Nuannuan has been raised by Xia Houlie since Mu Qingwan left the palace, so she has a very close relationship with him now. At this moment, it was purring and biting Xia Houlie's clothes randomly, looking very anxious.

Xia Houlie squatted down, picked it up, rubbed its soft fur, and asked softly:

"Nuan Nuan, do you miss your wife?"

Nuan Nuan's eyes, as bright as two black grapes, turned around and whined twice. Then he stuck out his tongue and licked the palm of Xia Houlie's hand. The tickling feeling suddenly touched his heart.

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What is he hesitating about? Hasn't he already made up his mind in his heart?

When he thought of this, he reached out and waved Li Changan away, hugged Nuannuan and walked out of the palace while looking down at it and saying:

"Actually, I also miss my wife very much. Let's go and see them together."

Mu Qingwan only felt that she had had a long dream. There was darkness in front of her eyes. She was very tired, but she kept running in her dream. There was a blur of light and shadow in front of her. She tried desperately to reach out, but she was always there.

When she was about to reach it, the light and shadow suddenly flew away again. She opened her mouth and wanted to shout, but no sound came out at all. The empty surroundings were filled with her breathing, one after another, clearly audible.

Gradually, her breathing began to merge into a low and hoarse voice, which seemed to come from the distant sky and was a little blurry, but the tenderness in his tone was so palpable, so gentle that her heart began to feel inexplicably.

It hurts:

"Wan, wake up quickly!"

"Wan, I've already thought about it. If you don't want to have a child, then we don't have to. Although I really want a child that belongs to both of us, I want you to be happy even more."

"Wan, I can promise you anything, I just ask you not to leave me."

"Wan, look, Nuan Nuan and Lalan are both looking at you. They are also worried about you. You said that they are also our family members. Even if you have the heart to make me sad, how can you make them sad?

What? Don’t you like them the most? Wake up quickly.”

"Wan, !"

"Wan, as long as you are willing to wake up, you can go wherever you want. I will never stop you or force you again!"

"Wan, if you really don't want to be with me, then I will let you go. I just ask you to wake up soon..."

"Wan..."

The voice kept chanting over and over again, and in the end, she could even hear a very light sob. She vaguely wondered, was someone crying?

Why did her heart hurt so much when she heard such suppressed crying?

Who is crying? Why is she crying? Is she dying?

She began to struggle desperately, but her movements were weak. She forced herself to open her eyes, and her eyelids became extremely heavy. She suddenly panicked. Could it be that she was really going to die?

However, it is obvious that she did nothing? She was not poisoned, assassinated, or committed suicide. She just took a bowl of abortion pills. Abortion pills?

Her mind suddenly woke up, and countless pictures flashed through her mind, all of which were of Xia Houlie, crying, expressionless, cold, angry, desperate, happy, and desolate. In the end,

The scene freezes on him crying desperately, like a wronged child.

She had never seen such a weak Xia Houlie. In her impression, he was strong, cold, ruthless, even cruel, as if nothing in the world could knock him down, nor could he be moved in the slightest.

She couldn't figure out why such a man would cry. She cried so much that her heart began to twist. She wanted to reach out and wipe away his tears, but he was far away and she couldn't reach him at all.

The more he cried, the sadder he became, and her heart ached more and more.

In the end, she couldn't bear it anymore and wanted to shout to him to stop crying, but no sound came out of her throat.

She was like a trapped little animal, flapping and struggling helplessly, but she couldn't get out of the confining cage.

Finally, she became anxious, and suddenly threw herself forward with all her strength, and suddenly opened her eyes.

She couldn't adapt to the sudden light. She closed her eyes and rested for a while, then opened them completely.

What caught her eye was a tall figure. He was looking straight at her, holding a little white dog in his arms funny. She squinted and took a closer look. She seemed to be a lazy and warm little daughter-in-law.

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She shifted her gaze back to the tall figure. Because there was no light behind her, she could not clearly see the expression on his face at this moment. She could only feel that his gaze was so hot that it made her face feel hot.

She subconsciously murmured:

"Awful..."

The man sitting beside her bed seemed to be sure that she had finally woken up. He rushed over and hugged her, his tall body trembling slightly, "Wan...are you awake?"

Smelling the familiar scent of ambergris, Mu Qingwan was completely freed from the nightmare. Her body seemed to have descended from the misty clouds, and she had stepped onto the ground, and her heart suddenly felt at ease.

She put her arms around the tall and trembling body and buried her head in his hair. Tears flowed out uncontrollably. She couldn't wait to vent the pain buried in her heart, and even her voice began to rise.

Shake to:

"Hey... I was wrong... It's not that I didn't want to have your child... I didn't want our child... The reason why I wanted to abort him was... because our child... was actually already dead.

Already..."

Xia Houlie's body trembled and he looked at her in disbelief: "What did you say?"

Her voice calmed down slightly:

"When I was in Hezhou, Helian Moxiao arrested me, poisoned me, and forced me to kill you. If I didn't listen to him, I would die from the poison in seven days. I couldn't do it.

Until the last day, I originally wanted to say goodbye to you, but I didn't expect that I had a conflict with Biying on the way, and then she threw my Fengpei into the water. Later, you found Fengpei for me and caught the cold.

As a result, the Erosion Heart Powder in my body started to take effect. The situation was critical. I had no other way. Thinking that I was about to become poisonous, I spread your poison to me. I thought I would definitely die, so I left.

Unexpectedly, Helian Moxiao later captured Dongmo. Later he told me that the reason why I didn’t die was because all the toxins passed through the fetus... So this child was actually a child as early as when he was in Lu Mansion.

Stillbirth..."

At this point, she could no longer speak, she could only choke and her body, which had just had a miscarriage, began to hurt.

When I think about the fact that the child in my belly is almost five months old, he can already move, but in the blink of an eye, this little life is gone.

And it was to save her, so how could she not be in pain and want to die?

Xia Houlie's fingers were tightly clasped into the quilt. It took a lot of effort for him to hold back his emotions and not lose control:

"So... our child died to save us?"

He didn't expect the truth to be like this.

He didn't expect that Mu Qingwan had made such a big sacrifice for herself and suffered so much pain, and yet he was still blaming her!

With a "pop-" sound, he suddenly slapped his ear hard, and his handsome face suddenly became red and swollen, which showed how serious his attack was.

Mu Qingwan was startled by him, quickly held his hand, and said in a low voice: "What are you doing?"

Xia Houlie hugged her and said painfully:

"Please let me wake myself up a little and let me taste the pain!"

Mu Qingwan stroked the red marks distressedly, feeling sour in her heart:

"Why are you so stupid? It's not your fault, it's me. I hid it from you. I thought it was for your own good. I thought it would save you from the pain of losing a child. But I didn't expect that in the end it ended up costing both of us.

It's my fault that I've been forced into a desperate situation, please forgive me."

Xia Houlie held her face and kissed her tears away little by little:

"Wan, no matter what happens in the future, remember to tell me, whether it is happiness or pain, let us share it together, don't stupidly bear it alone, you know?"

Mu Qingwan closed her eyes and nodded, pressing her face against his chest, listening to his heartbeat, and the long-lost feeling of happiness finally hit her heart again.

It turns out that happiness can be so simple.

She will never be so stupid again.

"Just put it here, let him stay with these flowers and birds, free and unrestrained."

On a windy day, Xia Houlie and Mu Qingwan took a carriage to the suburbs. They put the toys, clothes, and the peace charms they had made together during this period into a wooden box, and then

They were buried together under a flower tree.

Their first child will sleep here forever from now on.

Mu Qingwan covered the wooden box with soil bit by bit until it was completely covered, then she closed her hands and closed her eyes and said:

"Baby, although it was only a short time, and my mother doesn't even know whether you are a boy or a girl, thank you for leaving me this wonderful time."

"Brave child, thank you for saving your mother. Thank you for saving your father. I hope you remember the way home. Both your father and mother are waiting for your return."

Xia Houlie held Mu Qingwan's hand after reading, "On August 12, we will come here every year from now on."

Mu Qingwan threw herself into his arms and nodded gently.

When the two of them got on the return carriage and were about to enter the palace gate, Xia Houlie turned his head and saw Mu Qingwan looking at the street scene outside the window with admiration, and his heart skipped a beat.

He remembered that she insisted on burying her child in a free place in the suburbs. Although she followed him to the palace, deep down in her heart, she still longed to live a free life.

"Wan, would you feel aggrieved if I asked you to give up your freedom and live in that cage in the palace with me?"

Mu Qingwan lowered the curtain, put her arms around his neck, pulled his head down, looked into his eyes intently, and said after a long while:
Chapter completed!