She could understand Jun Lin's disgust, just like her own reaction at this moment, which was far from being described as "creepy".

What she couldn't understand was why he didn't go looking for a living person at the beginning, but insisted on finding "her" who was dead? No matter in the past life or in this life, there are promiscuous men and women. If you want to relieve the anger, you can spend money. Not only

Legal and more reasonable.

The fact that he can clearly tell whether "her" is dead or alive proves that he still has some clarity in his heart. With his family background and skills, even if he is drugged with strong drugs and the secret guards around him are mobilized, he can still contact other people in time.

people, quickly mobilized help to rescue him.

Unless the meeting place is not within the coverage area of ​​​​the Star Network. Unless he contacted the family, but the Jun family did not arrive in time to solve the problem, the distant water could not save the nearby fire, or, although there was a signal, for some reason, he did not reach the scene at all.

There is no thought of contacting others.

No matter what the situation was, he had to state it personally, and she herself could recall some clues to confirm each other.

The question is, what if we know the truth? In the final analysis, the damage has been done, and the child has been born.

She couldn't digest this fact immediately.

If he and she got married for the sake of their children, they would have no feelings and only share the common idea of ​​seeing each other as a bad fate. I'm afraid there would be a lot of disagreements on weekdays. She has lost her memory and is so uncomfortable. Jun Lin has been living with her past memories these years. I'm afraid

It’s also very difficult.

The child is still young and is unlikely to know this.

She and Jun Lin were able to reach an agreement to sacrifice their marriage for the sake of their children, most likely to cover up the reason for their birth. For a child, this fact is enough to destroy his entire life.

Feng Shu was very upset.

Compared with her own birth method, Feng Shengzhe's birth was even worse.

She could almost foresee that once the child knew the secret of his birth, no matter how secure, strong and fearless he had grown during the years of covering up the truth, the moment the mystery was revealed, the child's natural trust in his parents would

The sense of certainty that a person has about the legitimacy of his own existence will disappear in an instant.

Just like she was back then.

After growing up in ignorance, after growing up enough to understand how much damage the fact that her twin brother died but she was born safely brought to her family, she lost that peace of mind forever. She

Living in her own home, she always felt like she was dependent on someone else. Even though she saw her biological parents and siblings day and night, she always felt like she was being rejected, as if she could never get close to them for the rest of her life.

She was a sinner, a child who should not have been born, a child who was not blessed, a child who did not deserve love.

In the past, no matter how hard and tiring she was during martial arts training, she would always hold her chest up and her head raised. Unless she was knocked unconscious, she would never leave the martial arts training ground with her head hanging down. Later, she silently bent over, and everyone in front of her and behind her

I don't want to look up at people.

Whether it was her initial passivity or her subsequent activeness, she had been invisible for many years. Although she was alive, she did not dare to breathe loudly. She did not know how to laugh wantonly when she was happy, and she did not know how to cry wantonly when she was sad. She worked hard to practice martial arts.

Well, whether she was studying in silence, she was restrained and lived like a shadow.

Her children are probably not as good as her.

Feng Shu frowned, feeling very uncomfortable with the sudden feeling that could be described as "heartache".

Unlike many women, she has a natural affection for children. She won't feel particularly bored with them, but she won't feel sincerely fond of them either. She thinks it's best to keep a distance from them.

Now, a feeling of distress emerged in her heart for a child.

That child was her flesh and blood, and it was she who brought him into this world.

If she hadn't possessed him, he wouldn't have survived. The reason why Jun Lin went out of his mind to find a dead person in the first place was probably because he subconsciously didn't want to leave any "trouble" behind.

She turned over.

She doesn't need to think too much about Junlin's position. No matter how you look at it, we don't want to spend too much time with each other. If it weren't for children, they would never see each other again.

Therefore, this marriage is all about Feng Shengzhe. As long as the child's position is taken into consideration and his needs are met, it will be considered a successful marriage.

She left home at the age of ten and received the care and guidance of Huishan, who was also her teacher and father. Although she was not very lucky when it came to matters between men and women, since she dared to experience it, it proved that she was not afraid and even happy to do so.

Accept feelings. According to the master, she can be considered healthy from the inside out and "at least not crooked".

As for Feng Shengzhe, she is still less than ten years old. She spent most of her time with her father in the past. If Jun Lin did not lie to her, she really had the habit of recording videos and taking photos when she was raising children. The little one should be able to learn from it.

Gain strength. Even though both parents are not around now, he is still living under the protection of his grandparents.

In addition to worrying about whether his parents would be in danger, he shouldn't have too many pessimistic thoughts, right? He couldn't unreasonably think that he was not liked by his parents, so he was abandoned by his parents and left directly to the elderly at home.

Taking care of him. He was still young when she took care of him, but there are audio records to prove it. When Junlin took care of him, he was already aware of the matter, and his own memory can prove it.

So, for the time being, there is no need to worry about him being depressed?

Feng Shu turned around again.

irritable.

How could you not be sad?

Any child whose parents are not around to take care of him or her will be sad.

Although she was not liked by her family when she was young, she knew in her heart that as long as her parents were around, no matter what happened at home, they would solve it. If she encountered any danger, they would protect her and would not really abandon her.

She didn't care.

Although she did not understand this kind of confidence in personal safety when she was a child, and she never recalled it when she was young, as an adult and after traveling in the world for many years, she understood that it was also a kind of love.

Although since she can remember, she has never been hugged or kissed by her parents, she has never been praised and encouraged by her parents, and she has never received any intimate emotional expressions from them, but in the final analysis, she is their child, and they have never forgotten to protect her.

Safety.

Even if they banished her from the family in the end, they found someone reliable instead of just sending her away casually.

Huishan has been a redemptive existence to her from the beginning. Without the family's selection and efforts, Huishan would not have been able to accept a half-grown child, especially a little girl.

No matter how much he doesn't mind secular rules, he is also a monk. Even if he is already a master, no one dares to criticize his words and deeds, but living with a little girl will eventually lead to a lot of rumors.

At that time, she was already more mature than her peers. After walking on the road for a while, she mustered up the courage to ask him. He was a monk but she was not a nun. If he took her with him, would he be scolded by others?

Huishan touched his bald head and laughed so hard that his cheeks trembled.

"Fuck you, you'd be in trouble if you were a nun. I have one foot in the grave. No matter whether the world is a sea of ​​flowers or a cesspit, they say it's theirs, I do mine, and I'm responsible for everything.

Laugh as much as you want and cry as much as you want.

Hey, hey, just don’t be too beautiful. Everything in the world that is too colorful, whether it is a person or an object, will be coveted by others. So remember, don’t be too beautiful. I don’t want to hunt down those who are interested in you all day long.

A person who has wild dreams.

Of course, don’t be too ugly, it won’t make people want to wash their eyes every day.”

Thinking of his muttering, Feng Shu couldn't help but relax, raised the corners of his mouth slightly, and had a smile on his face.

Mengmeng said that she would forget her last life, and as time went by, her memories of the past became increasingly blurred, until finally, she completely integrated into this era and only remembered the people, events and scenery here.

But how is it possible?

How could she forget Huishan?

How could she forget Guo Zi?

How could she forget the Feng family?

How could she forget, the donkey rolls?

All the people who loved and protected her, all the people who hurt her, all the happy things, all the sad experiences, everything made her who she is today.

Maybe she will forget some of the people and things among them, but the people and things that are unforgettable to her will only turn into the bones and blood of her soul and stay with her forever.

It was like at this moment, when her mood was fluctuating violently, and it was a rare time when she was in a bad mood, just thinking of Huishan, his past words, and his teachings to her were enough to break her out of her bad mood and restore her calmness and even...

It's joyful.

"Master, I couldn't see you for several years, and my disciple never cried. Now every time I think of you and senior brother, I always want to laugh and cry. One day, if he can really see second senior brother, he will definitely

Are you kidding me, my little junior sister? You have been an adult for so long, but you still look like a little girl."

"What did you say, little girl?"

Mengmeng came back, she seemed to be shuddering as soon as she opened her mouth, as if countless goose bumps had appeared.

Feng Shu turned over and sat up, "Nothing. Success?"

"That's right."

"Have you been discovered? Or is there someone powerful among the passengers who has made you suffer? Are you injured?"

"No, no, I'm not at the level where someone can hurt me."

Mengmeng's tone was not very good.

"Well, it's good that you weren't hurt."

Feng Shu took out a bottle of mental recovery potion from the space button and drank it.

"Don't drink so many messy things. It won't be obvious at first glance. When your strength improves in the future, you will know that those who rely on external forces to pass the level will never be as good as those who rely only on themselves to overcome difficulties."

Mengmeng disliked her drinking the mental recovery potion, "Every time you drink this, I can smell a strange smell wafting on you."

Feng Shu was startled. It was the first time he heard it described like this, "Strange smell? How strange? Smell? Or does it just make you feel uncomfortable?"

"It's not smelly at all, but it's just weird and doesn't smell good. Even the fragrance you brought is not authentic."

Authentic?
To be continued...