I can't think of how to start. I've only slept for a dozen hours in the past three or four days. At this moment, my brain is a bit frozen and my body is a bit broken.

But no matter how painful and tired I am, compared with when I just found out that my mother had cancer, and it was like falling into hell, and no longer seeing any hope, now I can see the light again, and these lights are caused by

You brought it to me.

There are so many people I want to thank, and I know I can't thank them enough. I also know that there are many people who have helped me silently without any intention of letting me know, or even letting me see their backs.

This also makes me even more confused about how to thank you. To be honest, I really want to kneel down and kowtow to everyone. Unfortunately, my knees can’t bend. Of course, I don’t want to bend them. I want them to bend in my dreams, but they really do.

I haven't bent over it in more than ten years.

Let me start by saying thank you. I know that so many people know about me these days, and so many people come to help me. In fact, they are all Internet literary masters that I have never dealt with before, as well as those who have come to help me.

The celebrities related to online novels on the website quietly used their influence to help me get these assistance.

Without the propaganda from you guys behind the scenes, my mother would not even be able to afford the hospital deposit, and she might not even receive treatment.

There are also those truly kind and enthusiastic friends who are strangers to me. Without your impatient and enthusiastic help, I, a real otaku who has not been out a few times in more than ten years and has not even obtained a health code, would be a deadbeat.

, I’m afraid I don’t even know where to go to handle it after stepping out of the door frame, not to mention that what I am doing now are the most trivial and troublesome things.

In the past few days, you have taught me too many common sense things, and you have also helped me solve many urgent problems. Otherwise, I would not be able to do it with water-drop financing alone.

Originally, I shouldn't bother you anymore, but after these few days of struggle, I found that my body is too fragile, so that a trivial matter that is ordinary to ordinary people, but to me, it is a huge blow.

The body could fall apart at any time, and even after three days of injections, I still couldn't hold on.

In the past few days, my mental journey has changed a lot.

Four days ago, when I just learned that my mother was diagnosed with cervical cancer, all I could think about was how to raise money for her medical expenses, so I posted that single chapter asking for help.

Soon, I received enthusiastic help from everyone, and many people recommended me to Shuidichi.

I went there immediately like a drowning person, and the effect was very good. Not long after I registered, and before I had figured out how to start fundraising, Shuidichou called me and asked me if I needed help.

I thought I had made a mistake because I listened to Shuidichou customer service and got a Shuidichou fundraiser for me and my mother.

As a result, part of the fundraising went to me, while my mother's fundraising was diluted by me.

I was very depressed at first, but then I saw that the combined amount of the two donations was not small. I thought that the money would be in my account after I withdraw it, so I would give all the money from these two aids to my mother.

Treatment is just that. As for the special funds required by Shuidichou, I can't afford to pay so much.

Now I've calculated the money, and it's over a hundred thousand. With the help of everyone's direct red envelopes, I've almost raised 200,000.

This money should be enough for my mother's treatment, and I have temporarily put aside my worries about money.

But then the contact with the Starting Point Assistance Program suddenly made me greedy, because I actually started to think about some of my own problems. I was thinking that if I continue to walk thousands of steps like this, I won’t even be able to stand still.

,can I really take care of my parents?

Without Qidian's assistance plan, I wouldn't have thought so much, because middle- and late-stage cancer requires long-term treatment to prevent the tumor from getting worse and to control the cancer cells from spreading. Later, it may require traditional Chinese medicine treatment. This is also a disease that requires money to prolong life.

So I definitely want to keep the money for my mother's long-term treatment. It's enough for me to buy tens of thousands of dollars to buy medicine and try to maintain it. Anyway, that's how it's always been.

But now I'm starting to think more. I'm thinking: If Qidian's aid plan can be approved... If the amount of this aid can reach 100,000, or even 200,000... then can I use this water drop to raise money?

Fundraising to replace one or two of my war-damaged joints?

I know that all my joints should have been surgically treated long ago. The periosteum of my left ankle has been worn for nearly 20 years. It is probably the bone grinding on the bone, so I feel extremely painful when I walk. If I walk for hundreds of steps in a row,

It would be like a few needles constantly pricking my bones. The main reason why I dropped out of school was this joint injury. In the past few days, every step I took felt like being tortured.

But my real fatal injury was my right knee. Since I couldn’t bend it more than ten years ago, I couldn’t even exercise on a bicycle. That’s when my bleeding became more frequent.

Later, I suffered repeated bleeding on my right shoulder, which made it impossible to raise it. However, apart from the fact that I couldn't turn over while sleeping, couldn't raise my hand to pick up things, and could only use one posture, it didn't have as big an impact as the knee injury.

Now the second most serious joint injury is my left arm. In the past two years, my left elbow has been bleeding repeatedly. In the end, I was reluctant to inject the factor every time. The sequelae of the fall affected the bending and stress, and it seemed that new bleeding points were formed.

, bleeding occurs every three to five days.

In addition to being busy with my parents' affairs these days, I am also thinking about whether I really want to take on the responsibility of this family. Can I do it in my current state?

Even in this state, can I really take care of myself for a long time?

I know the answer, there's no way it can be done.

I can't even sit on the ground now because I can't use my left hand, my right knee can't bend, and I can only use part of my left foot and right hand. I can't even stand up alone.

Originally, I could use my left hand to push myself up, but now if I sit down on the ground, I might have to call the police and ask the police to help me up. If I don't call an ambulance, I'm afraid they will just carry me away.

So I have to take care of myself. I have to replace and perform surgery on my right knee and new left arm, which have the greatest impact on me. Especially the hematoma on my left elbow has not been formed for a long time. Surgery now may not require joint surgery.

Replacement, as long as the hematoma is removed, the bending and strength may be restored.

If these two joints can be cured, preferably the left ankle can also be replaced. Then even if I am not as agile and flexible as ordinary people, I can at least walk for a long time. I can also ride an exercise bike at home.

Cooking for my parents helps me get my semi-independent father out of the nursing home.

I want to have such a future so much that I often dream about riding a bicycle, and then when I wake up, I can only feel the stiffness and a knee completely surrounded by blood clots.

So I thought about it for a long time, but still shamelessly asked everyone to help me forward my mother's water drops.

In the past few days, through two water drops raised by me and my mother, as well as everyone’s direct red envelopes, the money raised now should be enough for my mother’s treatment.

But if I also want to see a doctor, that is definitely not enough.

Now I attach great importance to whether the initial aid can be passed, but I don’t know how much aid will be passed in the end.

So I hope that through everyone’s forwarding, my mother’s Shuidichi can get more help.

As I write this, I feel increasingly blushing.

This is tantamount to helping myself to get help, and I feel even more embarrassed when I think of those who have already helped me.

So I will not accept another donation from friends who have helped me before, especially those who have sent me red envelopes. Then I will be really embarrassed to death.

Now I just hope that if it is convenient for everyone, you can forward it to my mother's Shuidichou.

If I can raise some more treatment fees, and if the starting point assistance can really be approved, then I will really have the opportunity to walk a thousand steps in one breath again, and even have the opportunity to ride a bicycle again.

When I thought of this, I ended up blushing and shamelessly sending out my WeChat and Q group, where my mother's Shuidichiou link was.

I really hope that everyone can help forward this. It is best to confirm the authenticity of the fundraising in the "Confirmation Situation" on the fundraising page. The content does not need to be too complicated. Dozens of words can simply confirm the fundraising.

Just be real.

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