Chapter 140 You Are Deceiving Yourself
I looked at Xuan Ye in surprise, "It turns out that Zhang Qingqing is this rabbit."
"Um?"
I picked up the disposable paper cup and poured a glass of boiled water gently: "Aren't you just waiting for the rabbit?"
He calmly and shamelessly snatched away my boiled water, took a sip himself, and then gave it back to me, "Mrs. Wise."
I held the boiled water and joked in a low voice: "It's over, my boiled water is not clean anymore, it's stained with your saliva."
He deliberately and ambiguously wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me into his arms. His blue eyes were as bright as stars, filled with a strong possessiveness, and he said shamelessly and plausibly: "Ambergris is very expensive and has high nutritional value.
"
I held the cup of plain water and looked up at him in a funny way, "Then Mr. Dragon King, is the wine made from your saliva worth anything?"
He raised his eyebrows: "I don't know if it's worth it, but Madam, you can try it to see if it tastes good."
Saying that, he wanted to come closer to me and kiss me.
Considering that there were still people outside, I quickly put my hands on his chest to stop him. "Don't make trouble..."
As soon as he finished speaking, there was a sound of something falling to the ground outside.
Song Lei then asked with a drunken giggle: "Qingqing, you're here...come on, sit down wherever you want!"
Zhang Qingqing walked up to him quickly and asked in a hard voice that trembled with excitement: "What is this?! What is this! What are you doing with these things? I ask you what you are doing with these things!"
There was a clang, like the incense burner falling to the ground.
"Xiao Xiao, Xiao Xiao... what are you doing! Don't touch my Xiao Xiao!"
"Song Lei, are you done yet? It's been five years! She's been dead for five years! Why are you still so unable to let her go? What's so good about her? She was just lucky. She happened to die when you loved her most.
That year! Song Lei, could you please sober up! You drank so much, I think you are crazy!"
"Qingqing, please don't pull me, I want Xiaoxiao, I miss her, I miss her so much..." Song Lei sobbed and cried softly.
Zhang Qingqing slapped Song Lei and said angrily:
"You don't want the living people, but you miss the dead people every day. Do you think you are cheap or not? Unfortunately, I still thought that today is your birthday, so I bought a cake to accompany you, but this is how you entertain me?
I shouldn't have lingering feelings for you, and I shouldn't think that in Cinnabar Town, you are..."
Song Lei smiled self-deprecatingly: "In Cinnabar Town... yes, I can't see you being bullied by others, and I want to stand up for you, but Qingqing, my affection for you comes from Xiao Xiao.
There are too many similarities between you and Xiao Xiao... Oh no, it should be you in the past, there are too many similarities with Xiao Xiao. But Qingqing, the feelings gained through deception are not true feelings."
"What do you mean?"
"You think I don't know that that night three years ago, it was you who transformed into Xiao Xiao and mesmerized me, which made me make a big mistake and betray Xiao Xiao...
You think I don’t know, and you are not human. You think I don’t know, and you are deliberately imitating Xiaoxiao... When I broke up with you, did you think I really fell in love with you?
In fact, it’s not the case. I just hate myself so much that I can’t stop looking at a fake Xiao Xiao every day. I hate myself so much that I know you are not Xiao Xiao, but I still try to find a shadow of Xiao Xiao in you and get some comfort.
.
That's unfair to you and Xiao Xiao. You were like a hallucinogenic and addictive poison to me. Being with you was just drinking poison to quench my thirst!"
After hearing this, Zhang Qingqing smiled bitterly: "So you know everything... Then Song Lei, did you fall in love with me, Zhang Qingqing, instead of Xie Xiao's shadow for a moment?"
"I...no. In this life, I will only fall in love with Xiao Xiao, I can only fall in love with Xiao Xiao."
"You are deceiving yourself! You are just afraid that falling in love with me will tarnish the sacred love between you and Xie Xiao. You are afraid that you will be condemned by your conscience! Yes! Three years ago, I designed you, and I deliberately used
The spell makes you hallucinate, thinking that Xie Xiao is back and is sleeping with me.
But in the countless days and nights that followed, I didn't use Xie Xiao's face. Aren't you still very greedy for me? Song Lei, Xie Xiao is dead. Even her soul can't be found. She disappeared completely.
She won't come back.
The life of the dead is over, but the life of the living must go on!"
"Qingqing, you are right... The dead have finished their lives. The living cannot be trapped in this vortex all their lives and cannot get out... But Qingqing, I found it. I found the way to collect it back to my little one."
Xiaohunso’s method!
Yaozhu, I got Yaozhu, as long as I have Yaozhu, Xiao Xiao can come back..."
Zhang Qingqing swallowed in disbelief: "You found Yaozhu? Why...why can't you forget her!"
There was another crackle in the living room, the sound of broken glass and china.
Zhang Qingqing roared madly: "What is so good about her that makes you think about her for so long! Wouldn't it be wrong to delete the dead person from your memory! Song Lei, look at me, look at me!"
I once had a wonderful time with you. At that time, there was no Xie Xiao in our lives. Don't you love me very much?
Song Lei, I am the one who loves you the most! If she dies, why don’t you stop thinking about her? If she dies, why does she still have to affect your life? Do you want to stay away from marriage and go to school for the rest of your life?
Do you accept another woman? Where is Yaozhu, give it to me, give it to me!"
"No! I can condone you no matter how much trouble you made in the past, but I won't allow you this time!"
Zhang Qingqing shouted hysterically: "Song Lei, let me ask you again, who do you want between me and Xie Xiao?"
Song Lei said firmly: "I want Xiao Xiao, I only want Xiao Xiao! The only person I love is Xiao Xiao!"
There was a crisp slap in the living room.
Then came Zhang Qingqing's low-pitched threat: "If you can't find her, you'll never find her!"
After saying that, he angrily left the villa on high heels.
The sound of the car starting and driving away gradually disappeared outside the window.
When Xuan Ye and I opened the door and went out, Song Lei had already opened the airtight curtains, pushed open the two clean and reflective glass windows in the living room, squatted on the ground, and used his hands to clean up the fruit cake that had been smashed on the ground bit by bit.
——
"She is not bad in nature. I need to take full responsibility for why she is like this...Ten years ago, when I first met her, she was just a little butterfly trapped in the barrier. I saved her, and she became...
It always followed me. Later, when I had Xiaoxiao, it left my side.
Two years later, she appeared in my life with a new identity. Seeing her again, she was Xiaoxiao's best friend who had always played well in college...
She is sunny and cute, lively and cheerful, as pure as a piece of white paper. Although I recognize her and like her, my love for her is just like a brother's love for his sister.
How could I not see what she was thinking about me? But love requires two people to see each other in the eye and recognize each other before they can continue. In order not to make Xiaoxiao unhappy, I have been hiding all those years
She also told her several times that I only have Xiaoxiao in my heart and will never fall in love with anyone again.
She should have given up at that time. Until Xiaoxiao had an accident five years ago, and I was helpless. She came to me and stayed with me through the most difficult years... She said she didn't have the heart.
,Fake.
Sometimes I really want to catch the shadow of Xiao Xiao in her, but sometimes I know very clearly that she is Qingqing, not Xiao Xiao. Uncle Xie also advised me back then that Xiao Xiao is gone and the living people
Always start a new life.
But, I can't do it. I love Xiao Xiao more than I love her.
I was afraid that I would miss her, so I broke up with her at the expense of hurting her. After the breakup, she began to become unstable. She wore heavy makeup, hooked up with strange men, often went to bars and karaoke bars, and learned to smoke and smoke.
Drink beer and liquor.
She was not like this before because I forced her... But I have no choice. I can't forget Xiao Xiao, so I can't selfishly occupy her. This is disrespectful to the person I love."
I stood in front of Song Lei and let out a long sigh. Looking at the smashed photos on the ground, I felt sad.
Emotions are such a grinding thing!
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At night, Zhang Qingqing drove to a deserted suburb, using the flashlight of her mobile phone to walk through the woods on the lush hillside.
After walking for more than half an hour, we stopped under a black locust tree.
I checked the butterfly mark carved on the tree with my flashlight, then took out the shovel, squatted down, leaned my phone against the tree trunk, and dug hard at the bottom of the tree with both hands.
After she dug a hole at the base of the big tree, she put down the shovel, stretched out her hands, and took out the ceramic jar from the hole.
"Xiao Xiao, I didn't expect that after so many years, he still can't forget you... Originally I was thinking that after you completely disappeared from his memory, I would send you to the underworld to be reincarnated without anyone noticing, so that he
Even if I find you, I can't be with you anymore, and you won't be you anymore.
But now it seems that I can't keep you. He has Yaozhu, so I can't trap you. Xiaoxiao, don't blame me for being cruel and ignoring the friendship between my best friends in the same dormitory in the past. The only blame is that you are the latecomer.
Go on, you shouldn't take away the person I like...
I have never harmed you when you are alive. If you are dead, just make it easier for me!"
After she finished speaking, she closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and suddenly many dots of purple light rose up around her body.
A pair of large black butterfly wings vaguely sprouted from her back, and a pink stream of light flew out of the earth-covered ceramic jar and was sucked into her breath——
Before he finished taking a sip, Xuan Ye used a spell to snatch the jar away.
The ceramic jar flew into Xuan Ye's palm, and Xuan Ye handsomely flicked his sleeves and pulled out the remaining soul that had been sucked into Zhang Qingqing's body with a wave of magic power, sealing it back into the jar in one movement.
Chapter completed!