Chapter 3: Mistakes in making choices in the first place(1/2)
What should you do if someone forces you to dig up your dark history? What should you do if someone suddenly discovers something that you have been trying to forget and is forced to clarify it?
The answer to this kind of question is to pretend to be stupid. Of course, this is also a normal thing! Only a fool would tell all these things, and then be whipped again and again.
Right? From my personal point of view, I can't find any reason to be responsible for this matter.
Therefore, even in the face of Yukinoshita Yukino's high-pressure pressure, my reaction was still a firm "no".
"Xiaohe," my sister looked at me with some worry. As expected, no one except family members is trustworthy. Only my sister would stand by my side at this time. "I think I can actually say something.
Is it about something? If there is any problem between Kazuto and Koharu-chan, maybe you can help solve it this time? My sister has always been very supportive of Kazuto’s love affairs and other matters!"
——Okay, I take back my previous comment about my sister. Although it seems to be to solve the problem for me, why do I feel that this is paving the way for Yukinoshita Yukino to ask me questions!
"Well, Junior Yuigahama, although I personally think it is not a good thing to inquire about other people's privacy, but at this time when work may be affected by your personal factors, don't you think it is a kind of
Very inappropriate behavior?"
"This is not a problem I deliberately caused. I can't help what Xiaochun wants to do! Could it be that Xiaochun came to this school because of my existence?"
"Well, I think it's possible. After all, for this kind of activity, generally speaking, the vice-president is responsible for liaison. There may even be people like the president's assistant. Someone like Iroha-chan can be in charge, right?
There is no need for the secretary to come forward and say it."
"And as far as we know, the only person in this school who can let the secretary lady appear in person is probably a certain former teacher, right? We can temporarily peel off that layer of skin on your appearance.
It's better!" I don't know why, but Hikigaya suddenly developed this rare gift of venomous tongue today. Could it be that he suddenly had a desire to preach when facing juniors younger than him.
Of course, after taking a look at Hikigaya's slightly opened flat rotten eyes, I felt that Hikigaya's attack was more due to his dissatisfaction with my experience of "sensho" - "sensho".
Explosion and cashing are sins - I guess that's what he thinks - well, I really don't like this guy. In a sense, he is as arrogant as Yukinoshita Yukino.
However, at this time, whether I should conceal the truth or not is one thing, and the solution to the problem is another. Because it was my fault that caused this problem to arise, let me solve it. In general
It is also reasonable.
"Don't worry!" I sighed and provided the others with information that they would find more satisfactory. "Although Xiaochun is very tough at this time, you can definitely know that she is fighting for her own interests.
It's just an attitude, she's not the kind of person who can't separate her feelings from her work."
"Since Yuigahama-senpai has said so, we can temporarily move it to the next level for the negative impact that Yuigahama-senpai has on Secretary Sugiura, but the problem now is——
"
"——Don't worry, I still have this consciousness. I will not leak our information to Xiaochun. After all, the relationship between the two of us is not that close now."
"Well, that's it! Then I think we can give that little guy a good education!" Yukinoshita showed an interesting expression. That expression felt like a cat facing him.
The excitement of playing with a mouse before you get it.
Although I quite like cats, this cat feels very dangerous!
"Um, Yukinoshita, no, Buchou!" So, after hesitating for a while, I still called out to Yukinoshita Yukino who reopened the library book in my hand and seemed to have a well-thought-out plan.
"Are there any questions? Judging from the commission itself, it is not difficult. Of course, if you have any opinions, you can raise them with me."
"Well, Director Yukinoshita," feeling a little awkward, I made a request that even made me feel a little bit problematic, "When we face Koharu in the end, why don't we hit her too hard?"
"Oh? Do you still feel sorry for your little girlfriend?"
"No, I just think - okay, forget it, just treat it like this!"
Suddenly I felt that I couldn't face Yukinoshita's doubts. I felt that my whole body was being observed by the other party, and all my secrets were about to be exposed. In this unbearable environment, I got up and left.
into the ministry classroom.
Of course, in addition to Yukinoshita Yukino, who had everything in mind, Hikigaya Hachiman, the person who just suddenly stared at me with hawk-like eyes and made a potential attack on me, also murmured something when I left.
Mumbling something.
"You are such a smooth person! You don't know how to fail, so you are escaping." Of course, I still didn't hear Hikigaya Hachiman's words clearly in the end.
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A person who likes to comment on and influence other people's decisions needs to change, either because he is intimidated by a person who likes to preach more than her and has a stronger personality, or because of his own behavior
It has definitely caused harm. If I am the latter, then the former Sugiura Koharu should be said to be the former, right?
But, on the other hand, one thing that must be realized is that if the strength of character is suppressed only through a strong means, then, like a spring, the deeper it is pressed, the final result it may rebound to
, the higher it will be. In other words, when the person who suppresses him is young, he will become more stubborn to a certain extent. Not only because of the long-term patience of the character itself, but also because of the desire to give her
This kind of pressure is used to prove that by relying on your own preaching and relying on your own strength, you can achieve better results than under your strength.
This is especially true for young middle school students who refuse to admit defeat. If you analyze this emotion carefully, you will find that it seems to be a simple childish rivalry. However, it is regrettable that too many people even
Realizing that this is impossible, they only feel like they are proving their ability.
Therefore, the question is, at this time, if a person crushes your proud volunteerism with an overwhelming advantage, how will you respond? This is very likely to lead to another direction.
One extreme is complete inferiority complex and complete dependence on others.
This kind of complete inferiority and complete dependence on others is different from my current state. One is the collapse of self-consciousness caused by the blow to one's own confidence from the outside world, while the latter is a kind of
Restraint based on self-reflection.
Therefore, Yukinoshita Yukino can defeat the confident Sugiura Koharu in this challenge, but she cannot crush her opponent with the same contempt for the opponent as she did in the past, like Zaimokuza Yoshiki.
After all, the characters are only a minority. The vast majority of people, the vast majority of people who have absolute self-confidence, cannot do this.
However, I can't explain this whole set of logic to Yukinoshita Yukino, but there is one thing I am sure of, that is, that girl should not fall in love with another girl because of Yukinoshita's behavior.
In the extreme, although Yukinoshita's actions may be a huge harm to her own proposition, I cannot bear the consequences of exchanging Koharu's disastrous defeat for Yukinoshita Yukino's defeat.
That is to say, in my heart, although Sugiura Koharu is not in a so-called "little girlfriend" relationship, at least when I evaluate her status, I still rank her higher than Yukinoshita Yukino.
"Um, Xiaohe, what happened to you just now?" The panting sister chased me, showing a worried expression.
"No problem! I just asked the minister to help take care of my 'little girlfriend'!" I shrugged helplessly, trying to show that I didn't care.
"Well, as expected, Kato-chan still cares about Koharu-chan! So, if possible, I think I can pass this opportunity——"
"——I care, I care. I have never thought about taking this opportunity to do something. In other words, I care about Koharu just because her opponent is Minister Yukinoshita. If it is someone like Isshiki,
Even if she wins, she still knows how to control herself."
"Indeed! Sometimes what Xiaoxue does is too clean and tidy, which makes it appear a little unhuman!" Sister nodded and said, "But it doesn't matter, it's not because I have sister by Xiaoxue's side.
, Xiaoqi is also here, if Xiaoxue’s problem becomes too serious, we can suggest stopping her!”
"But you haven't stopped everything Yukinoshita Yukino has done so far, right? If I don't give her a vaccination or something in advance, the consequences will be very serious!"
"Hey, Xiaohe, you can't say that. It's just because nothing Xiaoxue did before was too extreme. She did it with all her heart when I asked her to do it, and the same thing happened to Xiaocai. That was Xiaocai's own promise.
Yeah——"
"Don't think you can get away with it just by deliberately not picking up the wooden base!"
"But, as for Zaimuza," my sister said with a hesitant and then unbearable expression, "Well, isn't Zaimuza's final situation also pretty good?"
"That's just because Zaimuza's character is a rare jerk, okay?"
"In short, Xiaohe, you don't have to worry about Xiaoharu-chan. If Xiaoxue speaks too seriously this time, I will definitely help. Hehe, after all, this is a rare few times since Xiaohe entered high school.
It’s an opportunity to expose your feelings! You must seize this opportunity!” My sister said enthusiastically, as if it was the relief of a rescue team member who had been waiting for the victims to ask for help after hearing the victims’ gestures.
The situation is the same.
However, this gave me a somewhat strange feeling, a strange, inconsistent feeling that was somewhat inconsistent with my previous thinking.
"Sister Yui, what do you mean by 'rare opportunities to reveal your feelings'? What does this sentence mean?"
"Hey, Xiaohe, didn't you feel it? I realized it very clearly," my sister tilted her neck and looked at me worriedly, "Although Xiaohe still cares about me at home, he always cares about me.
It feels like Xiaohe is a different person in school, not as active as he was in junior high school."
“But being active is not necessarily a good thing!”
"That's true," my sister held her chin, blinked, and said while thinking, "But, there is a very strange feeling. Xiaohe has always been cold and will not treat others.
People show their partiality and always seem to be in a state of being outdoors as much as possible! Although I think this is somewhat similar to small businesses, there must be something very ordinary about it, but I can’t think of it.
,Well, I feel like a fool."
The state my sister is talking about is the state of self-restraint I have had since high school, so I can understand that few people realize the benefits of this kind of introspection, but I am proud of it to a certain extent, although in the short term
There are some problems, but after you adapt, you can make fewer mistakes. And the history of mankind, as long as you don't make mistakes, is enough for you to move forward.
"So," my sister looked at me and continued, "when Xiaohe proposed to fight for the service department, I was very happy! Although Xiaohe said it was for me, I can see that at that time
, as a member of the service club, Xiaohe wanted to challenge Hayato, right? Although we won’t talk about the final result, at that time, Xiaohe at least had full feelings and fell in love with our service club, haha!
"
"So, what you are saying is that my current concern for Xiaoharu is actually similar to my previous challenge to Hayama because of the service department."
"Yes, that's it, it's pretty good! So sister will definitely help you!"
——No, this is not right, this is right, but this is not right.
My concern for Koharu is because I take on Koharu’s perspective, and my dissatisfaction with Hayama is because I take on the perspective of the service department. Similarly, my sister’s judgment is correct.
However, this approach itself is wrong. If I arbitrarily assume the perspective of the service club to solve the problem and exert influence, the obvious result will be the disintegration of Hayama and the football club. If I arbitrarily assume the attitude of Sugiura Koharu, although I temporarily see it as
To be continued...