What is love?

Yaoyuan felt that he and Tan Ruikang had been dating since the first day they met. The so-called dating, middle school students were nothing more than going to school and going to and from school together every day, buying bottles of water to drink with each other. College students were just about picking up each other and going to eat after class, buying things from each other, going to evening self-study together, going out for fun during holidays, and when they were unhappy, they would make each other happy, and when they were happy.

Regarding sex, Yaoyuan dare not think too much. The pictures I saw at Qi Huiyu's house that day were too impactful. I thought too much and felt a little guilty. Will the two men beating each other? Will it hurt?

After another winter vacation, they no longer had to take a taxi home. Tan Ruikang had a car wherever he went. During the winter vacation, he passed all the subjects from afar, took a notebook, checked the itinerary, and bought a very expensive telecommunications wireless network card. After collecting the things, they drove to Yunnan to play. They took a lot of photos from Shangri-La and sent them to Zhao Guogang to see.

Winter is coming and spring is coming. The courses for the second semester of sophomore year are very heavy. Every day, I have to go to the laboratory to do experiments. The summer vacation is far away and I have to prepare for the courses for the next semester. Tan Ruikang wants to prepare for a metalworking internship, so the two of them don’t go back to Shenzhen. I originally wanted to book a hotel and let Zhao Guogang come over for a walk, but I can’t leave there. The company is busy, and the child has just been born, so it’s really busy.

Yaoyuan is with Tan Ruikang every day. Neither of them talked about finding a girlfriend, nor could they find a girlfriend at all. The girl couldn't even insert the needle when she wanted to do anything. Many people in the class initially suspected that Tan Ruikang was Yaoyuan's boyfriend, but Yaoyuan showed that she was indeed a cousin, so no one doubted it.

After all, no matter how good the relationship is, no one can imagine that **'s matter. He is with Tan Ruikang every day, and he feels very happy, but when he goes to the empty dormitory at night, he feels a little lonely. There is almost no one living in the faraway dormitory. Except for You Zeyang occasionally, he is the only one of him most of the time. He locks the door and can freely go to some gay websites on the ground, enter the chat room, and learn about their lives. Go to the left bank of Tianya, Xici Hutong, look at the stories of comrades, and read Nan Kang Bai Qi's "Six Records of the Floating Life", which makes him feel a bit like his and Tan Ruikang's life, and secretly wishes them happiness.

He didn't know what he was. He would be nervous when he saw handsome boys and be favored by boys, and he would vaguely feel happy in his heart. This should be a kind of homosexuality, but he was not very eager for sex, because the only sexual fantasy object is Tan Ruikang, and he would not dare to think too much about details when he occasionally despises himself.

He still longed to become a normal sexual orientation in the future, marry a wife and have children, just as he once agreed with Tan Ruikang, to buy a big house, and the two families live in a harmonious manner, watching their children gather together to play or fight... He hopes that one day there will be a girl to save him and make him fall in love with her suddenly.

On a late spring night, several girls lit candles downstairs to commemorate the first anniversary of Leslie Cheung's death. I still remember that he knew almost nothing last year today. I saw many web pages turning black on the Internet. In the middle, there were Leslie Cheung's photos. I thought it was an April Fool's Day joke, but it turned out to be a joke Leslie Cheung played to the whole world. Later, he bought a female newspaper, and the cover was a photo of Leslie Cheung and the gorgeous roses, and she smiled so well.

However, such a famous comrade jumped off the 24th floor on April Fool's Day and ended his life.

Yaoyuan has always not known why Leslie Cheung died. The media said that he was depressed. Is this related to his homosexual orientation?

"Xiaoyuan, did you reject Gu Xiaoting?" Tan Ruikang asked: "Don't you like her?"

"Yeah, I don't like it." Yaoyuan said.

Tan Ruikang said: "What kind of thing do you like? Several girls here want to know you."

"I can't say that if I really meet someone I like." Yaoyuan said guiltily: "I should have taken care of all costs... I have married her. I haven't met her now because I don't like it."

Tan Ruikang sat silently beside him, and the two sat next to the flowerbed downstairs of the dormitory. Tan Ruikang said, "Did you not forget the milk girl? Hey, I didn't understand it at the beginning, and I should support you with her. Love is gone in the past, and it will be difficult to meet a suitable one in the future. I always feel that I did something wrong to tell you not to fall in love early."

Yaoyuan quickly clarified: "Actually, I don't feel anything about her, really."

The dormitory is about to close, and several couples are reluctant to part with each other downstairs. Only two men are sitting side by side and chatting.

Tan Ruikang said: "Go up and go to bed, see you tomorrow."

Yaoyuan smiled and said, "See you tomorrow, brother."

One day he asked Tan Ruikang and said, "Brother, why do you hate homosexuals so much? There is a homosexual couple across our dormitory."

Tan Ruikang: “…”

Tan Ruikang's face changed instantly, and he said, "Don't get together with them, have they come to harass you?"

Yaoyuan said: "He is a lover, how could he harass me?"

Deep in my heart, I still envy the couple. Although they often quarrel, they all know the whole floor.

Tan Ruikang said: "Can you contact us to move a dormitory? Gays will have AIDS!"

The faraway is completely speechless.

"So you have always felt that homosexuality is because of AIDS?" Yaoyuan began to seriously promote Tan Ruikang. Homosexuality will not directly cause AIDS, only excessive intercourse will occur. Moreover, HIV only passes through body fluids and blood, mother-to-child infection, etc.

Tan Ruikang said: "Last time I heard there was an AIDS village where one person can get it, and everyone can get it..."

Yaoyuan is almost blown up. Tan Ruikang also looks like a science subject, so why is it so closed to these things? It is not as good as the level of elementary school students.

"It's not because of homosexuality!" Yaoyuan said: "It's because the whole village sells blood. The village chief pulled out the blood of all people of the same blood type, mixed it together, took out the valuable ingredients from it and sold it, and then injected the remaining blood back to everyone..."

Tan Ruikang listened like a book of heaven. He knew very little about this and avoided talking about sex.

"Then don't provoke homosexuality, my dad said it too." Tan Ruikang said: "He just hates homosexuality very much. homosexuality in the army is very disgusting."

Yaoyuan guessed something. Tan Ruikang's father must have said this when he was a child. Maybe it was Tan's father himself who experienced it. This incident caused a shadow on his father for a lifetime and also gave him a homophobia impression.

"Xiaoyuan, don't contact those people." Tan Ruikang said seriously: "Do you know?! I'm not kidding you, you must remember this in your heart. You have been good-looking since childhood. Did a man confess to you? Don't get stuck. This is a pathological behavior. This is not allowed to happen in the world, so AIDS occurs in nature to regulate it. It is normal for females and males to be together. Just like eating civets for glutinous ointment, it is a natural punishment for humans!"

Yaoyuan thought I really underestimated you, and I still know the punishment of nature.

"A man touches you, no matter how good the relationship is, you have to reject him, do you know?" Tan Ruikang said: "If you have something that cannot be solved, just tell me, stay away from them! Let's not care about these things, but you must also keep yourself clean, not take drugs, and not get involved with those perverted homosexuals."

"I know." Yaoyuan didn't say anything about homosexuality to him, and it was also a kind of love. It was unnecessary and he could not accept it. Moreover, Yaoyuan could not convince him. It is estimated that in Tan Ruikang's impression, homosexuality was a pheasant wearing leopard-print underwear, black eyeshadow, and a bunch of feathers behind him - just like the scenes in the parade when comrades abroad fought for their marriage rights.

And he finally figured out one thing. Tan Ruikang didn't like him, but loved him very much.

Yaoyuan hugged him, and he only regarded these as a way for brothers to express family affection, just like when he was a child, he hugged Yaoyuan under the eaves and watched the rain under the eaves, and hugged him to sleep at night.

Tan Ruikang never thought of love going to be like these things.

Yaoyuan is in a complicated mood. He has come into contact with many things in the past two years and has learned many problems and current situations about comrades. He wants to try to make Tan Ruikang understand, but Tan Ruikang doesn't want to understand, and he doesn't feel that he doesn't need to understand.

A few days later, Tan Ruikang and Yaoyuan went to metalworking for internships. Yaoyuan sent him a text message: [Brother, do you remember what you said before, do we still live together after we get married?]

Tan Ruikang: [Of course I remember to buy a villa in Yinhu.]

Yaoyuan: [If you get married and I am not married, will you live like this?]

Tan Ruikang: [Isn’t this nonsense?]

Yaoyuan: [If I never get married in my life, will you let me live in your house?]

Tan Ruikang: [You have such good conditions, how can you never get married in your life? Xiaoting said that the girls chasing you are almost queuing up to our school gate. Don’t say stupid things.]

Yaoyuan: [I said what if, what if I never get married for the rest of my life?]

Tan Ruikang: [No if, what happened to you today? The teacher is here, I’m intern in the metalworking industry, I’ll tell you tonight.]

Yaoyuan: [If I was disfigured, or became disabled, or had any disease that could not get married, it would be possible, like Hawking.]

Tan Ruikang put his phone in his pocket, thought about it, and then took it out and sent him a text message: [Of course I have been raising you for the rest of my life. Don’t think about it, it’s okay.]

Tan Ruikang put away his phone and continued to make his hammer. The automation metalworking and another class in the School of Mechanics were mixed together. He had to manually file a piece of iron. He first helped Gu Xiaoting to file it, and the file was sweating profusely. After a while, he then did it himself.

A girl came over, sat opposite Tan Ruikang's machine tool, and smiled and said, "Hey, Tan Ruikang, I like you, are we going to fall in love? You can help me make this too."

The girl in the next class had a mechanical design friend, and the boys in the automation made fun of each other, and Tan Ruikang's face immediately turned red like a monkey's butt.

"If you don't have to say that, I will help you with it, bring it." Tan Ruikang said embarrassedly.

The girl tied her hair and said with a smile: "I really like you. That time, when I saw the boy you and Xiaoting like walking on the road and calling around, I thought you were very cute."

Tan Ruikang said: "That's my brother Milkie. Do you want to know him, right?"

The girl said, "Why don't you believe it?"

Tan Ruikang was helpless, rolled up his sleeves, lowered his head and used sandpaper to help the girl make her hammer handle, and he automatically divided her into the group of girls who wanted to know from him through him.

The girl said again: "My name is Lin Xi."

Tan Ruikang said oh, and after finishing, he said to her, "It's done."

Then he started to look through the experimental manual and looked at the size of the wool materials. Lin Xi smiled and said, "Thank you, will I treat you to dinner tonight?"

Tan Ruikang said: "My brother is also internship at Metalworking. I won't be with me these days. I'll ask him after the internship is over, but I won't guarantee it."

Lin Xi said: "It's just to ask you for dinner, not your brother."

Tan Ruikang: “…”

Lin Xi: "It's settled. I'll wait for you after the internship later."

After the internship that day, Tan Ruikang came out with a bag on his back and left by himself. Lin Xi said helplessly: "Hey! Ma Yue!"

Tan Ruikang didn't expect that she was really waiting. He was startled and Lin Xi said, "Let's go, have dinner together."

Tan Ruikang hurriedly said, "I, I...I'll treat you, hey, I can't guarantee that I will introduce him to you."

Lin Xi was furious and said, "I really like you! I don't want to know your brother!"

Tan Ruikang's face turned red immediately, and he didn't dare to look at her. After a moment, he said, "Go...where to eat?"

Fourteen days later, both sides were finished internships.

Tan Ruikang's car was waiting outside the workshop, and threw a hammer at him from afar and said, "I'll give it to you."

Tan Ruikang also threw his internship work, Hammer, to Yaoyuan, and smiled and said, "I'll give it to you."

The two changed the hammer, Yaoyuan knocked everywhere with the hammer, and went to have dinner. Tan Ruikang replied to a few text messages. Yaoyuan had no habit of checking his mobile phone, nor did he find anything abnormal. During dinner, Tan Ruikang looked at the text message and found it. Yaoyuan frowned and asked, "Who are you sending a text message?"

Tan Ruikang rubbed his nose and said, "A woman."

Looking at Tan Ruikang's face from afar, he said, "Have you been in love?"

Tan Ruikang said: "No, it's just a matter of negotiation."

Yaoyuan narrowed his eyes and said, "Others like you."

Tan Ruikang: "Well, she said that, but I... can't say I like her."

Yaoyuan said: "It's okay, I'm not jealous if you like her."

Tan Ruikang glanced at Yaoyao and smiled and said, "I really don't like her. I just chat occasionally, and I can talk."

Yaoyuan nodded and said, "You are so ugly, but some people like it. Let me see what you are talking about..."

Tan Ruikang smiled and said, "Yes, there is only one. You are so unkind. I still say you are so ugly. I am so handsome. You always say I am ugly. Xiaoyuan? Xiaoyuan, what's wrong with you?"

"What?"

Tan Ruikang: "You... your eyes are so red, Xiaoyuan?"
To be continued...