[091] If that year
"I found you a little absent-minded. What's going on?"
After dinner, on the way to the parking lot, Mr. Lin started gossiping again.
I said, "I don't know either. I've been distracted recently."
Lin Shao: "Are you still thinking about the Erchun yesterday? By the way, what did that old lover tell you?"
I had nothing to say, and many songs suddenly floated in my mind.
Women are like songs. When I hear different songs at different times, I will reflect on the relationship between me and Eve.
At first I thought it must be love, and it hurts like the song: It turns out that love is so hurtful, it is harder than imagined...
Later I thought, that must be not love, love will not hurt so much, just like what is sung in the song: Because love will not be sad easily...
Finally, I think none of these songwriters is reliable.
I used to think I couldn't survive. After so many years, I found myself still jumping around.
Yesterday, on the evening of April 11, 2013, Eve and I met again.
I have thought about various scenes of reunion with her, but I didn't expect this in front of me.
I also thought about my condition when I met her again. I might scold her, beat her, turn her head and leave, and ignore it, and the final situation was different from what I imagined.
When I saw her, I was surprisingly calm, just like seeing a friend of a certain period. What sounded in my mind was an old song by Pu Shu: those old times, those love, those friends who are getting older...
Lin Shao and Da Ben gave us fifteen minutes to pee.
Eve and I are in a two-person world, doing things that are not in the two-person world.
I remember the day I left, I felt a great tragic feeling in my heart. The great thing was that I felt that my departure would be helpful to her acting career. The tragic thing was that if I didn’t leave, what could I do?
Later, the incident that shocked the whole country gave me great inspiration. I found that only the desperate Black Fungus relies on negative news to increase exposure. Real big stars will not become popular because of negative news, but will cause big trouble. For example, Brother Guan Xi was once a popular young actor, but after experiencing a certain sect, he completely knelt down. For example, Gillian was a first-line actress back then, but at most it was second- and third-tier after his comeback. For example, Cecilia Cheung was considered a queen-level figure back then, but now she is half-dead.
I ended up not reporting Eve's news.
On the day I left, I thought that if Eve became a big star in the future, she would thank me for this.
It was very different from what I imagined. She did not become a big star in the end, or even became a star.
After leaving Eve, I went far away. The news about her came from reminiscing about her. Later, I heard from Xiao Ma that one of the most important roles in her life was the third female lead. She never had the chance to become the heroine. After that, for some reason, she stopped acting.
There was a time when I was gloating, and there was a time when I sighed and sighed.
Today, when I see her, I think it’s not just a woman but life is also a song.
All we met was in exchange for was speechlessness.
After a long time, she showed a lady's priority aura and said, "You have changed so much."
I said, "So too."
She said: "I never saw you again after I went back that year. Where did you go?"
I said, "Go to the place I should go."
She said, "Are you still hating me?"
I said, "You're thinking too much."
She said: "Yes, you used to think too much, but now it's my turn. Hating someone requires a lot of perseverance. Do you even hate me?"
I said, "Talk something else."
She changed her sitting position, holding her chin with her hands and her lips raised slightly within a proper scale, looking like a little innocent person who was pitying for me. In those days, I was indeed pity for me. Sometimes she didn't have to talk and could defeat me with just some small movements. Today, seeing this scene, I found that I wanted to laugh for no reason.
I remembered a saying I often educated my son recently, "Being a polite person, but I didn't laugh in the end."
Sure enough, she asked, "I heard you even have a son?"
I nodded.
She showed a bitter smile, her voice even more bitter than her smile: "It's not like you. You should have asked 'who told you'. Today you didn't ask that, so I couldn't even find the most basic topic. You didn't plan to talk to me well from the beginning, did you?"
I asked, "What do you want to talk about?"
She said, "You are like this, so there is nothing to talk about anymore. I'll leave after saying a few words."
I said, "Okay, tell me."
She said: "I have never forgotten you in the past few years. I have something I always want to say to you."
I didn't say anything. I remembered the one-sided words of Lin Shao before, and I remembered that there was a literary female anchor who was lingering in her ex-boyfriend for many years. This made me feel an inexplicable sense of accomplishment and wanted to express my feelings to the moon.
Obviously, this sense of accomplishment shows that I am too simple.
She looked at me with sharper eyes than before, which made me realize that she was no longer an ideal young woman, but an older young woman in career. She seemed to be looking at an enemy, saying word by word: "I have always wanted to tell you that you have harmed me. If you had reported my affairs back then, I would have been popular."
Chapter completed!