Chapter 205: The Freedom of Phaedophie
The next day, after the wake-up call rang, we finished washing up, folded the quilt into square tofu chunks, and then got out of the prison account. Only then did we realize that the falling snow I saw before the last ray of light disappeared last night was not an illusion.
At this moment, thick snow had accumulated to the ankles. The eyes passed over the high walls. It turned out that the outside world was like here, and the eyes were covered with white space, clean and elegant, and there was no trace of dirt!
The new year quietly began in this untainted solemn and white, and the wheel of time began a new round of rotation, neither fast nor slow, neither increasing nor decreasing...
I stopped doing exercises this morning. After gathering, I opened the small room where cleaning tools were placed. The security officers of each supervisor went in order to receive the tools and distributed them to us without saying a word.
So in a silence we began to clean the snow in the yard. Before this, I had never seen any organization's ability to move so efficiently. Two or three huge courtyards, dozens of people, were cleaned up in a short time, and they piled up at the sewer entrance and used a water pipe to rinse it and it turned into water and flowed away.
Next, each person had a mop in his hand, and he was mopping the accumulated water and using a dry mop. The entire venue instantly became clean and radiant. If the roof and courtyard wall were not white, there would be almost no signs of falling snow here.
After breakfast, it was free time to move around. The discipline officer threw out two basketballs and went back to the room to keep warm. It seemed that we were deliberately relaxing completely without taking care of it.
The courtyard suddenly became boiling, and two waves of people ran under the basket not far away to play basketball.
Asong gestured to Xiao Tang and me. Xiao Tang and I both shook our heads, so he ran into the crowd to play basketball. Seeing their cheerful appearance, I think this is probably the only entertainment activity here.
Xiao Tang and I sat silently on the steps and watched the two groups of people in front of us playing basketball in a mess. Xiao Tang made a cigarette from somewhere and took out a box of matches to light the fire. The matches were probably damp, and he finally made a fire after several of them.
He took two big mouthfuls beautifully, and his handsome face became a little blurred in the blue smoke, and then handed me the cigarette.
I took it and took two puffs and gave it back to him, so the cigarette butt was burned as we handed it over and over. Xiao Tang tore the cigarette butt open, tore off the sponge from the cigarette mouth and slid it into the air. A gust of wind blew and could no longer be found.
"Don't you go and have fun?" Xiao Tang nodded slightly and signaled that the scene was in the middle.
I smiled bitterly and shook my head: "I'm not used to it!"
"You will get used to it! We have to stay here for a long time, and time will make you get used to everything here!" Xiao Tang's face again showed his poetic expression!
"Maybe!" I said lightly, Xiao Tang's words made me feel unreasonable for no reason.
I suddenly remembered an American movie, a movie describing prison. There was an old prisoner named Lao Bu who stayed in prison for decades. He gradually got used to everything in that small world. Until he was old and finally could go out, he became extremely scared and did not even dare to step out of the prison. In the end, because he could not face the strange world outside, he chose to hang himself in a small hotel.
The movie says that Lao Bu’s tragic fate is because it is institutionalized. I think he just feels that he doesn’t have enough time to familiarize him with another strange world. He uses
He had only been familiar with that small world for a lifetime, but now he suddenly faced that completely unfamiliar and huge world, and he chose to escape.
However, he can never go back to the world he is familiar with. Perhaps only by self-subsisting his life can we escape the fear in our hearts...
Xiao Tang is right. We still have a long time to spend here, and I will eventually get used to everything here. Will I be like Lao Bu and choose to escape like Lao Bu and like Lao Bu and choose to escape? Lao Bu chose a rope, what would I choose?
I couldn't help but feel a sensation!
In addition to the two groups of people playing basketball, there were other scattered people in groups, standing, squatting or sitting together. Their faces were all happy because of this short time without any need to work, and they all showed an excited look. I think they were probably used to the life here and have gradually been institutionalized...
I'm probably not far away!
My eyes accidentally swept to a corner of the yard far away from the crowd. A young man with a delicate gaze squatted there, looking dullly outside the wall, his expression was dull. It was probably judging from his loose clothes that he was probably thin and only had a bunch of skeletons left.
"That person is Xiaozhuang, he is a college student. He came in three months earlier than me!" Xiao Tang probably saw me looking at the person and explained.
"He just helped a pregnant woman pick up a package in the supermarket locker. In the end, the package was seized by the police with contraband, which was sentencing in grams! The police followed the clues and finally found him in the supermarket surveillance. He was in the middle of the crackdown and he couldn't tell the source of the package..."
"If he could live forever, the weight of the things inside would be enough for him to sit for more than a thousand years!"
Listening to Xiao Tang's words, I felt a sense of nausea! Thinking about what Xiao Tang said just now, thinking about the so-called conclusive crimes of myself and Xiao Tang, I couldn't help but wonder what kind of world this is? Sin is always around us but we know nothing. How should we be cautious in our words and actions to avoid the dangerous shoals of reality?
Thinking of this, I suddenly felt that the so-called freedom is really freedom? What is the difference between the outside and the inside? Is the so-called outside a larger inside? Where can we escape? Where is the Pure Land? Is it really only by letting the soul escape from the shell to obtain true freedom? Is this the freedom that Feidophili said?
The weekly holiday ended soon, and the trucks that had disappeared for a few days gathered from all over the country again, and we began to work hard for our humble lives. This is probably the meaning of labor reform, at least it made me realize that if I could go out, even if I lived in the lowest level in my life, I would be cautious and never violated even the slightest law.
In this high-intensity work, coupled with the imaginable diet, my body quickly became thinner. Even if there was no mirror to look at me, I could clearly feel my gradually bulging cheekbones and ribs visible to the naked eye by just touching them! Isn’t everyone here the same as me?
At the end of the first month, I won my first visit day since I was imprisoned. When I learned the news, I was excited for no reason, but I was instantly left alone again.
Who would come to see me? I have long been without relatives, and there are many so-called relatives, but since the man named Wei Jianguo abandoned me and my mother, I no longer regard them as relatives. I even felt ashamed of my surname Wei.
This is also the reason why I disagree with my mother after she died of illness and chose another place to bury my mother in the family cemetery. In my heart, my mother and I are no longer from the Wei family.
Over the years, I have never taken the initiative to visit the so-called elders of the clan, and I have never had any contact. I am afraid that they will not know about me being imprisoned, so how could they come to see me?
So will anyone come to see me? Probably some, I think! Xiangdong probably will come to see me, it seems that he is the only one, my good brother! Fortunately, you are still there. If it weren't for you, I would have been so miserable that I would have been so disappointing...
Maybe there is someone besides you, right? Will she come? What should I say to her...
It turns out that I never underestimated the brotherhood between me and Xiangdong, and he really came.
Outside the glass window, he was still wearing leather jackets and Martin boots, and a cool dress. He stared at me for a long time, and suddenly this bearded man shed tears...
My nose couldn't help but feel sour, and my throat felt bitter!
He did not hide his emotions, reached out to wipe away the tears from his face, took a deep breath, and then he smiled...
Then he picked up the phone and smiled relaxedly, "It seems that the food inside is not very good! But you are still thinner and look better, and you look more like a man!"
I could no longer collapse when I heard this, my chin couldn't help but shake, and Xiangdong's figure outside the window became blurred instantly! I tried my best to control my emotions, not want Xiangdong to see my weakness, nor do I want these short fifteen minutes to be wasted on this sigh and emotion.
I wiped my eyes and smiled at him and said, "I just happened to want to lose weight, and it seems that the effect is obvious!"
Xiangdong lowered his head and smiled, then smiled and stopped his expression and became solemn: "Brother, I'm sorry! I know too late and I didn't help with anything!" His tone was full of infinite self-blame.
I smiled faintly and said, "How can you blame you for this? They are prepared for it. Even if you know it early in the morning, you will be powerless!"
Xiangdong fell into silence again. After a moment, he raised his head and said, "Perform well in it. I have consulted a lawyer. It doesn't take that long to behave well. Three or four years is not impossible. Brothers are waiting for you to come out. I will take care of everything. Then we two start a business together!"
I smiled and said, "This guy really doesn't comfort people. You have already achieved success in your career and have found a career in football!" But I still nodded with encouragement, which was considered to be his wishes.
"What else do you need here? I asked the leaders here that as long as they comply, a lot of things can be sent in! Money can also be sent in!" Xiang Dongdao.
Chapter completed!