"Tick tock, tick tock..."

"Well, who! Who's there!"

Wang Taika stood up suddenly and saw an empty home.

He closed his eyes, stretched out his hand and rubbed his forehead to calm himself down, and then distinguish whether he was in the real world or not.

When the chaotic thoughts disappeared, Wang Taika put on his clothes and walked to the living room, but there was no one there.

Yesterday, several hours of continuous hypnosis made Wang Taika mentally exhausted. Fortunately, the final result was good. Later, Wang Taika was too tired, so he fell asleep directly. As for what happened to Snowball later, he didn't care.

Snowball left, I don’t know when, leaving nothing behind.

Wang Taika sat in the empty home and sighed quietly.

people......

There is always a certain moment when people suddenly feel that everything they do, work hard for, and where they are is meaningless.

Suddenly I want to escape from this and be a lonely self.

Wang Taika once made documentaries in order to satisfy the loneliness he wanted. Running alone in a strange place, the excitement is enough to make people forget everything in reality.

Therefore, when Wang Taika is filming a documentary, he will never go to the same place twice. Even if he takes a longer route, he must take a longer route that he has not traveled.

People spend their whole lives pursuing novelty, which is actually a kind of tragedy. Because they are destined to be unable to stop and listen to more subtle things.

This seems to be the case for Wang Taika. After coming to Korea, this idea even came up for the first time.

Abandon everything and leave directly.

I don’t want the company, I don’t want my career, I don’t want my friendship, I don’t want my love anymore. I don’t want anything anymore, just leave and live with a new identity.

Thinking of this, Wang Taika shook his head and smiled.

He has the courage and courage, but it is really not necessary. He just thinks about it occasionally.

All these things now always put some pressure on Wang Taika. Wang Taika looked at the empty home, and Chong'er was not by his side either.

Although Wang Taika knew that if he called Chong'er at this time, or asked Chong'er to come back to accompany him, Chong'er's character would definitely follow him.

But this makes no sense anymore.

Wang Taika finally knew what the feeling he lacked was, it was lingering.

Except for the first few days and the last few days, Chong'er was all working. Wang Taika knew how Chong'er felt about him, but this kind of separation-like life made him feel unhappy.

I always feel that this love is not satisfying enough, not thirsty enough, not refreshing enough.

In fact, the most suitable person for Wang Taika should be the kind of little girl who is much younger than Wang Taika, admires Wang Taika, and is full of love.

Wang Taika likes to take the initiative in relationships. This is not the case now. Although Chong'er is obedient to him, but... when it comes to work, it is another level of things.

This is the trouble with having a girlfriend who is an idol.

I even have to watch my girlfriend on TV, saying that she is single and swearing by her. This feeling did not exist at first, because it would be occupied by the happiness of "my girlfriend is an idol". But after gradually getting used to it in daily life,

This feeling appeared.

To put it simply, there is no sense of security.

Except for you, no one in this world knows that she belongs to you. If it's just for fun, it doesn't matter. But if it's serious, this feeling is no different than Ling Chi.

This contradiction is irreconcilable, because Chong'er will not leave SNSD, and Wang Taika will not be willing to be a silent little man.

Thinking of this, Wang Taika knew that the things in those love novels were all fake and deceptive.

That kind of good happiness is short-lived after all, because it will take more time to maintain and water it carefully in the future.

But the book never writes about this, it just says "the male protagonist and the female protagonist live happily together" and ends all chapters.

But in fact, only the big and small things in life after being together are the real test.

because......

There is no secret joy in this world that no one knows about,

There is only that kind of hidden sadness that is not recognized in this world.

Wang Taika felt the same way.

This kind of... being extremely annoyed by these idols who are like bastards, and being helplessly disgusted and angry until they finally scream and feel reborn, is the original source of people's obsession.

Wang Taika now finally understands why fans explode every time idols reveal their relationship.

Because in the hearts of fans, although they have never been in contact with their beloved idols for a single second, they have already spent their entire lives with their favorite idols in their hearts.

Because it is too beautiful, but I cannot have it, so I love it to the extreme and wish to destroy it all. This is the original intention of fans.

So this feeling of betrayal, this feeling of anger, but when you look in the mirror and find that you are powerless, irredeemable, and unworthy of the reality, it also makes people feel a sense of frustration to the extreme.

Commonly known as, the mentality has collapsed.

In comparison, Wang Taika seems to be okay. At least he truly owns Chong'er in a practical sense. But this kind of nameless possession makes people even more uneasy.

This is based on science.

Psychologically, people can accept that they have never obtained something, but they cannot accept that they have obtained it but lost it.

If you haven't seen a ray of light, you won't feel the darkness.

The loss of what you have had is even more painful.

This is why Wang Taika is uneasy. If Chong'er is not by his side, he feels as if he has been lost.

Is it because he is not strong enough that he has this uneasiness? But Wang Taika’s current career is not small.

Wang Taika thought about it and found that the reason was just because he loved her too much and valued her too much, that's all.

There was silence for a long time.

Wang Taika washed his face with cold water, looked at himself in the mirror, and murmured: "How could I think like this? How could I do such a thing as betraying Chong'er? I can't think like this, I can't do this, I can't.

Do I still suffer from borderline personality disorder? It shouldn’t be, not really.”

"But...when will I be able to appear openly and openly as my boyfriend?" Wang Taika stared straight at himself in the mirror and asked, "When?"

Wang Taika has tested Chong'er with this topic several times. However, Chong'er never answered directly, changing the topic and being vague every time.

Later, Wang Taika stopped asking because he knew there would be no results. But a seed of uneasiness was buried so deeply.

If it's just about falling in love, this status is not that important. But Wang Taika is very serious about relationships and is always rushing to get married.

But Chong'er seems to only think about love and the longer future. She really doesn't think about it now because she is still young. This constitutes a disagreement.

In fact, the problem Wang Taika and Chong'er are facing now is no longer a love problem. If it were just a love problem, it wouldn't be so troublesome at all. Because the two people have already experienced too much emotionally, and now there is no such thing.

Difficulties can tear these two people apart.

But now there is a question about marriage. Wang Taika wants to get married and settle down. But Chong'er is at the peak of his career, how could he give up?

Perhaps emotional problems have never been the key to preventing lovers from getting married. The key is practical issues other than feelings.
Chapter completed!