[Before the long lament, I need to remind everyone that the entire content that follows is a bit dense with negative energy. Friends who are worried about affecting their mood can skip it with one click now.]

OK, let's get started.

First, I want to explain to you why this month, since the 10th, almost all updates have been single.

Many people will wonder if the author had a silver alliance last month and bought high-quality goods by the way, and then he started to drift away? On the surface, it seems like this. But there is a saying that is good, how can there be true empathy in this world?

.We can’t make friends in life, let alone us who are separated by the Internet? How do you know what really happened?

Now let me tell you what I have been doing in the past half month. In addition to the daily work and coding, I have also done one thing in the past half month, and that is buying a house.

Speaking of this, many people will have the thought that the author is so rich that he can buy a house.

If it were really that simple, I wouldn't give a "negative energy warning" in front of you.

Let me tell you about the process of buying a house this time. It can also be regarded as leaving a "diary" for myself so as not to forget it in the future, because my memory is really bad.

It must be said that I own a house. I was born in a rural area, and in 2017, I acquired land. But I did not become a nouveau riche, because land here is cheap, so cheap that you can’t imagine it.

The land (ten acres) is only over 400,000 yuan, less than 500,000 yuan. Counting miscellaneous subsidies, it can barely reach 500,000 yuan? I haven't calculated it carefully, but I feel it shouldn't be much.

I only have a little over three acres of land, and I don’t know the exact amount because I haven’t planted it before. Even the land that belongs to me, the process of getting it into my hands was full of twists and turns, and the negative energy was even more overwhelming.

, I won’t go into details here, it affects everyone’s mood, and may also destroy the outlook on life of some young friends.

Back to the topic, at the beginning of 2018, I took this money and paid the down payment for my current house through some friends. Because I didn’t know anything, I entrusted others to handle it. At that time, I was in a low mood, and my whole person showed signs of depression.

A kind of 'decadent' state, with almost nothing being taken care of. In short, the final result is that after paying hundreds of thousands and paying a monthly payment of one thousand and fifty thousand, I got a 'one-bedroom' house. It is known as

It's 40 square meters, actually... You can imagine that there are multiple bathrooms in a university dormitory, and it's almost this big.

The decoration is said to be 'simplistic decoration', but it is more accurate to say that it is 'simplified within simplicity'. You can imagine what it looks like. In this way, I moved to Changchun, because this is where I went to college, so I am quite familiar with it.

I successfully found a job and started living as a house slave.

This city is very strange. As a provincial capital, I doubt there will be anyone poorer than this city. But relatively speaking, the consumption is not small. Because the transportation is not very convenient, if you don’t have a car, you basically can’t go anywhere.

It may be direct. It's okay along the light rail line, but the buses basically never arrive on time, and it may be because the planned routes are unreasonable and there are overlaps. The bus lines are always at war with each other, either at a slow pace or at a life-or-death speed.

It's scary. I have to mention here that the driving skills of the drivers here are really excellent and there are almost no accidents, so you don't have to worry, safety can still be guaranteed.

Moreover, it seems that everyone has a strong desire to compare, and the pressure of 'human relationships' is relatively high. If you want to do something, if there are no 'people', you are basically destined to waste more time and spend more money.

All in all, in my heart, this is a place that puts me under a lot of pressure. But compared to my previous situation, even though the place I live in is small and I have a mortgage and other messy things, I am still very happy. After all, this

The place I live in is mine, and I can still afford to support it. In June 2018, in order to earn more income, I chose to write a novel. My initial thought was that it would be great if the manuscript fee could be paid monthly, so that I

The pressure will be much less.

There was no news from the first few chapters until "The Technician of the Tang Dynasty" which is the fifth book.

The results of this book exceeded my expectations. In addition to living expenses and mortgage, I finally had some savings. But I still live very anxiously because I am always worried about many things, such as how long I can write this book.

, will readers like the plot, why has the subscription dropped, will the editor recommend it this week... and so on, a lot of questions.

At the same time, real-life problems also make me very anxious. I am not a social person, so I am often in a state of being 'unsociable'. For example, there is a female colleague whose husband bought her a bag.

, everyone would say something like "Your husband is really rich, your husband loves you so much..." but I couldn't say it, because I didn't think it had anything to do with me. I didn't say anything at this time, this woman

Colleagues would look at me sideways, probably because they were dissatisfied.

She didn't know that when they were carrying her, these same people would say that her bag was fake, that her husband was pretending, that she had no money and was pretending to be rich... I still can't participate in discussions like this.

Because I thought, what does this have to do with me! At this time, something even more speechless happened. These people who spoke ill of people behind their backs, because I was not involved, thought I would report... with even weirder looks.

Look at me.

I just can’t figure it out. It’s so hard to socialize. I can’t even talk if I don’t want to?

Get back to the topic again.

In this way, the days passed day by day, and the Spring Festival of 2019 came.

I went home for the Spring Festival, and like everyone else, I couldn't escape the "three fatal consequences." What kind of job do you do? How much do you earn? When will you get married?

My job is very ordinary, and there is nothing to show off. How much money I make, four thousand, is totally my younger brother. Although I also get some income from writing novels, when I say that I write novels, my relatives and friends all use a kind of "You are

He looked at me like he had nothing to say, and then said in a very pitiful tone, "Ah, I've heard of writing novels. I'm good at writing novels. I'm a cultural person."

It felt like I was lying, which made people very uncomfortable, and I never said anything again.

As for the third question, when will you get married...

Every time I am silent.

Is a 40-square-meter house slave worthy of getting married? This is not a map gun, but in our environment, a girl who is a little bit good-looking will not ask you for a 200,000 yuan gift, but a full-price RV is already

My conscience has discovered it. You are 40 square meters and still have a mortgage. If a girl really marries you, unless this girl is crooked, has some problems, or is really stupid, otherwise her parents will force her to death if she is willing.

After the Spring Festival, I became a little autistic. I was thinking, what should I do?

So in March, I worked hard. My idea at the time was that if I could make a breakthrough in writing, I would order 10,000 yuan, earn 100,000 yuan a month, have an annual salary of one million, and buy a house.

Buy a car, find a beautiful wife, won't all your problems be solved?

However, this is destined to be just a dream. At the beginning of March, the average subscription dropped rapidly. I updated a chapter and dropped five average subscriptions because there were too few new additions. By the middle of the month, the average subscription had dropped to 2,000.

5. To be honest, I felt cold when I was typing this.

But that's the good thing about me. Even if I feel cold, I can persist because I have been very since I was a child. I am at heart. Maybe I really can't do it, but I won't let others say that I can't do it.

, or I choose to give up when I first realize that it won’t work. Even if I give up, I will persist until others no longer pay attention, or when I feel desperate, I will give up silently. The action of licking my wounds will never be seen by anyone.

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Therefore, my choice was not to give up. I chose to code words while listening to the song "Liangliang". Then in the middle of the month, the "Daily Guide" recommendation came, and the number one "Technician of the Tang Dynasty" came

This outbreak broke out, with an increase of 120,000 new subscriptions in three days. Then a silver light flashed from "Stubborn Little King", and the Silver Alliance brought another 50,000 collections. Amid the scoldings of a group of trolls, "Datang Technician"

》Finally a masterpiece.

This is something I didn't expect at all.

At the beginning of April, the average order was just over 3,000, which was on the verge of danger.

I cherished this hard-won achievement, so I thought at that time, I must update more, I must update more. In the first few days, I did exactly that. But on the 8th, I received a

Phone call. He said that a new city was being built near our home and there was a real estate for sale near the experimental primary school. He asked me if I was interested. The price was about 5,000.

You may be thinking, are there still houses worth 5,000 yuan in this era? It’s too cheap.

I want to tell you that this is a northeastern county town, now called a "district". In the first two years, the most expensive house price was 3,501 square meters. In just two or three years, it has increased to 1,500 yuan. This ratio

, do you still think it’s cheap?

But it's much cheaper than where I live now.

I calculated that if the house I live in now is sold, it will increase by nearly 510 square meters compared to when I bought it. Although it is small and not in a school district, it is very close to the light rail, so it is still convenient to work.

. As for me, the house price in the most trashy school district in Changchun is more than 12,000 yuan. With my current income, even if I have a family in the future, I will probably have to take the light rail three stops a day to send my children to school.

Everyone advised me to stay here, after all, it is a provincial capital city. But I have lived here for a year, and apart from anxiety and inexplicable discomfort, I really don’t feel any sense of happiness. After a few days of hesitation, I

I decided to sell it, return to the county (district), and buy the 5,010-square-meter house in the school district that will be handed over in October this year.

I have been working on this thing for the past ten days. The day before yesterday, I said at the end of the chapter that I was going to do a big thing, and it was this big thing. Yesterday, I paid the down payment. My current house has been sold, and I am looking for another

My friend borrowed 10,000 yuan and barely scraped together enough. I am still living in this house, and there are still three days before I have to leave here. To be honest, I suddenly felt a lot of reluctance.

I've been renting a house for another half a year because I can't quit my job now. My plan is to work for another half a year, and then when the house comes down, I'll go back to the county (district) and think of a way. After saving up my salary plus royalties, I should be able to

I can afford the move-in fee. I definitely don’t have money for renovations, so I’ll live in the rough house for now. I just paid the deposit for renting the house, and I still have 370 left in my pocket. This is all my assets now.

When you read this, you will definitely be thinking, why don’t you ask your parents and relatives for help?

I don’t want to go into details about the reason, because it’s very uncomfortable. It’s not that I don’t want to look for it, and it’s not that I haven’t looked for it before. But when I looked for my mother, my mother said what did your father say? My father said, your mother has money to look for your mother.

Haha... My parents are like this, who else can I turn to? I also envy my other cousins ​​who buy a house, one gets 20,000, and the other gets 30,000. But there is nothing I can do, I am so thin-skinned,

I can't afford such a big favor, so after thinking about it, I might as well forget it. I'll look at people's faces and make excuses, but I still can't do it.

No one is looking for him. He is either arrogant or . He is a person. He can stand up day by day. If he can not bend down, he will not bend down.

Everything is done by myself. Now can you understand why I have updated it every few days? To be honest, I can update it, but I feel that it is not easy for me, it is too difficult. But but

It's not an excuse or a reason. As an author, I haven't fulfilled my responsibilities this month, I admit it. But I... really can't help it.

The process of buying a house is also difficult.

As I said before, in the environment here, everything needs to be done by "someone". The same goes for buying a house. People with "someone" will get a much cheaper price than a "little white guy" like me. Often they also

They don’t even lack this little money, but I am a poor person who has no money and is short of money, so I can’t save any money.

And because I didn’t know much about the house, I looked like a fool when I entered the sales office. I believed whatever they said. I didn’t understand what they said about public stalls. In the end, I bought a fourth-floor apartment on the far west side.

The first floor is still a shop.

There are so many things that are unsatisfactory, but I can't change them even after I paid the money... Oh, it's so uncomfortable. However, there are good things. I don't have to live in 40 square meters anymore. The new house has two bedrooms and is twice as big.

It's a lot. Of course, the monthly payment is also higher, 2,500 per month. To be honest, I don't know if I can afford this building in the future. Taking it one step at a time, my head is already numb and I can't think about it.

So much.

I don’t know if my choice is the right one, but I’ve already made it. I’ve done it, and it’s too late to regret it. It can only be like this.

I originally planned to tell everyone about this yesterday, but I have been hesitating whether to tell you about it. But I really don’t have anyone to tell you. People only know when they need help.

What is the score in my mind, the answer I got is 'zero'. But fortunately, I still have a few readers after all, and I am still writing novels. I am lucky to be able to tell you about it.

This article is not a waste of money, and I don’t need your extra help. It would be the greatest help to me if you could subscribe to a few more chapters.

Finally, thank you for staying with me for so long.
Chapter completed!