"You bump, you bump, cluck cluck~~~"

I clearly have my own consciousness, but my whole body is not under my control. I look at the wall outside the gate of my house with a silly smile on my lips. My feet stepping on the snow don't feel the slightest bit of coldness, and my eyes can aim.

I saw her, a woman in tattered clothes but with a charred face. She danced and pointed at the target location, giggling and saying, "Good girl, bump it, bump it!!!"

‘Dong~~dong~~dong~~’

My head hit the wall as straight as hitting a wooden fish, and there was a dull sound on my forehead. I knew clearly in my heart that if I hit it like this, what Sanmei'er would see when she got out of the hospital tomorrow morning would probably be my scalp bleeding to death and...

I looked like I was freezing to death, but I didn’t know the pain, and I couldn’t control myself to stop. If someone were passing by, they would definitely see me smiling stupidly. Yes, I am being toyed with by a ghost.

…

And this ghost is an old acquaintance of mine. I still clearly remember the way she fucked An Qi while my father begged for money and I beat him with my waistband. Unexpectedly, thirty years from Hedong to thirty years from Hexi, this

It didn't take long for her to take revenge.

It’s okay to be a useless person, but now, even ghosts come to my door to avenge me for being bullied before. It’s really sad and laughable.

I bumped my head again and again, feeling the warm blood slowly dripping down the bridge of my nose to my chin. Finally, it was blown cold by the cold wind. The corners of my mouth were a little numb when I smiled. Maybe it was the spiritual energy in the water that my body received that allowed me to see her.

And I was still sober in my heart watching how she played me to death, but I have to say that this way of death is not painful, except that I looked a little miserable when I was seen in the morning, but as far as the process is concerned, it is definitely comfortable.

.

‘Dong~dong~dong~’

I was so stupid that I banged my head until my head bled, but my mind was still running wildly. I even thought that maybe one day this place would be haunted, just watching me bang my head again and again...

"Kick, knock... it's so fun! So fun! Harder! Harder!!"

Her smile became sharper and wilder, and she jumped up and down behind me with a distorted face. My eyes gradually turned scarlet, the color I saw when blood flowed into my eyes. I closed my eyes with a silly smile. I didn’t know how long I would have to fight.

But I thought, should I be about to die? It’s great. Those who are killed will not be too cowardly when mentioned in the future.

"Roar~~!!!"

A low roar suddenly hit my ears accompanied by the cold wind. I trembled, and my neck was instantly under my control. The blood from my forehead made me dizzy for a moment. I held on to the blood-stained wall where I hit it.

Turning around, I was completely stunned.

The thing in front of me had white fur standing on end. It was holding its hands on the ground. It was staring in the direction behind me, its copper bell-like eyes glowing blood red. The woman behind me wanted to float away in a hurry, but behind the scenes, it was high.

It jumped up high and pounced on the woman behind me, letting out a low roar. I didn't see it raise its teeth to bite, but I just watched its little hand dig directly into the woman's heart. The lonely soul was instantly

It just melted away——

It broke up, and this female ghost was so completely devastated by it that she no longer even had the right to be a ghost...

I held my breath from my chest. My feet were so cold that I couldn't control myself. I just turned around stiffly and looked at its face hard. For a long time, I couldn't believe that it was actually it I saw: "Little... little

Gazi?"

Its mouth was still grinning, and it fiercely scratched the boundary of the woman's soul twice. Then it raised its eyes to look at me, the red light in its eyes gradually faded away, and it jumped up and ran into my yard!

"Hey! Little Gazi! Don't leave!!"

I hurriedly called it, and I will never forget its facial features. Although most people will think that mandrills are exactly the same when they grow up, in fact, as long as you pay attention, you will feel that they are the same as human faces.

There is a difference.

Just like the people in the village raising livestock, mules and horses, the people in the city all look the same, but the people in the village know each other and know that each horse and mule look different. Xiaogazi and I should have a year

I haven’t seen him for a long time. As a spiritual creature, it must have a different growth and lifespan than humans. At that time, it couldn’t walk, but now it looks like a four or five-year-old child, and it can run and cross.

, the ruthlessness is not inferior to those of adult mandrills. I am absolutely sure that this is the little mandrill that I have been with. But, why is it here?!

"Little bastard!!" I shouted again, "Don't..."

The little geezer is back. It jumped out from the wall like a child and stood in front of me. In its small hands, it actually held a pair of cotton shoes that were a bit big for it——

"Gah~"

Just like before, it made a soft cry like a grandma, and the little hand holding the big shoe moved towards me. I pursed my lips hard, squatted down without picking up the shoe, but stretched out my arm to hold the hair.

The fluffy dog ​​hugged her, tears welling up in the cold wind: "Xiao Gazi, it's really you, why are you here? I'm sorry, I originally said I wanted to see you, my sister misses you so much.

Ah, I really miss you..."

"Gah~"

It was still very sensible and popular, wiping my tears with its little hands, and stubbornly holding the pair of shoes in its hand to signal me to put them on quickly, sniffing, and I looked at it while crying and laughing, and was no longer conscious.

I put my feet into the shoes, and I hugged it and nestled at the door. It was very warm, and holding it was like holding a heater. I remember that when I was in the cave in Changbai Mountain, I held it.

I didn't feel the slightest bit of coldness.

It was very quiet all around. Apart from the sound of the wind, there was no sound. The little gazi just sat next to me quietly, with steam rising from his big eyes. He watched me cry, and he kept crying.

She wiped my tears with her little hands, and her whole face was filled with silent comfort. It wasn't until my mood gradually stabilized that I looked at it and then gently opened my mouth: "Xiao Gazi, how do you know I'm here? You're not

Do you live in Changbai Mountain..."

"Gah~~"

It seemed to be responding to me, pointing to the top of the mountain where Uncle Chou was buried. I looked up and looked over, slightly confused: "But this mountain..." I suddenly remembered Uncle Chou's words, "Yes, this is a branch of Changbai Mountain.

…”

A bitter smile emerged from the corner of his mouth, "It seems that everything is destined."

The little Gazi blinked and looked at me, seemingly not understanding what I was talking to myself. I looked at its still-developing big nose and remembered the way it once put my hand on its chest.

One word, spirit...

"Xiao Gazi, did you manipulate the water in my water tank? Are you helping me?"

It looked at me with its big eyes and stretched out its little hand to show me: "Gah..."

Under the moonlight, I saw a wound at a glance: "Your blood... did you put your blood into the water tank?"

After a while, it nodded and pointed at me with that finger, "Gah~"

I hugged it tightly, and suddenly I understood everything: "Although I don't have innate yin and yang, so I don't have the ability to understand, but you want to help me, so you are giving me spirit, hoping that my mind will still have understanding in the future, right?"

"

It still nodded and made a chirping sound like a baby.

"But why don't you want me to know, little Gazi, you should have let me know earlier."

It looked up at me, pointed inside the wall, and then covered its eyes. Finally, it looked at me and shook its head. I smiled softly: "I understand, you are afraid that Third Sister will see you."

, you’re scared, right?”

"Gah~"

It nodded again, pointed at my chest, and then leaned its head up. I hugged it and sighed softly: "It's me who's stupid, little bastard. I should have come out to find you earlier. You were afraid of being caught by others."

See, if I come out earlier, I can see you earlier..."

Holding it in my arms, I rambled on about what happened to me over the past year. I thought it wouldn’t understand many of the things, but inexplicably, it took it to be Zong Bao’s role, and San Meier’s role as Dan Feng.

She is the girl who bears this with me. I dare not say too many negative words because it is pressure for her. We are both very protective of each other, but the more protective we are, the less we can vent.

She relies on me, but is afraid that this dependence will burden me. She shows me that she can be self-reliant all the time. Seeing her like that makes me feel really sad, but I feel powerless inside.

"Xiao Gazi, you know, I want to do many things, but now, I can only hide my head like an ostrich. I know that hiding a head will not help, because the body is still outside, not me

I don’t want to face it, but I don’t know how to face it. I even think that if I don’t die, these three years will be infinitely long. Otherwise, what should I do and how should I live to face it?

To my relatives and friends, tell them that I actually can’t stand up at all, and all my words are nice to comfort them..."

The little gazi fulfilled its role as a listener very conscientiously. It looked at me quietly without speaking, and just told me four words with its eyes, 'Have hope.'

Yes, it didn't say a word, but I saw these four words, have hope.

When the rooster crows, it gets up, stands opposite me and draws a big circle with its two small arms, then points to its own fingers, then gestures at me, raises its head as if drinking water, and I nod with a smile.

: "Yes, I can drink..."

It patted my head like a little adult, and then pointed in the direction of the forest. It raised its feet like a white shadow and disappeared out of my sight. I stood up slowly holding on to the wall until

It ran far away, and then I felt the coldness in my body again. I exhaled a long breath. I raised my feet and walked slowly back to the yard. The snail girl who helped me was Xiao Gazi. It gave me spiritual enlightenment again, and,

It also knows that I can't digest too much at once, and adheres to the principle of moisturizing things quietly. It only puts a drop of blood into the water tank at a time, just...

I lowered my eyes and looked at my right hand, which was still numb. The yin and yang roots were broken, and no one would come to teach me the Dharma anymore. In the future, I might still be able to help people pinch the time, but I definitely wouldn’t be able to draw talismans or do the Dharma. Think about it.

, I used to be an onmyoji and it was so easy to do, but now it seems so difficult and out of reach.

But within the scope of Xiao Gazi's ability, it has helped me enough. If it were not for its blood, I think it would not be a big deal if Zhu Auntie's family was beaten to death. Maybe Xiao Gazi is just like me.

It’s the same as all the respected elders, like grandma, or like the three old fairies, Mr. Nan, Uncle Chou... Without exception, they all wish me well. I am their hope, but maybe that’s all.

Hope, it makes me feel that I am becoming more and more disappointed in myself despite the heavy trust in my life.

"Jiaolong, where have you been..."

After entering the house, the third sister rubbed her eyes and got up from the kang. When she saw my face clearly, she was so frightened that she turned pale: "What happened to your face! Jiaolong! Did you fall?"

"It's okay."

I responded with a chuckle, and looked at the broken mirror on the wardrobe. Inside, there were still a few blood channels slipping down from my forehead on my face. It looked like I had escaped from a murderer.
To be continued...