His embrace was so gentle and so strong.

The body is full of his scent.

Nanxi's heart was instantly wrapped tightly and tenderly. At this moment, she suddenly didn't want to think about anything, she just wanted to enjoy this sweetness and longing.

Even if it's only for a moment, even if it disappears soon.

Even if soon, the two of them will return to reality, and he will belong to another woman.

But at least for now, she wanted to indulge herself for once.

Time is silent.

The living room became very quiet.

In a quiet embrace, the two of them held each other tightly, breathing in each other's scent greedily.

I miss you deeply and deeply in my heart.

At this moment, all words used to describe "missing" seem too pale.

Only a hug, a hug that is almost embedded in the body and blood, can tell.

As his fingertips wandered around, Lu Jianshen's fingers caressed Nan Xi's face, and those black eyes were full of longing and love.

"Xixi, you are so cruel! Five years, five whole years, do you know how sad I am? I always thought that you were gone, and the baby was gone with you. I almost no longer have the courage to live. I

Every day I dream about you and the baby."

"But you are obviously alive and well, why didn't you tell me? Why did you make me sad and collapsed alone? You are still blaming me, right? You are blaming me for not being with you when you gave birth to the baby, right?"

Nan Xi shook her head vigorously.

Tears had already soaked her cheeks.

"No, no, I don't blame you."

She admitted that at first, when she was lying in the emergency vehicle and on the operating table, especially when she heard that the baby was at risk of suffocation, she really blamed him.

Why can't he stay with her and protect her?

However, when she learned all the truth from Xiannan's mouth, she no longer blamed her at all.

"Xixi lied. Since you don't blame me, why did you hide your news from me?"

Lu Jianshen's fingertips lingered on her cheek, stroking it over and over again like an obsession.

His eyes were like a deep well, looking deeply into Nanxi.

I wish I could suck all her eyes and her heart and soul into my heart.

It seemed like this was the only way he could really keep her by his side.

"It's been five years and you haven't given me a message or revealed a piece of news to me. Xixi, you are really cruel, you know? The moment I saw you, I was conflicted." Lu Jianshen looked at Nanxi with a painful look.

Open your mouth.

"What's the contradiction?"

"My feelings for you are contradictory: I love and hate you. I even don't know whether I should love you more or hate you more. On the way to find you by plane with Simu, I felt very uneasy."

"For five years, you made me think about you crazily for five years, and you made me miss you for five years, but you also made me feel heartbreaking pain for five years."

When he said this, Lu Jianshen's dark eyes were filled with pain and hurt.

Nanxi felt extremely distressed just looking at those eyes.

I couldn't hold back anymore and broke through all the ideological struggles in my heart.

She stretched out her hand and gently touched Lu Jianshen's face: "I'm sorry, Jianshen, you are right. It's not your fault, it's all my fault. I was the one who was wrong."

"I have made you hurt for five years, so you should hate me, hate me for leaving, hate me for concealing it, hate me for leaving without saying goodbye."

Nan Xi said, tears streaming down her face.

Because my heart hurts so much.

Five years.

God knows how she spent these five years.

Because of her brother's illness, she has been traveling to various hospitals with her two babies in the past five years, just to find a suitable heart donor.

However, finding a suitable heart is not easy.

Over the past five years, she has had hope again and again, only to be disappointed again and again.

Then, it heals itself again and again.

She told herself again and again that she could not fall.

What should the babies do if she falls?

As for him.

The three words "Lu Jianshen" have become the secret hidden in her heart and the unbearable pain of life.

Only in the dead of night, when both babies are asleep, and she is extremely depressed, will she dig out the photo album on her phone.

Facing the photo album and his pictures, I shed tears over and over again and shouted his name over and over again.

However, he has been married for a long time, has a gentle and beautiful wife, and has a happy marriage.

Her fake death has made him heartbroken and miserable.

She has already betrayed him.

At that time, he finally got out of the haze, out of the pain, and gained his own happiness. How could she bear to disturb him?

She still remembered that when she saw him posting his "marriage certificate" on Weibo, she locked herself in the bathroom and cried.

Afraid that the baby would hear her and be frightened by her mother's cries, she turned on the water in the bathroom and cried like crazy under the cover of the sound of water.

Heartbreaking, that's all.

That day, she cried almost the whole night.

The next day, both eyes were swollen like walnuts, and the two babies were frightened.

It was also after that day that she made up her mind to take good care of her baby.

I also made up my mind to say a real goodbye to the past.

"Seeing deeply and not disturbing is my last gentleness."

"I feel relieved to see that I can live such a happy life without you. Don't worry too, I will take good care of myself and my baby."

"Perhaps one day we will meet again. By then, my hair will be gray and you will have lost all your teeth. In short, you must live a good life."

That day, she looked in the mirror and murmured softly over and over again.

It's like saying it to him, but also like saying it to yourself.

Today's reunion was completely unexpected by Nan Xi.

She was very happy and satisfied to be able to see him.

Therefore, even if he hates him, she is happy with him.

But Lu Jianshen held her face so gently: "Xixi, before I came to see you, I thought I would hate and complain. But now, when I see you, hold you, and listen to your voice,

I found that the little resentment I had in my heart was gone."

"Xixi, I love you. Even if I have tens of millions of resentments, they can't compare to this full of love."

"Don't push me away again, okay?"

His eyes were so gentle, like water.

His voice is so low and sexy as hell.

Nan Xi admitted that she was crazy and addicted to it.

She knew that she shouldn't and couldn't.

But at this moment, she still wanted to indulge.

Just for a few minutes, let her be a selfish person!

"good."

She lightly opened her red lips and nodded.

Then, a pair of bright and clear eyes gently raised, as gentle as water, looking at Lu Jian affectionately and replied.

At this moment, all the answers, all the longings, all the reluctance and deep affection are in these eyes.
Chapter completed!