This is not what I originally wanted to post, but it is what I want to say most at this moment. here and now.

After a few hours.

I don’t know why, but I also thought of the movie Brideshead.

(The following contains spoilers, if you want to watch the movie but haven’t had time, please read with caution)

I thought of that conversation again.

i don't have family.

you have me.

I rarely read movie reviews, and I always feel that those reviews are quite subjective.

I read an article and I still can’t forget it.

Said that Charles betrayed Sebastian.

I cannot agree with this statement.

Charles has never said he is gay.

Of course, it's also possible that it was mentioned in the original work but not in the movie.

Love and love are eternal topics in human society.

When I first watched this movie, I could probably expect that there would be emotional entanglements between these three people.

Suddenly I thought of the scene where Juliet asked Charles to light a cigarette: beangel and lightone. (That’s what he said)

Human beings are often blind, narrow-minded and self-righteous.

In many, many ways, this is true.

There is a Western proverb that seems to say that there are no heroes in the eyes of servants.

loveblind, but lifenot.

Imagination is beautiful, but reality is cold and ruthless.

When they discover differences and cannot get along well with each other, people often blame the other party: Why are you such a person?

However, who has ever truly understood whom?

Not to mention others, even people know very little about themselves.

(The song "someone that i used know" comes to mind here)

When impulse overcomes reason, tragedy is born.

So I would say, don't give me family affection, and don't give me love.

These two are both pitiable and hateful.

(There are exceptions. Today we will only discuss the less optimistic situations.)

"We live for you", "I gave everything for you"... and so on.

after all i have done(for you).

After hearing this, all I could think of was:

"The two sides are fighting, and I want to leave first."

One word to describe it: terrible.

You live for me and then what?

Should I live for you too?

Do you want to just follow your lead?

This is completely an outrageous kidnapping.

What I want to say is that there is no pure unilateral contribution in this world. Even family affection is the same.

The pay-return cycle is reasonable, and only reasonable.

It has been emphasized before: giving itself is the reward.

Just like I came here for just a few months and spent a lot of material, time and energy, but I didn't sign a contract.

Like the song in leave out all the rest.

i've takenbeating

i've shared what i made..

I got the respect, honor and privilege I wanted.

What do you want from me?

As for the others, if possible, they are additional rewards.bonus.

I won’t be hysterical or disheartened just because I don’t have it.

I chose to do this and it was worth it.

Of course, reality is also realistic.

Just like what is said in "Detachment": I don't long.

This is a story for later.

I came and finished my performance.

(Think of lenka "the show")

that's all.

that's all i ever wanted.

that'sswan song.

Writing is my life.

I have been very happy in the past five months.

That's enough.

Isn't it happiness to do what you want to do?

Don't think more. Don't care.

again: The effort itself is the reward.

For other things, there is no need to ask. If you have it, you will get it. If you don’t have it, you don’t have it. It’s all fine.

Then, I still have to discuss death.

Death is the ultimate existence.

Through death, man can negate all existing values.

To be more precise, it is to eliminate the influence of all human values ​​on oneself.

It's something that can wake you up completely.

Some people may say that when you die, there is nothing.

This is both true and false.

Death has many meanings.

For example, sometimes when you watch a movie clip (such as Auschwitz Concentration Camp), you will feel as if you have died once.

For example, seeing the disasters in the world.

Another example... a journey through hell...

If you are interested, please search for near-death experiences.

This thing can sometimes completely change a person's life.

I believe it can have a sublimating effect on the soul.

please note: True love is a kind of pure giving, just like sunshine, soil and rain nurturing all things.

It asks for nothing in return.

But not asking does not mean that you will get nothing.

Sunshine, soil and rain have truly become a part of all living beings.

There is a subtle relationship between the body, spirit, and soul.

This third type is the rarest and the most difficult to cultivate.

Many times, we can only look forward to it but cannot put it into practice.

There are barriers in the soul. At every stage, there is a bottleneck.

When I say this, I just say it casually.

because.

In the face of fate, people appear small and powerless.

In the dark, there is God's will.
Chapter completed!