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Basically, I told the emotional lines of my previous life from beginning to end!

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The spring cold in Shengjing City has faded, and the flowers are blooming and the green waters are floating.

The wintersweet planted in the courtyard of Qinfang Pavilion has withered. It is the season when flowers compete for spring, but it seems a bit desolate and decadent.

I stood in a daze under the eaves of the corridor and looked at the bare branches of the wintersweets, and then looked up at the sky. The yard was too quiet, and I could clearly hear the laughter and joy coming from the west courtyard.

Today is the birthday of the seventh sister, and Aunt Wan specially found someone to celebrate her.

The birthday is so lively!

I almost never felt the excitement.

I have been unpopular since I was a child. In this huge marquis' mansion, I feel like a forgotten existence.

Except for my father, I never cared about me, including my mother.

But my father is always very busy and doesn't stay at home all day and night. I don't know what he is busy with, but I only know that he is rarely seen.

I often see my mother crying secretly, sitting alone in the room wiping her tears. She was obviously so sad that she pretended to be strong.

When I was a child, I didn't understand, and my mother cried, so I was very sad, so I would run up to comfort her, but my mother always threw it away. She scolded me, said I was a broom star, and said that all this was caused by me.

How old I was at that time, I was only four or five years old. I was the age when I was dependent on my mother to pester her to tell stories, but I was rejected by my biological mother's disgust and rejection. I looked at me and wanted to kill me.

I don’t understand why this is happening. I asked Madam Lin, Sister Ziying, and even asked Manshuang, but none of them could answer me.

Seeing that I asked too much, Madam Lin would stretch out her hand and touch my head to comfort her, "Good child, don't hate your mother, she can't help it, she has difficulties. In the future, you can avoid her."

I couldn't understand what my mother was, but I understood the last sentence.

Just avoid her. If you avoid her, you will no longer hate me, right?

So I began to avoid this. I used to like to pester my mother, even if I was ignored or even scolded by her. Gradually, I became a girl who always liked to hide in the house and tried to avoid seeing people.

My mother still couldn't fall in love with me. Every time she saw me, she always frowned and frowned. Even if I lower my head, I could feel her cold gaze.

But I don’t seem to be very sad. Over time, my heart becomes hard and cold even after a long time.

So when I heard that my mother was going to marry me to the second son of the King of the Shoujie Family in the East of Cheng, I thought my life would be like this, ordinary and mediocre, but it cannot be said that it is bad.

Never thought I would meet him.

Meeting such a person, someone who has changed my life.

I still remember it was May, the season when pomegranate flowers bloomed.

Only Rongshengtang planted pomegranate flowers in the Hou Mansion. Large areas, with shiny lights and scorching sun, and it was so beautiful!

Ruoyan likes pomegranate flowers the most and wants a string of pomegranate garlands. But she was too lazy to deal with Mrs. Hou, so she instructed me to go.

I don’t want to see Mrs. Hou. Although her face always smiles, I always feel that she is more terrifying than a stern mother. She always seems to be able to eat people at any time.

But I had no choice. If Yan was favored, everyone in the mansion liked her. I was afraid that life would be even worse if I offended her, so I could only bite the bullet and go there.

But I was scared and didn't dare to say hello to Mrs. Hou, but I was just stupid enough to climb up the yard wall to pick a few flowers.

As soon as I climbed up, my hand had not touched the pomegranate branch outside the wall, and I heard a voice behind me asking, "What are you doing?"

I was frightened at that time and was caught doing something bad on the spot. I turned my head hurriedly to look. Who would have thought that I would slip and fall straight from the courtyard wall?

The courtyard wall was very high, and I could even hear the whistle and whistle of the wind in my ears. I closed my eyes tightly, waiting for the pain to come.

But what I waited for was a warm and generous embrace and the light, seemingly vague agarwood.

The taste of tranquility.

Suddenly I was less afraid, and opened my eyes with a "scandal" look. What caught my eye was an unparalleled handsome face.

Perhaps because I was raised in the boudoir, I have never seen a man who looks so beautiful.

His eyebrows and eyes are as picturesque as jade, and his graceful appearance is bright. He looks so beautiful that he doesn't look like a real person, but rather like he walks out of a painting.

I was so crazy that I was clearly held in my arms by him, but I forgot what I recited since I was a child, forgot that there was a difference between men and women, and forgot that I was etiquette, righteousness, integrity and shame.

All I know is that my heart is beating so fast and fast, as if it is about to pop out of my chest immediately.

"Are you okay?" He smiled at me.

I suddenly thought of a sentence.

One smile makes people's city, two smiles make people's country, three smiles make people's hearts...

It's probably like this smile!

"In other words, what are you doing?" Mrs. Hou's voice came over, with a slight dissatisfaction.

I was so dizzy that I forgot to be afraid.

He put me down in time. I heard him explain to Mrs. Hou, and then Mrs. Hou left first.

He turned around and flicked my forehead, "Even if the girl doesn't pay attention to her image, she should pay attention to safety. She can't do anything like climbing up the yard wall just now."

I stared at him blankly.

He smiled at me again, "Are you the fourth girl in the Marquis' Mansion? Fortunately, my name is Lu Yanzhi."

I can't remember exactly whether he said that at that time. I only remember that the sunshine that day was particularly dazzling and the pomegranate flowers bloomed more brilliantly than usual.

Things happened afterwards. I found out that his name was Lu Yanzhi, and he was the nephew of Mrs. Hou. He had just returned from Jiangnan a few days ago and was only fifteen years old.

The girl always likes beautiful things. After knowing his name, she seems to be able to hear the three words "Lu Yanzhi" at any time, from the third sister, from Ruoyan, from the second and fifth sisters.

I know. They all like him.

Who is not? At the age of a young girl, who can resist such an excellent and perfect man?

Of course, I did the same, but I didn’t dare to think about it, and I didn’t even dare to discuss him openly like my third sister and Ruoyan.

Because I know in my heart that I am not worthy of him.

So when I received the letter he sent me and a string of pomegranate wreaths, no one could imagine how excited I was.

I was so happy that I ran around the house for many laps, and Manshuang thought I was crazy.

If there is a first letter, there will naturally be a second letter. The third letter and the fourth letter...

Cold comes and goes, spring, summer, autumn and winter, a letter is sent every half month, never stopping.

That's how we get familiar with it.

Maybe it's because I'm still young and my feelings are still hazy. As long as I can communicate and know the other party's news, I'm already satisfied and never thought about asking for more.

It was not until he made an appointment with me and kissed me for the first time that I realized that the relationship could be so warm and sweet, like flowers and cooking oil in a fire.

On New Year's Eve, I have seen fireworks set in the Forbidden City, layer by layer, dazzling and dazzling.

I always thought that nothing could be more beautiful than fireworks, but it turned out that I had never encountered it before.

My relationship with him officially began.

He treated me very well, although he secretly and secretly, but he never treated me unfairly.

He will give me whatever I want, and he will always guess what I want and give it to me.

He is actually very busy. He is famous in Kyoto at such a young age. He is not like an ordinary playboy who only knows how to call cats and dogs all day long. He does nothing, but he always takes time to accompany me. Then he hugs me while there is no one, then kisses me, and whispers to me, "Zhao'er, if you wait for me, I will definitely marry you."

When I was young, I didn’t know so much. I always thought that as long as he liked me and I could live forever and last forever.

I think the fairy couple is just like this.

So when it comes to this feeling, I always have a pious and awe-intentioned attitude and never dares to blaspheme the slightest.

He suddenly became even busier, so busy that he was traveling outside all day, so busy that he couldn't see me for several months.

I was actually afraid. From the beginning, our relationship was not equal. I was always very inferior and felt that I was not worthy of him. I was worried that he was tired of me and whether he fell in love with others.

But I didn't dare to ask, because I was afraid that when I asked, he would think I was unreasonable and would start to hate me.

I could only wait patiently and wait for him to come to find me.

I think it doesn't matter even if he comes to say goodbye to me. Anyway, I'm not worthy of him at all, and it's really human nature to him. I just thought it was just a dream in the past.

Never thought he would say something to me.

I have imagined thousands of possibilities, and even the most heart-wrenching ones have been imagined, but I didn’t expect that there would be such hurtful words in this world.

"Zhao'er, would you marry into the Xiao Prince's Mansion? Just treat it as helping me, do me a favor."

It's just that heart-wrenching.

I really don't know how he could say this sentence in such a natural tone?

I asked him, "In other words, do you want me? Since you don't want it, just leave, why do you need me to marry someone else?"

He looked at me and couldn't speak, and I clearly saw the struggle and pain in his eyes.

I thought he had any difficulties, but when I was about to ask him, he held my shoulder as if he had made a decision and said, "I don't want you, I just had to force you. When things were done, I will redeem you again, and continue to love you without grudges and marry you. Zhao'er, just treat it as a favor to help me and fulfill our relationship for more than a year, okay?"

He took it for granted, as if it was a great sin if I didn't agree.
To be continued...