Many people asked me where the material about the protagonist's personality originated from, and whether it was written according to the author's own character. In fact, most authors basically mixed with their own personal feelings when shaping the protagonist, and the protagonist's character is very similar to the author himself. However, when I was shaping the protagonist, in addition to focusing on part of his core, I also have to tell a little secret here today. Whether it is "The Demon World Jianghu" or "The God of Nothing", including the current "The Soul Lord of the Heavenly Burning", there is another person's shadow, because he always does something that I want to do but dare not do, and the protagonist of the story is also experiencing things that I want to do but cannot do. Today, this essay will take everyone to this person.?

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Speaking of Liu Haiyu, I haven’t seen him for more than four years. I have always respected him as Brother Haiyu.

I have always had connections. I was two years older than me in my university, so it was rare to develop my relationship to this level. A young man in his twenties and very strong, in my eyes, he had a more energy that I dreamed of. It was this energy that made me envious.

When I first went to college, I knew a madman in my department named Liu Haiyu, who was two years older than me. There were not many people in the department. It was passed down by word of mouth, and the name of a madman was well-known, and then I also wanted to see her handsome face.

Many times, the world is so wonderful, some things and some people come after they are looking forward to it.

Liu Haiyu's arrival made me feel a little disgusted.

After graduating from high school, I got used to going to bed early and getting up early. When I first entered college, I didn’t have the habit of going to bed late. I lay down at about half past ten o’clock and basically fell asleep at eleven o’clock. The first time, around 10:40, Liu Haiyu came to visit him in person.

Almost everyone has already lie down. When the seniors come, we naturally have to greet them. Anyone who has been to college knows that seniors are a synonym for an amazing person. No matter who they see, they are very convinced when they see seniors! If they don’t accept it, they have to be convinced. Seniors are sacred and inviolable.

After he arrived, he sat on my bed. His first impression was that he was very talkative and did not realize anything like a lunatic. He was sleepy at the time and said hello, so I lay there motionless without saying a word. He stayed for about twenty minutes and saw that we were going to sleep, so he left. We turned off the lights and couldn't help but laugh and said a few words like sick. It was not a curse. After all, it was the first time we met, but it was not a question of like.

So, fixed time and fixed locations appear. Liu Haiyu always appears after 10:30, staying for at least twenty minutes, advising people to educate and talk about everything. We just echoed, after all, we were unfamiliar and out of reach for seniors. We just greeted each other when we met and smiled.

The most impressive time, at 10:40, before he came, his roommate laughed and said, "Close the door quickly, or Liu Haiyu will come!" It made everyone laugh, and it smelled like a wolf coming.

From the last session, I learned that he was a madman. I am very quiet, but I also like to observe and think quietly about things I am interested in. When I heard that madman became my new goal, I began to pay attention. Then I realized that Liu Haiyu's words and deeds were all a bit arrogant and inexplicably showed a little frivolity.

Later, the more I contacted it, I became more and more stupid. I was a fool. I had a kind of arrogance in my bones, or I was not showing off, but I was working hard. Once the existing person did this, the jealousy might arise in my heart. What awesome are you? Some unrealistic theories, some irrelevant thoughts, and some irrational behaviors made me firmly think that he was a fool.

After careful study, I gradually became less interested. The so-called crazy behavior is some immature manifestations and no longer have a good impression.

In less than a month, the student union was going to accept new students. I, who served as the class monitor for many years, may have felt a little tired. At the beginning of college, I did not run for any position in the class, but for more than a month, I felt a little uncomfortable, and maybe I was used to it. In fact, it was not. The key is that I don’t want anyone to point at my nose and talk about those seniors who are not as good as the world.

So I had an idea in my mind again. Later I heard that it was difficult to get into the student union and the competition was fierce, and the key was that someone would take it.

At this time, I thought of Liu Haiyu. He was the minister of the Student Union. I remember that he was the minister of the Graduate Affairs Department. At least he had an acquaintance, so I signed up when I signed up. I thought this time, there should be no problem. Liu Haiyu met and talked almost every day.

That night, I wanted to wait for him to come to my dormitory, but I couldn't help but call him around nine o'clock. At that time, he happened to be on the train and didn't know where he was. I just heard from him that he was no longer in the Graduate Affairs Department, but served as the Minister of the Supervision Department.

My heart sank. Did my goal of joining the student union be broken?

I am very lazy, I admit it. But once I made up my mind to do everything, I firmly completed it. This time, I didn't wait. After making the decision, I had to act immediately.

The next day, I went to find some seniors from the previous class, and finally there was a chance to change it, so I changed the election department and changed it to Liu Haiyu's supervision department.

Liu Haiyu came back. He didn't think much of me, nor did he say he wanted to take me to show off and take me to fly. But I had an inexplicable confidence in my bones. As long as I wanted to do, there was nothing I could not do.

Liu Haiyu mentioned it twice occasionally. I felt so hatred in my heart. I always thought that if I found him, he should help me, but he didn't. Everyone has a selfish side. Now I think about it, why do they help you? You hated others the previous second, but begged others the next second, but you are not happy if you don't care about them. The world itself is fair. These things that are not there are now a happy scene when you recall them.

I got what I wished for. I succeeded, and almost succeeded in the election with my own tongue, even though I was still a person who liked quietness.

He had more opportunities to get in touch with Liu Haiyu. However, he was not as close to him as he imagined. Perhaps the two arrogant people did not look at each other, so they inexplicably neglected each other. Student union work generally does not require us new members to do it. Instead, all we do is just some physical work. Besides, even if there are important things, Liu Haiyu is not at ease, or he can't do it himself, so how can we do it?

Thinking about it now, I really didn't do any work because there was a "Brother Jian" in the department who was a thousand times more active than me. At the same time, I felt that this place was not suitable for me, and I didn't find my place to use it. In just a few days, I had no interest.

Thinking about it now, I was laughing. Who would have thought of the lost self at that time, who would have thought of the person who planned to live a life of scattered life, and who would have been able to persist in the student union for three years and finally joined the presidium. Perhaps this was all because of Liu Haiyu's words.

I remember that Liu Haiyu had a meal together in the last year of the student union. He himself said that he was tired of the work of the student union. However, sometimes, some things need to be done well. Only when a person who can complete the whole can withstand the wind and rain and see the rainbow on the road ahead.

Perhaps it is because of Liu Haiyu's words, including now, I am still a person who starts and ends well. Even if I feel wronged sometimes, I am willing to break it and swallow it in my stomach. I have to swallow it even if I can't swallow it, because at that time, no one can help you.

After being in contact for a long time, I am willing to make friends with Liu Haiyu. In addition to talking about some great principles, Liu Haiyu is worthy of recognition in many aspects. The key is that he is getting along with others with his heart.

I have a habit of having my friends who need real ones, not real friends, I don't want them, and my friends are all real. As long as I get along with me with my heart, I will also repay them with this. No matter how strong you have, if you are a false person, I will be arrogant; but in the same way, no matter how many problems you have, I will tolerate others with my heart.

Perhaps the name of Brother Haiyu also started from that time.

Listening to Liu Haiyu's chatting is also a kind of enjoyment. He is talking, and I am listening, and sometimes I will echo a few words. At first, I feel a little impatient, but later I gradually get used to it. Isn't this kind of external release of arrogance in my bones what I lack? Inexplicably, I have a hint of wanting to imitate.

At this time, the madman's name began to be deeply rooted in my heart. Deeper contact, deeper understanding, crazy behavior, crazy remarks attracted me, and at the same time strengthened this friendship.

He wants to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination, which is why he will return to the dormitory only after 10:30 every time he closes the dormitory door. Sometimes you go to his dormitory before 11:00 and you can hardly find it. I heard that he was studying in the study room. Later, a few times I met him on campus. He walked quietly alone, sometimes looking at the beauties around him. When he was rising, he occasionally chased him over and teased him for a few words, which attracted unreasonable contempt. I couldn't help but spat: This madman.

Later, he was the one who gave up the postgraduate entrance examination. Just about one month before the postgraduate entrance examination, he suddenly asked me to go out for a walk, and I followed him. Around the campus, two big men walked slowly. After talking slowly, he was very excited. I could not explain how much pressure he was, because I was also under tremendous pressure at that time, that was my father's illness. When Liu Haiyu told me that he wanted to give up, I was very calm. Although there was a feeling in my heart that was about to burst out, I inexplicably cursed: Coward!

But, I don’t. Half of it is restrained, and half of it is emotion. Reason tells me that this is Liu Haiyu. I know that all his decisions are not empty talk. I believe that he must have struggled extremely in his heart. I can judge it from his emotions, because at that time, we had been familiar with each other for a year and a half. Although we were not different from each other, we could understand each other and know each other well. If he gave up, I wouldn’t say much. Don’t forget that Liu Haiyu is still Brother Haiyu!

I feel a little more admiration.

Liu Haiyu was silent for a while. Perhaps the sleeping lion was a period of napping. Some people inexplicably called me a madman. When I first gained this reputation, I was extremely happy and finally released. Not everyone can do madman. If you want to become a real madman, you must first have strong strength and be an admirable madman.

However, I am very unqualified.

I can't understand the true meaning of a madman. Maybe Liu Haiyu can't tell why she was called a madman by others! Is it just because she is different from others? Then why do you have to be a madman instead of a fool? So I can't tell you why, but I can feel that Liu Haiyu is a madman, but I am not.

I dare not to dare to tease beautiful women on the street; I dare not ask questions from Liu Haiyu after following the strange beauty's butt, but I dare not; I dare to stare at others without moving when they see the beauty, until they lower their heads and dare not look at him, and I dare not.

It seems that everything is related to beauty. I can’t do it, it’s lustful but not lustful. This is the definition we give ourselves and the explanation for each other. Although it feels a bit far-fetched, that’s how we do it.

However, in four years of college, I have never heard of him in love, but I know that he is pursuing a girl hard, and I have heard that he has liked twenty girls, but it is impossible to verify whether it is true or false. I don’t seem to have asked about it. After all, it is not easy to ask about emotional matters, but I know that the girl he is pursuing has not fallen in love with him because of this.

It is not an exaggeration to pursue him relentlessly, and even things that are blocked by others' doors have been gone. The reason may be that his personality is not that many people can accept his arrogant and unruly like me, but I believe that he deserves better, which I can be sure of.

As graduation approached, he was also confused and he was chasing him. I accompanied him to the interview. The two of them went to Tai'an. It was raining that day, which may have already indicated the storm journey that will be faced.

On the second day of the interview, we started our trip to Mount Tai. Maybe there was no gloom, and I didn’t know what the interview result was. He was just full of confidence and I was also full of joy.

After about five hours, I reached the peak of Mount Tai. I had to admire his small body, which fell a lot from afar, and I was deliberately waiting for me. Finally, I reached the top, and I was almost exhausted, but what is very meaningful is that I stood on the top of Mount Tai and said my love to a girl I have always loved. It was simple and clear, of course, it ended in failure. Perhaps the most intuitive goal of this trip was failure, but the meaning, now it seems, is extremely profound. A trip, an epiphany, and after returning, I gave up chasing that girl in my heart. Maybe I couldn't find my original feeling, but I always regarded her as my little sister in my heart. At that time, it was, and it is still now.

Liu Haiyu often stopped at school in the later period. I borrowed a few books from him and always wanted to find a chance to return it to him. He was not there, but when he was there, I forgot, so I kept it in my own hands until now.

This is the value of a book, its meaning lies in eternity. I still remember that he studied in the library, called me to go over, and gave me a book, saying it was pretty good, so I could read it. I thought there was something big, but then I remembered his neurotic personality, smiled, took the book and returned to the dormitory, and said less than ten words in total, I changed my clothes from the dormitory, ran to the library, and then went back, which was not enough to make trouble.

While at school, he went to telemarketing for a month. This was what he heard later. I didn't see. He was not in school for more than a month. He always felt that he was elusive and it was normal not to show up for a month. It seemed like it was my birthday and wanted to have a meal with him. Only then did I realize that he was not in school, and maybe it was time to part.

We have discussed the value of university countless times. I seem to suggest that the current university is too impetuous. He also agrees that the ultimate goal of both of them is to cherish the beautiful but not much time. Now I have new insights. The true meaning of university is to enjoy, enjoy for no reason. If I miss it, I will never come back. And I will never find it back.

The time in college was short, and the two years I spent with Liu Haiyu quickly passed. It was hard to explain. He left the school, and in the end I sent him out.

He didn't have to go to the station to see him off, but he left like that. It was said that every separation was for a better reunion. A few years have passed in a blink of an eye, and I am still looking forward to the moment of reunion.

When he went to work, it was the moment when I was in a trough. I mentioned my father's illness countless times, and I would write it alone in the future. Every time I mentioned it, my heart felt aching, that kind of pain.

It was the Spring Festival that time, and he told Liu Haiyu about this. He also comforted me and persuaded me. At that time, I was not an exaggeration to say that I was heartbroken. After that, I didn’t tell anyone, but I told Liu Haiyu that it was not because I had no friends, but after telling Liu Haiyu, I suddenly realized that he was worried that I could not bring some troubles to others! So I chose to bear it myself and did not tell anyone else, so Liu Haiyu became the only person who could help me with the troubles.

I am very grateful, sorry, and I am also very glad that I am lucky to have such a big brother!

Liu Haiyu's job. At the beginning, I was very excited. I could feel that every time I spoke to him, he was positive and optimistic. He only complained occasionally, and still remembered his words before graduation: He would have to pay more than 100,000 yuan in annual salary within two years, right? (It seems that it is this number, and it seems to be 200,000 yuan, or becoming a manager. After too long, I can't remember it anymore!) At that time, my tone, behavior, everything, immature and perverted, I was also excited. During the first time I worked, he was in a good mental state. I was not worried about him, even if he was Liu Haiyu, he was also Brother Haiyu.

But later, I couldn't help but feel a little worried. I thought he had completely forgotten his unruly life in school and completely obscured in the melting pot of society. Even so, it was not something I was worried about, because the melting pot of society was indispensable. I also hoped that he could completely come out of it, and that time he could be reborn from the fire.

I learned from my classmates that Liu Haiyu is a lunatic.

After so long, contacts are frequent, but I accidentally heard from my classmates that Liu Haiyu's behavior at work during the same major and industry makes people have to recall his state of being crazy.

I didn't want to ask, what I should have guessed, it took some time to change a lunatic, but in the end I asked, thinking about it, how could he change after so many years of habits and character over the years? He explained to me that, similarly, there was a complaint in it, maybe some of my current experience was summarized from him, because he said too much to me, and I also heard too much.

I heard his ejaculation, but it wasn't considered an ejaculation. But during this period, I don't know if he lacked someone to talk to me.

Liu Haiyu left, and his ears might be quieter, but he couldn't find anyone who could drink and have fun. When Liu Haiyu was at school, we would drink a few drinks together a few days later. I don't know how many times he drank, but what is certain is that he was very happy every time, but the last time, besides being happy, there was a hint of excitement coexisting.

I disappeared for a while. I happened to be working for a year and stayed in Tai'an for a year. I couldn't contact him when I was on holiday in July. Just like that, about one day in August, he gave me a message and I immediately called back. At that time, he had disappeared for more than a month without any news.

He left Tai'an and left the place where he was once full of passion and infinite ambitions. Those dreams were finally defeated by reality. He spent more than a month reflecting and summarizing. I was not surprised, because he was Liu Haiyu! From his words, I also heard some vicissitudes and maturity, and I imagined the scene at that time, like a white witch, as if there was a meaning of white hair all night. Liu Haiyu's epiphany should also require such an experience!

When I was on the phone, I would still ask the girl he had pursued. Later, the girl returned to school to repeat the postgraduate entrance examination. I also heard that everyone was the same. I also always paid attention to the little sister I once liked. When I think of or see the person in front of me, I always sigh inexplicably. It was not all love. I was just a little unwilling to accept it, a little immature, and a little unsatisfied pain. But it will eventually pass, and I will not come back, nor will I catch it back.

I became a Beijing drifter and went to Beijing. I felt his courage, but I couldn't. Maybe it was because I had too many ties in my heart. I knew that he had it, but he had the energy in his heart that I didn't have, the energy that I could move forward after saying it. I have been searching for it for years, but I haven't found it yet.

Suddenly, Liu Haiyu's worldview changed at that time. Perhaps the month he disappeared gave him insights, or the year of unsatisfactory work gave him a reward. At that time, it was not an exaggeration to say that he had a great transformation. He became no longer the Liu Haiyu I was once familiar with. Only Brother Haiyu was left in his heart. He has always been like this. He gave me too many opinions and suggestions, but it did not change my worldview. Because in college, my personality has become more and more popular than him. Without a single blow, I will never forget those memories.

What is negative is his words and deeds, not his heart.

Sometimes an inexplicable word always brings up the arrogance at that time. Perhaps he was suppressing it, as if he had changed two jobs. It was not easy until half a year later. Half a year was not short, time flies, and I was also facing graduation from college.

Graduation is sad, just like when I sent Liu Haiyu away. Especially in this city, there may be people from this city, maybe they will not come back in a few years, or more than ten years, and some people may never meet in their lifetime. I am not like Liu Haiyu, who specializes in a car, walks through this city, and experiences the familiar taste. I can't do it.

My father's illness has returned again, and he may never recover. The moment I signed the notice of critical illness, I finally realized that I had such a heavy responsibility on my shoulders, which made me so tired that within less than a month, my girlfriend proposed to break up. I felt extremely painful, but I had no intention of trying to keep it. Since I could not live a happy life, it would be better to run around and find the pure land and transparency in my heart.

I cried and felt relieved. My father's illness finally improved, and the stone in my heart fell on my feet, and it might have hit me on my feet, which was a little painful, but fortunately, it's great to be alive!

Liu Haiyu called during this period and said that everything was fine. This time I didn’t tell him that there was some pain and I needed to bear it alone. I had this responsibility and it was time for me to face it.

Fate is strange. A person, from hating to mutual appreciation, does not have many twists and turns. What makes us successful is truth and time. No matter whether it is man or woman, a relationship can withstand the test of time, which can be called real hardship.

Time flies. After so long, sometimes I recall it, but now I can’t even remember Liu Haiyu’s true appearance, or when I look at myself now, can I see clearly what I am now?

In a blink of an eye, I also graduated from college. As I approached the final period of graduation, I experienced many setbacks, life, emotions, and journeys. I said that my life was a bit tragic, after all, my life had just begun.

He had a girlfriend. During my graduation season, he had a girlfriend. One night, he suddenly called me and asked me: "If two people are destined to be together in the future, is it necessary to be together now?" I knew this question was an emotional problem, and it was difficult to answer. The most difficult thing in the world is emotional problems!

He continued: "If a girl comes from abroad to another country to study, she has love for each other with a local boy, but this girl is destined to return to her own country in a year. Should she pursue such love?"

I vaguely guessed that some things must be related to him. He said it very seriously at the time, but I also guessed that it might be that he suddenly saw or experienced related things. After all, he is Liu Haiyu, and some things are beyond the control of ordinary people.

I pondered for a moment and said, "Why not chase? What is easy to move are often those memories that have passed, and those happiest laughters are right in front of you, standing in the other person's perspective, maybe I don't want to hurt each other, but who can guess in the future? Maybe when I recall it in the future, the other person will be full of emotion? Maybe I was also facing such a choice at that time, but I was very firm and persistent!

I don’t know if it has anything to do with me. Not long after, or the moment he called, he had already made a decision in his heart that his girlfriend was an American student.

As usual, each other's lives have not been disrupted. I know that what Liu Haiyu needs is a person who can understand his thinking, tolerate his behavior, and understand his life. I have said long ago that he deserves better. He is very happy and found it.

I graduated from college and was very confused. I didn't know how to choose the future path. I had been delaying for more than a month. During this period, "The Demon World Jianghu" was successfully completed. Immediately afterwards, I started the journey of "The God of Nothingness". Until now, I have been in the "The Lord of Burning Heaven". The Kant and the tempering of the road always make you stop at a certain period of time. Life is like Liu Haiyu, crazy and unpredictable.

When I can't find the direction, I like someone. I don't know why the contact has decreased. Basically, he calls me, but I rarely contact him on my own initiative. It's not that the relationship between the two people has faded, but at this period and at the starting point of this tortuous road, I don't know where to go. I just want to find a path of my own.

I hope to move forward through my own exploration, rather than always relying on his guidance. Some roads are destined to be left alone, and they are not easy and I have difficulty. Only in this common storm, can I raise my head and see the same sunshine.

Six years have not been short, but it is impossible to talk about unreservedness. After all, everyone has their own secrets and their own lives. Days have passed day by day. According to the days he told that night, his girlfriend has already returned to her own country. If so, I don’t know if he is in pain now, but I didn’t ask, and he didn’t say it.

After a while, he told me that he was going to eat vegetarian food. When I asked the reason, he was ambiguous, and he didn't say anything, nor did he give me a reasonable explanation. Although I didn't guess, I was sure that something must have happened, otherwise he wouldn't have been like this.

Later, I saw some of his feelings. His grandfather passed away a few days ago. I don’t know if it is related to this. Now it seems that we cannot dig deeper. Only when we meet in the future can everything be relieved.

Liu Haiyu became deeper, Liu Haiyu became more vicissitudes, and Liu Haiyu became "older". During the conversation, his speech fell unknowingly. Slowly, sometimes there was a hint of paleness and weakness. Perhaps, he was really mature, but would such Liu Haiyu still be the lunatic before?

I can't see the future clearly, and I can't see the future self clearly. Everything is unknown, but it's hard to walk on a long road, and I have to climb over even if I climb.
Chapter completed!