1129 Confession
Feng Shengzhe is not as easy to talk to as Feng Yun.
"Who likes her? My uncle and I don't like her. Don't always talk nonsense."
Tu Fan did not remain silent this time, and also raised his head to express his position, "So am I."
Feng Xiaoqi raised his eyebrows, "What are the same? They don't like Feng Yun, or they don't like Feng Shengzhe?"
Tu Fan pursed his lips.
"Sister Qi, let's go. We have something to discuss with you."
“What can’t be said here?”
Although Feng Xiaoqi felt that Junlin was probably an excuse to let her leave together, seeing the atmosphere a little awkward, she still followed him out obediently.
"I'll go and chat with Mr. Shi."
Feng Yun didn't want to stay and be cannon fodder, so he ran away quickly.
Feng Shengzhe left, nor was he stayed. He could feel that Tu Fan was in a very bad mood now. If she was left alone here, she might cry.
"The place we are going to is a completely unfamiliar star field, which is my grandmother's home. My father has never been there, and he said he is not clear about the situation there. My mother has been there for a few years, but she was seriously injured and dying at that time. She has basically been lying in bed to recuperate. She doesn't know much about the outside world, but she is also confused about the Feng family on the other end.
My great-grandmother was an orphan until she died, and she thought she was an orphan, but the Feng family was actually looking for her. She lived alone with her children. After she died, the child was wandering and wandering to the orphanage.
My grandmother is like a great-grandmother. She is very diligent in doing things and studying hard. She is lucky. When she met my grandfather, she has lived a peaceful and warm life after getting married.
Although my great-grandfather was also an orphan, and my great-grandmother's family was in trouble, and even my grandfather was adopted by them, there were not many members of the Feng family and everyone got along happily. After my grandmother and grandfather passed away, my mother and uncle depended on each other for life.
Because of my birth, my dad returned to the Pole Star. The reason they got married is probably to allow me to become a child of the Jun family with justification.
Well, I am not like you, it is the crystallization of parents' love. My parents now have a certain relationship. In the past, they always dislike each other. They not only quarrel, but also always fight. Fighting is not the kind of fight with a proper attitude, but the kind that fights to death and wants to kill the other party.
Not long after they got married, my mother disappeared. A few years later, my father also disappeared. Rather than saying that they were my parents, it is better to say that my third uncle and uncle are more like my parents.
I have been looking forward to them coming back, but now both of them are back, I don’t know how to face them. My dad once said that it is the first time that their husband and wife have become parents, so they can’t make up their minds about how they should treat me. No matter what they do, they feel that they are not good enough, and no matter what they do, they are afraid that they will do wrong and will hurt me.
Actually, I don’t know how to get along with them, and I don’t know what I want to say and do, so that I can be a good son, not disappoint them, and not make them sad.”
Feng Shengzhe paused, and when she saw that she had no reaction, she became irritated again, "Anyway, I haven't figured out the things in my family yet, and I can't take care of myself. I don't want you to cause trouble."
"How do you know I can't help but make trouble?"
Tu Fan was not convinced. He always said such things, and she would get angry if she heard too much.
"My uncle and I are causing trouble. What do you think you are going there with us?"
His words are really a fatal point.
Tu Fan gritted his teeth. She couldn't say that he would get engaged to her first before saying that? She couldn't say anything even if she beat her to death. She was not a person who didn't know what kind of temper he was. Even if she took the initiative to pester him, he would never be soft-hearted. She always bowed her head and gave in to him. He always felt no pain, as if she didn't take her seriously at all.
The problem is that this guy really doesn't take her seriously, otherwise she wouldn't have been persisting until now, and she can't really give up. She has tried it, but it has really been a bad experience in the past few years. Now she finally gave up her face, so she will never allow herself to retreat.
"As long as Uncle Jun and his friends agree to go with me to broaden my horizons, I will go.
Even if... I am also your friend, and if my friend wants to increase his experience, it is still a rare opportunity. Can't you consider it? The person who is in a difficult situation is not you. If the elders agree, it means that they can bear the trouble or risks that will arise if I go with you. If it is really not possible to measure it, I cannot force others to do so. Although I am thick-skinned, I am not like you."
Feng Shengzhe didn't understand what her last sentence meant. She was mocking him for being shameless than her?
"Did you say the opposite? I'm not as shameless as you."
"Elders all know that you look thin-skinned, but you always do things like a scoundrel."
After Tu Fan said that, he was afraid that he would get angry, so he coughed, "Marson Grandpa said this with a smile. You are very childish, just like Uncle Jun when he was a child, very proud.
Although Uncle Jun is always slutty, as the youngest child, he is willing to give in, so he not only gets the love of his three brothers, but also gets the love of other people close to him. You are different. You are particularly stingy in this regard, just like the source of your feelings is dry and waterless, so you can only share it with a very small number of people. The rest of them will refuse regardless of distance and do not get close to them."
She didn't know why she chased him stubbornly.
If Feng Yun hadn't been on the sidelines to smooth things over, she might not have been able to withstand Feng Shengzhe's temper and would have been able to get out of trouble in less than a year, right? Who would have thought that her persistence would have received some response from him, for example, he would have fought with her, and would never give up whenever he fought. Whether she was beaten or beaten to her, he would never bow his head.
A man who is so proud is the most difficult to deal with.
Tu Fan was so frustrated that he drooped his head.
When is the end?
It's annoying that he doesn't get a clear response. It would be great if he had a woman he liked, so even if that woman wasn't her, she could make up her mind to stay away from him and never get close to him for the rest of her life. But now he looks like a naive child, he is confused about everything, and he has no idea what he wants, doesn't want, has, and lacks.
Feng Shengzhe paused when he heard this, but continued to talk to himself.
"I know you are a very good person. My uncle has always said that you are a very good friend and are very tolerant of me. Maybe it is because you are the first and only peer who tolerated me in these years, so it is always difficult for me to restrain you and not express your true emotions.
Although my uncle is not a few years older than me, he is his uncle. He has always viewed and taken care of me with the mentality and position of an elder. You are different. Even if my great-grandfather and others don’t remind me, I know you are different.
But we are all too young and don’t understand many things. Now I just want to improve my strength and do a job that can make a living while also improving my strength to the greatest extent. If my parents don’t come back, I will always be honest with my third uncle and live every day step by step. I will not consider marriage until my strength and military rank have reached the level of general.”
"I didn't ask you to marry me immediately, or you would definitely marry me in the future. Who knows what will happen in the future? People's hearts are easy to change, and maybe I won't like you in a few years, and it may not be necessary to dump you first."
After complaining, Tu Fan realized that he had confessed at the same time, and his face turned red.
Feng Shengzhe also felt uncomfortable, but he still tried to calm down.
“I didn’t plan to do anything related to marriage and love before I was a hundred years old, and I knew I was not mature enough.
Unlike parents, nor are they uncles. They have experienced the storms of life at a very young age. I have been protected by my parents and family since I was born. When I encounter any problem, I cannot solve it, and someone will bear the consequences for me. So I have never really felt the dilemma, let alone the desperate situation.
Before I get tempered, I don’t think I will be an adult who can take responsibility. Sister Qi is right. I am still a child. In many ways, I am a child. Age only shows physiological maturity, but it cannot explain anything else.”
Tu Fan didn't dare to look up at him, but he still couldn't help but mutter, "If you become an old man, you won't have much impulse to fall in love.
It is because of young and immature that we are not afraid of doing wrong things and loving the wrong person. The younger we are, the more we have the capital to try and make mistakes. Moreover, some people’s fate comes earlier and some people come later. No matter sooner or later, it is fate. Who said that they will fail? If we try it, we may succeed?"
"Great grandfather said, you should not be too anxious when doing things. The more anxious you are, the easier it is to have bad things. Good fate may also turn into bad fate. I don't want us to get to that point in the future. It's great now."
Feng Shengzhe suddenly felt a little annoyed why he had to explain so much to her. It would be okay to explain it in the future, but his father had already expressed his attitude and would not take her to the inner realm. He didn't want her to really follow their family to Feng's house. Who knows what kind of scenery would be like to greet them there?
When something happened, the Feng family would of course protect them. Because of their mother, they would now be treated as their own family by the Feng family. But who can guarantee that Tu Fan, who is an outsider, will receive the same level of protection? He cannot take this risk.
There may not be any problem in the Feng family territory, and it is easy to solve any problems. But when she encounters danger from the Feng family territory, does the Feng family have to pay a price to save an outsider? If the price is very small, of course it doesn’t matter much. It’s just a simple task, but what if it is a tragic thing? Will the Feng family also be willing to save her?
"You are just too pessimistic. If you think of others, you always think of others to the disadvantages, and if you think of things, you always think of them to the failure. Aren't you tired? I don't think of your uncle like you.
You also said that my uncle experienced the storms of life when he was very young. But he lives differently now. He is always willing to accept other people's kindness and can easily see the shining points of others. You grew up with him, why can't you look at the outside world like him?"
"Then why don't you like your uncle..."
Feng Shengzhe didn't finish speaking.
But Tu Fan knew what the second half of his sentence was, and it was nothing more than why he wanted to like him.
"Do you think I'm willing to stick to the cold face? I was so angry that I wanted to beat you once when I saw you, and beat you once when I beat you once, but you seemed to have nothing happened, and I was so cold from beginning to end. So I gave up. After that time, I saw my situation clearly and knew that everything was delusion.
I thought I was clean and I would be better in a few years. Who knew that now I ran to you again to make trouble. It was so stupid."
She should ignore a guy like him.
Tu Fan pouted slightly, very dissatisfied with his performance.
Feng Shengzhe looked at her lowered head, a little confused.
He himself didn't know when Tu Fan frequently appeared in his life, and it was so natural, as if he had always existed around him.
Logically speaking, he is not that easy to open his heart to people, but he is very easy to get along with her. He always talks in front of her, saying whatever he wants, and fighting whenever he wants, like a spoiled child, and not afraid that he will lose her if he does that to her.
Maybe it's really a perfect aura? Some people appear in their lives without warning and will easily become important people rather than irrelevant people.
As soon as he thought of this, he blushed.
Tu Fan never dared to look up, otherwise she would have discovered his rare embarrassment.
"We should not break up as much friendship as before, Feng Shengzhe. Even if you don't accept my confession, we will still be friends.
If you wait until I strongly want to fall in love or get married in the future, you still have no idea of falling in love or getting married. When the time comes, there will be men with good conditions around me, and I will give up my expectations. We are all very young now, and there is some time that can be wasted. I can afford to wait, and I am willing to wait.
Of course, this is my personal wish, because I have tried to give up, but I am not able to do it yet, so I will be able to get the courage to come to you again, try again, and persist. You don’t have to have any psychological burden.
After all, I may suddenly feel that this matter is boring one day, and you don’t think you are shining. Even if I don’t have the urge to fall in love or get married, I will walk away from you quietly at that time.
If you have someone you like one day and that person is not me, no matter whether I like you or not, I will get out of here and never bother you to drive me away. I still have this self-knowledge.
It's just that I hope we will be friends for life."
She really likes the Jun family. If she can't even make friends with him, she will feel embarrassed to go to Jun's house to play with Feng Yun and the others. Just thinking about it makes me feel regretful.
Chapter completed!