Chapter 10 Sad about this thing, it is difficult but it will pass eventually
It is difficult to be sad about this thing, but it will eventually pass.
Su Guo felt that she was actually a "famous Weibo quote little internet celebrity" who was delayed by her bank job.
A famous Weibo quote from a young internet celebrity solemnly told her ex-boyfriend: That's right, I was very sad when I broke up back then, but I was very sad, but no matter how difficult it was, I was still able to get over it.
I remember that I was chasing Qin Yao desperately and fighting with Qin Yao to the death. Even if he spoke rudely, he had never wavered his determination to give up. Su Guo sometimes smiled: I was really young back then, and had such a strong heart.
Su Guo remembered that he finally forced Qin Yao into anger one time, and Qin Yao yelled at him: Su Guo, you will die if you don’t stare at me, right?
She remembered that she replied to him without hesitation: Yes, I will die! I will die of sadness!
The young Su Guo has a strong heart that is not afraid of failure or harm. This is because she has enough confidence and expectations for the future, because she and him are still young, and she believes that she can touch his hard heart for ten years.
Now Su Guo is no longer strong or brave, because she has proved her failure in ten years, so thoroughly.
The ten years of hard pursuit and the five years of separation only prove that he may like you a little, but this does not prevent him from continuing to like others, like the junior girl back then, like Ye Chenxi.
Of course, it also proves that sadness will not kill people.
When she got home, Su Guo watched the boring emotional dialogue program for a while, then took a shower, and was sitting on the sofa wiping her hair while holding the remote control to adjust the program. When the doorbell rang, she was adjusting to a fun program Lin Zhi recommended before, called "Study hard" and so on...
"Here's here." I don't know if the dead man next door came to borrow something again. He borrowed a package of toilet paper last time, and borrowed a pair of chopsticks last time, and then...
Su Guo opened the door and saw the "dead man" outside the door. Her first reaction was to close the door quickly!
But because I was so shocked, I had already missed the best time to close the door in those few seconds. So the two of them could only stare at each other with big eyes.
"I have something to say... to you." Qin Yao probably ran over and was breathless.
Su Guo said, "Oh, then wait, I'll go change my clothes. Why don't you go to the coffee shop downstairs and sit and wait for me first?"
Qin Yao suddenly reached out and slapped Su Guo on the door that was closing. With a bang, Su Guo people jumped.
Qin Yao said: "Is it not convenient to let me in?"
He was a little anxious and his attitude was even a little angry.
Su Guo was stunned, but soon realized, "It's convenient, please come in."
Qin Yao was not out of sight and strode in.
I walked to the shoe cabinet first, and without waiting for the owner to arrange it, I opened the shoe cabinet door, took a look and then closed it, and changed into a pair of gray plush slippers with rabbit ears placed outside.
The shoes are small, Qin Yao's feet are big, which is extremely disharmonious.
Su Guo closed the door, her mouth curled up, "What are you drinking?"
Qin Yao left the sentence "just" and went into the toilet.
Su Guo complained in her heart: Only Professor Qin can come to visit the door empty-handed and act like he doesn't treat himself as an outsider.
Although he was confused about Qin Yao's behavior, Su Guo still prepared "carelessness" for him.
Qin Yao came out of the toilet and saw the cups on the coffee table.
"Orange juice, cola, black tea and coffee, choose whatever you want."
"Give me a glass of water."
Qin Yao finished drinking two glasses of water and watched half an episode of "Study hard". During this period, Su Guo also dried her hair and changed into a dress.
"Okay." Su Guo said to Qin Yao and said to him.
OK, you can say it, and I am ready to listen to you.
"What do you think I'm going to say?"
Su Guo really wanted to rush over and beat Qin Yao up!
You can bully people so unscrupulously because I like you, right? Is it that I came to my house in the middle of the night to disturb my mother's heart, which had long been calm, now I actually questioned me? I know what you are going to say!
After Ma Jingtao roared in her heart, Su Guo's aura was a little more smooth. It's not that she didn't know that this person has always had higher IQ than EQ, and she is extremely used to using IQ to crush others' IQ, including EQ.
It's simply a shameless person!
"Let's do it," Su Guo cleared her throat, sat upright, and tried to show her seriousness, "I once again answered your question in the car with sincerity and sincerity-
Qin Yao, I am very sad in the past five years since I broke up with you. I am very sad. You may not be able to understand, and maybe no one can understand...
"But it's like the heart-warming chicken soup that is so bad: time will heal all the scars. I finally let you go in five years. Of course, if you appear in front of me in six or seven years, I may automatically extend the time. This does not mean that I am lying to you, but when you appear in front of me again, I really can't be sure whether I don't care anymore...
"In the past, I was always worried about whether you like me. If you don't like me, do I still want to continue to like you? If you like me, will I suddenly dislike me one day... I later thought that living a bad life alone is because I think too much and consider other people's feelings too much, and I am destined to live a bad life. So, the rest of my life is so long, I decided to be loyal to myself, live a little more relaxed and freer, and live like myself.
"So Qin Yao, you don't have to blame yourself or feel that you owe me anything. At that time, I was willing to act on my own, and the next five years were also the breakup I mentioned first, so you see, it was all made by myself, and it has nothing to do with you."
Su Guo really felt that she had the potential to become a "Famous Weibo Quotes Little Internet Celebrity". A whole pot of chicken soup for the soul was almost touched.
But as she said to Qin Yao, time can heal all scars, and what is finally settled in the heart must be those beautiful and lovely memories that were the first.
Even if there are not many memories like this, she can still drink poison to quench her thirst. As long as the Qin Yao she loved, she will always be a quiet, beautiful and warm person.
Su Guo said so much, for the first time, he put his heart in an open place in front of Qin Yao, analyzed and appreciated his heart with him, and for the first time he faced the entanglement that should have been clearly stated five years ago.
Without any resentment or hatred, I just have a good chat with the person I liked, talk about my likes and sadness, and then solemnly tell you: It’s all over.
Qin Yao held the transparent glass in his hand, staring at the water stain on the mouth of the cup. The drip of water stain persisted for a long time, but finally dripped along the cup body to the palm of his hand.
The warm water burned the palm of the hand.
"What do you think I'm going to say..." There was no longer the aggressiveness and conceit that I was before, and there was only the little unwillingness and loss left.
Su Guo thought that Professor Qin was still stubborn and was immersed in the self-criticism of "I hurt Su Guo, I have a great responsibility." So he patted Qin Yao on the shoulder as a close sister, "Qin Yao, everything has passed..."
"I don't want to break up." Qin Yao's voice suddenly increased.
"But we broke up five years ago!" Su Guo was amused and cried, and didn't know if Professor Qin's head was short-circuited.
Chapter completed!