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The first thing that pops up on the video is a group photo.

Then there was a small piece of image. At that time, the camera pixels were not very good, and they were blurry when they were taken.

That year, Lin Jingxian was seven years old, and her two front teeth fell back and forth. She was always running around with her tongue. She licked her soft gums from time to time, and she felt strange to her tongue, but it seemed to have a fatal attraction to her tongue. So the hole seemed to have sugar hidden in the tooth hole. She stuck her tongue out and sucked it again, not letting her suck it, and secretly sucked it. It was not very fun, and there was no candy hidden inside, but she just couldn't control it, so she had to suck it when she thought about it.

The old lady knocked on her head from time to time, threatening to lick her again and broke her tongue. She occasionally said with great sincerity that she could not lick her, and that she would become ugly if she licked her.

But she is a person who has no idea about ugliness.

When she lit a candle, she burned her hair, and later she cut it into a dog-bitten short hair and someone praised her for her beauty.

She thought Han Xue next door was round and soft and cute, but people always secretly said that she was ugly.

So she always believed that she was not the only one who lies.

What the adults say is unreliable.

One day, her cousin came to visit her home. She was in junior high school and was undergoing orthodontic surgery. She wore wire braces and her mouth was covered with blood. Moreover, her teeth were so casual. Her cousin always smiled shyly and timidly, and occasionally laughed loudly and had to cover her with her hands.

When my cousin saw her, she tried to persuade her seriously in a sad tone of a person who had experienced it, "Xiao Jing, don't lick your teeth, you will become ugly. Don't open your mouth when you sleep."

Lin Jingxian licked her teeth that had just emerged, nodded seriously, and then she remembered and closed her tongue.

Because... it's really ugly.

For the first time, she deeply realized the meaning of the word ugly.

Lin Jingchen was on the side and laughed sarcastically, "Look at how good your cousin is, his teeth are not good-looking, you will be even uglier then. You are so ugly that you can't meet people. You can't marry even when you grow up."

At the age of six or seven, she was so stinky that she was crying with anger. She stubbornly asked Jiang Yanxiu who was on the side: "Brother Yanxiu, is he lying to me?"

Then Jiang Yanxiu tilted his head seriously and thought, "It's possible."

She was completely disappointed and she didn't believe Lin Jingchen's nonsense, but in her perception, Brother Yan Xiu would definitely not lie to her, so she was so sad that she was dying.

Later, he went to coax her and said to her, "I'm teasing you, no, remember to brush your teeth well, eat less sweets, and don't lick it. It's still very good after changing your teeth."

His teeth hadn't been replaced at that time, but they were all neat, so he grinned and looked at her, "Look, my teeth are fine."

She also grinned and asked the aunt at home to take photos of them, "Then you want to lie to me, you can't get married in the future, you can marry me."

"good."

The aunt couldn't use the camera, so she changed the camera mode. At the end, she realized that she was tortured by Lin Jingchen. Everyone in Menghushan was laughing at her. At such a young age, she had already made a scheming promise to herself.

At that time, when Uncle Jiang saw the old man and the old lady, he would smile and tease, "In-laws!"

When she was twelve years old, all of Lin Jingxian's teeth had been replaced. She accidentally discovered the secret that Jiang Yanxiu was often beaten by her mother, and suddenly realized that he didn't seem so perfect.

Sometimes she was a little afraid of him, and sometimes she felt pity for him.

She was often ordered to keep secrets. Although she was a radio station and could never hide what she knew, she really never told anyone about this.

Every time he came back from his mother, it felt very uncomfortable. Of course, it was impossible to see on the surface, but she could always feel it very sensitively. Sometimes she would go to help him with medicine. It was not a particularly serious injury, but mostly just a small scratch or just a swollen slap mark. On very occasions, the wound would look shocking. She even told Uncle Jiang several times, but in the end she succumbed to his tyranny.

He said: "Some things cannot be solved perfectly."

He was only in his teenage years at that time.

But Lin Jingxian felt that he was like a philosopher.

Once he was injured in the face, which must be impossible to hide. She took the initiative to take the blame with all her loyalty and showed her extremely superb acting skills to Uncle Jiang, wiping her tears and she burst into tears. "Wow~ Uncle Jiang, I accidentally injured Brother Yan Xiu's face." She straightened her back, and she clearly admitted her mistake, but she made her feel as if she would rather die than surrender. "Yes... I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." She thrust while wiping her tears.

Uncle Jiang couldn't smile bitterly, and finally touched her head helplessly, "Okay, don't cry anymore, your brother Yanxiu didn't blame you."

She seemed to be too deeply involved in the show and burst into tears again, as if she had made a big mistake and was suddenly acquitted.

Jiang Yanxiu handed over a handkerchief, and she was only worried about crying. Before she saw it, he leaned closer to wipe her tears and whispered to her, "Stop crying, I didn't blame you. A little bit of injury is okay."

She sobbed and looked at him, and saw that there was a smile in his eyes, and rolled her eyes immediately.

When he got home, he was beaten up. The old lady was so angry that Tiebuchenggang scolded her: "It's good to learn some serious business from your brother Yanxiu. It's just a mess. Look, you can take responsibility if you smash the face. "

Lin Jingxian was full of justice and was reluctant to give in. She couldn't say that she was learning from Lei Feng to do good deeds. She was about to suffocate. Finally, she stubbornly said, "Isn't it okay for me to marry him if I'm disfigured? What a big deal."

The old lady was speechless for a moment and mocked her, "You think so beautifully."

She couldn't bear it anymore, "Hmph, I'm so pretty, I'm even cheaper!"

"Shut up, see if you look like a girl?"

Jiang Yanxiu was afraid that she would be beaten, so he came to the house to take care of her. As soon as he entered the door, he heard Lin Jingxian say strongly that she wanted to marry him. His steps were paused and he felt a little embarrassed.

When I turned around, I saw Lin Jingchen fiddling with the newly purchased camera. The camera was facing his face and said with a smile: "Ah, brother-in-law, are you blushing? I will regard you as accepting this marriage and take photos as a souvenir. You can't regret it when you grow up."

He blocked the camera with his hand.

Lin Jingchen said proudly: "It's useless to block it. I'm recording this video! I originally wanted to record my mother's daily beating my sister as evidence of her growth. When she gets old, she will show her. You suddenly appear, don't blame me."

Jiang Yanxiu put down his hand and smiled: "It's not that I can't think about it."

When he was fourteen years old, Lin Jingxian was in the second grade of junior high school.

I went to perform poetry recitation at the Mid-Autumn Festival Gala, and suddenly felt acute gastroenteritis, which made me so much that I doubted my life, so I bent down on the stage.

Jiang Yanxiu was invited to watch her perform, so he rushed to the stage and carried her to the school hospital.

It is said that he was very handsome that day, and the whole school was in full swing. The photographer chased him to the entrance of the auditorium.

But Lin Jingxian had no image of vomiting and diarrhea that day, so she didn't want to see him for several days. She was too embarrassing.

At the age of 18, she invited friends to attend her coming-of-age party. There were many people coming that day, and she didn't bother to greet each other. She only remembered that the first time she wore high heels, the first time she wore a backless evening dress, and the first time she drank openly, and the first time she got drunk.

At the end of the party, she felt hot, and came out of the house for a walk, walked under his window and shouted his name. He looked down from the windowsill. She raised her face and smiled at him, calling him, "Brother Yanxiu..."

At the age of 19, she went to college and lived outside for the first time. The old man bought her a small apartment near the school.

An aunt was responsible for taking care of her for dinner.

The school exists in the suburbs and urban-rural fringe areas, and many things cannot be bought.

She was picky in food and clothing, and hummed with the old lady all day long.

Sometimes the old lady would arrange for the driver to give her some daily necessities, food and clothing, and sometimes Lin Jingchen would come over.

Jiang Yanxiu has actually been there twice, and it is said that it was on the way.

Once she had a fever and was lying at home, Jiang Yanxiu entered her room and knelt beside the bed to give her a cold compress and towel. She looked at him in a daze, wondering what was going on in her mind, and said coquettishly: "Brother Yanxiu, I feel so uncomfortable!"

He twisted the towel and changed the ice water bubbles again. While rubbing her forehead, he looked at her body temperature. Her paws held his arms with her eyes like a little scoundrel. He pressed her hands into the quilt and said, "Obe."

At the age of 21, she graduated.

My first job was to go to his company to do chores.

He scolded him the day before because she accidentally burned her hand.

Once, she was rubbing his car when she got off work and fell asleep on the window glass. When she woke up, she was in the parking lot. The lights around were dim and the lights in the car were dim. He opened the window and put his hand on the window to smoke. A faint smoke lingered in his fingertips, but she didn't float over her side.

Seeing that she woke up, he pinched his cigarette.

He looked at her with a look: "I forgot to ask, where are you going today."

She owns a small apartment, but she often lives at home.

She has always been a casual person. He knew that he would be OK to put her anywhere. She didn't understand why he suddenly cared about this.

Two people were in the hotel parking lot, and he rented a hotel suite apartment for a long time.

She rubbed her sleepy eyes and replied, "Everything is OK!"

When he opened his eyes again, he leaned over and said, "You said before, you wanted me to have a love relationship with you, but I wonder if it still counts now?"

Lin Jingxian felt her brain was blank. Maybe she hadn't woken up yet? For a moment, she felt that she was still asleep, so she boldly kissed him. It was soft and warm. She shuddered and finally realized that this was true.

She hasn't spoken yet, but the action has shown it all.

He trapped her hands and leaned over to kiss her.

A kiss that is lingering, long, delicate and gentle...

Lin Jingxian finally went upstairs with him.

Although he didn't do anything in the end, when he got home, his face was still red as if he was bleeding. She looked at herself in the mirror and pointed at her and said, "Wow, you have today too."

She took a photo to show him, "Does it seem like I've drunk ten kilograms of fake wine?"

...

There are so many, so many, and the remains of memory finally shines in the mediocre but huge life as sand.

The memories that seem to be kept by time are engraved there beautifully.

Every time she takes a step, Lin Jingxian will be in a daze, as if her life has been in just thirty years, and she has been dead countless times.

Many times she feels that she is free and easy, but in fact she is afraid of being discarded, so she throws it away first.

Or maybe she didn't care about anything since she was a child. When fate comes, it gathers, and when fate goes, it disperses. The only thing she has thought about and has taken the real life, but the ending is bleak.

She is a child who never grows up, living childishly and stubbornly in the fairy tale kingdom she created.

He was filled with a sense of heroic succession from Ning Wei Yushu, and was unwilling to compromise with any reality.
To be continued...