannot be called a secret love. Otherwise, I would be very excited to see you again.

Although they were discussing things from that year, it was still true. Li Yan still paid attention to her reaction and saw that she was fine. Then he continued: Secondly, it is about other people making trouble for you. I should not

I know, and I didn’t ask them to help drive away other boys who came close to you. But after all, it was because of me that it had a bad influence on you at that time. I’m sorry. The third thing is about the gift. I should have regarded you as

A good friend, I don’t mean anything else, so the gift is just an ordinary music box. But if you don’t want it anymore, I can’t give it to others, right? I just threw it away.”

Qiao Huanxuan was silent for a while, and then asked: "How do you know my birthday?"

Li Yan, who had just taken a moment to take a puff of cigarette, was stunned after hearing this. It has been so many years. How did he know? "Uh" Can the monitor see everyone's information from the teacher? To be honest, I really don't remember.

Yes, maybe I saw your file information from the teacher or something. Maybe other girls told me "That's wrong. I remembered it!". Huh?" Qiao Huanxuan also asked the question casually, carefully.

When I think about it, it wasn't really a secret at that time. There were many channels to know. "What do you think of?"

"When I graduated from junior high school, everyone seemed to write a classmate list. Make a notebook of some kind and write personal information. Write a few messages and blessings. You should have seen it from there. Then I went to high school. I also

I am no longer the monitor, so I don’t have so many opportunities to communicate with you. Maybe other classmates suggested it, so I bought it. I think it should be like this." Li Yan is really sweating about his past events, and he has to analyze them to recall them.

Qiao Huanxuan smiled lightly: "So that's it." It seems that everyone has been thinking that the so-called squad leader's secret love for many years turned out to be everyone's collective misunderstanding. Some things at that time were also everyone's kind help.

It just happened for a while," Li Yan thought to himself, but he had doubts. If it was just a rumor that I had a crush on her, after so many years, what would she have to worry about? Why is her reaction now "Is it her?

Thinking of a possibility, he didn't dare to go down any further.

This year seems to be a lucky break!

However, peach blossom luck is good, but too much peach blossom luck can lead to peach blossom disaster.

Unfortunately, he pretended not to think about it and continued to smoke. He was going to finish the cigarette and leave with an excuse. But Qiao Huanxuan still spoke: "There is a sequel to the story just now, do you want to hear it?"

Her words were floating, as if she had no strength. Maybe she would follow what she just said. Then after today, she might never speak again!

Although Li Yan knew that it might not be good if he continued to listen, it was not good if he chose not to listen at this time.

"Well, let's hear that he has softened his heart. Not because of the friendship between classmates or the friendship when he was a teenager, but because more than ten years have passed, people still remember me, so he should listen to what she has to say.

"He left at that time. Many of the classmates who were in the same class in junior high school knew about the birthday gift. So, at that time, there was also a rumor that the monitor was sad because he was rejected by the girl.

In the end, I couldn't bear the blow of broken love. Looking at girls every day was a kind of torture, so I ran away from home and left my hometown."

Li Yan was dizzy. Isn't this too ridiculous? He was busy refuting the rumors, which was more than ten years late: "That's absolutely not the case. They have wronged you."

Qiao Huanxuan glanced at him and continued to tell the story. Although she was the heroine, she could not tell it in the first person, so she still used the third person: "Because of this rumor, the monitor has left, and the classmate

They no longer made noises or disturbed her, some of them who had no good impression of her directly alienated her. In fact, the girl herself believed this rumor, thinking that the monitor was extremely academic and left her because of her.

She ran away from home. This made her blame herself very much. If she had not returned the gift with a blow, but had communicated more rationally, perhaps there would not have been such a result.

Since then, she has alienated her classmates. She didn't care about the boys in other classes who wanted to get close to her, but she didn't know it. She devoted herself to studying, and there was only one wish in her heart.

She can come back as soon as possible. She will give him tutoring to keep him up with his study progress. She will also have a good talk with him and make an appointment to discuss relationship matters after the college entrance examination.

Unfortunately, the class monitor didn't come back until their college entrance examination was over. She also asked around and found out that some classmates had been to the class monitor's home, but she only knew that he had occasional contact with his family. But she didn't tell the family where they were.

After the results came out, she got her wish and was admitted to the ideal university. But she was not as happy as she expected. Because the class monitor had the ability to be admitted to a major university. If he could shift his focus to studying in high school, maybe

They could go to the same university together. Unfortunately, there is no if! Because it is a famous university. She received awards from the school and gifts from relatives and friends, but when she went to university, she only carried the one she had returned and was thrown out of the building.

, the music box that broke but she asked someone to repair it

Hearing this, Li Yan secretly smiled bitterly. He didn't know whether he was happy or sad. Being so cherished by a former female classmate would make men feel happy and proud, but it seems that it has harmed her, and now

He didn't want to, and couldn't make up for anything, so he struggled... When she was in college, she studied architecture, and the ratio of men to women was exaggerated. At school, she was also pursued by many people. But in her heart, she always had that music box.

"I always remember the scene where he threw the music box out." Until graduation, she never had a boyfriend on the pretext of focusing on her studies. At that time, she tried different online methods and verified countless online

The person who filled in the information was the squad leader’s name, but no miracle occurred and she was not allowed to find the person on the Internet who was based out of town but did not know the specific place.”

Hearing that she had never had a boyfriend in her fourth year of college because of him, Li Yan was surprised and even more nervous. He was worried that she had never had a boyfriend until now, and the culprit was because of him, so it was unreasonable.

Duan Duan owed a debt of love. But the following words shocked him!

A female college student, when she was not studying, was searching for a person named Li Yan through different methods on the Internet. As long as there was a name named Li Yan in the information, she would check and verify it. It was so boring and there was little hope.

, there was even a risk of being cheated! But she did it, at least four of them!

If He Zhexia's sincere attitude of not discriminating or showing off just now moved him, then when Qiao Huanxuan's words came out, was there any reason not to feel shocked and moved?

Other students may only think of Li Yan when they talk about Li Yan at gatherings or in contact with each other. That was just a casual gathering after dinner. Qiao Huanxuan did not, and she certainly did not think of him.

Tell others about this and just search for it silently in your own way.

Qiao Huanxuan smiled bitterly: "The miracle did not happen. There is no news about him from other classmates, including those who are developing in his hometown. It is his family. Even the money received from him was a bank transfer, and he has no idea where he is.

Place. Time passed year by year. The girl was disappointed and thought about giving up, so she chose to study abroad. But,

There are some things that have become obsessions and are not so easy to let go and give up. He was not in the city where she was studying, but he could be in any city, including possibly near where she was studying. Therefore, the girl fled.

It didn't work. When she went abroad, she would still think that maybe he had gone away to work, so it was difficult to contact his family."

Of course, she has grown up and matured, and will not do what she is looking for abroad. However, she has become accustomed to waiting for news from the squad leader, and she doesn’t know why she is waiting. Because this is just one person who may have had a crush on her back then.

Her boy. After many years, he may have already fallen in love with someone else. He may already have a girlfriend, or even get married.

She didn't know what kind of feelings she had for the boy.

Perhaps, she just wanted an answer and wanted to ask him why after seeing him. Perhaps, she had entered a psychological shadow and a dead end.

The story has reached this year. Because of more efforts and hard work than ordinary people, the girl has achieved certain results in her career. No one knows that she really has a music box in her heart. The secret of a boy. Over the years, the secret of a college classmate

She has never been to a party. She has never been to a reunion of high school classmates. She only has the opportunity to attend ordinary junior high school classmates. As long as she is contacted and notified, she will definitely rush there. Because, she just wants to

See if you can hear any news from the monitor from everyone's mouths.

Of course, I have never had one. But I have more contact with old classmates who were estranged in the past and are now mature and grown up.

Haha, the wheel of history came to the afternoon of a certain day in a certain year, a certain month, when she came out of the airport. She vaguely saw a familiar figure. But she didn't pay much attention to it, because it had been twelve years since she was fifteen years old.

She had no idea how many times she had had similar feelings. Twelve years could turn a young man into an uncle. After countless misunderstandings, she had calmed down.

However, this time, several classmates came to pick her up, but the figure she didn't pay attention to was noticed by others. When everyone added it together, they felt more and more likely that it was possible, so they tried to call out. They actually called out.

She was stunned. When it was finally confirmed that it was him, she was very excited. She even wanted to put on the sunglasses she had taken off to hide her emotions. However, she didn’t know whether it was because he had forgotten everyone or because there were two beautiful girls beside him.

For this reason, he has always refused to admit it.

In the end, he seemed to be forced to admit it, and was forced to protest and go to the party. Then he was forced to send his family back to the hotel, and was forced to make everyone stunned. Until now, he is forced to listen to the story with open ears."

After a series of parallel sentences, Qiao Huanxuan stood up suddenly, laughed and said: "I'm done telling my story, haha, applause!" Then she got up and went to the bathroom.

Li Yan had finished smoking his cigarette at some point. He was staring blankly at the closed bathroom. Qiao Huanxuan finally made her story as short and long as possible, and finally explained her story.

Why did she have to let Li Yan see her off, why did she let him come to the guest room, and why did she want to listen to her story? She just revealed the psychological problems that she had been suppressing for twelve years, and revealed them to the person she had been looking for.

, her tone was calm, but her mood was hard to control. She immediately got up and went to the bathroom. Laughing, applauding, etc., were just to cover up the tears that had burst out of her eyes.

She must be in the bathroom with tears streaming down her face right now, right?

She went to the bathroom to cover up and stabilize her emotions. Why not give Li Yan time to digest? She had just done it, and she was at least waiting for him to answer why.

But, is an explanation of why really enough?

Not to mention that Li Yan couldn't tell her why, otherwise he was just lying. Just from her story just now, he had already understood a little bit. Maybe Qiao Huanxuan knew it herself, or maybe she didn't realize it. She was used to loving her.

Li Yan!

That's right. Habit. In junior high school and high school, she might have been just a girl's crush, or a friendship-oriented crush, but because of his departure and because of the music box thing, she felt guilty and thought it was her fault.

This emotion caused Li Yan's tragedy. This emotion has always been hidden in her heart. This was also related to the environment at the time. Those classmates who went to junior high school together felt that she hurt Li Yan and made him run away from home.

Therefore, it was not Li Yan, but the classmates around her who reminded her of this matter every day.

Once she stopped associating with boys and studied hard, she got used to it. After more than two years in high school, she had become accustomed to missing and waiting for someone. In college, if she really dug him out, maybe he would

It's okay. But how could she find Li Yan like a headless fly at that time? This further deepened her habit. And the attitude of keeping boys away may be because she already has a boyfriend from her middle school classmate.

Deep influence, inner habits, lies to people, crazy search." All added up, it gave her an illusion. There was a true love in front of me, but I didn't cherish it. After losing it,

She regretted it unknowingly, as soon as she thought that as long as she found that person, she would be free and everything would be perfect.

To put it simply, it was because of many years and various reasons that she had already made up a "Li Yan" in her heart, liked and waited for that Li Yan.

That Li Yan is not the current Li Yan, because she only met the grown-up Li Yan today. It was a combination of Li Yan in middle school and the Li Yan she fantasized about and expected. Perhaps this fictional Li Yan, During my college days, study abroad days, and now, my image is constantly being revised and changed.

Therefore, this is not a problem that Li Yan can solve with just an explanation. This has already affected her life, and now that she has actually seen it, it may not be able to solve her problem well. If it is not solved well, it will definitely affect her. the second half of his life.

How to deal with it?

I don't know, Li Yan is thinking.

No matter what, twelve years of persistence, twelve years of searching and expectation, this is a heavy emotion.

He couldn't help but feel nothing when talking about these things. But he didn't have a good idea.

I have told her that I did not have a crush on her back then. The gift can be regarded as an explanation. But weaving a reason or simply not. This can help her deal with it. But what she wants is not an answer, and she doesn’t even know it."

Maybe, she shouldn't have bumped into her today. If she hadn't bumped into her, no matter whether it was twelve years or twenty years, whether she was in love or resentful, she would have a hope after all. Maybe she was forced by her family. She would also find a boyfriend or someone to marry. Then they would slowly become indifferent, and finally they would be sighing and sighing when they meet again. But the meeting now makes the dream shine into reality and bursts the bubble of fantasy. The result of facing it head-on is that you are at a loss!

No matter how she solves it, she will become confused, directionless, and even doubt the authenticity of life and the meaning of life in the next period of time.

There was once a movie about a policeman who spent his whole life catching a big thief, and the two sides fought hard. When he was finally caught, the thief and the policeman, how could you maintain such good energy and vitality for so many years? In fact, it was Because of my motivation. It is your lifelong wish to arrest me. Now that you have arrested me, you have no goal in life. What should you do? The policeman is confused and thinks of retirement, being in a daze, doing nothing, and being a walking dead."
Chapter completed!