"Did your aunt do a good job later?"

When I came back to my memory, Lin Shao asked me excitedly.

The memories are already heavy, and I feel even heavier: "She has no future."

Lin Shao: "Why?"

I said, "She committed suicide."

I just pulled out of my memories, but I was hopelessly trapped in my memories.

Less than a month after I left Hainan, Serena called and told me some bad news.

Among the friends I know, Oatmeal is the first and only person to commit suicide.

I asked Serena, why did Oatmeal commit suicide?

Serena asked me back, and she said she couldn't figure out how Oatmeal could commit suicide. She asked me if I had an emotional entanglement with Oatmeal?

I told her very clearly that I have never had any emotional entanglements with Oatmeal. I have never had a super friendly relationship with Oatmeal.

My aunt, my friend, my confidant, and the girl I have known for more than ten years. She ended her life like a flower with a small razor blade.

Real life is once again more YY than YY novels.

There are reasons for suicide in novels and film and television characters, but we have not found the real reason for Oatmeal’s suicide, although for a certain period of time, we were her closest people.

We can only guess through the information we know, and the result is that the death of her mother, Oatmeal has no motivation to survive. We can all realize that even after Oatmeal recovers from the pain, she is different from before. She is not as joking as before, nor is she as careless as before.

Another time, when I counted money with Mai Tian, ​​she said in a daze: "It's useless to make so much money..."

In the past, she had a clear goal, making money could make her mother live a better life. When her parents left the world, she didn't know what else she could do and who she could live for.

Of course, these are our reasonable guesses, and perhaps this is not the fundamental reason for Oatmeal's suicide.

I also thought of another possibility. We don’t understand Oatmeal’s love life. Since we broke up with that top student in college, Oatmeal has never been in a relationship. I often think that maybe Oatmeal had a deep affection later, but we don’t know who she had such a relationship with.

When I went to Hainan again, the five major golden hairpins had already handled the funeral.

What I got was Oatmeal's ashes.

When I took the urn, my hands were shaking.

At that moment, the words that Mai Tian once said suddenly flashed through my mind: "From now on, you will be my only relative..."

I am her only relative and I want to take her back to my hometown.

Serena chose to go with me, and she wanted to send Oatmeal on behalf of the five golden hairpins for the last journey.

Many years later, I returned to that small county town and did not go to see relatives and friends. I bought a piece of land and buried Mai Tian.

I stood in front of the tombstone of Oatmeal for a long time, and felt that all the tears in my body had dried up.

This directly led to the fact that I never cried again in the following years until I wrote a novel called Daydream. During those years, I often wanted to cry, but I couldn't cry every time.

As we left, Serena said, "I have always wanted to ask you, what do the eight words you engraved on the tombstone of Sister Mai Tian mean?"

Those eight words are: If you are well, it will be sunny.

I was going to have some fun to get myself out of my grief, so I said to Serena: "The eight words mean that if you are not good, you will have gonorrhea if you are not good, you will have gonorrhea on rainy days."

Serena tilted her head and thought for a while, and said, "I still don't understand."

I said patiently: "You can understand it like this and use it as a story. For example, there was a young lady who was afraid that the guests would spread gonorrhea to her on a rainy day, so she looked forward to sunny days every day, and she wouldn't gonorrhea when she was sunny. She was also good, and her life was infinitely beautiful."

Serena said: "I understand. In the future, I will let all the ladies remember these eight words."

I said, "Come on."
Chapter completed!