Chapter 294 Lou Feier's past and consciousness(2/2)
She knew that her father had a woman outside, and that man would even take the woman home without hesitation and even asked her to call her aunt.
She also happened to see her mother holding other men's arms outside, with a smile she had never seen before.
The marriage of these two people seems to be just a deformed marriage caused by the cooperation between the two families, and she is the product of this marriage.
My parents only come to see her occasionally. Since childhood, the nanny has been taking care of her at home.
But she is not like the rich daughter who is neglected by her parents, who can spend money at will, but she cannot get the love of her parents.
She doesn't have much pocket money, and it's all in the hands of the nanny.
But the nanny treats her very badly and will deduct her pocket money. When she was a child, if she asked the nanny for money, she would be beaten.
The nanny would not slap her in the face, so she would not be affected too much in daily life, but if she took off her clothes, she could see that she was still young at that time, and she was often covered with bruises and scars.
She used to complain when her mother came to see her, but it was useless.
My mother's attitude was very cold, and she just told her that she understood.
But the nanny did not receive any punishment, but instead learned about the complaints she had made, and abused her even more severely.
Later she found out that the nanny was originally found by her mother. She authorized the nanny to do it.
Her mother disliked her deformed product, so she didn't want her to have a good time.
After knowing this, she became completely desperate for the family and gradually became a good girl who was obedient on the surface, never fought back, and didn't scold her. Because once she showed her emotions, once she was involved in something outside, even if the mistake was not on her, she would suffer more serious abuse.
In fact, she tried calling the police, but it was useless. At most, she just changed her nanny and continued to do things that abused her.
The nanny who was replaced was punished to go in and lock up for a year or two. Before that, the nanny who abused her countless times had already obtained a sum of money that she would never spend in her life.
Her acting skills may be born because she has never been a good girl, and she will resist.
When she was still young, she would do some things, such as setting a trap to trip the nanny and kowtow her head full of blood, and letting the nanny explode when she went to the toilet, which made her feel uncomfortable.
Although she would be beaten after being discovered, and would be vented even if she was not discovered, she was still very happy.
When she was in junior high school, she almost killed a nanny. Although she didn't die in the end, she could only lie in bed in the next life.
But no one found out that she did this because she has always been the good girl who obeyed her. In the eyes of others, she could not do such a thing.
She did not escape her fate, even after she became an adult.
Her life has basically been arranged and cannot be refused. The descendants of the big family are not so easy to be, although she has never enjoyed any treatment she deserves.
She lived in a daze until one morning when she opened her eyes, she saw a jungle.
After figuring out the situation, she decided to indulge her heart in this world where no one knows her!
After experiencing such a childhood, even her parents could not trust her, she naturally would not trust any strangers, so she could deceive anyone with peace of mind.
Even if she kills people, she doesn't feel guilty, she won't feel disgusted, but is very excited.
She went from being a good girl who was obedient on the surface to a bad woman with a distracted temperament and doing whatever she wanted.
She didn't know if this personality was real or not, perhaps it was also a disguise under her acting skills, but she knew that such a personality could make her feel comfortable and could make her truly realize that she was free and alive!
She is not afraid of death because she has experienced a childhood that is even harder than death. So, even though she did not have any special abilities like Xu Xin and the others at the beginning, she was ranked in the top five in the region with her own ruthlessness.
Until later, she kicked Xu Xin, the hardest titanium alloy plate among all survivors, and was directly captured and contracted, becoming a prisoner, and once again lost her freedom.
She no longer wants to live under the control of others, so she has been trying to escape and terminate the contract for the two days she was captured.
But the bracelet that Xu Xin had on her left hand had always given her a strong intimidation, making her afraid to act rashly.
Her fear of bracelets is actually closely related to her childhood shadow.
She was still in elementary school at the time. She got dirty because of her meal and was thrown into a dark underground warehouse and locked for a whole day and night. Because she lived in a single-family villa, the neighbors around her were very far away, and no matter how she cried, it would be useless.
It was not until one day and one night that she had collapsed and was released and could not even cry.
After that, she had already developed great fear of such dark and silent places.
It is precisely because of this that she is really afraid that Xu Xin will lock her in the bracelet. If she stays in that place for a long time, she will really go crazy.
Whenever I enter the bracelet, it can arouse the fear that has been buried deep in her heart since I was a child, making her whole body overwhelmed by fear, her body is stiff and unable to move, and her brain will be completely out of order.
Perhaps for Afu and Mimi, although the space of the bracelet is terrifying, it is not that scary. After all, after they came out, they did not react too strongly, and they just didn't want to enter again.
But for her, the bracelet was definitely the most terrible torture.
She thought she would have extreme disgust for Xu Xin who did such a thing, but she did not.
She was contracted and naturally could not have disgusted with the owner of the contract.
The contract had a huge impact on her thinking, which was basically equivalent to brainwashing. In addition, Xu Xin treated her well. Under the influence of subtle influence, she gradually lost the idea of escaping.
She had no memory of the earth, and did not have any thoughts of home like others. Of course, it would be great if she could go back, and she happened to kill those who gave her such a miserable childhood.
Except that the bracelet still made her feel very scared, everything here seemed to make her feel close.
After the past two days of experience, Xu Xin seemed unreasonable and took her back to the tree house to protect her, helped Li Wenxi to mine together, and had a very happy snowball fight last night, which made her really experience a different feeling and happiness.
People who have experienced many darkness are actually very satisfied. For ordinary people, a trace of light that is very ordinary and can deeply affect her.
So, now, deep in her heart, she has regarded this place as her home, so she took the initiative to take on the task of cooking in order to have more contact with others.
And Xu Xin's words just now seemed to tell her that she really had the chance to be accepted by this "home".
Not as a prisoner or a slave, but as an equal person who truly integrates into this place.
"Please, I'm really going to cry..." Lou Feier gritted her teeth, her eyes a little red, "I hope you're not painting me a big cake..."
After calming down, she stood in front of the control panel and began to concentrate on her surroundings.
Chapter completed!