The family doctor finished the examination and packed his things out. Xia Yitong was far away from him, but he still got up and gave way. The family doctor smiled at her, opened the door and brought it with him.

With a very light sound, the door closed.

There is another world inside the door.

Xia Yitong still sat far away, like an abandoned puppy. Lu Yinbing sat up, sighed, and waved to her: "Baby, come."

Xia Yitong watched her walk over and stopped in front of Lu Yinbing. Lu Yinbing stretched out her hands. Xia Yitong took another step forward and hugged her in her arms. It seemed as if she had never hugged her in her life. Her hands tightened so hard that she closed her eyes.

Don't cry.

Don't cry.

Can't cry anymore.

Are you a crybaby? Don’t cry!

Still crying, Xia Yitong felt that she had cried more recently than she had in the previous twenty-six years, and she had no chance at all.

Lu Yinbing gently patted her back and said soft words to coax her.

The more I coaxed, the more I couldn't coax it, but Lu Yinbing kept coaxing it, without any impatientness.

This is not her personality. Xia Yitong also felt Lu Yinbing's abnormality when she was emotionally broken. She thought about other things in her mind and didn't bother to cry. The two of them sat on the soft couch without going to the desk, hugging each other, with a distance between them.

"I'm sick, very serious. I thought I could survive, but I didn't. I failed." Lu Yinbing said. Her voice was straightforward and calm, but it took her three months to say these words to Xia Yitong.

"Yeah." Xia Yitong listened quietly, without interruption.

"The summer vacation is about July or August. I wanted to try my recovery, so I went out and went out alone. There were not many people in the crowd. But I didn't know why it happened that way, I met an entertainment reporter. She probably didn't squat me on purpose, but she just met me anyway."

Xia Yitong was stunned. She had no idea about this.

"When she rushed towards me, I was scared and wanted to escape in panic. I took a few steps back. She stopped me with her cell phone recording and asked me questions constantly, saying that she saw a post on the forum asking me if I didn't remember the lines because I couldn't remember the lines. I asked me if I was going to leave the circle. Ask me..." Lu Yinbing paused and said, "Many, many questions, she made me feel like I was dying. There was a car on the road. I was standing there, and I especially wanted to rush over and let the car hit me to death."

"What later?" Xia Yitong asked tremblingly, what was she doing at that time? She was running for publicity outside, and Lu Yinbing was blocked by the entertainment reporter outside, almost dead.

"I didn't die, but later I smashed her cell phone." Lu Yinbing shrugged meaninglessly.

Xia Yitong smiled for the long-lost Lu Yinbing.

Xia Yitong asked: "Why is such a big thing not on the hot search?" She was afraid that she would not get news from Lu Yinbing in time outside, so Xue Yao hid it with the other party and asked Fang Hui to follow the news on the Internet for her.

Lu Yinbing said: "It's suppressed. My father's relatives are all senior officials in the military. Even Xue Yao doesn't know about this, so it's even more impossible for you to know about it."

The two of them were chatting like gossip, and the atmosphere was not as heavy as they imagined.

Lu Yinbing said: "From that day, I found that I had resistance and disgust towards that circle. Maybe it was because of my own failure. The glory that brought me before became poisons that were blood-threatening. I was recuperating at home, far away from that circle, and I didn't think about it, saw it, or listen to it. But..."

She glanced at Xia Yitong.

Xia Yitong struggled to answer her words: "You can't avoid... me."

Lu Yinbing said: "Yes."

Xia Yitong is her lover, the one who stays by her side. She shines brightly in the circle she hates, and is so outstanding that it makes people jealous.

Xia Yitong said, "I'm sorry."

"Why do you say sorry?" Lu Yinbing tilted his head and looked at her with a smile, "This is my problem, not your reason. If you are mediocre, will I be happy? No, I will feel even more uncomfortable. You are a phoenix above the nine heavens, and you must also be worthy of the king of birds with two wings under your wings."

"You are." Xia Yitong said.

"No, I'm not." Lu Yinbing said, "It used to be, but now it's not. You don't know what I felt when I heard you and Laiying were shortlisted. It was very dark. I hope you two failed and sank into the muddy swamp with me. Every day I complained about the world. Why is it me? Why is it me who got sick? Why is it me who fell from above? Did I do something unforgivable? Why is it me? Why am I such a person? Why am I living? Thinking about many useless messy questions."

Xia Yitong was about to speak, but was interrupted by Lu Yinbing: "You asked me to finish speaking, and I felt comfortable after I finished speaking. But I became such a person, a person who made me disgusted myself. Sometimes I don't want to breathe because it's so disgusting myself. And because of my survival instinct, I had to breathe, lying on the floor like a stranded fish, panting like a broken bellows. What I know more is that this is not what I really want, just like you know you see hallucinations, but most of the time, I can't resist it, so I can only follow it and fall into deeper despair."

Lu Yinbing looked up at the window, and the blue sky reflected in his eyes.

"The more you are by my side, the more I hate myself, you know? I look at you like a dazzling ball of light, and I am a pile of mud next to the light. When I get close to you, I will dirty you. I was obviously the light in the past, and I was in your direction, but now? I am jealous of you and are crazy jealous of you. Every time I feel like I have this kind of emotion, I feel nauseous and embarrassed, as if someone slapped me in the face in public, it is hard to bear humiliation."

"I also know that communication is needed, and I can say anything else, but this one, I can't say it."

Xia Yitong's body was tense and her teeth were bitten tightly. It turned out that she was really the culprit for all this.

"Are you blaming yourself again?" Lu Yinbing pierced her clenched fists, and broke them out with one finger at a time, smoothing them out, and teasing her with a smile, "Young man, it's very dangerous for you to continue like this."

Xia Yitong took a deep breath and couldn't laugh.

Lu Yinbing said: "I have said it many times. It's me who is sick, it's me who is dirty. You have no problem, there is no problem at all. You are so good, so good that I don't know how to treat you. I feel indebted to you no matter what I do."

Xia Yitong's eyes were red.

No, it was because she was too careless and thought the other party had recovered almost. She was careless and kept showing off to her. She broke the ratings today, won the award tomorrow, and was in a shortlisted place. She couldn't stand it if she relied on Lu Yinbing to love her and was fearless. Does she really love Lu Yinbing? Is she qualified to love her? Her love is just a verdict sent to her on the guillotine.

Lu Yinbing said: "I'm looking for you today..."

Xia Yitong sucked her nose and said, "I know."

"Do you know?" Lu Yinbing raised his eyebrows in surprise.

"I know." Xia Yitong said, "Let's separate for a while, I'll wait for you to come back." I also want to take advantage of this time to find out how I loved you in the first place.

Lu Yinbing suddenly disappeared.

Xia Yitong said: "I have considered it and separation is the best choice."

Xia Yitong looked at her and said with gratitude in her heart: Fortunately, I mentioned it first, don’t be psychologically burdened. I didn’t help with anything, so I should do the only thing I can do for you in the end.

She even smiled.

Lu Yinbing also looked back at her, and her heart fell and hurt.

Why is she still thinking about herself at this time? She has not made any mistakes in this matter from beginning to end, so why should she bear the responsibility for her mistakes without regrets?

Lu Yinbing opened her mouth, her throat was dry and she made no sound, and she put her forehead tiredly on her shoulder.

Xia Yitong asked: "What are the plans? Or go abroad at home?"

Lu Yinbing said: "Go abroad. Fewer people know me abroad, and you will be further away from this circle. You can calm down and recuperate."

Xia Yitong asked: "Who will accompany you? Don't be alone, I'm worried about you."

Lu Yinbing replied: "My mother is with me. She has retired in the past two years. I asked her to leave in advance and accompany me to go abroad. I plan to take a look at the memory problems in my mind while recuperating, and do a two-pronged approach."

"That's pretty good. My aunt is more at ease than anyone else."

"I didn't let her go, but she was anxious to me. Today I showed off my dad. My dad was too busy with work and couldn't go. It was not a good thing. She was as beautiful as something."

Xia Yitong smiled and said, "It's quite beautiful. You can see your beautiful face every day."

"There are photos on the Internet, and there are a bunch of them at home. How can I see them?" Lu Yinbing heard what she meant and replied with a point of view.

Xia Yitong was silent for a while, curled her hair that had grown to her shoulders with her fingers, and asked, "Will you still contact me after you go abroad?"

"have no idea."

"Oh." Xia Yitong looked at her small auricle and white earlobes and said softly, "It's great, you can rest assured and recuperate, I'll wait for you."

One year, two years, three years... no matter how long it takes.

"I will see you." Lu Yinbing said, seeing the years put stars on you.

The room became very quiet, and only the breath of two people was heard. Xia Yitong kissed her temples and asked her, "When will you leave?"

"It's tomorrow, I'm going to have a physical examination in the morning."

“Why do you need a physical examination?”

"Because the domestic cheaper." Lu Yinbing joked, Xia Yitong laughed in cooperation. No matter how good the scenery is, it is not as good as her smiling eyes. "Then can I go with you tomorrow?"

"Okay." Lu Yinbing answered her.

Xia Yitong didn't speak for a long time. After a while, she said in a hoarse voice: "Have I told you that I love you?"

"Sayed."

"Then listen again."

"you say."
Chapter completed!