Life is precious, and life is also despicable.

If it is a valuable life but is reversed by humans, threatening and forcing it to become despicable, many people will find it difficult to survive. For some people, living is precious in itself, but for some people, surviving is a real humiliation. It is better to live without a good death. Not everyone agrees with the way of living. Everyone has different ways of living, so it is difficult to blame those behaviors of giving up their lives.

But in the end, if it were her, she would choose to live. No matter how humble she lives, she would live. As long as she lives, there would be changes. Even if she dies, there would be no change in desire. At least, she did her best and had a clear conscience.

The donkey rolling back then was obviously different from her, so she gave her a fatal sword.

Feng Shu smiled. Even if he had learned to let go, letting go did not mean there was no regret.

In Junlin's heart, the chance of her missing person being in danger of life was too high, so high that everyone else believed that she had already been destroyed. Therefore, the possible reality of the eternal separation of yin and yang almost completely submerged him in those years. But despite his regret and despair, Junlin never suffocated. As long as he did not see her body for a day and there was no definite evidence that she was indeed dead, he decided that she was still alive.

To be alive is hope.

He never gave up looking for her. Even though many years have passed, he firmly believed that she lived in a corner of the world. Even if many years have passed, he could look at her from a distance after completely losing her memory and recognize her as the person he wanted to touch.

This is not something that is easy to do. If he had no pure love, even if he was stubborn, she would not have become obsessed in his heart. It was precisely because of the wisp of love that was as ethereal as the breeze but indeed existed that he could not give up searching.

The two of them are very different people.

The donkey rolls in the sun, lively and warm, and is full of vitality at any time. During those years when he met day and night, although he occasionally made fun of her or made her cry, he was more concerned and guided by moistening things. Their relationship was both teachers and friends, even if they later clarified their feelings, in those times when they were with her, as lovers, the donkey rolled in to her was more like a beacon guiding the way, a shelter who was thinking about giving her a lifetime of peace and joy.

But Junlin was not like this. He was rebellious, domineering, and cold enough to have wanted to ignore or even ignore her existence for a time.

During the short-term relationship, many times, his words and deeds do not take into account her ideas at all, and they basically come with their hearts. No matter the initial hatred, disgust, suspicion, or annoyance, even if he wants to kill her, he will never hide it. He will directly use real words and deeds to let her know. Even if Feng Shengzhe is right in front of him, he can still show his unscrupulous side without any scruples. At extremely occasional moments, he will even deliberately show his unscrupulous side.

He was also older than her, but never like a donkey rolling, and would often give her an older feeling. It seemed that from beginning to end, he spontaneously treated her as a person of the same age as him. He ruthlessly mocked her for her strength, but he strangely confirmed her equal status with him. In his eyes, she seemed to have never been a person younger than him. In her impression, he was never a person older than her.

She had never been convinced before that he really liked her. Just as he initially ignored her appearance, she also ignored his sincerity. They had always been getting along in dislocation, and communication was carried out in collisions. There were very few times when they were calm, and most of them were disgusting each other and fighting each other.

He has always been a person who gave her a headache, and was an existence that made her want to completely ignore it but could not kill it with one sword. And vice versa, he had lost control and wanted to kill her directly.

When Feng Shu remembered the scene when he was taught by Feng Shengzhe, his eyes were curved.

Men and women like Junlin and her have long had no delusions about marriage and never had extravagances about their children. Building a family is a lifestyle they avoid, but what they should come is still there, and what makes people laugh and cry is that Feng Shengzhe's birth and growth have indeed made them willingly bear all the troubles that come with it.

The place where Junlin made her most grateful is here. Without him, there wouldn’t be Feng Shengzhe. Of course, if it weren’t for her, there wouldn’t be Feng Shengzhe, there wouldn’t be Feng Shengzhe, there wouldn’t be Feng Shu, and there wouldn’t be Feng Shengzhe. No matter what the reason is, all kinds of coincidences will fall to this point by chance. Everything is worthy of her gratitude, because it was these fates that finally created the small life of Feng Shengzhe.

It can be said that it was Feng Shengzhe who changed some of her deep-rooted ideas. It was Feng Shengzhe who made her a mother and felt the mood of being a mother. The wonderful feeling that was closely connected to another life was so subtle that she could not describe it to her mouth or to express it to her writing.

It can only be said that the nurturing of life is indeed worth it. Even people like her who once hated children can gain some understanding from it and then get some help in life. Although she still doesn’t know the exact meaning now, she sincerely believes that even if it is just for Feng Shengzhe to be born safely, it is worth it for her to come to this world. The birth of his life that should not have been born has given her the most primitive and profound meaning to root and walk in this time and space.

If it weren't for having to give birth to Feng Shengzhe, she wouldn't live with the premature Feng Yun, but would send the other party to an orphanage, or simply leave alone without any arrangements.

But the pregnancy situation at that time limited all other possibilities. The morning sickness was too severe, and she had to be taken care of by Feng Yun. Although she was not the kind of person who should repay the kindness of a drop of water, she was indeed clearly distinguished. Since she had inherited Feng Yun's love, regardless of whether she was willing to admit that he was her younger brother at that time, she also realized that she had an obligation to respond to the other party.

This is how communication begins, with coming and going, and over time, feelings will grow.

All the misfortunes in her previous life began with the twin brother becoming a stillbirth, and she suffered family criticism for this reason for this life, the ignorance of her grandparents, the distance from her father, the hysterical hatred of her mother, and the retreat of her sisters. Even after leaving the Feng family later, she received father-like shelter from Huishan and brother-like care from Guo Zi, but no matter how close she is, these are all from the elders' downing.

It was Feng Yun who became her younger brother, which opened her knot for many years. It was Feng Shengzhe who became her son, which made her resurrection from the dead begin to have the will to live. It was because she became family with the two little guys that she slowly found all kinds of joys in life.

Their purity and softness dissolved her anger. The sadness, anger, and pain were all relieved by them in their daily life with their innocent hearts, and in the end they only felt aggrieved, unwilling and regret.

Now, she was no longer even feeling depressed. Her heart awakened the past that she treated each other sincerely, leaving only a faint regret.

If everything could be done again, can she and the donkey roll together? If the donkey rolls into this world, will she look for her desperately? Unfortunately, without the if, even if there is an if, she and him will not be able to return to the past. She has more experiences that she did not have in her previous life, met new people, encountered new things, and was carrying out a different life. If he was also in this time and space, he would definitely meet new people, encounter new things, and manage a life that was very different from his previous life.

Time will not go back, and the same is true for the original intention. Some people miss it, they miss it. Even if they can meet again and fall in love again, they will not be able to go back to the beginning. Even if they let go of their grudges, it is difficult to cross the gap brought by time. Their lives have different contents, and various new changes are not so easy to bridge. Especially, she can now say that she has a family. And he may not have no partner and children.

Feng Shu lowered her eyes. Her raised waist and abdomen were covered by the green ocean, but she was still reminding her of its existence.

For her back then, living means hope. For her now, her children are also hope. It is real that she can hear the sound of her heartbeat, feel the movement, and the warm and soft life.

She had no way to understand what the master said well before, "This is the relationship between mother and child - the softest is also the hardest, and the hardest is the softest." But after Feng Shengzhe was born, she slowly experienced those subtle emotions. All the softness in her heart will bloom because of the child's smile; all the strength in her bones will burst out because of the child's tears.

She didn't know what other women thought, but for her, not being a mother would not necessarily regret it. After becoming a mother, she would definitely feel heartbroken and regret that she did not protect her child for life.

"I can't tell you, but Feng Shu, if you look at Junlin carefully, he is really your right fate.

Bystanders are clear about the authorities and the people are confused. You may not understand his meaning to you now, but please believe that those of us who are born with keen perception will appear in your life and naturally have their rationality. We do not say stupid words such as the true destiny of heaven, but we will challenge those facts to reason. For you, everyone in this world is not as deep as he comes alone. Of course, your children are also destined to you, but this kind of destiny is also derived from the fate of you and the king.

If you don’t cherish the greatest fate around you, your blessings will gradually decrease. Once you separate and no longer have any interactions, this kind of ties with fate will be cut off by you one day.

If a slap can't be slapped, no matter how hard he tries to get in front of you, you will ignore him at all, not respond, and watch coldly. No matter how passionate his feelings are, they will be extinguished by you.

Where can I ever erupt in this world? Love is the same. There is no flower of love that does not need to be watered. There are flowers that are born with nature, but that kind of flowers are outside the five elements. They do not belong to love, and they will not belong to anyone."

As Xiao Lu talked, she didn't know how she would continue to talk, and a small vortex swayed around her.

"Oh, it's right to support us anyway. There will be no harm in trying it. You and Junlin are already adults, and you have experienced many battles. You will never be able to understand this kind of relationship. Even if you fail, the failure of this little thing is within the scope of your two. What are you afraid of? Don't use children as an excuse. I know you all love children very much, but humans love themselves the most in essence. No, it is that all creatures love themselves the most. We are born to live for ourselves."

Feng Shu smiled slightly.

"There won't be something you worry about happening. Junlin and I will always be Feng Shengzhe and their parents. As long as the children are in one day, we will never be able to break off contact."

She and him are not enemies, so they have to stage a plot like "I'm not in contact with each other until I die"? It sounds stupid.

"Then what are you afraid of?"

"I'm not afraid."

"No, you are just afraid. I can feel that, how can I say it, it's like I'm afraid of promising to give King Lin a chance, and he will be kept in a tight position in the future and will never be able to escape from the clutches of the devil."

Xiaolu suddenly realized when she said this, "Good man, can you be the kind of woman who advocates absolute freedom? She just likes to do what she wants to do freely. She feels like a huge burden for men, children, companions, and other annoying guys. In order not to get entangled in the network, the more tight the network is getting tighter and tighter, she would rather not jump in from the beginning, and even when the network comes to catch you, she simply runs away. If she can't escape, she will cut it with a sword?"

Feng Shu was amused by it, and the child in her belly sensed her emotions and started punching and kicking again, so that her face was distorted for a while and she was sweating profusely.

"Am I wrong? Your child seems to agree with what I said just now, otherwise why would he kick you?"

"You're thinking too much."

"You know what you think about it. You are just afraid. Mengmeng thinks so. Jiantong thinks that you either look down on Junlin or love another man in your heart."

Feng Shu wiped the sweat from his face and then pushed the wet bangs aside to prevent them from sticking to his cheeks.

"Why do you think women must fall in love with a good man? If they don't love each other, the reason is that their hearts belong to them? Can't women just love themselves? Just as you said just now, we creatures are born selfish and will only live for ourselves."

"The problem is that you have fallen in love with men and have experienced the sweetness of love. Even if you have tasted the pain of love at the same time, when you encounter a new love, you will also plunge into it without hesitation. Just like a woman having a baby, knowing that pregnancy is very hard, giving birth is just a wandering in front of the gates of hell, and raising a child is even more painful, but once you experience the joy and happiness that the child can bring to you, you will be enthusiastic about planning to have more children."

If reproduction of life is a physiological instinct, craving for love is the human soul instinct.
Chapter completed!