I don’t know how long it took, but it was dawn. This was also the first time I had insomnia in my life. I spent this night in a half-dream and half-awake state. However, after one night, I still seemed very nervous and did not dare to read my answers, even until later.

I never did this when I was taking the college entrance examination.

I dragged my tired body out of bed, washed my face and brushed my teeth, then sat on my bed, picked up my phone, and clicked on the message that had been flashing all night.

There were two paragraphs, one long and one short. I didn’t rush to read the long one. The first thing I saw was the short message - "Let’s be friends first." My breathing became rapid again, and suddenly

It felt like the sky was falling, and my chest was very uncomfortable, but I still tried to calm down and see what she really said to me.

"Actually, I have known that you like me for a long time. I am very grateful to have your company for such a long time. I am really happy to play with you every day. I just didn't expect that you would do so much for me. I

Of course I'm very grateful, but it's just gratitude. I don't want to lose you as a friend, but we can only be friends. We both still have a long way to go. I also have my dreams and I need to work hard.

, I don’t want to delay you, so I’m sorry, I can’t accept you now. I know how good you were to me in the past, and I remember it. As for what will happen in the future, I don’t know, I just want to be quiet.

After you finish this high school life, you are a good person and you will meet someone better."

"Let's just be friends first."

Just these words, it was rejection from beginning to end, and a good person card was delivered to my hand. This was different from what I dreamed of.

My head was empty for a moment, and I felt that my whole body was empty, and I collapsed at the head of the bed. I lay on the bed, tears flowing from the corners of my eyes, to my temples, and finally soaked the pillow. I obviously didn't want to cry, but I couldn't control it.

I started asking myself over and over again, is this my answer? Does she really think so? Did I do something wrong to make her unhappy?

can you?

But she has already said it and given me the answer. She has the right to reject me. Yes, she has the right. Maybe I am not good enough. I know that at that time, I

Some people are fat, very dark, dark and ugly, how can people like them? Why don’t I have this self-awareness?

You deserve it! Wang Tan, you deserve to be rejected! She said she doesn't like you! Everything you do is in vain! You deserve to be rejected! You deserve to be single! You deserve to be single! Do you understand? You are so stupid and hopeless!

She said she has a dream to pursue, but what about you? Do you have a dream? No! How pitiful! Why don’t you take a mirror and look at yourself, do you think you are worthy? If you were her, wouldn’t you reject yourself?

? Look at you like this, let me ask you first: do you like yourself? How can you expect others to like you if you don’t like yourself? Even if she is with you, won’t she feel ashamed?

A flower stuck on your piece of cow dung? Wang Tan, let me ask you, are you worthy?!

I was alone in the empty room, and my cry-like roar echoed in the room, in that morning, and in the heart of that sixteen-year-old boy. That morning, I finished washing again

After my face, I was wearing my school uniform and carrying my schoolbag, getting ready to go to school. It was still very early, and the sun had just risen. I went out two hours earlier than usual. The outside world, new air, new sunshine, and a new day

.I don’t want to ride a bike, I want to see the streets and scenery I pass by in a hurry on weekdays. In the city where winter has just entered, there are still traces of snow on the ground in the past few days, and the weather is already cold.

After experiencing a whole night of darkness, it became even more overwhelming. I stuffed my hands into the pockets of my down jacket outside my school uniform and wore earmuffs. It was still cold. The rising sun in winter was beautiful, and there was a touch of morning halo in the eastern sky.

It looks like the blush on the cheeks of a girl dressed up for the occasion. There is no cloud in the blue sky. The noise in the city is much quieter at this time. There is only the low roar of the engines coming and going, and those who are also wearing thick clothes.

Sanitation workers in thick cotton-padded clothes are holding shovels and brooms to clean up the snow and garbage on the road. You can always hear the chirping of sparrows from the elm trees on both sides of the street, but you can't see them flying around looking for food. Leaving home

A radio station not far away plays the morning news. You can hear it basically every day. The old men and women at the entrance of the vegetable market, gasping for air, gather around the vegetable vendors just to buy the freshest food.

Put the leeks...

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Walking slowly, I seem to have forgotten that I am a student, who I am, and quietly watching other people's lives. Everything is so peaceful. No one knows that there are people in this city who stayed up all night last night, and no one knows that there are people in this city.

I always like to cry. Yes, there was a time when I was a young man who loved life and music, and was happy and sunny. Why have I become so depressed now and started to envy their lives?

I already have the answer, so no need to think about it anymore, no need to have any illusions anymore, she will eventually get tired of your friendship one day and leave silently in the end, you just don't understand.

That day, I was the first to arrive at the school. I sat alone on the stone bench at the school gate. It was extremely cold, but there was nothing I could do about it. I seemed to have no strength to stand anymore. I had headphones in my ears.

Reply, I never want to hear the song "Anhe Bridge" again, it's not that I'm unwilling, it's just that I'm afraid, yes, I'm afraid that that melody will once again remind me of those happy times with her, those things that I mistakenly thought

It’s a day of love. Although I don’t want to admit it, it’s true that I am being passionate, so I deserve to bear the pain.

But there are some people I have to see no matter what happens. She is still my deskmate, but a lot of things happened that night. She also came, carrying her schoolbag, combing her long hair, and sat down calmly.

Beside me, she silently took out her Chinese book and looked at what she was going to learn today without saying a word to me. In the past, she would always tell me excitedly about what she had encountered the day before, and she could talk about it for a long time, but

Today she didn't, and she seemed to have returned to the aloofness she had when we first met. I didn't speak, and I didn't dare to look at her. The usually noisiest corner of the classroom suddenly became quiet today, and she and I ignored each other.

For the other party, I pretended to be calm and did my thing. I was a little worried that she would find traces of my sadness and look down on me even more. For a while, the situation was very embarrassing, at least that's what I thought.

Yes, the story should come to an end, and she should say goodbye to me. As she said, none of us know what the future will bring, but at least it is clear now that she does not like me, and I will not like me anymore.
Chapter completed!