My name is Song Que, and I was born with the high expectations of my parents and the expectations of my grandfather.

Song Que was the name given to me by my grandfather himself.

I hope I can inherit his literary talents and gain some attainments in poetry.

The memories of my childhood are so long ago that I can no longer remember them clearly. I only remember that my grandfather loved me very much. When he came back to the house, he would often hold me and play with me.

I was just over four years old when the incident occurred in the Prime Minister's Mansion.

That day, a large number of guards suddenly appeared outside the prime minister's mansion. My grandfather fell seriously ill after returning from abroad.

Then, it passed quickly.

My father took my mother and me overnight and left Kyoto all the way.

After traveling around various places, I went to Xiashui Village.

After that, we settled down and stayed in Xiashui Village.

My mother told me to forget the past in Kyoto, integrate into Xiashui Village, and become a part of this village.

I did as I was told.

As time went by, as the memory of Kyoto faded away, I almost thought that everything in Kyoto was just a dream.

But despite this, it is difficult for our family to integrate into Xiashui Village because of our incompatible appearance.

Children in the village who are the same age as me would look at me strangely, and even bully me. They would treat me like a girl.

I have been patient.

But what they got in return was their extravagance, and even some teasing.

So, that time I finally took action.

Anyone who bullies or offends me will not be spared.

Some of them were framed by me, destroyed the crops in the fields, and were beaten by the adults in the family.

Some of them were provoked by me into fighting with other children.

There was another person who bullied me the most, and I secretly sent him to Huanshui River.

At that time, I was standing on the bank of Huanshui River, watching him flopping in the water and falling to the bottom again and again.

There is actually a bamboo pole next to my feet.

I can rescue him at any time if I want.

But I don't want to save him.

Seeing him tossing in the water, I actually enjoyed it.

If I hadn't suddenly discovered that someone had seen me, I think I might have watched him drown in the end.

Yes, I finally saved that child and became a great benefactor to him and their family.

That kid never caused trouble to me again, and instead became my bodyguard.

As for the child who saw me harming the child and witnessed the whole process, he was also frightened by me.

He didn't dare to tell anyone about what he saw that day, and he didn't dare to approach me again.

Actually, even if the kid tells the story, I'm not afraid.

After all, I am a "good boy" in the eyes of my neighbors. How could I do such a cruel thing?

As long as I don't admit it and cry, how will the adults believe him?

After that incident, under the "protection" of that child, I finally lived a safe and smooth life.

Until my father suddenly decided to send me to an academy in the town.

Yes, before I was fifteen years old, I studied with my father in the village. I almost never left Xiashui Village.

Father and mother rarely leave the village to go to town.

After I went to Lingyun Academy, due to my good talent and my father's careful teaching, I quickly gained the favor of the gentlemen.

Moreover, my increasingly beautiful appearance has attracted the attention of many women.

My reputation quickly spread throughout Lingquan Town.

At that time, I received gifts almost every day.

When you go out, you will also attract many people to watch.

Among them, the one who impressed me most was an extremely fat woman.

That woman was so bold that she actually showed her love to me in public.

Even, I took action against other women who like me.

On the one hand, I hate her.

On the other hand, I would be happy for her to help me get rid of those nymphomaniac women.

But I didn't expect that she would target my family.

Moreover, when my father was seriously ill, they teamed up with the traveling doctors to plot against my mother while I was not at home.

When I learned about the situation, my mother had already taken her money and bought medicine for my father to take.

Afterwards, it turned out that my father was not rescued.

Then, just as I expected, the woman came to the door with her family.

They actually wanted me to marry that fat woman.

For the sake of my mother and younger siblings, I can only compromise.

Qin Sanya, that damn woman, turned out to be the only person who successfully plotted against me in the past eighteen years.

Of course, how could I make it easy for her?

After we got married, I thought of dozens of ways to kill her.

Unfortunately, before she had time to take action, she revealed herself as a monster.

That vicious woman actually wanted to sell Yun'er and Ye'er.

That day, I was forced to go up the mountain.

Unexpectedly, he encountered a pack of wolves.

If the yellow hunter in the village hadn't come to the rescue, I would have been left in the mountains.

But even though I didn't die, I injured my leg.

My leg injury was extremely serious, but my family had no money to treat me.

Under such circumstances, the woman was still making trouble and even wanted to hang herself in my room.

I didn't believe it, but I knew she just wanted me to soften up again and coax her a few words.

But my tolerance for her has reached its limit, how could I still coax her?

As a result, she actually hanged herself.

Although she didn't really want to hang herself, something unexpected happened.

When he fell down, he knocked his head on the stool and died.

I was surprised at the time, but after that, I just felt happy.

Even if this woman didn't commit suicide that day, I would still find a way to kill her.

But after the relief, trouble soon came.

The woman's father and brother soon came to the door, clamoring to kill me and save the life of the woman.

Thanks to her stepmother stopping her and the help of people in the village, nothing happened to our family.

But despite this, I also went to the Yamen.

An investigation at the Yamen revealed that the woman did indeed die from a fall.

And after I told them that they were fully responsible for the woman's death, they stopped pestering me.

After that, the woman's matter was settled.

But my life was also ruined.

My legs are disabled, I can no longer take the imperial examination, and I have become a disabled person.

In the past, I was so proud and popular with others. At that time, I was so embarrassed, despised by others, and pitiful.

I...hate those people looking at me with pitiful eyes.

But I feel like a person stuck in a quagmire, unable to struggle out at all.

After a few months of such decadence, drought began to break out in Zhao County.

Even if Xiashui Village is right on the Huanshui River, it is not immune.

The drying up of the Huanshui River caused food shortages for every household.

In the end, everyone didn’t even have enough drinking water.

That's what happened to my mother and Yun'er at that time.

The two went to fetch water from the Huanshui River and lost their lives.

After the accident, I was extremely sad and regretful.

It was my self-abasement that harmed my mother and sister.

My mother was already in poor health, so she still had to do embroidery work to support the three of us.

If they hadn't eaten enough and had no strength, she and Yun'er wouldn't have fallen into the water and couldn't get up.
Chapter completed!