Chapter 115 Eight years of events

I looked at Qiu Jieqin with a happy face and said, "It doesn't matter whether she loves me or not. What's important is that I can't deceive you anymore. Jieqin, I can't be able to date you, but like other women in my heart. This is too unfair to you. I can't give you happiness, so why do I have the face to be with you?"

Qiu Jieqin blinked and said, "Why doesn't it matter? It's very important! I ask you, according to your words, only the woman you love will give her happiness. If you can't give it, wouldn't you rather not be with her, right?"

"Of course! Don't you desire happiness? Don't you want your man to love you?"

"Of course I hope! But now it seems that I can't get it, so I have to settle for it and hope that my man will not abandon me!"

"Why? What's the best thing to be with a man who doesn't love you?"

"Tang Qian! Don't you understand? Because I love you! I can't live without you! I know you have never loved me, so I tried every means to keep you. You didn't see that I have always been so proactive and seduced you regardless of shame, just to make you unable to live without me. I am willing to do anything for you. If you can get true love and find a woman you love her and she loves you, then I have nothing to say. Who told me that I am not charming enough? But now the problem is that the woman you like does not like you, and you cannot be with her. Do you plan to live alone for this for the rest of your life? This not only hurts me, but also hurts yourself!"

I was stunned for a while before I thought of this problem, yes! If I can't forget Xu Shu and can't get her, would I be a bachelor and never get married for the rest of my life?

I thought for a while and said, "Time will dilute all feelings. Maybe many years later, I will slowly forget her and fall in love with others again, but I don't know when that year or month will be. So I can't miss you, you are not young anymore. You should seize the time to find the happiness that truly belongs to you, without wasting time on me."

"You! It's my happiness! I have wasted a lot of time and no longer cared about more waste. Tang Qian, do you know how I got through these eight years? After you didn't want me, I gave up on myself for a while. I even thought of men who played all over the world to retaliate against your hurts me. But even if I keep having boyfriends and live a life of luxury every day, I have never stopped missing you in my heart. In the past eight years, I have suffered! I don't want to live such a hard life. Even if you don't love me, I will be with you. Being by your side is my greatest happiness!"

I was inexplicably moved, and couldn't help but reach out to touch her cheek again, sighing, "Xie Qin, you are so... stupid! What's the point of making you love me so much?"

Qiu Jieqin turned her head slightly, accepted my caress, and said, "This is how I am. I look romantic and affectionate, but in my life, I have truly loved you."

I suddenly remembered a question and said, "Why have you never looked for me in eight years? It was not until I found you that I wanted to be with me?"

Qiu Jieqin smiled faintly and said, "I knew you were going to ask me this question, so I have been stuck in your heart for a long time?"

I didn't answer, just looked at her. Qiu Jieqin had many things that I couldn't understand, such as since she loved me so much, why did she never talk to me? What have she been doing in the past eight years? How many boyfriends she has had, etc., all need her to explain them clearly.

Qiu Jieqin was silent for a while and said, "Do you remember that a few days ago, I had something to say to you? I saw that you seemed to be disgusted with me so charming and lewd, so I wanted to confess to you what I have done in the past few years. I don't ask you to forgive me, I just want you to understand my feelings."

My heart tightened and I understood that what Qiu Jieqin said next would make my view of her a major change. I sat upright and prepared to listen.

Qiu Jieqin sighed first and said, "Yes! I have had many boyfriends, so many that I can't count them. In my most painful days, I changed a new person almost three or four days. Because at that time I hated you! I hated your ruthlessness and ungratefulness, and I hated all the men in the world. I seduced them, and then immediately abandoned them. Seeing the pain when they lost me, I felt an indescribable pleasure. But every night, I hated myself, you, and even couldn't fall asleep.

...There is a bad habit, which was developed at that time. When I hated the extreme, I tortured myself desperately to seek relief. During this period, I lived a walking corpse life. Every day, except seducing men to abandon and seek pleasure, I hated you endlessly! What’s ridiculous is that I even fantasized that one day you could come to me with a change of mind. I didn’t care about any hugs and kisses when seducing men, but just for this little fantasy, I actually kept my last virginity and never let any man succeed!”

When I heard this, I was shocked again. Unexpectedly, if I rejected her eight years ago, it would cause such great harm to her and indirectly hurt countless innocent men. I couldn't speak, I could only sigh.

Speaking of this, Qiu Jieqin's eyes changed, becoming sad and sad. She said: "But I am no longer a virgin. I gave it to another man, although... I have never loved him!"

My heart aches. Although I knew she wouldn't be a virgin, I still felt uncomfortable when I heard her say it in person. I forced a smile and said, "Some things, you can't tell me!"

Qiu Jieqin said stubbornly: "No! I must tell you that I am not lewd, and there is a reason why I did not keep my virginity for you."

I didn't want to hear it at all and said, "You have no obligation to keep your virginity for me. I don't want you first. No matter what you have done in the past eight years, you don't need to be responsible for me!"

Qiu Jieqin said: "But I am your girlfriend now! I haven't agreed to break up with you yet! I don't need to be responsible for you, but you have the responsibility to understand my past!"

I smiled bitterly and had nothing to say. Suddenly I wanted to smoke, but after touching my pocket, I remembered that the pack of cigarettes had been thrown away by me, and I was tired and sleepy and hadn't smoked one until now!

Seeing that I touched me for a long time but couldn't find anything, Qiu Jieqin immediately stood up and ran to the bed, came over and handed it to me with a large paper bag.

I said, "What?"

Qiu Jieqin snorted and said, "I bought it for you. I originally wanted to wait for you, but I didn't expect that as soon as you came in, you would break up with me."

I took it and opened it and found that there was a wool sweater and a cigarette inside. It was fine with the wool sweater, but cigarettes were what I needed the most now.

I tore open the cigarette box, took out a pack, and said, "Why did you suddenly remember to buy cigarettes for me?"

"Hmph! I remember you, a cigarette ghost! Have you ever bought me even a needle for so long?"

I was sweating a little and thought that it would take you a few days to be my girlfriend. I took one out and held it in my mouth, but I couldn't find the fire, so I had to run to the kitchen and lit the cigarette with a gas stove.

Seeing that I finally smoked, Qiu Jieqin said, "Now, can you listen to me?"

I said helplessly: "Say it! I'll listen!"

Qiu Jieqin took a deep breath and said, "You called me that day and I said my mother was sick. Actually, she was lying to you. I'm sorry. The sick person was not my mother, but the man's mother. The man died, leaving only his mother alone in the world. I have been taking care of her."

Qiu Jieqin paused and said, "That man is Zhou Yimin, a criminal policeman. He died in April this year because of a arrest operation. He is the person in the world who loves me the most. He loves me even more than he loves himself. Tang Qian, if you have one-tenth of him to me, even if I die immediately, I will smile with a smile."

I was smoking and asking myself, I was really ashamed. Qiu Jieqin was nominally my girlfriend, but it seemed that I had never taken her to heart, let alone be kind to her. Even if I was with her, I was not as good as Hua Jingjing, Xu Xin and the others for a long time. My boyfriend is really incompetent.

Qiu Jieqin slowly squatted in front of me, leaned on my upper body on my legs, and said quietly: "Qian, don't be angry about this. Actually, I have always wanted to find an opportunity to tell you. I am afraid that you think I am the kind of slutty woman who rides thousands of people and crosses thousands of people. But in fact, I only gave one man, and only you have loved you. You ask me why I haven't thought about looking for you in eight years? Who said I haven't thought about it? I'm just thinking about it. After I was bored with that walking corpse and self-deprecating life, I stopped seducing men to look for excitement. At that time, I had already I no longer hate you, but my longing for you is getting deeper and deeper. I know that if I can't get you anymore, I will die of depression one day. But at that time, a man who was seduced and abandoned by me kidnapped me and wanted to molest me to retaliate against my ruthlessness. At this time, Zhou Yimin appeared. He saved me at the most critical moment, which made me very grateful to him. Later, he pursued me crazy, and I refused because he was kind to me and I couldn't play with him. At that time, I was thinking about you all the time, so..."

Qiu Jieqin lay on my lap and slowly told a story about the past. The general idea was how infatuated and cared about the criminal policeman named Zhou Yimin. Although Qiu Jieqin refused and avoided many times, he still refused to give up his pursuit, which lasted for two years. Finally, Qiu Jieqin was meticulously taken care of her during a hospitalization with stomach bleeding, which moved Qiu Jieqin. She thought that since she could not get my love, it would be fine to find a man who loved her deeply. Not long after, the two lived together, and after a while, when they were about to register for marriage, Zhou Yimin unfortunately died in a criminal police team arresting a suspect in a murder case.

Qiu Jieqin said this and shed tears of sadness and said, "Tang Qian, even if he loves me so much, I always love you in my heart. Even Zhou Yiren knows that Zhou Yiren has tolerated me and said that no matter who I am thinking in my heart, he just wants to take care of me for the rest of his life. It is enough to love me. I don't expect me to give him the same feelings, so I will follow him. After he died, I was sad for a long time and never contacted any men again. Until you called me that day."

When Qiu Jieqin finished speaking, I had already finished smoking my fourth cigarette. After I put out the cigarette butts, I sighed and said to her: "Xieqin, it's really a pity. It's really not easy for a man who loves you so much. It's a pity that he died early. You could have lived a happy life."

Qiu Jieqin raised her body and looked at me affectionately and said, "But he also made me understand that as long as I persevere, there is nothing impossible in this world. I love you so deeply in my bones, and will I be moved by him in the end? Then as long as I treat you like Zhou Yimin to me, one day I believe you will be moved by me. It doesn't matter whether you love me or not, the important thing is that I love you. I cannot be without you. Being able to be with you is my greatest happiness!"
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