In mid-April 2020, school was supposed to start, but due to the epidemic, the school did not allow students to come back to class.

This winter vacation is the longest winter vacation I have ever spent as a student, and it is also the last winter vacation before graduation.

It should be hard to forget,

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Our family all lives in City J (the first letter of the pinyin is the same for the cities that appear below). My sister was originally at home during the Chinese New Year, but at this time she had to go to work, so she also went back to City Q.

My parents and I are the only ones left at home. My life is boring every day, with no surprises at all.

In fact, I am looking forward to the start of school so that I can see my good friends again.

I used to enjoy vacations, but this time I took too long. I stayed at home for too long and there were no friends around, so I felt particularly depressed. This feeling made me feel very depressed every day.

Apart from a few words with my parents throughout the day, I never had a chance to talk to anyone.

Sometimes I find it outrageous that being able to talk to others is actually a person's expectation.

I lock myself in my room every day and play Honor of Kings all night long. When I wake up, it’s noon or afternoon. After eating, I continue playing games until late at night.

My parents are worried about me. How can you only eat two meals a day?

So sometimes even if I play games all night, I will come out of the house to have breakfast at around 7 o'clock in the morning, pretending that I slept last night and am now up.

After they go to work, I will continue to sleep until noon.

This kind of life is very decadent,

This kind of life is also very depressing.

I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I really wasn't in the mood to go out.

So I just kept playing the game in such a decadent way, suppressing the pain at the same time.

It was from this time on that my body developed a characteristic. As long as I went to bed after three o'clock at night, I would definitely have nightmares.

It sounds a bit absurd, but it's true.

I have nightmares every day, and the things and situations I dream about are very strange.

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But there were a few days when there was suddenly an extra person in my dream, it was Lu,

So all kinds of memories from the past came to mind,

Lu is my classmate in high school. She is a very beautiful girl. If you let other beautiful girls stand next to her, you will see that she is the prettiest at a glance.

We basically never crossed paths when we were in the first year of high school. I only knew that she was very good-looking and had good academic performance. She was often in the top five in exams, sometimes first.

My female classmate at that time also quietly told me that she was really beautiful, with fair skin and good academic performance. It would be great if I could be like her.

I nodded slightly and agreed with what my deskmate said.

But Lu and I were not familiar with each other at that time, and we didn’t talk much. We were still busy in our own worlds.

It wasn't until the first semester of my sophomore year in high school, whether she sat in the back row or the front row of mine, I can't remember exactly, that we finally began to get to know each other a little bit.

In fact, when I sat in the front row with her at the beginning, I still didn't pay much attention to her. I only knew that she was sitting at the same table with a boy named Z. Gradually, I noticed that something was wrong. The two of them were talking strangely, and there was something strange about her.

Ambiguous? And when we eat, we both eat together.

I occasionally suspect that they are in love,

Then the people next to me also began to suspect that Z and Lu were in love.

But my mood has not changed at all. This is just our guess, and what does it matter to me whether they are in love or not?

But later on, I felt a little jealous, but for the most part I didn't care.

A month or two passed, and by the time we confirmed that Z and Lu were in love, they had actually broken up.

Isn't this too fast?

The two of them no longer talk or eat together, and they usually avoid each other deliberately.

At that time, I was just a witness and did not participate in the world of the road.

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In the second semester of the second year of high school, after she and Z broke up, my deskmate (male) and I could easily talk to her. In fact, it was very common for us to talk to each other at the front desk, but before everyone noticed that her relationship with Z was abnormal, so we all

It's not convenient to talk too much to her.

Our communication started with mutual insults. I insulted her, and she insulted me. At that time, the relationship between the two parties was not very good and there was some hostility.

One time I even said that she was suitable for filming a certain film about an island country. She was very angry. In the afternoon, she secretly put a transparent tape on my seat. I didn't notice it. As soon as I sat on it, it stuck to the stool. It took a little effort.

She just pulled it off, and she was still smiling proudly,

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Later, my chat with her became more gradual. Even though we no longer sat in front of each other, we still often sent each other QQ and text messages. We didn’t use WeChat at that time.

Sometimes I often invite her to dinner,

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During the summer vacation of her second year of high school, we had more contact. She no longer wanted to live in the house she rented before, so she asked me to help her find a house. I took her to my downstairs and said the one downstairs would be fine. She said the door was transparent.

What do you want to do? Then she found another place, but it was also near me, about two to three hundred meters away from me. She had to pass by my downstairs every day when she went to school.

We also went shopping during the summer vacation. I said I wanted to buy a sandbag for boxing practice, and asked her to accompany me to buy it. After buying it, I had to carry it back by myself. The sandbag was too heavy and I felt tired, so I asked her to carry it.

When she came back, she was cursing, but in the end she hugged her back.

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At the end of the summer vacation of my sophomore year in high school, one night when it was raining, I said I bought you a hamburger and I would deliver it to you. It was pretty close anyway. She said that a female classmate in the class was looking for her to play with. Thank you for my kindness.

have eaten,

I was very angry. I thought she was lying to me, so I didn’t see her again for a month.

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After the first semester of my senior year of high school started, I felt more and more sad day by day, because I hadn’t talked to Lu for a month, and I was very depressed. I found that I had fallen in love with Lu, and every second that passed, this feeling became stronger.

I couldn't help it anymore and wanted to continue playing with her,

…

But one night when I came home from school, I found a strange boy putting his arm around her shoulders and walking back together.

At that second, I felt very low and sad.

Even though she had a boyfriend, I couldn't help my feelings. I continued to chat with her at school, often hinting to her that I liked her, following her wherever she went, and often secretly leaving gifts in her drawer.

, food, useful, stalking. At that time, the word "licking gou" did not appear in our lives. At that time, we called it "deep love". I don't know when such a hurtful word suddenly appeared.

I disturb her like this every day, and she is helpless, but she is not tired of my behavior and has never been angry with me. She regards me as her best friend, not her lover.

Another girl in the class secretly told me that she once asked Lu a question, if your boyfriend and Ye fell into the water at the same time, who would you save? She said it was Ye.

We are best friends, but I am not satisfied with this. Why can you fall in love with others but not me?

I was very angry and jealous!

Later I saw her boyfriend hugging her again, and my jealousy became even stronger. I contacted my brother the next day to prepare to have sex with him, but one of my friends said that he knew her boyfriend and said that her boyfriend was a good person, so he asked me to

Don't be impulsive,

I calmed down and listened to my friend's advice, so I blessed them and didn't bother Lu anymore, because I always thought her boyfriend was a gangster and must be cheating Lu, but when others said her boyfriend was a good person,

, my heart slowly calmed down, and I was willing to accept the reality,

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Another month later, Lu broke up with her boyfriend. I was quite surprised. How could it happen so quickly?

But I didn't care about thinking so much. I was only ecstatic that my opportunity finally came, so I started to pursue the road crazily again.

It happened that the class was adjusting seats, and Lu and I sat together as tablemates - in a corner of the last row, the class teacher was so angry that he was itching his teeth, could he study well if he sat in the back? And she was a girl with such good grades as Lu.

Why are you so depraved! But Lu and I don’t care, as long as we are happy,

Although Lu and I were roommates, although she knew that I liked her, and although she knew that I was chasing her, she always said: We are best friends.

This period of time was very happy, and it was a world that only belonged to me and Lu. Every morning during self-study, everyone would recite textbooks loudly, and the sound was very noisy. The class teacher was sitting on the podium preparing lessons or playing with his mobile phone, and did not notice that I was following Lu.

, Lu would sing to me at this time, and singing as soon as he sang was a morning self-study. After that, we didn’t memorize anything. If the head teacher knew about it, he would be very angry.

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This time we have been sitting at the same table for more than a month. When it came time to adjust our seats next time, we sat in that corner again, but this time we were not sitting at the same table, but in the front and back rows. I was in the last row and she was in the last row.

In the second row, we all leaned against the wall,

During morning self-study, she would lean back and pretend to be memorizing, but actually she was singing to me.

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One day during self-study in the evening, a boy in the class approached her for a walk on the school road. I was very angry because this was not the first time I had seen her. I had seen her two or three times. I also know that boy. He is a person who likes to fool around.
To be continued...