The Spring Festival is here. Let me first wish you all good luck in the Year of the Rabbit and most importantly good health!

This year, many changes have happened to me and my family.

This memory brought too much pain to me, making me just want to escape and not dare to face the future.

But there is also a lot of help that I should remember and be grateful for.

Now I am very good. It can be said that in the 32 years of my life, my physical health this year can be ranked 17th.

If we zoom out to the last 15 years, then last year was the healthiest year for me. The most important thing is that there is still room for improvement in the future, and I am very satisfied.

But listening to the sound of firecrackers outside, I still felt waves of loneliness and loneliness about the future. This feeling of desolation has been pervading for almost a year and is getting more and more serious.

It is a kind of desperate waiting, accompanied by a deep sense of powerlessness, because the people closest to you will be taken away by the irreversible laws of nature at some point...

I don't dare to face it, I want to escape, but just like Wang Miao's countdown, I can't avoid it.

I know that joys and sorrows, birth, old age, illness and death are all natural laws of the human world, and no one can avoid them.

I really am not cursing everyone to die...

What I really want to bless in my heart is: I hope that everyone can go towards the same life and death with more and longer joys and less and shorter sorrows.

But I am not actively trying to reduce it. In fact, the frequency of taking one pill a day means my medical insurance limit this year will definitely not be enough.

But when I got home, I realized that I didn’t have enough time.

This book of mine will have about 500,000 words before I can finish it. I plan to finish it first and then talk about it.

I'm sorry, these are festive days, and writing this would ruin the atmosphere. Please say something else.

But I don’t know what to say, or I don’t want to say it, because those clichés are too formulaic.

After the Spring Festival, I plan to slowly resume updates.

In fact, after I am discharged from the hospital in October, I plan to resume updating.

Starting next month, my daily exercise time will begin to decrease.

Therefore, we can only use one pill every two days, and then we have to exercise one day and rest one day. Otherwise, the concentration of coagulation factors will not be enough the next day, and bleeding will be easy once exercise occurs.

In this way, you can squeeze out a lot of time, and you can try to update it every two days at least.

But this kind of waiting process, which is like being executed, is really desperate.

Forehead……

I actually also know that time can heal everything.

I didn't do much every day. I just cooked two meals, did some rehabilitation exercises, cleaned and washed the dishes, talked to my mother, and watched TV. It was almost time to go to bed.

Finally, let me say something festive.

I thought...forget it...I won't speak anymore...

Wait a moment, and finally wish our country a prosperous national destiny and a prosperous national strength. I hope that this year more industries will surge like the automobile industry last year. It is best that all walks of life will usher in a blowout development.

In the past six months, I have been feeling very confused, having some mental problems, and even losing the meaning of life.

But if I can see the process of our national rejuvenation, then it will make sense for me to continue to survive.
Chapter completed!