Not good?

When I heard these three words, I seemed to understand something. Huang Tianba had already said: "I heard that the war in the north is tight, and the line from Yunzhong to Fengling is almost lost. "

"What?!" I was shocked: "How could it be so fast?"

I have always said that the war in the north is very tight, but no matter what, I never thought that it would be so powerful. In just one or two months, the front line between Yunzhong and Fengling was almost lost!

Huang Tianba said in a deep voice: "He must go back now, otherwise-"

Otherwise, the north might be—

My heart beats very fast and very messy.

He should have expected this day to negotiate with the southern forces and eliminate Shengjing's control. However, he did not expect that because of Nangong Lizhu's tricks, everything was so fast that he could only make such a choice.

Just fight!

My fingers were so trembling that I couldn't even hold the bowl. I looked up and saw Huang Tianba looking at me worriedly. I forced a smile, wanting to say something, but I didn't know what to say. In order to conceal my panic, I stretched out my chopsticks to pick up a piece of braised bamboo shoots and put them in my mouth.

This time, the fresh fragrance of bamboo shoots suddenly disappeared, and an unspeakable nausea suddenly surged up. I hurriedly covered my mouth and retching.

"Qingying?"

Huang Tianba looked at me in shock: "What's wrong with you?"

"without--"

Before I finished speaking, I retching twice, and my mouth was filled with sour water. The feeling was very uncomfortable. I bent over and took a while to calm down.

Mu Hua glared at me and suddenly said, "You are pregnant?"

“…”

I looked up at them with some embarrassment, and was silent for a moment, but nodded.

Suddenly, her face became a little strange.

Huang Tianba immediately frowned and said to me: "Qingying, why didn't you tell me earlier?"

I smiled apologetically.

Along the way, I did not tell him, not that I didn’t want to say it, nor that I didn’t want to say it, but that I didn’t know what to say. I left that man and paid a price that was almost life, but I could never get rid of the traces he had left in my heart and life. Now, I am even more pregnant with his child. Even I am a little at a loss for such an ending. What should I say?

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Perhaps because he has settled down now and he has returned to Beijing, his body's reaction has become stronger. He has not finished the meal until the end and can't eat it anymore. I was helped back to my room by someone. Soon, a servant brought medicinal food and diet for the fetus, and some taboo things in the room were also removed.

But the disgusting feeling continued to echo in my chest.

I lowered my head and looked at my lower abdomen with some weakness. The pain I have come from these days has really wronged the child. When I reached out to touch him gently, I could even feel him trembling slightly.

What do you feel when you know he left?

Isn't it, I feel a little overwhelmed?

Slowly, I trembled as if it was not my child, but my fingers, which seemed to be very cold. I could only hold them tightly to let myself know that I was still conscious.

He left.

Really, I'm leaving.

I have been hiding for so long and afraid for so long, and I am looking forward to this day. But this day has arrived early. When I face everything in front of me, I feel a sense of sudden danger.

Is this departure finally over everything I and him before?

He didn't even know that he had such a child.

Thinking of this, I lowered my head and looked at my belly again. It has been more than three months, but my lower abdomen is slightly bulging. It is just because I am too thin, so it is not obvious. This child survives carefully, as if he is afraid that any change will make him disappear forever.

"He's gone..."

When I opened my mouth, my voice was so dull that it seemed like I was crying, but I was clearly calm, but I just felt a little empty in my chest.

Maybe I will start to adapt to this feeling slowly.

He left...

"But I have you here."

I have never been a cruel person, and I don’t want anyone to taste the pain of separation of flesh and blood. However, after experiencing so much over the years, the child I once lost has told me that such a choice may not be a good thing.

There are only monarchs and ministers in the imperial city, and there is no great friendship between people. I don’t want to watch my children walk on that path, nor do I want my children to become power puppets that have no happiness and no freedom in the struggle for power.

The two cages of life are either trapped by love or by things. I have been trapped in the former for life, and he has been tired in the latter for life. Even if he enjoys all his glory and wealth and stands at the peak of power, he has never received real happiness. I just hope that this child will not follow our footsteps.

"We will live well."

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The medicine for calculating the fetus was a little bitter, but it also had a calming effect. I leaned against the head of the bed and fell asleep unconsciously.

When I woke up, it was getting late.

The servant directly brought the food and soup to my room. He was polite and I used it briefly. When they packed it up, night fell.

I rested for a while, but I was still a little bored while sitting in the room, so I simply went out to get some breath.

The garden is still quiet, the sound of gurgling water is particularly pleasant in the night. The moonlight turns into rippling waves on the clear spring, shining in front of you, and reflecting with the candlelight on the stone corridor, adding a tranquility to this quiet courtyard.

I was quiet in such a night when suddenly, a noise came from the other end.

Yes—the place of the temple.

I frowned and subconsciously walked towards the other side.

The candlelight was still swaying in the room, and I could see the figures of two people illuminating on the bed. As soon as I approached, I heard Mu Hua say in a crying voice: "Let me clearly."

"What the hell do you want me to say?"

"Say! Say-" She whimpered for a long time, then said, "Is that child yours?"

"What did you say?"

"Is the child in her belly yours?" Mu Hua's voice seemed crazy, with a little roaring break, and he shouted: "If it weren't for yours, why do you care so much about her? Why do you bring her back? Every time you go out for a few months, you're going to have a private meeting with her, right? She didn't go with the emperor anymore, so she followed you, right?"

When I heard her words, my mind suddenly exploded.

What did she say?

Would she doubt—

It was not just me, but the atmosphere in the temple suddenly froze. It seemed that even the candlelight was suppressed by a heavy thing, and there was no flashing anymore. I seemed to feel Huang Tianba's almost suffocating torture.

After a long time, he spoke, his voice no longer as low as usual, but with a bone-like coldness-

"Xue Muhua, in your eyes, what kind of person is I, Huang Tianba?"

My heart trembled.

This is the first time I heard that he even had his name and his wife's name, and that chill almost made people's blood solidify. It was bone-bone, heart-wrenching, and even the soul could not feel a trace of warm coldness.

"Tell me, what kind of person I am?"

"..." Mu Hua didn't say a word, but just kept crying.

"you say!"

I looked at the figure on the window that was trembling like leaves in the wind, and I could almost imagine how desperate the light would be emitted from those charming eyes.

"In your eyes, Huang Tianba, I am such a person?"

“…”

"I show mercy everywhere, I am lustful and greedy, I will never refuse men and women, I will be hypocritical to you Xue Muhua, right?"

“…”

"If I were such a person in your eyes-" His voice suddenly stopped, but not that he could not speak, but was choked up, with a trace of despair. After a long stalemate, he finally said slowly: "Then we, the couple, needless to do it."

As soon as this sentence was spoken, another person in the room suddenly seemed to froze.

I also froze.

The next moment, a crackling explosion suddenly broke out in the room. Mu Hua seemed to sweep everything on the table to the ground, and then picked up the things around him and threw them desperately. The whole room was so chaotic that he thought of an irrational world.

However, it seemed that all the others in the house had disappeared, and none of them came out.

I stood in the night and looked at this scene, and suddenly felt an indescribable sorrow.

I don’t know how long I fell and how long I cried, but Mu Hua finally stopped. She panted and said to Huang Tianba: "Okay, you finally told the truth!"

...

"You just want to get rid of me. She is here now and is pregnant with your child again. Of course you want to get rid of me, right?"

...

"Huang Tianba, how much did I pay for you? When the sect made things difficult for you, who protected you? Ask your conscience, are you worthy of me?"

...

"You said, are you worthy of me?"

The room became quiet, no one cried or quarreled, but this silence seemed to be suffocating, and a kind of fatigue from the heart to the body slowly emerged.

After a while, the door was pulled open from the inside, and Huang Tianba walked out stiffly with his back to the warm light behind him.

As soon as I looked up, I saw me.

The moonlight shone like ice on the extremely beautiful face, but it seemed that there was a flowing light sliding down from his eyes, but in just a moment, it condensed into ice, but my tears rolled down like beads with broken threads, making me tremble.

I didn't know why I was crying, but seeing him walking out helplessly, tears couldn't stop falling.

Why?

Why is this happening?
Chapter completed!