Chapter 349
"Xinxin, Xinxin..."
A low voice called outside the bathroom door.
Qin Zixin leaned against the cold tile wall blankly, as if she hadn't heard anything and didn't respond.
The next second, Ji Lingtian opened the bathroom door and saw Qin Zixin sitting on the ground wet and letting cold water pour on him. He rushed in, immediately turned off the water valve, and hugged Qin Zixin.
Only then did Qin Zixin react and looked at Ji Lingtian blankly.
Ji Lingtian quickly left the bathroom with Qin Zixin in his arms, and then placed her on the sofa in the room.
Qin Zixin's eyes were always dull, and her body was weakly leaning on the sofa.
Ji Lingtian quickly found a set of Qin Zixin's pajamas and a dry bath towel. He lovingly helped her dry her hair and put on clean pajamas, and then held her tightly in his arms.
"sorry……"
Ji Lingtian's voice sounded above Qin Zixin's head.
Qin Zixin seemed to have lost her soul, leaning in his arms blankly without saying a word.
Ji Lingtian kissed Qin Zixin's wet hair, his eyes full of love.
Qin Zixin opened her pale lips slightly and whispered, "Don't you think I'm dirty when you hold me like this?"
"Xinxin..." Her self-deprecating voice made him feel heartbroken.
Qin Zixin broke away from Ji Lingtian, stood up slowly, and walked to the balcony of the room.
Ji Lingtian rushed after her and hugged her tightly, "What do you want to do?"
Qin Zixin let Ji Lingtian hold him, staring blankly ahead, smiling coldly, "Are you afraid that I will seek death?"
"Xinxin!"
Qin Zixin slowly turned around and stared at Ji Lingtian with clear tear-stained eyes, "Don't worry, I will not seek death. I am not that fragile. I have always been the strong Qin Zixin..."
As she spoke, tears already filled her eyes.
Ji Lingtian pressed Qin Zixin tightly into his arms, "I'm sorry...I..."
Qin Zixin leaned in Ji Lingtian's arms and slowly vomited, "These days, I have been thinking about why there are so many problems between us. After thinking about it, today I finally understand that in fact, we have never been together from the beginning to the end.
They should be together..."
"Xinxin..."
"Listen to me."
"..."
"Thirteen years ago, I might be suitable for you... As you said, I was kind, simple, and unscheming at that time. But now, I have long lost those qualities. You still care about me, just because of me.
It's Qin Zixin, the person you have always liked thirteen years ago. But if we didn't meet thirteen years ago, and you and I meet now, you will definitely not fall in love with me, because I am jealous and jealous, not enough
Gentleness, unreasonableness, these are all traits you don't like... So now we face so many difficulties in getting along together. We thought we could solve them, but it turns out that some problems cannot be solved, such as trust.
."
Ji Lingtian didn't speak, choosing to listen silently.
"Before, you and I both wanted to get over this issue vaguely, because we both cherish this hard-won relationship, which has spanned life and death. We should have cherished each other more, but reality is reality, and we missed the best period.
, so I will never be able to return to the original beauty...Since I am no longer pure enough, nor am I the pure and pure woman in your mind, and you no longer have the deep love for me that you had before, why should we force ourselves to get together again..."
Ji Lingtian closed her eyes in pain and hugged her tightly with her strong arms.
She slowly withdrew from his arms and looked at him blankly with tear-filled eyes, "Ling Tian, ​​let's get a divorce..."
Ji Lingtian's body suddenly trembled. He looked at her firmly, his thin lips cold and cold, "It's impossible."
"Why?"
"I said I won't leave you alone again."
"So, can you accept me being so dirty now?"
"Forget the past..." Ji Lingtian kissed Qin Zixin's smooth and cold forehead, "Let's start over as if nothing happened."
Qin Zixin looked at Ji Lingtian with blurred tearful eyes, "Then will you still love me as you did before?"
"Of course I love you."
"What I'm asking is, will you still love me like you did thirteen years ago?"
"Xinxin..."
"I want you to answer me honestly."
Ji Lingtian finally said nothing.
Qin Zixin had been observing every subtle expression on Ji Lingtian's face. Finally, she saw the trace of hesitation on his handsome face...
There is hesitation in his love.
If the previous incident with Ren Qingle only meant that he realized that she was no longer the girl he loved deeply, the fact that she was no longer "pure and pure" further made his love retreat...
Whether they admit it or not, his love for her is slowly fading...
Qin Zixin closed her heavy eyes, tears fell from the corners of her eyes, and she smiled foolishly.
"Don't be like this, Xinxin, we can start over... Everything is my fault. It's because I didn't care about your feelings and I didn't know how to cherish them."
She slowly opened her dull eyes and choked up, "Don't take all the blame on yourself. It's me who should say 'I'm sorry'... I have filed for divorce with you. If you are willing, we can do it tomorrow."
Go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to dissolve the marriage..."
"No, I will never divorce you. I said I will take care of you for the rest of my life... Don't talk about divorce again. You are tired. Can I take you to bed and have a good sleep?"
Qin Zixin closed her eyes tiredly.
At this second, Ji Lingtian picked up Qin Zixin from the sofa and walked towards the bed.
…
Sitting on the edge of the bed, Ji Lingtian looked at Qin Zixin quietly.
She was lying on the bed with her hands folded, breathing slowly, obviously sleeping soundly.
He looked at her slightly pale face with distress, slowly stretched out his hand, and touched her beautiful face with infinite love.
How many times has she shed tears?
He has lost count...
For more than ten years, she was so stubborn that she never shed a tear in front of him, but these days, he made her sad and sad again and again...
He vowed to protect her, cherish her, and prevent her from being wronged in the slightest. What exactly did he do?
"Xinxin..." He gently brushed away the hair covering her cheek and shouted softly.
"Well..." Qin Zixin snorted and did not wake up.
He didn't speak anymore, just stared at her quietly.
Recalling what happened between her and Gu Yuchen, his heart felt as if someone had stabbed him hard, but when he saw her crying, his heart was filled with guilt and self-blame...
A man should not make a woman cry, especially his woman, whom he once vowed to give her the happiness that the whole world looks up to.
How could he make her so sad and sad?
A cell phone ringtone broke the tranquility of the night.
Ji Lingtian got up from the edge of the bed and walked to the window to answer the phone.
It was his subordinate calling.
"Mr. Ji, the photos that Ren Qingle got were sent to her from an email with a hidden signature. I have already asked someone to crack the ID of this email. If everything goes well, I will be able to find out the IP address of the email that sent the photos in the next two days.
"
After ending the call, Ji Lingtian stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, looking at the sleeping Qin Zixin from a distance.
Even though she was asleep, she was still frowning. It was obvious that she was not at all stable in her sleep.
His heart was clenched fiercely, and he had never felt so guilty and self-blame as he did now.
Knock, knock——
There was a knock on the door.
Ji Lingtian came to his senses, walked lightly to the door and opened it.
The visitor is Guan Mu.
"Ling Tian."
Facing Guan's mother, Ji Lingtian's face was softer than usual. "Is something wrong?"
Guan's mother said with concern, "You and Zixin didn't come down for dinner either. I was afraid that you would be hungry, so I asked the kitchen to make some more food. You and Zixin should come down and have some!"
"I'm not hungry, she has already gone to bed."
"Xiao Xin is asleep?"
"Um."
"Xiao Xin is not a person without sense of propriety. No one found her this afternoon. It's not just because she went shopping alone... Ling Tian, ​​did something happen between you two?" Guan's mother's loving face said.
All are worries.
Ji Lingtian was afraid of waking Qin Zixin, so he walked out of the room and calmly said to Guan's mother, "It's nothing, just a small problem."
Guan's mother was doubtful, "Is it really just a small problem?"
Guan's mother stared at Ji Lingtian closely, but could not see the slightest message on his face.
Ji Lingtian also remained silent and did not explain to Guan's mother.
Guan's mother said again, "The problem that can make Xiao Xin disappear for an afternoon is by no means a small problem. Ling Tian, ​​are you bullying Xiao Xin?"
"It's so late, you go to sleep."
Seeing Ji Lingtian turning around to go back to the room, Guan's mother suddenly stopped Ji Lingtian in his tracks, "Lingtian, Xiaoxin is a good girl, we can't let her down."
Ji Lingtian turned his back to Guan Mu and said seriously, "I will not let her down."
"Ling Tian, ​​don't think Mom is too nagging... You and Xiao Xin have had a hard time getting where they are today. Xiao Xin has suffered so much for you, and it's not easy for her to be with you. No matter what you think
, you are responsible for Xiaoxin in this life, you must take care of her... Do you remember the days when Xiaoxin was seriously ill and left you? You were so depressed and negative that no one could persuade you to let go of Xiaoxin's 'death', you
Think about how much you cared about then, and then think about it now, is the problem in front of you worth giving up on your relationship with Xiaoxin?"
"Ling Tian, ​​Xiaoxin has loved you for so many years without any regrets. Do you know that it's not that she doesn't have outstanding suitors around her, it's just that she has always been devoted to you... Such a girl, no matter what happened thirteen years ago
, or thirteen years later, it will be worthy of your protection for a lifetime.
"Xiao Xin's health finally got better. She can't withstand any blow or injury. If you really want to spend this life with her, please give her the best care and attention so that her body can truly recover."
No worries.”
Ji Lingtian stood there, although he did not respond to what his mother said, his expression was not untouched.
Guan's mother walked up to Ji Lingtian and said earnestly, "Son, I think you understand what mom said. Mom just hopes that you will be well and not regret it in the future."
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Qin Zixin slept very deeply this time because he had a very scary dream...
In the dream, she was dragged into a huge dark bottomless whirlpool deep in the sea. She kept struggling to get out of the whirlpool, but she fell deeper and deeper in the struggle, and finally saw herself being swallowed by the huge whirlpool...
When she woke up, Qin Zixin seemed to still be immersed in a dream. She was breathing rapidly and looked around with wide eyes in panic.
I'm glad I'm in the room and what I just experienced was just a dream...
His breathing gradually became calmer, and Qin Zixin noticed that there were two suitcases in the room.
Qin Zixin suddenly sat up from the bed and stared blankly at the two suitcases.
Suddenly, she leaned against the bed in a daze, her heart felt like she had been hit hard, and pain hit her.
That's her suitcase. Did he order someone to pack it?
He finally made a decision...
Although I was mentally prepared yesterday, when I actually faced it, my heart felt so sour.
After looking around and not seeing his figure, Qin Zixin got out of bed in despair.
After a night's sleep, her energy was much better than last night, but she still looked so haggard in front of the mirror.
After washing his face and combing his hair into a neat ponytail to make himself look more energetic, Qin Zixin walked out of the bathroom.
Qin Zixin did not expect that she would bump into Ji Lingtian who came in from the outside as soon as she walked out of the bathroom.
When she saw him, Qin Zixin was slightly startled and froze in place.
Ji Lingtian, dressed casually, walked up to Qin Zixin gently and said softly, "Are you awake?"
As soon as Qin Zixin saw Ji Lingtian, there was a sourness in her throat, and even the tip of her nose was sore.
Unavoidable that she would lose her composure in front of him, Qin Zixin swallowed the bitterness in her throat, adjusted her emotions, and then calmly said, "When will the lawyer come?"
"What?" Ji Lingtian didn't hear clearly what Qin Zixin said for a moment and frowned slightly.
Qin Zixin turned her back on Ji Lingtian and said with a faint smile, "Fortunately Qianqian is old enough and she can accept every choice we adults make."
Ji Lingtian hurriedly walked to Qin Zixin and held her waist, "What's wrong?"
"Haven't you already made your decision?"
"What decision?"
Qin Zixin looked at the two suitcases in the room, "You've even packed my luggage for me, haven't you?"
After Ji Lingtian became nervous, he smiled softly and said, "Fool, that's our suitcase for traveling. It contains your clothes and mine, not just your clothes."
Qin Zixin looked at Ji Lingtian in astonishment.
Ji Lingtian hugged Qin Zixin lovingly, "I said that no matter what difficulties we have, we can overcome them. Let's not care about the past anymore. From today on, we will start again."
"You..." Qin Zixin obviously couldn't believe Ji Lingtian's decision, "You... you don't plan to divorce me?"
"When did I say I wanted to divorce you?"
"But you..."
Ji Lingtian hugged Qin Zixin into his arms, and said in a magnetic, hoarse voice, "I have never thought of giving up on you, and I have never thought of walking through this life with another woman...
I want nothing but you."
Qin Zixin raised her eyes blankly, looking deeply at Ji Lingtian with tearful eyes, "Even if I am no longer the person you imagined?"
"You are, you still are, time can never change a person's nature."
"But now I have..."
"Don't mention that matter again..." Ji Lingtian looked at Qin Zixin's beautiful eyes apologetically, "Please forgive my arrogance, because I am not qualified to question you at all."
Qin Zixin's eyes were confused and dull, not knowing what to say.
Ji Lingtian gently held up Qin Zixin's beautiful and delicate face, and said with deep affection, "Whether it is Qin Zixin thirteen years ago or Qin Zixin thirteen years later, she is the person I want to cherish the most in my life.
You asked me yesterday if I would still fall in love with you if I met you now, and my answer is yes, because we are destined to be involved for the rest of our lives. Without you by my side, I will never grow old or grow old."
Qin Zixin bit her trembling lips, tears quietly falling from the corners of her eyes...
He lovingly wiped away the tears that fell from the corners of her eyes and coaxed, "I'm sorry for missing your birthday... Baby, are you willing to let me make up for it?"
Qin Zixin twitched her nose, the tip of her nose was sore.
"Come on a trip with me and let's get a real start, okay?"
At this second, Qin Zixin nodded vigorously and rushed into Ji Lingtian's arms.
Chapter completed!