Nian An couldn't help but hug Lu Qingwan.

Now he can't ask anything.

Even, he regretted asking his mother questions that even his mother could not answer.

Nian An comforted her and said, "Mom, don't be afraid...I will protect you. Let's take your time, we go to see a doctor, maybe the doctor will have a solution."

Lu Qingwan touched Nian's head with her hand, "Nian'an, I'm sorry... I didn't want you to worry, but I didn't expect that you still know. I also know that this is not good, it is not good for you, it is not good for me, and it is even worse for the children in my stomach. But I have tried it many times, and I want to endure it every time, but I still vomit all the food I eat. I also know that this is a disease, it is my heart disease, and I just know that there is no cure. Nian'an, don't worry too much, I will still eat hard. Maybe after eating too much, my body will absorb some nutrients. Besides, the doctor checks my body every few days, and the child is very healthy. I'm taking the nutrients you bought for me."

Nian An shook his head, "Mom, that's not like this... What I worry about the most is you, you are the most important. Mom, I'm afraid you won't be able to stand it in the end."

"I can, I just... need time. Nian'an, I think things should improve in a while."

Nian An didn't believe it. Five months have passed. My mother is still like a loss of soul, just living a walking corpse, pretending that everything is very peaceful, but in fact, my mother has already drawn a prison.

"Mom, I want to say that medical care is actually very advanced now. If you are really tired and hard, all the reasons are because you are troubled by those memories. It is better to... eliminate those memories. Mom, let's give up those memories, maybe you will live happier. The past has passed." Nian An has been thinking about this method for a long time, but he has not said it before, because he is worried that his mother will not accept it.

He watched his mother spend every day in pain. Even though he knew that she would cry every night, he could only stand quietly at the door and couldn't go in and disturb him. Even if he knew that the scarves his mother knitted were actually for his father, he could only pretend that he didn't know anything. Then he watched his mother teased the white scarves bit by bit and knit them repeatedly...

These powerlessness had already made him feel extremely heartbroken, and he could no longer bear it.

Lu Qingwan was stunned at first, then smiled, shook her head and said, "No need, I don't want to forget."

"Why?"

Lu Qingwan looked at Nian'an's eyes and said seriously: "Nian'an, those memories are precious, whether they are painful, sad, or sweet, and I don't want to give up. Eliminating memories does not mean that nothing has happened. I am sorry for him anymore, and I don't want to forget even his shadow. If this is punishment, I am willing to accept it. Nian'an, I don't want to erase everything because of my happiness, which is unfair to me in the past. Nian'an, everything will be fine."

Sure enough, my mother refused.

"Mom, you are not wrong, you should not be punished." Nian An hugged Lu Qingwan and said firmly, "Mom, no one can blame you. Your happiness is the most important thing. I want you to be happy and I want you to have happiness."

Lu Qingwan held back her tears, "I will, give me some more time. I promise you first, and I will find a psychologist to provide treatment and guidance, which may be useful."

Nian An invited a psychiatrist and had a talk with Lu Qingwan.

But afterwards, the psychologist said to Nian An: "Human emotions are very subtle and complex. I can only guide her to think in a good direction and get rid of the painful swamp. It's just that in my opinion, she knows everything, but she is unwilling to come out. Because I have tried to hypnotize her and let her think about those beautiful memories, but it failed because she is very sober. Also, the vomiting situation she is currently in is probably because of her disgust for herself, so this happens. I suggest that she regularly consult and talk to her, and this takes time, and you also need to be with her, care for her more, and give her warmth."

"I understand." After Nian An sent away the psychologist, he calmed down all his complex emotions, first went to the kitchen to prepare fruit plates for his mother, and then sent them to her side, asking her to eat more fruits, which can at least supplement more nutrition.

When Nian An entered Lu Qingwan's bedroom, Nian Chen and Lu Qingwan were chatting.

Nian Chen read a joke book for Lu Qingwan, making her happy, and Lu Qingwan also cooperated and laughed.

Nian An did not let Nian Chen know about her mother's condition, nor did she want to make the fat man happy all day long, and the work of being responsible for making her mother happy cannot be interrupted.

Nian'an watched his mother eat fruit little by little. Every time his mother eats more fruits, his heart becomes more nervous.

These fruits have a irritating and light taste. I hope my mother will not vomit anymore.

He also made some puree of fruit, which tried to lighten the sweetness and retained the nutrition of the fruit.

My mother also ate the puree of fruit.

However, even so, my mother went to the bathroom.

Nian'an felt so distressed that she couldn't describe it.

What exactly should he do to get his mother out of this painful "prisonment"

My mother is punishing herself, and she sentenced herself to life imprisonment.

late at night.

Nian An was still worried about her mother, and she would still go to her mother's door as usual.

He was worried that his mother would still wake up from the nightmare and would cry secretly alone.

Nian An listened to the quietness in the room, stood for a long time before leaving.

At the same time, Lu Qingwan's eyes were opened.

She didn't sleep, and she couldn't sleep.

Slowly, her tears slid from the corners of her eyes.

If possible, she really hopes that time will be faster.

It's best, in a blink of an eye, it's one year, two years, ten years...

She wants to grow old as soon as possible, wait for the child to grow up, and die soon.

Her hands tightly pinched the flesh on her legs, but she still couldn't stop her tears, and she couldn't stop thinking about Di Luochen anymore.

Whenever she thinks of Di Luochen, her heart will hurt, and then she will pinch her own flesh and force herself not to think about it.

She betrayed Di Luochen, so what qualifications does she have to think of him?

...

At this moment, James raised his eyebrows and looked at Zuo Yuyu who had been tortured to the point of being distorted.

During this period, Zuo Yuyu has been hypnotized.

At the beginning, Zuo Yuyu was still very stubborn and could not break through his psychological defense.
Chapter completed!