Author: Moon into the Cold Abyss

That Michael from the Evolution Club is really ridiculously strong. Even after obtaining so many spells, I was still no match for him. I even had one of my arms chopped off... Looking at all the life I have traveled through so far

, I have never been so embarrassed.

But that's okay, it saves me having to do it myself.

Looking back on the days I traveled through time, it was really wonderful. If I had just been an ordinary teacher in the original world, I would never have had such an experience.

But if I really want to say whether this is luck or misfortune, I can't make a decision. Happiness and pain are always intertwined and cannot be completely separated from the two sides of the paper.

After going through so much, I finally found out the truth of this era, but unfortunately, I stopped there.

Although I still want to move on, I can't deceive my heart. This is also the most fucked up setting of this weird era. Once people lose their obsession, their nature will be distorted by the outside world's opinions.

It would be great if I could really pretend to be obsessed. I would pretend that my goal is to correct the world instead of knowing the truth. In this way, maybe I can move on.

If my goal is to get the world back on track like Xiao Ming, my personality will not be distorted if I continue to act.

But the reality is that although I also want to correct this deformed world, this desire is not enough to support me to continue with my current personality.

To put it bluntly, the thought in my heart that I want to correct the world is just the kind of "if possible, world peace would be great... I'll try a little harder, but if it really doesn't work, then it's okay."

There is no way”.

It is impossible to reach the level of obsession with this level of determination, and my original obsession has already been completed, so even if I wanted to deceive myself, I couldn't.

It's really ridiculous to think about it. People who deceive children with the great goal of "correcting the world" never take these words seriously.

Maybe I am the kind of scholar-like person at heart? I only want to know the deeper mysteries of the world, but I have never thought about what these mysteries will bring and what they can change.

If the person who invented the nuclear bomb wanted to gain an advantage in war for the country, or wanted to use nuclear deterrence to achieve world unity or peace, then if I invented the nuclear bomb, I definitely just wanted to see a nuclear explosion without anyone being harmed.

to see what this thing is like.

This is probably the curiosity of children. When they see fire, they want to touch it.

Although my motives are somewhat naive, I can proudly say that I am a very good person.

If others look at me from the perspective of others, they will definitely regard me as a good person. After all, the number of people who have been saved by me is overwhelming compared to the number of people who have suffered misfortune because of me.

By the way, the stars are very bright today. It’s such a good day. Will he come to me today?

Alas - my body can no longer hold on any longer, and I'm afraid it will be impossible to leave Asgard again.

But this is exactly what I want. After death, I become the gatekeeper of the Hall of Valor. This kind of destination sounds quite fashionable.

"Sister Xingyue, why! Why did you lie to me!!"

It's Xiao Ming's voice.

I heard Xiao Ming's voice.

Finally, it’s finally the last moment. Although I have imagined it countless times, I still feel a rush of blood from personal experience... My cheeks are hot, my heart is also racing crazily, my body seems to be ahead of my spirit, and I have to be ready long ago.

Prepare.

Although I have been using rational psychology to analyze myself, are the results completely wrong? I really don’t understand what I am thinking.

Analyzing my current mood, the purpose of my standing here is definitely not only to complete the plan, but what else is there besides this? Is it because I want to see my brother who I have missed for a long time and is like a family member? Or do I want to?

Look at what the kid who grew up under his influence looks like now?

But these are all specious reasons. Even I don’t understand the real desire in my heart. It’s just like a mother wants to protect her child, which is called maternal love. A man wants to sleep with a woman, so he calls it love. My mood now,

What kind of noun should be used to express it?

The closest one might be like Liu Bei's Tuogu in Baidi City, but I know that this is actually not right at all, and this emotion is far from what I feel now.

"You're here, you're finally here! I've been waiting for you for too long." I couldn't help but say this.

Frankly speaking, I was a little shy, because I originally wanted to be calmer, more calm and elegant, just like the smart big sister I always showed in front of Xiao Ming Siyan and Wei Zai.

But I really couldn't control it at all. It was like every cell in my body was on stimulants, and my whole body was restless!

When I think about my life so far, I might just be waiting for this final moment! How can I not be heartbroken when I think about this possibility?

I finally met you, how many years have passed since then.

Ah, look at your current posture, how crazy you are, it makes me cry uncontrollably. You are where you are now because of my joking words, right? Although you have known for a long time that it is him, but your life has been so far.

The source of the pain is undoubtedly me.

With my ability, I could have arranged for your family of three to enjoy a normal life in the central city. Even if you can't read all kinds of fantasy works freely like in the golden age, you can definitely live a normal life, because

Due to information control, you can't even know the cruel lives of the wanderers in the wasteland and the residents of the outer city who suffer from the bright lights.

But in the end, I still chose to let you go the same way as me. I was really selfish.

If you can dispel my current sense of guilt and let me do anything, Xiao Ming, the way you look at me now makes my sister heartache... Your distrustful eyes are as if I lied to you... Even if it is a lie

This is the fact, but I still want you to look at me with admiration. The happiness you feel when you look at me makes me feel that I am a qualified parent.

I'm sorry I lied to you. Although I can find countless reasons with my mouth, I can't hide it in my heart. This is probably the most contradictory point. I obviously hurt you, but I also love you!

This feeling cannot be classified, so I named it love without authorization. It is not a mother to a child, nor a sister to a brother, nor a woman to a man, nor a teacher to a student... I don’t know how I love you, but

I love you so much, everything I have can only, must, absolutely be entrusted to you!

But you must have the qualifications. What you are now is not enough. Use fighting to prove yourself!

Let’s try to communicate with you first.

"Xiao Ming, how about sitting down and talking to your sister?"

"Ahhhhh!"

The angry expression of crying and rushing towards me really hurts me, but it was my plan to fight with my fists. Let’s see if you can withstand this blow. King of gods from Olympus, Zeus’

The fury of thunder!

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Chapter completed!