Dou Xun fled back to the house, feeling not well.

He touched his waist a few times aimlessly through his shirt, as if he wanted to erase Xu Xilin's fingerprints on his body. At the same time, the video that Xu Xilin had just missed repeatedly echoed in his ears and eyes, with an impact.

It was infinitely magnified on the basis of "the right time, right place and right people", and the effects of multiple senses came together. He tossed and turned in bed for half the night, and the sheets were stained the next day.

Dou Xun woke up early in the morning and secretly processed his evidence, not daring to dry it outside. After washing the area, he used a hair dryer to dry it. Then, before Xu Xilin got up, he made an excuse and went back to school.

He instinctively felt that he should calm down for a day.

The school was very quiet during the winter vacation. The library was open until the 27th of the twelfth lunar month and has not been closed for the past two days.

Dou Xun sat in the library for a while, unable to read any serious books. He was in a daze for a while, then suddenly got up and went to the sociology bookshelf, picking out all the research related to "homosexuality".

, flipping through it at a glance.

He sat there all day long. In the evening, the library was about to rush people out, so Dou Xun packed up the few books he had not finished and checked them out.

He was fed a lot of psychology, ethics and sociology theories with different accents, but he failed to analyze the reasons for his problems.

Dou Xun put his hands in his pockets and walked out blankly, asking himself: "So am I gay?"

At this time, the corrupt culture on network TV had not yet had time to become popular. Everyone still believed that there was pure friendship between men. In medicine, just a few years after sexual orientation was removed from the category of "disease", silly science boys were studying history.

It doesn't make sense. Words like "Duanxiu" and "Longyang" are just partial noun annotations.

The word "homosexual" is so serious that it makes people's hearts bleed.

Dou Xun was a little scared, but not to a deep degree. After all, this was not the first day he had become an alien. He had no parents and no brothers. He was an educated bachelor with no class. There was really nothing to be afraid of...More

Most of them are confused.

For his future life that has no reference, and for his desire to become clearer day by day.

You can decide how many points you get in the test, but if you like someone, you have to see whether others are willing to cooperate.

Dou Xun didn't know how Xu Xilin would view this matter, but he instinctively felt that the result might not be satisfactory.

Suddenly, someone called him: "Dou Xun?"

Dou Xun's mind was not in his mind, and he looked back with a blank expression. After looking for a long time, he recognized that the person was the second brother in their dormitory - there was no way, it was not easy for him to get acquainted with others, and he had only lived in the school for a few days.

He started "day study" again, and the second brother took advantage of the twelfth lunar month to shave his head, and he almost didn't recognize him.

The second brother's family was out of town, and his parents didn't take his light bulb with them when they traveled during the Spring Festival. He simply stayed at school to read the library and earn some pocket money. He waved to Dou Xun and asked, "Why did you remember to go to school?"

"

Dou Xun hesitated and responded casually.

He just barely had the words "not in mind" on his face. The second brother saw that he was like this and it was inconvenient to ask more questions. After a few simple greetings, Dou Xun suddenly remembered that this person had boasted that he was "

Niu, who is a "PhD tutor in love", suddenly had a trance and called him out.

"I want to ask you something." Dou Xun struggled to organize his words and asked stumblingly, "That... that... childhood sweetheart you were talking about last time, there is such a person, but I don't know what to do...

…”

The second brother was confused after hearing this, and stared at Dou Xun for a while. He stretched out his hand to rub his head that was so close to being bald in distress: "Classmate Dou Xun, can you explain what you just said in human words?"

Translate it again?”

Fifteen minutes later, Dou Xun helped his second brother clean up the reading room.

The second brother finally understood his doubts about life in a dumbfounded way. Of course, Dou Xun was not very good either. He omitted the key point of his childhood sweetheart's gender.

"You, you... what can I say about you?" The second brother locked the reading room, "It's not illegal for you to like whoever you like. We are not uglier than anyone else. Even if someone doesn't mean that to you, it's impossible.

Because you like her, do you have a prejudice against you? Even if you think about it like you do, human beings have long been extinct. You listen to me, chase the person first, if it doesn't work, then stalk her, and if it doesn't work, change someone else, "Where is the world?"

There is no fragrant grass, and the hills next to it are quite nice!"

Dou Xun shut up, feeling that asking him was a mistake. Rather than flaunting himself as a "love doctor", this person was more like the "shameless" professional next door.

"If you are afraid of embarrassment when we meet in the future, you can test her a few times to see what her attitude is." When the second brother mentioned this kind of thing, he became very enthusiastic and gave Dou Xun pointers. "If she doesn't avoid it, it is equivalent to acquiescence."

, you go back and give it a try, and if you have any success, come back to me and I will teach you the next step."

Dou Xun, who had learned basic communication skills, said: "Oh, okay, thank you."

I thought: "Fart, silly X."

Dou Xun spent a day in school doing nothing, and only gained a few theoretical books and a bad idea.

And just when he was tossing and turning, spending more time every day to peek at Xu Xilin, the New Year came.

Xu Xilin completed the day's study task and was sent by Aunt Du to the supermarket to buy new year's goods. Dou Xun followed him without any help.

As soon as he went out, Xu Xilin's relaxation and happiness at home disappeared.

This is not the first time Xu Jin has not gone home during the New Year, but it is the first time she has never gone home again.

He has accepted this reality and knows that no matter how heartbreaking the wound is, it will eventually disappear in the ordinary days day after day. However, at this time, the wound is still exposed with flesh and blood. He knows that it has not healed and can only rely on it to heal.

Busy and careful to avoid.

You can avoid it in normal times, but you can't avoid it during festivals when you miss your loved ones so much that you have to force yourself to smile at home - because Aunt Du and Grandma Xu do the same thing.

He didn't say anything, and Dou Xun didn't have anything to say. He just accompanied him all the way silently. When he left, Xu Xilin put his hands in his pockets. When he came back, he carried too many things, and his fingers were frozen after a while.

bright red.

Dou Xun took off one of his gloves and threw it over: "One for each person."

Xu Xilin was not polite to him, took it and put it on, then poured the plastic bag into one gloved hand, and freed the other hand. He was about to insert it into his pocket, but Dou Xun caught him midway.

Dou Xun wrapped his fingers with the still warm hand that he had just taken off his gloves. The warmth of one hand was used in two ways, spreading the heat inside and outside to Xu Xilin's two hands.

Xu Xilin struggled reluctantly: "Hey, let me go, this is too stupid. Did our kindergarten class just get out of school?"

Dou Xun held on tightly to prevent him from pulling away. The two of them struggled awkwardly for a while, and their palms became sweaty. Xu Xilin finally was too lazy to care about it and gave up. Dou Xun breathed out a mouthful of white steam, and the flowers in his heart quietly moved.

Half open.

He suddenly felt that although his second brother's idea was bad, it was not unreasonable.

It's just that Dou Xun doesn't have the coolness to travel all over the world. He only recognizes a grass on a hill, so he has to be more cautious.

That night, Dou Xun used his strong motivation to go back and stay up all night, checking information and adding his own thinking, and made a strict time schedule. The short-term strategic goal is to end Xu Xilin's summer college entrance examination.

After that, through the preliminary preparation, the confession was smoothly expressed.

The form is very precise, and I even imagined every step I would take and Xu Xilin's possible reaction.

This was the first time in his life that Dou Xun took the initiative in interpersonal relationships instead of passively accepting the good and bad things others did to him. He was a little nervous at first, but as soon as the plan was made, he seemed to have a powerful theory.

Support, all kinds of subtle and elusive things between people seem to have certain rules and traces to follow!

Unfortunately, Dou Xun was just talking on paper.

On the first day when he started to implement this ridiculous plan with a pair of dark circles under his eyes, Xu Xilin suspected that Dou Xun had taken the wrong medicine——

Xu Xilin woke up in the morning and was still not conscious. He filled in the blanks in a daze. He almost fell asleep sitting down before finishing the questions. After finishing a pair of answers, he got 14 of the 20 questions wrong.

Teacher Dou glanced at it, and the expression on his face clearly foretold that he wanted to splash Xu Xilin's face with the water in the cup.

Teacher Dou lived up to expectations and really reached out to the cup. Unexpectedly, he remembered something when he raised it. His expression was distorted for a long time, and he actually lowered his head and drank the water. Then he suppressed his temper and showed a twisted smile with gritted teeth.

Xu Xilin took the pen away from his hand: "I'll tell you from the beginning."

Xu Xilin didn't splash cold water on him, and was frightened awake by his bitter and hateful smile.

During this winter vacation, Dou Xun became more and more uncomfortable in Xu Xilin's eyes - what he understood as "calm and calm" was probably not the same thing as his actual behavior.

Dou Xun spent more and more time clinging to Xu Xilin, from waking him up in the morning to closing the door to see off guests before going to bed. He wished he could follow him even to the toilet. Xu Xilin was going crazy, but he didn't even feel it at all.

Dou Xun also sat next to Xu Xilin with a book upright every day, pretending to read it attentively. In fact, he would not turn a page for a long time, his eyes would wander for a while, and he would secretly glance at Xu Xilin.

Xu Xilin didn't say anything after he found out, and he was wondering in his heart - he didn't know whether he had a terminal illness or whether he had a terminal illness or a flower on his face.

So one day, while Dou Xun was going downstairs to pick up the express delivery, Xu Xilin finally couldn't help but secretly opened the "Level 6 Listening Analysis" that Dou Xun had read for more than a month.

"Level 6 Listening Analysis" is just a fake cover, which contains an old book with yellowed pages - " of Flowers", written by Jean Genet.

Xu Xilin, who was ignorant, had never heard of it and didn't know what made Dou Xun so sneaky. The computer happened to be open next to him, so he quickly Baidu it.
Chapter completed!