If time could be repeated, she would definitely avoid King Landing from afar and would never get involved in the place where King Landing arrived.

"Sister, it's been so many years. Haven't you been with Brother Jun privately? What do you like? Such a liking that has no in-depth communication should easily disappear. You are not a little girl anymore, so why are you still trapped in it?"

Mei Feiguan really couldn't understand why his sister fell into it and could not extricate herself until today.

"Don't ask me, I don't know. Do you think you're annoyed? I'm more annoyed than you."

Meierin gave up the jar. Since she had already opened her mouth, she didn't feel any need to hide it. And as he said, if she could not even complain to her brother, she wouldn't be able to really say it to anyone else.

"Maybe it's because I have formed a habit. In the past few decades, whether it's reading, studying, training and fighting, I have always watched him move forward.

Regardless of whether he is here or not, whether he has noticed me or not, I always look at him. At the beginning, it may be just a simple girlish feeling, but gradually I got used to looking at him, used to thinking about what he would think and do, and used to using him as the destination and constantly correcting and moving forward."

"So you want to tell me that you don't really like him now, but you just can't stop the habit of thinking you like him?"

Mei Feiguan even felt that his tongue was about to be broken by him.

"When you fall in love with someone who won't even look at you, you will know my mood."

"Don't curse me. I don't want to be as stupid as you, sister. Even if I really fall in love with someone else at the beginning, if I am single, then confess my love. If you succeed in confessing, fall in love. If you succeed in love, get married. If you can continue, you will die of old age.

If any link in the middle doesn't work, and you can't try to adjust it, and no matter how you save and compromise, you can't get back on track, then let go as soon as possible instead of dragging it over and not dealing with it.

A small wound may cause excessive bleeding or infection due to untimely treatment, which will eventually lead to death.”

"You are saying that Junlin is the small wound on my body?"

"Who knows? If you decide to let things end, then he will be nothing. At most, it is a kind of girlish feeling. If you don't let things end, then he will always be in your life. It was just a hurdle, but it slowly turned into a mountain. If you don't take the initiative to bypass this mountain, you will never know that there is a new scenery waiting for you on the other side of the mountain."

Meierin laughed out loud.

"I am not young anymore, Fei Guan. My curiosity is far less than when I was a child. I am not interested in new scenery or new people."

"Sister, you can never say that you are not interested until then. As long as you are alive, we will see endless new people, new things and new scenery."

"So you have to live for a long time."

"Sister, give up Jun Si Brother. As long as you think, you can definitely abandon your fantasy about him soon. He is really not as good as you think."

"I know. I am such an ignorant person in your heart? I am not a child, and I still hold my former fantasies."

"Then why are you so obsessed with him? Since you know that it is your own fantasy, you should return to reality."

"Reality is that I broke my childhood fantasy, but the more I learned about his experience and the more I understood his character, the more I became fascinated by him.

It’s like a food. At first, it may just feel fresh, the color is good, and the fun is interesting, so I always want to eat it. Later, I realized that it is not really bad at all. It’s not really as beautiful, so interesting, and fresh as I saw when I first fell in love with it. But if I keep eating this food, the body will gradually get used to its smell. The sensory pleasure, physiological and spiritual nutrition it provides, day after day, year after year, gradually becomes indispensable.

When you have this specific food in your recipes for a long time, and it is the most important food, you have no way to separate it and don’t want to separate it.”

"But sister, you can find a new food instead of this food."

"Why? I'm used to this kind of food, and I like this kind of food, why do I need to find new food to replace it?

It takes time to find new food, and it also takes time to adapt to it. The identification and running-in here are all very painful processes. If you understand this, you will know that sometimes it is easy to love someone, it is easy to not love someone, it is difficult to love someone, and it is difficult not to love someone, and not to love someone, not everything here can be completely decided by yourself."

"Then just make the decision that you can make the decision. It's not to ask you to cut off this food immediately, but to slowly reduce this food and replace it with other foods, wait for you to choose a variety that is more beneficial to your body from other foods, and then slowly increase the amount of that new food until you get used to it."

Maybe he thought this metaphor was not very good, because new food would become old food later, which might also have negative effects on her. He hummed in distress.

"People are not food, sister, and feelings are not about eating and drinking. Whether it is in terms of appearance or practicality, any variety of food is not completely indispensable. Since we humans have developed to this day, there are so many foods, the sources are too wide, and there are so many varieties, so many that even if we don't resemble each day, we can live our lives like this.

From this level, if you compare feelings or someone to food, you have subconsciously recognized that no one has any feelings that are irreplaceable."

Mei Ailin was helpless and didn't expect that her younger brother would be so tedious.

"Because no one is irreplaceable, any emotion that arises in our hearts and any relationship formed between others are constantly changing. Just like time, even if it looks still, it is actually constantly changing. We are changing all the time, you are like this, I am like this, and King Landing is like this."

"So, it's time for big changes, right? Forget him completely."

Mei Feiguan simply wanted to pry her head open by herself and take away all the impressions of King Landing from it.

“How could I forget him unless I have amnesia, or death?

No one will forget the person he truly loves. Even if it becomes the past, he will still remember what he was like when he loved him. Feiguan, loving someone means unforgettably observing how he looked when he loved that person. This is also the reason why the more he loves him, the harder it is to convince myself to give up. Giving up with him means giving up a certain part of his self.

He has occupied too long in my life. Now that he wants to escape from his influence, he can only peel off some of the precious memories in his body."

"As long as you don't die, you'll strip it away, just treat it as a big and small operation."

"Is there a major surgery that may die, and you want me to do it?"

"Do. Why not do it? If you don't do it, the consequences can be expected. It will definitely be a dead end. There is still a glimmer of life if you do it. I hope you can get married, my sister, I hope your brother-in-law is a person who treats you much better than me, I hope you will have children, I hope you will pamper your nieces like ordinary uncles and take them to do all the games they want to do."

"I know you like children, and you can have a child by yourself. Fei Guan is not young anymore, and now you can actually consider getting married. Of course, because you are not old, you can have a few relationships and talk about marriage when you really meet the right person. I promise to be a good aunt in the future and take your children to all the places they want to play with."

"Sister, I'm so younger than you, so I really don't have to get married and have children or anything else. After all, I don't need to have children by myself and there is no physical pressure. I have been planning to study hard for the past century. When I can have enough confidence to handle family affairs, I will find someone to get married.

You don’t have to worry that I would rather be single than fall in love like you. When I meet someone I like, I will confess my love right away. Among our Mei family’s children, I think you are really the most miserable.

If you fall in love with someone, you don’t even confess and have been struck out. It’s fine if you are out, but you still have to stay on the court and feel that you can stick to it no matter what. So even if the audience thinks that it’s inappropriate for you to do this, and you are even a little despicable and shameless, you ignore their sight and comments.

You only want to score goals and achieve your goals, and you completely forget that no matter how you ignore it, it will still hurt.

I don't want to be like you at all. No one is happy for you, no one is happy with you, no one is happy with you, no one is pitying your pain, no one is desperate, no one is sharing your despair. Do you know? You have been away from your family for years, you have been avoiding me, you are becoming more and more withdrawn, as if you want to completely isolate yourself from the outside world.

The only one that can make you connect with the outside world is Jun Si Ge, the battlefield. The latter is because of Jun Si Ge, and it is what makes you more and more accustomed to.

You have never encountered too many setbacks since you were a child, and the only one who really fell into trouble was Jun Si. I couldn't imagine that other people and other things made you so desperate and decadent.

If you really treat me as your younger brother, you should cheer up and give me a role model that my sister should take. If you can take it, you must let it go, sister.

In the future, I may meet someone I like, or I may not love that person. How will I become when I am? I don’t know. What I know is that if I cannot get a response from my lover like my sister, I hope I can draw the strength to move forward from my sister’s experience.

I wish I could get out of the swamp of emotions faster and continue living, rather than being dead, without that person, without his feelings, even his existence has no meaning. It is really ridiculous."

"When did I do this? It's because you interpreted it too exaggeratedly. I did have extreme ideas when I was young, but I am not young anymore. I have experienced everything I should have, seen everything I should have, and understood the truth I should understand. Don't look at me now from the perspective of the past."

Mei Feiguan was silent for a long time.

"Sister, you used to be like that. If you change your position with me, you will also worry about me, just like I have always worried about you."

"Sorry. I know you're worried, but I don't know you're worried to this level."

Mei Ailin is really sorry. After all, she is the eldest sister and she is the one who should take care of him.

"It's okay. After all, when I was still young, I didn't understand, and there was a limit to worrying. But later I grew up and heard a lot of things, so I was like this.

Sister, I really think that letting go earlier will be better for you and more helpful to your life. No matter whether I am worried or not, it is my personal opinion. And no matter how heavy it is, the worry about you cannot be as heavy as my personal affairs will put more pressure on me. So look, sister, the person that your affairs will really affect fundamentally is just you, not me."

"Thanks."

"Sister, you know, what I want is not your thank you, but you can return to the one you who did not like Jun Si Ge, relaxed, confident, curious about everything, and interested in trying everything new, meeting new people, and doing anything unknown."

"I will try new things now, do new things, and meet new people."

"You don't. Sister, you have been staying for a long time ago. Because you can't get out, you have been staying on the battlefield.

Any new person you see on the battlefield is only regarded as the person who fights with you, not the person who may become your lover. You eat any new food, you are just for survival, not for the taste of new things, not for the enjoyment of the food itself.

You are only interested in Brother Jun and have only real curiosity about all personnel and affairs related to him. But you don’t really see any personnel and affairs other than Brother Jun and that have nothing to do with Brother Jun.”

Meierin sighed.

"I admit that I was indeed in this state for a few years, but Fei Guan, I promise that my sister was no longer so desperate and absurd a long time ago."

"Sister, you have never seen me. When I was a child, I always rely on you, very, very dependent on you. But since you fell in love with Brother Jun, you have even lost yourself. You can't stand by yourself, so there is no way for me to rely on you. Sister, I want you to rely on me, but you have never taken this step."
Chapter completed!