Chapter 398:

(Lu Banxia slowly woke up from her dream, opened her eyes, and looked at him little by little)

The eyes stained with joy froze into ice little by little, and then gradually shattered. The bright eyes looked around the empty living room behind him, and instantly dimmed, like a candle extinguished by the wind.

Her eyes were aware of the hot emotion in his eyes, and she realized that she had been holding his hand tightly. She suddenly let go, avoiding his sharp eyes, and said in a hoarse voice: "...I'm sorry!"

Xing Tian's hands were stiff and he looked at her with his eyes, not daring to be overt and aboveboard with his emotions, "You drank too much."

Drink too much?

Lu Banxia's body froze, she raised her head and looked at him again, and said in a positive tone: "He came back, right? He came back to see me and Xiao Douya, right?"

The tone of the statement is so sure!

She didn't even have three glasses of vodka before she was so drunk that people would admit her mistake.

Although her head was dizzy, she could still remember the feeling of hugging that figure. It was very familiar and real. Even if they were separated for so long, she would never forget the feeling when they hugged each other.

Lu Banxia stood up quickly and was about to find the "him" in her mouth. She stepped on the ground with her bare feet. As soon as she passed by Xing Tian, ​​he suddenly stood up and grabbed her hand.

"Lu Banxia, ​​when will you be able to recognize the truth? He has left and has never come back!"

Xing Tian looked into her eyes without a trace of dodge, and his voice was loud and clear. It seemed that there was conclusive evidence that the person she longed for was really gone.

Her eyelashes as thin as cicada wings suddenly trembled, and she glanced at him again with cold eyes, losing the gentleness and politeness of the past, "You go!"

Hand, forcefully pulled out of his palm.

"You're still waiting for him!" Xing Tian stared at her, with deep disappointment in his eyes, "You cut your hair. Do you want to continue to lie to yourself that when your hair grows long, he will come back to you?"

"If he is really alive, why would he be willing to leave you and the child alone?" As he spoke, he reached out to touch her ear-length hair, but Lu Banxia quickly dodged to avoid his hand.

Except for that person, she doesn't like to be intimate with anyone of the opposite sex!

Lu Banxia never knew how much her small actions made Xing Tian's heart hurt.

Lu Chuan never knew that his words hit Lu Banxia's most painful weakness. After persisting for so long, he did not die, and he would definitely come back. Whenever it was quiet at night, she would sleep alone in a dark room, and it was the same.

Ask yourself over and over again——

If he is still alive, why doesn't he come back to find himself?

When he thought Xiao Douya was not his child, he could take good care of himself. If he was still alive now, why didn't he appear in front of him?

She knew that she was withdrawn and arrogant by nature, her personality was not gentle enough, and she was not as gentle as other women. She was too demanding for perfection in relationships and could not tolerate sand in her eyes. She knew that she had given him very little in the past. She knew that she was wrong, she

Try to change yourself and stop being so cold and unlovable. She can also try to be nice to him, but all of this must be based on his return!

If it was just her, how could she possibly do it?

"Xingtian." Lu Banxia, ​​who had been silent for a long time, spoke slowly and looked at him slowly, his eyes clean and emotionless, "No matter whether he will come back to me or not, from the day I decided to separate from him, I

I never thought about leaving with someone else in this life! You are right, I still love him, even if we make each other miserable, I still love him. He is the father of my daughter and the father of my life.

love!"

Xing Tian looked at her blankly, and finally heard her admit that she loved Li Yueqi, and heard her admit that the child was Li Yueqi's. Even though he had seen all this from the beginning, now that he heard her talk about it with his own ears, his heart still felt

Overflowing with sadness and loss.

Sometimes he would also wonder, if something really happened to them, would it be

But he never regretted that stop, because they couldn't get over the hurdle of their own conscience!

Just seeing how she looks now makes me feel sad, really sad.

In front of everyone, she pretended to be very good, eating and sleeping normally, taking care of the little bean sprouts, and she was calm as never before, but her eyes would still reveal her emotions inadvertently.

It is a deep longing and attachment for another person, which penetrates into the marrow and bones. It is obvious that it is almost on the verge of collapse, but it still continues to hold on.

While Lu Banxia was punishing herself, she was also punishing those of them who cared about her.

"Pinellia"

"Let's go!" Lu Banxia interrupted him. The light of the setting sun dimmed, and the wind blowing in through the open window brought a slight chill, sneaking into people's hearts. "If you don't want to sever the friendship between us, just

Walk!"

Xing Tian stared at her blankly for a long time, the dim light in his eyes almost despairing. After the dead room fell into darkness, he left silently.

Hearing the "bang" sound of the door closing, Lu Banxia came to his senses and hurriedly chased out.

However, she didn't come out to chase Xing Tian, ​​but went next door.

Standing in front of the open door, frowning, holding his fingers on the cold metal for a long time, he mustered up the courage to open the door.

Since Li Yueqi left, she has never walked into this house again, not even when she gave the key to Xue Qian.

It's not that she doesn't want to come, it's that she doesn't dare. She's afraid of seeing the house where Li Yueqi lived and the things he used. The river bank overflowing with longing will eventually burst, leaving her with no way to save herself.

The whole world was denying her intuition. Everyone said he was gone, but she didn't believe it. She paranoidly believed that he was still fine and that he would come back.

The black-and-white style house couldn't be simpler, which is Li Yueqi's favorite style. White shirts are hanging on the balcony, clean, blowing in the breeze, and exuding a faint scent of laundry detergent.

Lu Banxia stepped on the cold ground with her bare feet and walked into the living room step by step. There was thick mist in her eyes. Her white teeth bit her delicate lips tightly. All the emotions were choked in her throat, making her feel uncomfortable.

ah!

Xue Qianrang had just taken a shower and had a bath towel wrapped around him. When he saw her raising his eyebrows: "Are you awake?"

The moment he saw Xue Qianrang, Lu Banxia's heart sank to the bottom of the deep and cold lake, and his red eyes were filled with moisture, stubbornly refusing to fall down.

Is it really not him?

Is it really just a dream?

I keep asking myself this question in my heart, but I can't get a definite answer.

"Xingtian is gone?" Xue Qianrang saw that she looked sick and approached her, "Hey! Are you okay?" She looked like she was about to cry!

impossible!

How could Lu Banxia, ​​a woman made of diamonds, cry?!

"I'm not telling you. If you can't drink, don't show off and drink with that man named Lu! If you drink too much, you'll go crazy. One moment you'll be clamoring to shave your head, and the next moment you'll hug Xing Tian and call Li Yueqi. If I hadn't stopped you

Now I don’t have a hair on my head! And next time, don’t hug a man and call another man’s name. You haven’t even seen Xing Tian’s green face. Thanks to Xing Tian’s good temper, it would have been me if it had been me..."

Xue Qianrang scolded Lu Banxia while wiping his hair with a towel. He noticed that it was a bit strange that she had not made any sound. When he looked up, he was shocked.

Lu Banxia stood there as stiff as a wooden stake, her usually cold eyes already overflowing with tears. Bai Xi's skin was covered with teardrops. She cried without making any sound, but it made people's hearts clench into a ball and almost break into pieces.

"Why are you crying?" If Lu Banxia was still so cold and indifferent, Xue Qianrang would be fine. When he saw Lu Banxia crying, he was really frightened and didn't know what to do.

They had only known each other for a short time, but Xue Qianrang also understood that it was very difficult to make Lu Jingang cry, especially in front of others.

"You, don't cry..." Xue Qianrang held the towel in his hand and handed it to her. He didn't hand it to her either. He stretched out his hand to wipe away the cold tears on her cheeks. The coolness penetrated her skin and reached the bottom of his heart.

Went. "Don't cry, I won't scold you anymore, okay?"

"I hate you! Xue Qianrang, I hate you!" The choked voice escaped from her throat with difficulty, and liquid continued to overflow from her eyes. This was the first time she said it nakedly and unabashedly.

The truest emotions in your heart.

When she said her first sentence, Xue Qian let the towel in his hand fall to the ground and stood stiffly, looking at her with uneasiness and guilt in his eyes.

She hated herself, he knew it, but now that he heard her say it with his own ears, he felt sad.

Xue Qianrang sadly realized that he did not want Lu Banxia to hate him at all!

"Yes, yes, I'm sorry..." Xue Qianrang stammered an apology, feeling helpless in front of her. Apart from being sorry, he really didn't know what else he could do for her.

I don’t want your apology, I want him back! Why did it have to be you who hurt him so badly? Why did it have to be you who made it impossible for him to come back to me?

Do you know that without him, I would eat and sleep with Xiao Douya and live an ordinary life?

But when I live like this, every day has nothing to do with happiness!

Xue Qianrang stood in front of her, his arms hugged her mechanically and unnaturally, "I'm sorry, sister..."

This was the first time he hugged Lu Banxia and the first time he called her - sister!

…

In fact, Lu Banxia knew it in her heart. She hated Xue Qianrang more than she hated herself. When Li Yueqi chose to stay with her again and again, she didn't think about their relationship properly. She embraced her self-esteem and face and rejected him in her heart.

Outside the door, until I really lost him, I regretted it so much.

Xue Qianrang didn't know the relationship between them at all at that time, let alone that she was his sister. He had his own stance on life. At that time, they were both strangers to each other.

If we could have predicted this scene today, maybe everyone would have taken a step back and left a beautiful foreshadowing for each other.

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After she was drunk and sobbing that afternoon, Lu Banxia was still the same Lu Banxia, ​​indifferent, distant, strong and proud, nothing was different. Even if Xing Tian came, she could handle it calmly.

Xue Qianrang said that she was drunk that day, hugged Xingtian, called Li Yueqi's name, and cried on Xingtian's neck.

Lu Banxia didn't fully believe this!

Whether you say she is stubborn or stubborn, or you say she is superstitious, there is a voice in her heart telling herself that Li Yueqi is still here, and he has really come back!

With this belief, Lu Banxia ushered in the wedding of Lu Zijin and Lu Chuan.
To be continued...