I quickly looked around, but fortunately there was no one. So I sneaked to the roof of my house and said, "It's you, is there anything wrong?" Qiu Jieqin still had three words on the phone: "Why?"

I hesitated for a moment and explained carefully: "I-I don't think we are like that."

"Not suitable? Where is it not suitable?"

"Look, we are neither husband and wife nor lovers. Is it not appropriate to do such super friendly things?"

"Then why did you kiss me? Take off my clothes? You-you also touched me. These super friendly behaviors are very suitable?"

I was ashamed and hurriedly said, "Then—I'm drunk too much, alcohol can get rid of it-"

"Excuse! Don't pretend to be garlic! Humph, wine can be chaotic, why don't you go on? Why do you run away halfway through the chaos? What do you think of me? Woo-----" She started crying as she said that.

I was so anxious that she cried and was at a loss. Fortunately, I was not by her side at this moment, otherwise I really didn't know how to deal with it, so I had to beg for mercy: "I'm sorry, stop crying, can't I apologize to you?"

"I don't want it, wuwu-you know what I want, wuwu-you-you-you-you-"

I had no choice but to say, "Qiu Jieqin, calm down. You are an adult. Don't you know that lust and love are different things? We just drank two more drinks last night, just impulsive. In fact, there is no relationship between us. Fortunately, we haven't really happened to anything, otherwise we will be irresponsible to you and me."

"Who said there is no emotion? At least I love you!"

"But I—"

"Why? Am I so unworthy of your love? What is wrong with me? Why do I love you so hard but never really touch you?" As she said that, she started crying again.

I also had a headache and kept persuading Qiu Jieqin not to cry. Qiu Jieqin sobbed a few times and asked me again: "You, you have a woman you like, right? Don't lie to me."

"No, I have rarely interacted with women in recent years, and I really haven't liked anyone."

"Then, do you hate me?"

"No, since the long chat on the night we graduated, I can't hate you. I just can't - can't - alas, you know it myself."

"I know you always care about me and can't trust me completely, so I can't like it anyway. But why don't you even give me a chance? Even if you don't have someone you like and don't have a girlfriend, then why don't you try to date me? Maybe I can change your mind and make you fall in love with me? Give me a chance! Just once!"

I didn't know how to answer her. On the night when I graduated eight years ago, Qiu Jieqin confessed all her feelings and lovesickness for me. I was very moved at that time, but I was just moved and didn't accept her. Eight years later, she confided to me again and begged me to give her a chance.

I felt very embarrassed, that is, I felt very pity for her for eight years, and I was still deeply in love with me and was very conflicted with this woman's personality and temper. In fact, I was not right at all. If I really wanted to continue dating, I didn't know what to make a mess. I was embarrassed!

Qiu Jieqin said again: "Is it so difficult to give me a chance? Tang Qian, you have never tried it, so how can you decide that we are not suitable? You can try to date me with an indifferent attitude. If I can't impress you, you can stop and break up at any time. Since I have worked hard, I have no regrets and will never bother you again. But if you don't give me a chance like this, I will be unwilling to accept it. I will always pester you. At that time, you will hate me even more, and I will be depressed for life. Do you have the heart to bear it?

When I was stunned, I thought: Yes! A person is depressed for life because of one thing. What a shocking life! Do I really have the heart to treat her like this?

But if I really have to make up my mind to accept her, my heart is still very empty and I always feel unable to be happy. This feeling of emptiness and the feeling of pity for Qiu Jieqin are fighting in my heart, and I can never make a decision.

On the phone, Qiu Jieqin was still begging: "Tang Qian! Give me a chance, I will grasp it well, I will make you feel that your decision is right-"

I interrupted her: "Qiu Jieqin, let me do this. Give me some time and let me think about it carefully. I will give you an answer, okay?"

"Then-that's fine, but it can't be too long, I can't wait for another eight years."

I couldn't help but be amused by her resentful words: "Don't worry, I'll be quick."

She suddenly changed her crying voice and became relaxed: "Then, before you answer me, let's be an ordinary friend first. Xu Shu will have a concert tomorrow night. I will wait for you at the entrance of the gymnasium. I will take you to the best position to feel Xu Shu's enthusiasm and unrestrainedness."

"Concert? I won't go. I gave all the five tickets to my sister. I don't have my share. Besides, I'm not very interested in pop songs, it doesn't matter."

Qiu Jieqin seemed very strange: "That's Xu Shu? Do you don't like it?"

I said, "Do I have to like it?"

"Among the men I know, there is no fanatical admirer who is not Xu Shu, who is just about to like it. This includes my father. Humph, you didn't see his mystery. He is not like a decades old, he is very youthful."

I have seen many examples of people admiring Xu Shu and liking Xu Shu. There is a top admirer in my family. I am not surprised by many fanatical behaviors. Do you want to say that I don’t like Xu Shu? That may not be true, because when a girl is so beautiful that she is no longer immune to men’s life. I have also praised God’s greatness, and can create such a flawless and perfect worldly best. But at most it is just appreciation. I never admire anyone. My temper and personality determine that I will look at everything rationally and will not do anything meaningless and unrealistic.

Of course, I have other strange personalities, so I won’t talk about it here. When I looked at the watch, I found that the phone had been there for a long time and my family was waiting for the breakfast I bought, so I said, “Then let’s do it for now. I will think it through a few days and I will call you.”

"Oh, then you have to keep your word!"

"I promise! Goodbye."

"goodbye."

I took back my phone and found that the breakfast I bought was cold. Now I and my sister are chatting again. Oh! A headache!

At noon, my colleague Li Xiaoling called me to comfort me again and informed me of what happened in the company these two days. Then she implied that she really cared about me and was willing to help me, etc.

As usual, I dealt with it again hahaha.

In the evening, Cao Ziping, who was far away in Shenzhen, called me and said that he had heard that I was laid off and asked me what was going on. I briefly said the matter. Manager Cao, who knew me well, also understood that this was the inevitable ending. He sighed a few times and suggested to me to go to Shenzhen to work with him.

I am really grateful. Manager Cao is the only leader in the company who valued me and admired me. When he was sent to Shenzhen a year ago, he told me that he wanted to take me to do something with him. At that time, my father had surgery for gallstones and needed someone to take care of him, so I didn't accept it. Then a year later, when I was at the lowest point in my career, he extended an invitation to me to help me get out of the predicament. Such a deep-rooted leader really touched me. I was also very moved by going to Shenzhen to work with him. If my father hadn't been in good health all year round and my younger sister was about to take the college entrance examination next year, I would have wanted to agree immediately. But after I left, the burden of life would be on my mother, and I couldn't bear it.

I didn't agree or refuse, but just asked me to think about it and discuss it with my family. Cao Ziping did not force me to do so. After chatting with me for a few more words, he hung up the phone.

I sat in my room, sucking a cigarette, and pondering.

The door of the girl next door's room was not closed properly. She was playing the CD machine. A song about Xu Shu's entangled mian was slowly reaching my ears:

When I decided to love,

But my heart is empty.

If you can't see clearly what the misty front will look like.

When I decided to love,

But I felt a little confused inside.

I don't know how melancholy there is in the world of love-

The songs are like weeping and complaining, and the songs are deeply touched by me who was not interested in music. For the first time, I deeply felt that singing alone can reach this state, which not only resonates with the listeners, but also affects the feelings of the listeners.
Chapter completed!