I felt like I had lost my soul that day, sitting on the martial arts field without moving for a whole day. Lao Cao and the others were going to go down the mountain, but they stayed a few more days because of me. I drank like crazy and got drunk like crazy in those days.

, screaming crazily to vent the pain in his heart. In those few days, his state was no longer useless, but simply like a crazy dead person.

After being crazy for a few days, my mood slowly settled down, and I decided to go find Xiao Ying. I lost the dead girl, and I couldn't lose her again. My heart was divided into two halves, one part died for the dead girl, and the other part returned.

I have to live for Xiao Ying.

Everyone stopped getting involved in the matter of looking for Xiao Ying. Lao Cao went back to live in seclusion in Changzhi, Shanxi, and Nie Min went to Changzhi to go to school, so that the brother and sister could see each other at any time. Dazuirong and Chen Hanyan returned to Sichuan, although Niangzifen Village is no longer there

, but there are still new residential houses waiting to move in. Dazuirong has too deep feelings for his hometown, and he is still thinking about finding his grandfather and Xiaoyu. Although this is a wish that can never be realized, it is still a hope in his heart.

Having hope can support people to live bravely, but I have both hope and despair, experiencing the pain of ice and fire.

After saying goodbye to everyone, I picked up my luggage and went down the mountain. I took out my mobile phone to call Xiao Ying, but it was turned off. I didn’t know where to find it in the huge sea of ​​people. I just walked away from Guangyuan Town, which was under construction.

, walking forward aimlessly. When he met a passenger bus, he got on it again in a daze.

The conductor asked me where I was going, and I said casually, so I took the bus to Weinan. From Weinan, I took a bus to Luoyang and Nandu, but I still couldn't find Xiao Ying. The weather turned cold and winter entered, and I didn't dare to go home during this period.

I called. My parents were understanding and considerate of me as always, and they didn’t call me to ask me why I didn’t go back.

I really had no place to look for, so I finally ran to Shitang Village in western Hunan. When I saw Bai Xueying, Chen Shuiyao, Liu Bin and Xiaoxiang, I didn’t know what was going on. I felt sad and wanted to cry. But these days

, I have learned to control my emotions and not let anyone see my inner sadness.

Liu Bin is still so virtuous, he teases me when we meet, Xiaoxiang is much more generous than before, and there is no embarrassment when meeting me. On the contrary, Bai Xueying has an unnatural expression, and Chen Shuiyao becomes more taciturn. Brothers always like it

I'm just being sentimental, maybe they really like me, but we just don't have this fate.

I stayed here for two days, chatting happily with them, and my mood was better than before. Liu Bin and Xiao Xiang got married, and Xiao Xiang was now three months pregnant.

I couldn't help but widen my eyes and said, "Why didn't you notify me when you got married that you would come to have a wedding banquet? Oh, I understand, Liu Bin, you bastard, are you afraid that I will abduct Xiao Xiang at the wedding?"

"No way. It's such a long journey, and the mobile phone signal in Shitang Village is not good. After we discussed it, we decided to get married in a low-key manner so as not to disturb the big guys. When we give birth to a big fat boy next year, we will go over and play with you." Liu Bin grinned.

He smiled and said.

Xiaoxiang's face turned red and she lowered her head in silence. I don't know if it was because she was shy about being pregnant, or because she was embarrassed that I kidnapped her. My brother had ruined her engagement ceremony twice before. Who can guarantee that if I were at the wedding, I wouldn't do it again?

He repeated the same mistake and kidnapped Xiao Xiang.

I laughed loudly and said, "Congratulations, remember to treat me to a full moon wine after the baby is born."

In the past two days, I met Bai Yifan. He was living a good life in the village. Although he had lost his luxurious life in the past, he no longer had to work hard to fight to the death in the business world, so he had fewer worries and more worries.

He found a sense of peace. He taught the children in the village to read and read every day. After getting used to this kind of life, he felt that it was much happier here than in the south.

After staying for two days, I left. It was very difficult to pretend to smile all day long. Liu Bin and the others saw that they couldn't stop me, so they agreed that a year later, we would meet in Nandu during the Nandu University celebration. When they sent me out of the village,

, Bai Xueying and Chen Shuiyao were sent far away and asked me if I wanted to help them find Xiao Ying together?

I smiled at them both and said no, it's because I can't run away, it's not because I can't force myself to come. I believe that Xiao Ying and I are destined to find her, and I just have to go through the test of God and give me more

Let me slowly appreciate the ups and downs.

When parting, the two girls, Bai Xueying and Chen Shuiyao, cried. They had been very calm in the past two days, but once they faced separation, they could no longer suppress their sadness. And after this separation, we may never see each other again!

I was afraid of arousing the pain in my heart, so after saying goodbye, I turned around and walked out of the mountain. Now I really had nowhere to go, so I sat confused outside the train station, not knowing where to go. After staying there for a long time, my phone suddenly rang.

, when I saw it was my mother’s number, my heart suddenly felt sour, and tears came out. I may have been too fragile during this period, and I shed tears at every turn. I am really not a man, I am a woman!

The ring rang several times. I quickly gathered my emotions, answered the phone and pretended to be happy and said: "Mom, I was about to call back. Do you miss me..."

Before I finished speaking, my mother interrupted me in a hurry and said, "Son, where are you? Come back quickly, your dad is sick."

My heart sank and I immediately said, "Okay, I'll go back right away."

My mother said "hmm" and hung up the phone, which made me feel a sense of foreboding. Because they were considerate of me, they would never call me if it was just a minor illness. My father might be seriously ill. And he was old.

Mom didn't say anything and hurriedly hung up the phone. She was probably in the hospital.

The anxiety and sadness in my heart were all forgotten at this moment. I first took the train to Changsha, and then took a plane to Changzhi. I didn't bother to see this girl Nie Min, so I rented a taxi and went straight to Yu County.

I called my mother in the car and learned that my father was no longer hospitalized because of his serious illness and had returned home. I understood what that meant. He was a serious illness that was difficult to treat. He could only waste money in the hospital, so he went home and waited.

die.

My heart sank to the bottom, and I couldn't help but urge the driver to drive faster. When I got home at around 11 o'clock at night, I burst into tears before I walked in. When I walked in, my mother held back her tears and shook her head with me, signaling not to cry. Dad was here.

I understand that I cannot be stimulated at times, so I suppressed the grief in my heart, wiped away my tears, and walked to the bedside.

Dad was covered with three thick quilts, and his dark and thin cheeks made my heart break for a moment. In less than a year, he has become so thin that he is so thin. What disease does he have? Is it cancer?

"Dad!" I shouted softly.

Dad opened his eyes slightly, and his cloudy eyes looked very excited. It seemed that being able to see his son before he died was more important than anything else. When I saw this look, I couldn't bear it anymore and quickly turned my head.

, wipe away the tears.

"Ho ho..."

Dad opened his mouth and couldn't speak, and let out a muffled scream from his throat, which was a bit like a zombie's cry. Mom came over and said: "My son is back, don't be so excited. The doctor said you can't have ups and downs in mood. Go to sleep."

, my son has also been riding in the car for a day, he is very tired, you two will talk to each other tomorrow."
Chapter completed!