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[044] Self-esteem, self-love, self-improvement and self-reliance

When she saw Eve, she was about to go filming.

I know she is from the drama department, and I also know that she will eventually take the path of acting, but I always hope that she will take the path after graduation.

Such a luxury comes from my liking that she retains a little student innocence before graduation. Otherwise, when I am with her, I will not be able to tell whether her actions are from the heart or acting.

After we discussed Zhang Ailing that day, I asked her: "It's not good to do something with your conditions, why do you need to act?"

Her words convinced me: "Everyone is acting, the difference is that some people act in front of the camera and some people act in life. Instead of acting in life for free, it is better to act in front of the camera to support yourself."

I admired her very much at that time. I felt that a girl with big breasts and brainlessness would definitely not be able to say such wise words.

It was only today that she told me that she had participated in many performances. When she was just a freshman, their mentor took a group of students to look for performance opportunities. She said that when she was sophomore, she didn't need her family to send living expenses, and sometimes she would finish work very late, so she rented a house outside the school.

If I have a pure heart, I should praise her for being so self-reliant. It’s a pity that my heart is not pure enough. In my impression, there are only three kinds of beautiful girls living outside the school. One is living with my boyfriend. This is quite good. The second is often taken by someone. The third is living outside the school, which is called "working part-time jobs"...

Thinking of this, I was messy, and the girl in a white dress was drifting away in my world.

She pulled me out of the messy world with one sentence: "Do you want to watch me film?"

I said, "Is it convenient?"

She said: "It's very convenient."

That was my first time to watch a filming scene. I was very excited at that time. When I mentioned filming in the mainland, I couldn't help but think of Director Feng and Mr. Ge. The reality was that when I arrived at that crew, I couldn't name a single name from the director to the actor.

She played a small character with only three dialogues in the play. The makeup was terrible and the costume was even more terrible. I expressed my understanding of this. In order to highlight the heroine who is not very outstanding in all aspects, the makeup artist could only make the supporting actress ugly. During this period, I made a new discovery that in this crew, at least five actresses were more beautiful than the female lead, and after putting on makeup, the light of the female lead immediately overshadowed all the supporting actresses.

Eve, who only has three lines, is very serious, reminding me of Stephen Chow in the King of Comedy.

I was very pleased at that moment. She was so serious about playing supporting roles, which means she had not been unspoken.

The next moment I felt very distressed again. I felt that no matter from any angle, she should play the leading female role. Seeing that she was going to perform three lines that she didn't say, I suddenly hated that I was not able to change all this, and this feeling made me very sad.

After work, she asked me: "Are I stupid when I performed?"

I'll tell the truth: "There's a little bit."

She was a little self-deprecating: "The so-called performance is to be an extra, which makes you laugh."

I continued to be honest: "Yes, seeing you playing supporting roles really made me laugh."

She asked, "What does it mean?"

I said, "It's nothing. If you play the leading female lead, I will think about what special relationship you have with the director."

She turned her back on her face faster than flirting with books: "Can't she become the leading female lead without having a special relationship with the director?"

Faced with such a rebellious problem and facing Eve who showed anger for the first time, I felt that she was so real, so real that I could see and touch it. I immediately became excited and said, "I heard from you that it seems to be a little story. I will tell you and I will help you refer to it."

She yelled: "I originally had six dialogues. Last time the assistant director called me to sing in the middle of the night. I didn't go, and the dialogue was cut in half, leaving only three sentences. If it weren't for the sake of our teacher, I would probably have lost a single line."

I asked her, "Then why do you still have to act? If it were the same, I would just stop doing it."

She was very excited: "I thought so, but I was unwilling to give up halfway, right? Besides, every crew is similar, and I will become numb after seeing it too much. I know a few female classmates who can't stand the temptation, but they are still not popular? So I kept telling myself that I must stick to the bottom line, even if I play supporting roles, it doesn't matter. Once I accumulate enough experience, maybe one day the opportunity will come. Opportunities only belong to those who are prepared, right?"

I can especially understand her mentality. Before that, I had written two books, and my grades were neither salty nor light. For a while, I planned to go to work hard and not write, but I was very unwilling to give in. I felt that I was not right after quitting the world like this. Real idols were famous and then retired to the mountains and forests. I had not had time to become famous yet.

So I spent my spare time writing a new book. My mentality was very similar to Eve. At that time, my idea was that when I accumulated enough experience of losing things, I would not fail again. There would always be a suitable opportunity to come.

I told Eve what I thought, and she watched me silent for a long time.

Later she suddenly held my hand and said, "Let's work together."

I was in a mixed mood at that time. I was happy that she and I finally had physical contact. I was worried that this kind of contact was not a handhold between couples, but a handshake of a very social nature.

There is no way, I can only use the spirit of Ah Q to motivate myself, and at least I have held hands with her.

When we parted that day, we encouraged each other, like a pair of literary and artistic youths who struggled for their ideals.

After I went back, I wrote a very long manuscript titled "Self-respect, self-love, self-reliance, self-reliance and self-reliance - Entering the daily life of girls in art schools in the new era". No wonder netizens in later generations scolded reporters for being unconventional. My first work was so unconventional. I said good things cleanly, but I didn't say a single bad thing.

When Brother Yun saw the first draft, he was shocked and said, "Can you tell me how much money you charged her?"

The comments made by Brother Ma in this regard are even more vicious: "Can you tell me that you have made many deals of her?"

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