Ye Zi opened his eyes and saw the gray ceiling. The paint in some places had cracked. The dusty light bulb was dark and hung like a dead mouse, as if it could fall off at any time.

The bed he slept with was narrow and unelastic. The quilt also smelled bad. The room was very messy and messy, with books, lunch boxes, and clothes piled up everywhere. Fortunately, it was very cold now, so I haven't seen those disgusting creatures yet.

If you are thirsty, then boil some water.

Ye Zi got up slowly, came to the kitchen barefoot and boiled water in an iron pot.

On the way to boiling water, he came to the living room with only a few square meters and looked at the decorations in the living room. He felt familiar and unfamiliar. There was a broken sofa in the living room, a coffee table with lots of things piled up, an old-fashioned TV, and a cabinet.

This room is probably the most valuable thing, this cabinet. Of course, this one was moved directly from the house.

The one on the cabinet is Mom.

Ha, it may be a bit strange to say that. It should be said that what is placed on it is Han Yao's ashes, her black and white photos, wooden monuments and a small plate of burning incense.

Yes, she is dead. Why did she almost forget it again?

She is really a poor woman. She has clearly remarried successfully and is still pregnant. She tells herself every day that she wants a daughter and even has a name, saying that she is Liu Ruoyan.

But she was sick. She sold her house to cure her illness, but she still died.

After boiling water, Ye Zi turned on his cell phone while drinking.

After turning on the computer, I received a lot of text messages. Of course, don’t get me wrong. No one I know will send him text messages. He has no friends. Those text messages are all notifications of arrears, such as China Unicom and rent.

Well, at least, he saw a useful news, February 1, 2016.

So, isn’t today his birthday?

Well, so today is a day to celebrate, go buy a cake.

Speaking of which, he still lived in 2012 in his dream. So now, is he 27 years old or 28? Forget it, it doesn’t matter.

After taking a shower for a long time, he wrapped himself in several sweaters and went out in a wrinkled down jacket.

It was very cold outside, but there were many people. The streets were filled with people, and people were talking, laughing, running, and jumping, as if they were all living happily.

After walking a few steps, I met a dog. The dog was yelling at Ye Zi hard, as if he was a ghost.

The dog owner pulled the dog away, and Ye Zi happened to see a piece of glass that could be used as a mirror. He walked over and looked at himself, thinking that it was understandable to be treated like a ghost like this. The person in the glass had messy hair, thin and yellow skin, heavy dark circles, and stubble on his chin. Forget it, I won't look.

Ye Zi stepped on the snow and shuttled through the sea of ​​people.

He walked into the nearest cake shop and looked around. He originally wanted to buy a big cake, but unfortunately he was too poor. After buying a big one, he had no money to eat. He had to buy a very small one.

On the way home, he saw Jiang Wei across the road. He was still like that, wearing gorgeous clothes and beautiful figure.

Ye Zi was not surprised at all. After passing by her, he subconsciously looked at the platform. Sure enough, he saw the hunchbacked old woman again. But when he took a second look, they disappeared again.

Nothing strange, it's just hallucinations.

Just hallucinations.

Just as he was thinking this, he saw a tall man not far ahead.

He was wearing a white down jacket, black trousers and khaki boots. His hair was light in color, like brown.

He just walked in front, holding the ingredients in both hands.

Ye Zi is extremely familiar with him like this. Because rabbits always do this, they buy ingredients alone, and after returning home, they spend several hours making it. Then they put the prepared ones in front of Ye Zi and asked with a smile: Is it delicious?

Seeing him like this, the cake fell to the ground all of a sudden.

He ignored the cake completely and strode forward. He knew that this might be just an illusion, but he still ran towards the rabbit like a madman and shouted: "Ye Chengxi! Ye Chengxi!"

Then he saw that there was a girl beside the rabbit.

Girls have long black hair and wear beautiful red dresses.

The girl held the rabbit's hand and smiled sweetly.

Ye Zi stopped, as if even the tears that he had shed with excitement just now seemed to have condensed into ice.

He turned around like a robot and slowly walked towards the poor cake. The cake that fell to the ground had been deformed even with the protection of a carton. But it didn't matter, it didn't matter.

It seems that everyone around him is looking at him, what are you looking at? Have you never seen a wretched man who loves to eat cake and cry?

Ye Zi returned home as fast as possible, closing the door tightly, and even the windows closed.

Then, while eating cakes, watching TV.

Although the cake has been deformed, it is still quite delicious.

The same is true for TV. What kind of funny show is this? It's so funny.

But it’s so strange, why do you keep crying? Haven’t been out for too long? So, when you touch the cold wind, you cry? Have you really become a crying man?

Everything in front of him became blurry, and Ye Zi could only constantly wipe his eyes with the back of his hands.

When he looked at the TV clearly again, he found that the TV program had changed.

It has become familiar scenes, and it has become his real memories, everything about him and Ye Chengxi-

Ye Zi and Ye Chengxi are brothers. Ye Zi is adopted children, while Ye Chengxi is their biological children.

Ye Zi initially hated Ye Chengxi. After all, he thought Ye Chengxi had taken away his father's love. But later, because Ye Chengxi did a series of things that moved him, such as Chengxi once wore a rabbit mask to please Ye Zi, Ye Zi softened and began to like his younger brother. Especially after he was 11 years old, because he had experienced too many things, his sunny and cute younger brother gradually became his spiritual sustenance.

To talk about what he had experienced, the first is the family breakdown; the second is the thing he never wants to recall - sexual harassment.

The relationship between Ye Cheng and Han Yao was broken, which was caused by Jiang Wei. I don’t know what Jiang Wei was thinking, so she took a photo of Han Yao kissing her male classmate at the class reunion. The photos were later found out that they had been dealt with, but this matter was the fuse of their relationship breaking down.

Sexual harassment was what Han Yao's boyfriend did. More than a year after Han Yao left the Ye family, a male colleague chased her. Soon, they began dating, and her boyfriend often went to Ye Zi's house. This man was a typical paedophilia. At first, he just touched Ye Zi, but Ye Zi didn't understand even though he was young. Later, he became even more aggressive. As soon as Han Yao left, he asked Ye Zi to take off his clothes and touch every part of Ye Zi's body...

Ye Zi never wants to think about what he has experienced in his life.

At that time, he wanted to tell his mother, but was threatened by the man. He was afraid of making his mother lose her happiness, so he dared not say anything. When he was 13 years old, he had a mental breakdown. After being discovered by a junior high school teacher, Ye Zi was saved.

Han Yao broke up with that man, but Ye Zi's heart was locked up from then on. He didn't want to fall in love, and felt that sex was an extremely disgusting thing, and his mentality became darker.

From then on, he was afraid of contacting others, both men and women.

Except for one person, his younger brother, Ye Chengxi.

He felt that Ye Chengxi was really the person who liked him the most in the world. When his younger brother was in elementary school, he often came to him by car alone and ran to the gate of his school to wait for him. After he sent his younger brother back to his home, he would always turn around habitually. Because he knew that his younger brother must be slid in front of the glass window, crying and shouting: Azi, Azi, don't leave, don't leave!

Every time he leaves, his younger brother will cry; every birthday his younger brother knows; every word he says to his younger brother will listen to; his younger brother says: A Zi, I like you the most. When we grow up, we will be together!

Every time he thinks of his younger brother's "confession", Ye Zi feels happy. At least, he has his younger brother and mother, so he is still doing well.

However, Ye Chengxi was sent abroad to study since junior high school. This time, it took him five years.

Due to various reasons, the two contacted each other less and less, and later there was no news.

Regarding his younger brother, Ye Zi was completely discouraged.

In college, Ye Zi met the first girl to confess to him, Nie Haixia. He began to try to date this girl, hoping that he could live a normal life like a normal college student.

However, he had no way to hold hands with Nie Haixia, let alone other contacts!

When he was worried, he met Ye Chengxi who had returned to his country again.

Ye Chengxi was waiting for him at his school gate. When he saw him, he shouted loudly, "A Zi, I'm back!"

Five years have completely changed Ye Chengxi. Ye Zi looked at him with dizziness as he had become tall and handsome and attracted bees and butterflies, but he was not at all happy.

Because the sunny and the better Ye Chengxi can highlight his dirty and darkness. The brighter Ye Chengxi smiles, the more sad Ye Zi will feel that his painful waiting will become.

So he ignored Ye Chengxi. He crossed the street and bought dinner for Nie Haixia in the snack street.

However, the cheeky Ye Chengxi said behind him: A Zi, I miss you, I miss you so much!

Ye Zi is really a person who is easy to be soft-hearted.

In short, Ye Chengxi was forgiven after he had been entangled and explained back and forth for a few times. The two of them had more and more contact, and they were more like friends than brothers. Ye Zi often took Chengxi to his apartment for a nap, and he occasionally went to Ye Chengxi's villa for dinner. Ye Chengxi was very good at cooking, and the cooking was delicious every time.

Under such circumstances, Ye Zi told Ye Chengxi about his troubles - he couldn't do it with women. In fact, he couldn't seem to be able to do it with anyone, and he didn't feel it.

Ye Chengxi didn't believe it, so he found an island film and released it for Ye Zi to watch it.

Ye Zi really didn't feel anything at all.

Ye Chengxi said: Azi, I'll check it for you.

Ye Zi agreed.

Soon, he discovered the fact that shocked him. He actually felt it. It was a feeling he had never experienced before.

He was particularly ashamed. He pushed Ye Chengxi away and wanted to leave.

Ye Chengxi was fascinated by his flushed face, so she buried her head and kissed him. It was Ye Zi's first kiss.

Once, there was a second time. At first, they were all resisting, but soon they would sink into it. Ye Zi was like this. At the beginning, he was so resistant to sex, but he became increasingly inseparable from Ye Chengxi. His whole body changed, from indifference to passionate, and became dependent on the other party. He fell in love with Ye Chengxi completely.

Not long after, Ye Zi broke up with Nie Haixia and began to secretly date Ye Chengxi.

They were romantic during their dating. Ye Zi helped Ye Chengxi to tutor and Ye Chengxi washed Ye Zi's clothes. They often went to far places to play, held hands and kissed in dark places, kept a distance in sunny places, and laughed secretly.

After Ye Zi graduated, they lived together, just like newlyweds, and they lived happily.

At that time, Ye Zi’s only wish was to be with Ye Chengxi for the rest of his life.

And when did such happiness have problems?

The problem lies in the old woman. The old woman is Ye Cheng's trusted servant, and she saw Ye Zi and Ye Chengxi kissing with her own eyes. She told Ye Chengcheng about this. Ye Cheng was furious and called Ye Chengxi back in the middle of the night. She scolded him and forced him to drive Ye Zi out immediately.

Ye Zi is not a fool, of course he understands what he should do.

Ye Chengxi said the words "Let's separate for the time being" in a tactful manner, and Ye Zi had already dragged his suitcase and left Ye Chengxi's villa.

This incident was a big deal and went online. I don’t know who took photos of Ye Zi and Ye Chengxi intimately, which caused heated discussions on the Internet. After Ye Zi’s mother found out, she was hit hard, which may have something to do with her later intestinal cancer.

Ye Zi's company naturally learned about this news. Ye Zi was attacked a lot. The most serious one was his boss, Zhang Tao. Zhang Tao directly gave him medicine and pulled him into a hotel.

That night, Ye Zi made countless calls to Ye Chengxi, but Ye Chengxi didn't answer.

The desperate Ye Zi hit Zhang Tao's head with a wine bottle and ran out shakingly.

Of course, what greeted him was that the next day, he was arrested into the police station, and later Ye Chengxi found someone to get him out.

Ye Zi then had a high fever. He thought Ye Chengxi would take care of him day and night like before, but he was wrong. Ye Chengxi just bought him some medicine and left quickly. The reason was that this matter was already very big now, and he didn't want to cause any misunderstandings from others.

Later, Ye Zi's mother came to take care of him. He lay down for a week.

Afterwards, he changed jobs and did not contact Ye Chengxi for the time being.

By chance, he heard his colleagues talk about some things about the Ye family heirs, and naturally talk about Ye Chengxi who was studying in college and his fiancée.

Then Ye Zi discovered that Ye Chengxi’s fiancée turned out to be Nie Haixia!

Nie Haixia has a very good family background, beautiful appearance and good personality. She is a typical sibling relationship with Ye Chengxi and is very compatible.

Ye Chengxi and Nie Haixia often participate in large-scale events together, and they look like golden boys and girls, and golden partners. Ye Chengxi is tall and handsome and elegant. Nie Haixia likes to wear red skirts, which looks particularly eye-catching.

In addition to formal occasions, they usually go to places where girls like to go, such as going to the playground, aquarium, and the beach.

At that time, Nie Haixia always held Ye Chengxi's wrist with her birds leaning on her face and smiled sweetly.

It is very simple to tell why Ye Zi knows these things, because he has followed them. He is like a shameful pervert, tracking them every day, and even losing his job in order to track them.

Finally, after he felt that the previous storm had subsided, he thought that he could be with Ye Chengxi again. After all, what Ye Chengxi said before was, "Let's separate for the time being."

He was optimistic and did something extremely embarrassing. On Valentine's Day, he put on rabbit clothes and took a bouquet of flowers like a big rabbit and ran to Ye Chengxi. Why did he do this? It was because for him, rabbits were a very wonderful and happy thing. When he was a child, Ye Chengxi used rabbit masks to please him. When he grew up, Ye Chengxi often bought rabbit balloons for him and drew rabbit cartoons for him.

Of course, it turns out that he was wrong.

Because Ye Chengxi's face was full of embarrassment.

Before the flowers were delivered, Ye Chengxi received a call and said that he needed to deal with something immediately. Then he hurriedly left.

Ye Zi comforted himself at that time, because his outfit must be too exaggerated, which made Ye Chengxi feel embarrassed.

Afterwards, he went to see Ye Chengxi again.

Ye Chengxi seemed very guilty and said a lot of words, and the meaning was very clear: Although I like you very much, I can't be with you. Let's be brothers. By the way, our company just happens to have a sales position that suits you. Should you come and do it?

Ye Zi lowered his head and rejected Ye Chengxi's favor.

He didn't cry or make a fuss.

Because he knew that if he was a brother, if he cried and made trouble, he would probably laugh out loud.

He returned home, sorted out all the rabbit's things, sealed the box, and dragged it out to burn it. He deleted all the rabbit's contact information. He slept for three days.

I thought the bad luck would end here, but it was obvious that he would only get more and more unlucky.

It was this year that his mother was diagnosed with bowel cancer.

The intensive care unit costs 10,000 yuan a day, and any imported medicine costs 7,000 to 8,000 yuan a day. There is no way, so I sold my house to treat the disease.

But in the end, my mother died.

On the day his mother died, Ye Zi called Ye Chengxi again. At that time, he thought, he just wanted to hear Ye Chengxi say to him, "It's okay, I'm still there." But the facts proved that he was thinking too much. He called three times, but Ye Chengxi didn't answer.

Of course, he later found out that the reason was that Ye Chengxi changed his cell phone and his number.

But so what? It doesn't matter anymore.

My mother was buried, and Ye Zi rented the current house, which was small and rotten.

Ye Chengxi later learned about this and came to find Ye Zi specifically, but Ye Zi did not open the door for him.

Later, Ye Zi's empty account increased by 500,000 for no reason, and Ye Zi threw away the card directly.

He had nothing, but was more optimistic than before. He went to many companies for interviews, and later went to a training institution to work as a consultant. I don’t know what happened, but he did a good job and the boss was very satisfied with him.

This job is two days off every week. If you have nothing to do, Ye Zi will easily think about it. He hopes that his life will become more fulfilling, so he signed up for another class to specialize in Taekwondo.

He obviously thought he had finally turned his luck, but he was probably destined to be unable to get happiness.

One night, he worked night shift and went home at half past eight. As a result, when he walked to a darker place, he was knocked unconscious and taken away.

When he woke up, he found himself in an open space, with several big, big, social youth standing in front of him. The ground was covered with beer bottles and cigarette butts. A beautiful woman in a short skirt and high heels stood among them.

That's Nie Haixia.

Ye Zi didn't understand what Nie Haixia was going to do.

Nie Haixia showed her power first and asked those people to strip Ye Zi's clothes.

She said: I want to see what kind of disgusting you when you are attacked, so that Cheng Xi can call you your name every day!

Then those men who had been overly excited because of taking drugs rushed towards Ye Zi.

Fortunately, Ye Zi was not so unlucky this time, so the self-defense technique he learned protected him.

He broke free from the rope and successfully escaped.

However, this is just the beginning of the tragedy.

Two days later, on February 1, Ye Chengxi took him to the villa. He thought Ye Chengxi was going to celebrate his birthday, of course, how could it be possible.

The haggard Ye Chengxi told Ye Zi that Nie Haixia was taken by a criminal and committed suicide yesterday.

Ye Zi was happy after hearing this, thinking that this was a good thing, who told that woman to harm her?

The tragedy is that Ye Chengxi didn't listen to Ye Zi's defense at all. He thought that Ye Zi had found someone to take Nie Haixia and forced her to commit suicide. Who told Nie Haixia to be like a good girl in front of him? He probably thought Nie Haixia was the innocent and kindest woman in the world?

And what about Ye Zi? What is Ye Zi? A person who was abandoned by his parents since he was born, a person who was abandoned by his adoptive father at the age of 11, a person who was defiled at the age of thirteen, a person who fell in love with his younger brother hopelessly, a person whose adoptive mother died in his twenties, a person who was pitiful and hateful, a person who was used to abandoning so that he could be abandoned at will, a shameless, ugly, dirty, disgusting bastard/food!

If Ye Zi could still bear it when Ye Cheng abandoned Ye Zi;

If Ye Zi could still bear it when Ye Chengxi abandoned Ye Zi;

If Ye Zi could bear it on the night when Han Yao passed away;

If he could bear it when Ye Zi lost his job and had no money to eat...

And now, his final bottom line has completely collapsed.

He was crazy.

So he started laughing and said: Yes, it was me who called those people QB her. Actually, I wanted to kill her directly! Who told her to snatch you away? Who asked you to choose her? Who told you not to choose me?

As expected, he angered Ye Chengxi.

Ye Chengxi picked up the knife and stabbed him.

But how could he die so directly? At least, he should die a little more artistically, just like his favorite poem. He had to feel a chase that belonged only to him and then die. Wouldn't that be better?

So he ran out of the door and ran to the suburbs. He turned around from time to time to confirm whether Ye Chengxi was still chasing him. He slowed down from time to time, waiting for the person who wanted to kill him.

Whenever he sees Ye Chengxi chasing him, he feels very excited and happy.

Every time he heard Ye Chengxi roaring his name, he could shed tears in emotion.

After all, at this moment, Ye Chengxi could only look at him.

At this moment, it seems that there are only the two of them in this world.

He ran and laughed and cried.

He fantasized about dying under Ye Chengxi's knife in this beautiful evening.

Imagine Ye Chengxi crying in the sea of ​​blood. Ye Chengxi's crying face must be very beautiful.

However, his last hope was shattered.

Because-Ye Chengxi didn't kill him.

His knife stood up and left without cutting Ye Zi's neck.

...

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Ye Zi turned off the TV and lay on the rotten sofa.

He flipped through the things on the coffee table and copied the accumulated books of classic poems. The cover was a magazine of a beautiful bird cage, and countless photos of Ye Chengxi, from his childhood to his growing up...

He started to laugh, his whole body trembled and his breathing was not smooth. He felt that his whole life was a joke, and he was still breathing continuously at this moment, which was a miracle of life. Should he thank the heaven and the Lord?

About five or six minutes later, he suddenly stopped laughing.

Half of the cake was still not eaten, and he felt that he had no appetite.

I looked at the time and it was already 9 o'clock in the evening.

Although I don't have any sleepiness, it's time to go to bed.

He became excited again, like a child who was about to start playing games.

Drink a cup of hot milk, then brush your teeth and rinse your mouth. Change into your pajamas, lie on the bed, put on your headphones, and the sound of holy music came. He swallowed a sleeping pill, felt it was not enough, and swallowed another one. Then he smiled and closed his eyes, and said to himself:

"I wonder what stage will it start this time?"

"What I saw was you who grew up or you who were kids?"

"I want to be with you all the time." Speaking of this, Ye Zi's voice suddenly became hoarse.

Then, his eyes still turned red and his mouth became sagging.

After several seconds, he said intermittently: "...Rabbit, I...want to see you...I want to see you!"
Chapter completed!