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Chapter 43: Denial and Cognition of Self-righteous Emotions

In my mind, this shouldn’t be the first time that senior Xiao Muxi came to me with some unwillingness to worry about his own image. I don’t know how the previous commotion calmed down, but if you, senior, come here once a month

If you conduct such a routine "cross-examination", your image in the school will collapse. I'm not talking nonsense!

However, this kind of "special treatment" approach still makes me a little proud. Although the situation is different from what most people think, it can make senior Xiao Mu's mood become so weird. The entire Sobu High School

Is it just me?

Of course, if possible, I hope that when seniors' emotions become different, their thinking direction can become a little more positive.

After all, for girls like Senior Xiaomu, it is definitely a lie to say that boys don’t have the slightest longing in their hearts. Some people say that boys will always do all kinds of things in front of the girls they like when they are naive.

Naughty and mischievous actions to attract the attention of the other party. Of course, people will always sneer at this approach, thinking that the actions of these stupid little boys will only have the opposite effect on the girls they like. Of course, I have definitely passed it.

In that somewhat ridiculous era, people would certainly not deliberately use such awkward methods to attract the attention of their seniors. However, one thing people must admit is that it is better to use such lame methods to attract the attention of the other party than to attract the attention of the other party.

It is much better for the other party to ignore you.

Therefore, although I am not deliberately trying to attract the other person's attention in a way that makes Komu-senpai dissatisfied, my current somewhat strange and complacent mood must be the same as the little boy who has attracted the attention of the girl he likes.

It's the same - of course, if possible, it would be better to do it another way.

Ah, no, that's too bad. I habitually fell into self-contemplation mode when chatting with senior Xiao Mu.

When I raised my head in embarrassment, the senior's eyes were not fixed on me as usual. She was just leaning on the escalator, looking at the corridor of the first-grade classroom in a daze. The senior was so beautiful.

His long brown hair was casually draped over his shoulders, and then dragged to the handrail of the stairs. I have to admit that even leaning on it casually with a little carelessness about the image was still not uncomfortable for senior Xiao Mu.

, or maybe for me, or others, who have already adapted to the image of senior Komushi who behaves formally and seriously in school, this image of a somewhat casual senior actually makes her more alive.

"Uh, um, senior Xiaomu Zhuo?" This time it was me who reminded senior Xiaomu Zhuo who was already distracted, which was a bit uncomfortable!

"Ah, Kazuya, are you done with your daze?" Senior turned his head and looked at me with a smile. However, although it should be senior's smile that was shown in front of me, it was more or less creepy.

What does it feel like!

"Well, I'm done with my daze." I originally considered what words to use to tease my senior back, but feeling the half-smiling aura of my senior, I thought it would be better to be cautious. After all, up to now, I have

I still don't know what I did wrong.

After all, I have never done anything that could easily attract people's attention like the last challenge with Hayama.

I was prepared to withstand the storm of cross-examination from my senior, but what somewhat surprised me was that, when senior Xiao Muyu was obviously ready to treat me seriously, the senior himself,

But he hesitated and flinched a little.

"Well, Kazuya has been staying at Sobu High School for almost a semester! It seems that although you seem to want to be low-key, many things have happened to you! Compared to mine

In the first semester, the beginning of your high school life is quite colorful!"

"Well, it's because all kinds of accidents always happen! Most of the things I don't actively want to do, but they come to me inexplicably." Although I don't know what the reason is for seniors.

She started to talk nonsense, but in this case, it shouldn't be wrong to just follow her words, right?

"But it is undeniable that life is still very exciting," the senior continued, "At least, compared to me, a senior who is about to graduate, life is much richer."

"But senior should be someone who is more satisfied with this relatively dull life, right? Don't you like being asked to do various activities?"

"Is that so?" Faced with my somewhat teasing words, senior Xiao Muyu immediately asked seriously.

This makes me a little unsure. In my opinion, Senior Xiaomu is a person who is very good at understanding the hearts of others. This is also the reason why she participated in the election of Miss Sobu High School with some reluctance.

,However, since you are unwilling to participate in activities like Miss Sobu High that can express yourself, your senior should be the kind of person who prefers a dull life, right?

I've always thought so.

However, when I made this judgment, Senior Xiaomu was only specious and did not give a definite answer.

Could it be said that senior Xiaomu Yan actually has a desire to show himself?

I suddenly thought of the senior's answer to Isshiki on the election issue of Miss Sobu High School. I came to the conclusion before that the senior was just considering the mood of Isshiki and the student union and was not willing to refuse immediately. However, now I feel a little uncomfortable.

Be sure.

However, the fact that senior does not want to continue participating in Miss Sobu High's election was told to me by senior himself - what the hell is going on here.

"Okay, if you can't think of it, don't think about it, right? Maybe your answer at the beginning was correct? Look at your nervous look," maybe my somewhat uncertain demeanor was too serious. It turns out

The serious-faced senior Xiaomu Yan herself laughed softly at first, and then she dismissed the topic lightly in a tone of "it's not a big deal" and said, "Besides, I came to see you, mainly

It’s for your sake.”

To be honest, the more I interact with seniors in recent times, the less I understand what seniors think most of the time. I originally thought that I was closer to understanding the true side of seniors than other people in the school.

However, now I feel more and more that the so-called "Xiao Mu Xuecai's reality" is just my self-righteous delusion.

For example, senior's serious rhetorical question just now when faced with my less serious answer, and senior Xiaomu's initiative to say that this question is actually not worth mentioning. These two states are obviously opposite states, but I don't know clearly.

Which idea here is the real idea of ​​the senior, or maybe, neither of these ideas is the real idea.

People often hide something because they are afraid, and they are often unwilling to be honest with others because they are worried. I used to think that I was the person that seniors could open up to, but now it seems that

Not so!

Really, looking at it this way, I still feel a little bit awkward!

Isn't it just a self-righteous lie being slowly exposed? But Yuigahama Kazuya, why are you in such a sad mood?

Hey, you guy, what are you doing? Don't tell me that you are just thinking about yourself and falling out of love!

——You are not just thinking about being lovelorn! Going back to the previous mood, when a little boy shows off himself in front of the girl he likes and teases her to get attention, that can really be called a kind of "love"

"Is it the mood? It's just a kid, it can't be called a feeling of love that should be expressed in a serious way! And now I am the same, it's just a feeling of being one step ahead of me.

It turns out that your efforts are in vain. If you interpret this simple emotion as superficial love, it can only prove that your previous love, Yuigahama Kazuya, was in vain.

The most important point is that I must not regard the feelings of admiration, appreciation, or even sister-like reliance I have for Senior Xiaomu as feelings of love!

Normally, if I was distracted for such a long time when Senior Xiaomu was about to speak, I would definitely be looked down upon by Senior, but today's situation seemed to be the same as Senior Xiaomu's off-line press conference. Senior responded to my repeated appearances.

He didn't pay any attention to his distracted behavior.

And just when I was distracted, the senior seemed to be working very hard to adjust his state of questioning me.

So, basically when I came to my senses from my distraction, the senior's question followed: "Kazuya, although asking you this question is a bit abrupt and the timing is a bit wrong, I still have some questions.

I’m curious, what kind of person were you when you were in junior high school?”

"Why are you asking this question?" I looked at senior Xiaomu Yan, and I really didn't understand his state of mind.

"Well, how should I put it? I don't want to inquire about your privacy, Kazuya! It's just that today I happened to hear some uncertain words from my friends, plus some things I have learned before.

——”

I feel like I understand a little bit what senior means. If I can laugh off Isshiki's teasing misunderstanding as a joke, then it seems like Kokiso-senpai really took that rumor seriously!

"Forget it, I'll just ask." However, before I could explain this matter to my senior, he seemed to have made up his mind and said, "You and the person you mentioned before

Sugiura-san, what was the reason for the breakup when we were in junior high school?"

Ahhhh, it is true. President Jougai is a third-year student. If she had such a misunderstanding, apart from the people from the student council, the first person to learn about this matter must be the third-year president. Are you a good girl? Of course, I believe that the president will not say nonsense. He probably just expresses complaints such as "the first-year boy who commissioned me actually had an affair with the other party's president before." Most people who don't know the inside story Even if they don't associate this person with me, it's different for senior Xiaomu Yu. If she gets this information, she can basically determine the identity of this "entrusted first-year boy".

In other words, the situation is somewhat similar to that of Hayama. Although the specific identity of that person did not appear in the rumors, because my level of conformity in this aspect is so high, it is easy for Ogi-senpai. Recognized me.

"Well, senior, I know what you are going to say, but don't worry too much -" I argued helplessly.

However, after breaking through the layer of hesitation, senior Kogi-san became serious instead. Taking a deep breath, she interrupted my explanation and continued: "——Kazuya, although this sentence was made by Let me tell you that it is not that appropriate. I may have overplayed the role of your sister, but I must tell you how sad it is to hurt two girls at the same time in a relationship. Especially when you are unconscious, don't think that your own way of handling it is the most correct. If you handle these relationships with an irresponsible attitude, it may lead to a collective collapse, do you understand?"

The senior seemed particularly excited when she said these words. This reaction made it feel as if she was not lecturing me, but herself.

Sure enough, I still don’t understand a lot of things about Senior Xiao Muyu!

However, at least for my matter, it is not difficult to explain it clearly to my seniors.

"Um, senior, can you listen to what I have to say first?" I smiled bitterly and raised my hand to signal to senior Xiaomu Suo.

"Huh? Ah, I'm sorry, I was a little excited just now." The senior nodded as if he had just woken up from a dream, showing a rare embarrassed expression and said with a red face.

"Well, Koharu and President Kimura of Qingquan Middle School, they have a very good relationship!"

"Yeah, there's something wrong with the relationship, so you need - eh?" Senior Xiaomu Zhuo raised his head depressingly.

"——So, President Kimura and I actually have nothing to do with each other. It's just that the relationship between the two of them is so good, so President Kimura was worried about me and Xiaoharu when we went to discuss the problem. Will there be any problems during the meeting? As you know, girls sometimes think too much and meddle in their own business."

——Well, you are just like the current Komu-sun-senpai! I thought as I looked at Komu-sun-senpai whose face turned even redder.

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This chapter was written yesterday, and I posted it a day late because my Internet connection is in arrears. In fact, there is no Internet now. I uploaded it using the hotspot assigned to my mobile phone. In addition, I am not familiar with the rigid payment method of Europeans.
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