Chapter 8 How much hesitation
These days, Zhang Yunfeng's life has not been easy.
As a farmer, he is not a sentimental person. The pressure of life and the farm work that he can never finish is not enough to make him sentimental. However, whenever it is late at night and lying on the bed, Zhang Guorui's cold words will always echo in his mind. Coupled with his mother's nagging, the villagers in the countryside are kind enough to introduce him to his partner again and again, which makes him extremely distressed.
Sometimes he would think, let it go, follow the ruling of life, find a farmer woman like him to marry you, Zhang Yunfeng is also old! He is already past the age of starting a family, and he is a mud-legged handkerchief digging in the soil. Xiaonan is a public teacher at No. 1 Middle School. Her father, Zhang Guorui, who was covering the sky in Yunxi Village, was staring at him. You and Xiaonan are in the sky and on the ground, and there is no possibility at all, so what else do you have to expect?
However, when he thought of what his younger brother Yunqi said to him a few years ago, Zhang Yunfeng would brush away the messy and decadent thoughts in his mind, and once again strengthened his heart that was unwilling to follow the mercy of fate.
Yes, what my younger brother Yun Qi said a year ago opened another brand new window for his pessimistic and dark life, triggering a huge awakening of the self-reliance consciousness of a rural youth. He suddenly woke up. The outside world is so wide and there are so many roads. So why must I stick to the path of being a farmer? Why can't I fight for a greater future for Xiaonan's love?
In fact, he also understood that from the "one big and two public officials" before the reform, the people's commune system with "government and social harmony" to the current responsibility system that is mainly based on family contracting, the country's policies are getting better and better, and life is getting better and more promising. Being a stable farmer, this society is now a good time to start a family and start a career.
Over the past few years, he has also personally felt the huge changes brought by national policies to farmers' lives. More and more people don't have to worry about food and clothing, and it's no longer a luxury to have meat in meals. Ordinary farmers, as long as they are full of energy, even if they dig on the land, they can live a good life. What's more, they already have a tractor, so there is no need to mention the future, there is a big hope!
Getting rich has always been the theme of life for millions of ordinary Chinese farmers. As long as you have food, clothes, money to spend, health, and life, what else can you ask for?
But who made me fall in love with Zhang Guorui's daughter Zhang Xiaonan?
These days, when he was working alone in the mountains, he lay on the ground with his head resting on his arm, looking at the high blue sky and the flying white clouds for a long time, his eyes would be filled with tears, and the mountains were silent, and he could even hear the blood vessels in his temples beating roaring.
At this time, the sails he remembered would repeatedly sail into the past years.
He remembered every little thing with Xiaonan, the happy days when he went to school with Xiaonan, and the words he said on the night Xiaonan left Yunxi Village and leaned on his shoulder: "Brother Yunfeng, regardless of whether my father agrees or not, I want to be with you in my life!"
As he thought about it, Zhang Yunfeng's heart was broken.
But after the broken hearts were glued together, they seemed to be more tenacious and became more determined to think about working hard in the city!
He no longer wants to be a scheming farmer. He knows that if he wants to change his situation, want to be with Xiaonan and work hard in the city, this is the best way out, and this is a good time to start a family and start a career!
After making up his mind to go out for a walk, during those days, Zhang Yunfeng did not go out to run a tractor to pick up goods, but instead worked in the mountains and fields all day long.
After she went to the city to explore, all the farm work would fall on my mother. She was still young and couldn't do anything. Chunlan was a good farmer, but now she is in Longwan Town to celebrate the third year of junior high school and will be in the middle school entrance examination in two months. She is facing a critical period of rising junior high school. She cannot delay her sister's study because of farm work.
However, my mother was in poor health and could not endure hardships. He wanted to do as much farm work as possible before leaving, so my mother could do less.
The spring plowing had begun. Zhang Yunfeng loosened all the land near his home and planted cowpeas and corn. As for a few acres of tobacco fields, he did not plant any more tobacco seedlings after plowing, and he was delayed there. The pigs at home had been killed during the Chinese New Year. Zhang's mother urged him several times, but he made excuses to delay and did not go to the town to buy young pig seedlings.
After handling the family affairs properly, Zhang Yunfeng decided to talk to his mother about going to the city.
After dinner that day, Zhang's mother sat under the TV to collect the soles of her shoes. Although her family now has no shortage of the money to buy shoes, she still likes to knit sweaters and shoes for her children because she makes it warm and durable. Moreover, she has a deep craft, and is sparse and dense, looking from a distance like a pattern carefully designed by arts and crafts artists.
Zhang Yunfeng rolled up a dry tobacco stick, and after smoking silently, he turned the sound of the TV and plucked up the courage to say to Zhang's mother: "Mom, I have something I want to tell you."
Zhang Ma leaned her head down and said calmly, "Is it because I went to the city?"
Zhang Yunfeng was a little surprised. After a while, he asked dumbly: "How did you know?"
Zhang's mother sighed and put the wool basket on the table and said, "Chunlan told me that you discussed going to the city with Yunqi a few years ago. She heard that she secretly told me. And I can feel that you are so arrogant and big. You are not happy to work at home. But if I don't stop you, you are not young anymore. You can do it yourself."
Zhang Yunfeng felt a sense of shame, and after a long time, he said, "Mom, don't worry, Yunqi has bought a big house in the city. When I settle there, I have a way out, and I will take you and my sisters to the city to live!"
Zhang's mother said in surprise: "Yunqi bought a house in the city? Where did he get so much money?"
Speaking of this, she suddenly remembered the fact that Yunqi was studying and selling handheld phones. Now Qiulan is also doing it with Yunqi. She has more or less noticed how much money she made. It is definitely not clear. It costs nearly 10,000 yuan to buy household appliances and New Year goods during the Chinese New Year alone, but she never dreamed that her youngest son, who was only seventeen years old, would have the ability to buy a house in the city.
For a moment, she was both relieved and sad.
What is gratifying is the strength and sensibility of the children.
What’s sad is that the children are all older and have their own ideas. They have to go out to work hard alone. As a mother, she can’t help them without any help except silently blessing them in her heart.
Zhang's mother couldn't help feeling sad and said, "Your brother is young, but you can see that he is very smart and has more ideas. If you pass by, you should listen to his opinions more and do things steadily. Don't worry at home. With me, hey... It's just that you go out to work hard, and you don't know when you will get married. You're about to be 24, your younger brothers and sisters are sensible and well-behaved. Mom doesn't care about anything now, but you just think about you getting married soon."
Under the dim light, Zhang Yunfeng silently looked at his mother's wrinkled face. For a moment, his throat was so blocked that he couldn't speak, and his heart was filled with speechless touch and ashamed of being the eldest son.
Chapter completed!