"Especially after I went back to my hometown with her a while ago, I couldn't try hard to accept you."

Yang Sisi's lips opened slightly: "You... weren't in Beijing a while ago, did you go back to her hometown with Song Xiangsi?"

"yes."

"So, that night, you suddenly left without saying hello at the dinner. In fact, you left with her?"

"Yeah." Xu Jiamu knew that his confession was hurtful, but he was still honest with her, because he had hurt her since he asked her for a phone number at the beginning. The only thing he could do now was not to deceive her, which was the respect he gave her.

"Then I will call you and say I will meet you in Beijing. You said you would like to tell me if you have something to do. In fact, it is to tell me to separate?"

"Yes." Xu Jiamu nodded gently.

Yang Sisi's tears finally fell: "Aren't you ending with her and preparing to start a new life? Why did you change your mind? Is it because you have reconciled with her?"

"No." Xu Jiamu shook his head, and the words Qiao's father said to him before his death came into his mind. His expression became a little dazed: "It's because I discovered that over the years, it was not her who first attacked and hurt the other party, but me."

Yang Sisi blinked her wet eyes, looked at Xu Jiamu without saying a word, waiting for him to continue his words.

"She has followed me for eight years, from nineteen to twenty-seven years old, and a woman has given me the best time. During those eight years, I don't know that she dropped out of school, I don't know that she was sick, I don't know that she was injured, I don't know that she was bullied on the crew, I don't know that she was alone during the Chinese New Year, I didn't answer when she called me..."

"Eight years, three thousand days and nights, I knew nothing about her."

"The most hurtful way for someone is not to say bad things to you, not to take away your child and ignore you."

"I have ignored her for eight years."

"She gave me eight years of time and opportunity to cherish her, but I never thought of cherishing her."

"Even, in those eight years, I have never given her concern, warmth, and I have never given her happiness..."

"Do you know? I have carried your bag for you and put my arms around your shoulders to avoid being hit by a car. I have protected you in my arms in a crowded place. When you have a menstrual period, I will give you a cup of hot ginger tea. You want to drink milkshakes. I went out to buy it for you in the hot summer. I gave you whatever you want. But, do you know? I haven't done any of these things for her in those eight years."

"My excellence and impeccable now are all changed by Song Xiangsi."

"If it weren't for her, it would be impossible for Xu Jiamu, who is as careful as a hair."

"It took her eight years to turn me into what she is now..." Xu Jiamu's eyes turned red slightly: "How can you let me be kind to another woman with the things she taught me with peace of mind?"

"So..." Xu Jiamu's voice became a little weak: "I'm really sorry, I really can't continue with you..."

Because... it was her who made me better, so these good ones can only belong to her.

Yang Sisi looked at Xu Jiamu and did not speak for a long time.
Chapter completed!