Xu Xilin glanced at Dou Xun subconsciously, and found that Dou Xun, who was three steps away from him, had no expression. He even avoided his gaze first, and then Dou Xun stood frozen for a while and walked away silently.

Dou Xun had to leave. He was usually extremely willful, but when Luo Bing smiled at him, he suddenly realized that no matter how unhappy he was, he had to endure it. The slightest expression was "unreasonable".

He has always been aloof and self-centered, and rarely feels the existence of "other people's eyes".

Then he saw it in Luo Bing's eyes.

In the eyes of others, he is a good friend, a friend who takes the initiative to step away when it comes to private matters.

Xu Xilin had almost become accustomed to coaxing him. He was so "sensible" that he suddenly became so "sensible" that he almost subconsciously chased after him.

He was absent-minded, and Luo Bing's discomfort and nervousness could no longer affect him. Xu Xilin was a little impatient, and barely maintained his politeness and asked: "Well, what's the matter?"

This sounds okay, but others can feel the speaker's indifference. Luo Bing suddenly became even more nervous. She said incoherently: "I just want to...um...extra points.

The teacher told me, thank you. Also, you gave me a lot of small things before, but never in person...it's really..."

Xu Xilin understood half of the sentence: "You're welcome, I should... what kind of gift?"

The girls who usually play well with Luo Bing have similar personalities to her. They are all gentle and quiet, and do not take the initiative to talk to boys. They only have the experience of being confessed to. When they come to Luo Bing, they are the only ones who pursue her.

, without any experience to draw from. Luo Bing was embarrassed and at a loss. At this time, his mind was completely overwhelmed by the college entrance examination. He could barely maintain the ability to express his confession, and the communication part could not be taken into account at the same time.

Luo Bing didn't notice the genuine confusion on Xu Xilin's face, and just kept talking to himself: "I wrote you many letters. I was afraid of disturbing you at first, but I didn't expect you to reply to them all... I am very grateful... No,

Not thank you, I don’t know how to say it..."

Xu Xilin frowned slightly and almost blurted out, "When did you write me many letters and when did I reply?", but he had an intuition that there was something going on, so he listened patiently.

Luo Bing's voice became smaller and smaller: "When something happened to your family, I felt very sad. I talked to you a lot, but I don't know if I could comfort you a little..."

Xu Xilin's heart skipped a beat - he had no intention of studying during those days when he was living in a daze, and it seemed that most of the papers handed out in class and the newspapers of various subjects sent in the mailbox were compiled by Cai Jing for him.

Luo Bing: "...But every time you reply, you only have one small thing, and you haven't written a single sentence. I want to ask you what exactly..."

She couldn't speak anymore, so she bravely raised her head and glanced at Xu Xilin, only to find that Xu Xilin's expression was very strange.

Xu Xilin felt as if his chest was pressed by a stone and he couldn't breathe.

Except for Cai Jing, Yu Yiran and Lao Cheng usually touch his things. Yu Yiran is a girl, and he and Luo Bing are friends who borrow sanitary napkins from each other, so there is no need to reply to her anonymously. Lao Cheng... Lao Cheng loves teasing and teasing her most in his life.

Watching the excitement, even if there is no wind, waves will rise three feet high. If you find the letter written by Luo Bing, you should go there and spread the word.

Only Cai Jing likes to use "small gifts" to express concern or gratitude, because he is short of money and cannot afford expensive things, so he can only put in effort to make people feel his ironing every time.

Xu Xilin glanced at Luo Bing with a complicated and unspeakable look, and then slowly recalled some details - Cai Jing didn't like to tease girls, but it didn't mean he didn't talk to girls at all, but he was normal to others, but rarely.

Looking at Luo Bing, every time she came over for something, he would either avoid her or ignore her.

But he clearly remembered that she was a poor student, and every time she had any difficulties, he would hint at her.

Xu Xilin and Cai Jing have been sitting at the same table for three years, but he doesn't know that Cai Jing likes Luo Bing.

His love is like the moss in the corner of the wall, which grows in the dark, is dense and sad, will never bloom, and dies when exposed to light.

Xu Xilin's throat seemed to be blocked by something. He used all his strength to smile. Maybe the smile was too ugly, and he felt that Luo Bing was frightened.

"It means thank you." Xu Xilin said softly, "Thank you for being so kind to me."

Luo Bing was stunned for a moment, then slowly realized what he meant, and his eyes dimmed suddenly.

Xu Xilin took another deep look at her and said, "You will definitely be admitted to the first choice. You will be rich and noble in the future. Don't forget us, monitor."

Luo Bing's face turned red at first and then turned pale, and then there were some tears in his eyes. He barely kept up his face and nodded numbly: "Thank you, you will definitely be the first choice."

Xu Xilin nodded to her, held the transparent document bag for the exam, and left almost half-heartedly.

Luo Bing finally couldn't help but wiped her tears hard, and turned her back to Xu Xilin and said: "Next time you meet someone you like, don't drag it away. If you drag it, it will be gone. If there is someone you don't like, it will be annoying."

Stick to her and ignore her. You don't have to take care of anyone else's feelings. It's very uncomfortable to be sentimental."

"Yeah." Xu Xilin replied, "I'll remember it next time."

Then he paused and said, "I'm sorry."

At the gate of the chaotic school, the bustling crowd gradually dispersed, and the isolation tape dedicated to the college entrance examination hung loosely on the ground. A few policemen were chatting and cleaning it up.

Xu Xilin has been sitting at the same table as Cai Jing since he entered school. He remembers that he was late on the first day of school. When he found Class 1, Grade 1, everyone had already started to line up at the door of the class, with seats arranged according to height.

At that time, Cai Jing was wearing a junior high school uniform, washed white, and his cuffs were a little frayed. He stood quietly at the end, not fighting anyone, and quietly getting out of the way of anyone who wanted to jump in line.

Xu Xilin still remembers that when Cai Jing turned around and saw him, his first words were: "Classmate, are you also in this class? Do you want to stand in front?"

Like it happened yesterday.

If Xu Jin were still alive, she might be able to use some of her early connections and find a good lawyer for Cai Jing. But she has been engaged in cross-border mergers and acquisitions for more than ten years, and all the people she dealt with later became various funders and financial consultants.

Everyone, Xu Xilin couldn't even shamelessly borrow her shadow for once - not to mention that it was already too late when he knew what happened to Cai Jing.

Now, the verdict was pending, and he couldn't even see Cai Jing. What made the young man take the knife so brazenly? The reason was no longer clear. Only such a small clue was left for him. All speculations were in vain.

Dou Xun had been following him. He didn't understand why he looked so ugly after saying a few words to Luo Bing. He was a little unhappy at first, but when he saw his damn face, he didn't dare to ask questions all the way.

When I returned home that evening, Aunt Du came to say goodbye.

Aunt Du used to live in her grandma's room. After she packed her luggage, her grandma's bedroom was half empty. Her ticket to go back to her hometown had already been booked and kept under the coffee table in the living room. The reason why she left in such a hurry was because

Students are about to go on summer vacation, and train tickets are already starting to get tight.

Grandma asked Xu Xilin to give her a red envelope, and held her hand like a daughter traveling far away. She told her to take care of her luggage from the car and be careful of pickpockets. She also talked about how to make a living for the younger generation after returning home and rely on the demolition.

In less than a lifetime... I wish I could spend the rest of her life with this question.

It's hard for an old lady who doesn't know what's going on outside the window to say so many instructions.

Aunt Du said: "Aunt, when I go back, I have to look at other people's faces."

Then she cried.

Aunt Du came out to make a living at a very young age and had no education. She had been with her grandma for so many years and had no influence at all. When she cried, she still screamed and burst into tears. She howled very ungracefully. She even grabbed her grandma's hand.

There is a white mark.

We sued many times, but when they finally said goodbye, she cried while walking. Xu Xilin called a taxi, carried her luggage with Dou Xun, and sent her to the train station. Aunt Du cried and stopped for a while.

I chatted a few words with Xu Xilin, but I didn’t know which memories were involved in the gossip, and I remembered which period of uncertainty about the future. I felt sad from it, and then opened the floodgates to release the flood.

When she arrived at the station, Dou Xun was waiting on the platform. Xu Xilin helped her carry her luggage onto the train and put it away. He took out the last tissue he had on him and wiped Aunt Du's face. The train announcement started to remind her to see off relatives and friends, but Du

Auntie held his hand and refused to let him go.

Xu Xilin didn't want her to leave, and he could also see that Aunt Du didn't want to leave his house.

In the city, she sells her strength, and arranges the family's daily life. She works and gets paid, and her waist is straight. When she returns home, she becomes an old country lady with nothing to do, and she has to serve the whole family.

For daily living, not only do you have no salary, but you also have to rely on others. Because of your family, good luck is priceless, bad luck is worthless, it depends on the situation, it’s hard to say.

But he couldn't make the decision to let her stay.

Xu Xilin: "Auntie, it's time to drive. I have to get out of the car."

Aunt Du shook his hand and said, "My child, poor child!"

After Xu Xilin experienced the incidents throughout the year, he gradually no longer felt pitiful, but felt that he was very weak. It seemed that there was a series of whirlpools around him, sweeping away his relatives and friends, but he was actually powerless and could only watch.

He took out his hand and finally got off the train before the conductor closed the door. He was even pushed by the hurried conductor: "Have you not heard the announcement so many times?"

Xu Xilin staggered for two steps on the platform before he stood firm. He felt that as soon as his feet landed, the train sighed and drove away overwhelmed.

Throughout the whole day, Xu Xilin first took the comprehensive science and English exams, and then sent Aunt Du off in the evening. He was basically not in the mood to eat dinner, and the whole thing was spinning. On the way back to the taxi, he started to take a nap against the window.

Dou Xun knew that he could not speak and was afraid that if he spoke too much he would make mistakes. He did not dare to say anything all night. Then he found that he was asleep. Dou Xun raised a hand and tried to hug Xu Xilin several times, but it took him a long time to figure it out.

, they arrived home before they found a place to rest their hands.

Xu Xilin took a nap in the car and felt less sleepy when he got home. He habitually wanted to go to the living room on the second floor to get his school bag and do his homework for a while. However, he found that the school bag was hanging on the wall and he was the only one on the small table in the living room who had the correct bag.

The transparent plastic folder for research, and then I remembered that there was no easy homework to do.

When he first entered the senior year of high school and started studying in the evening, Xu Xilin once fantasized about what he would do after finishing the college entrance examination. But when the day came, he had no desire to implement those plans. Instead, he felt empty because he had no more "rushing" to do.

Grandma has gone to bed long ago, and the gray parrot is not tied up. But maybe their house is a bit big, and no one can be seen anywhere. The bird is also afraid, so it doesn’t dare to fly around, so it just stays on its shelf and buries its head under its wings.

Also slept.

Xu Xilin quietly went downstairs, got into the kitchen, and got himself a bottle of beer.

No one usually drank the beer, and it was about to expire. Xu Xilin was depressed and wanted to drown his sorrows with wine, so he got rid of the inventory and put it out in a row. In the end, he didn't have the courage, so he only opened one bottle and gave it to

Pour yourself a glass.

This is something that Xu Jin left deep-rooted in him - when boys first entered adolescence, they admired gangsters in various movies for a while and secretly learned to smoke together. Xu Xilin followed the trend and tried it.

Gen, I thought I was unnoticed, but before the smell had dissipated, I caught up with Xu and went home early on a business trip, and was caught.

Xu Jin didn't beat him, nor did he emphasize the "Smoking is harmful to health" printed on the cigarette box. He just told him that quitting smoking was difficult. People who quit smoking often became listless, yawned with tears in their eyes, and would gain weight by then.

Xu Jin said: "I can't sew the mouth on you even if it grows on you. You can figure it out for yourself. Anyway, when you take a long-distance flight or go to a non-smoking area to eat, you have to endure what others should do and do whatever you want."

Think clearly and don't regret it later if you can't cope with it. When you have to quit smoking with snot and tears in the future, don't say that your mother didn't take care of you back then."

Xu Jin taught him to think about quitting smoking when he smoked, and when he wanted to drink, he thought about his dry eyes and head that would explode the next day.

Dou Xun walked in quietly, glanced at the half bottle of beer left on the table, took the bottle over and took a sip. He sat on the stool at the small bar in the kitchen, opened his mouth several times, and then swallowed all the words in annoyance.
To be continued...