Chapter 8 Absence
Every time in the deep and quiet night, she could see the eyes of her mother, like the haze floating in the mist and desolate mist, pale and dead. The eyes were staring at her day by day, making her feel like the suffocation and pain of her heart being tightly held.
"Become stronger...become stronger...only if you become more promising, you can..."
When she was very young, she had heard her mother's desperate cry and sorrow, and pulled her to beg everyone in front of the towering gate.
"...It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if you don't recognize my identity, but... but she is innocent. She is the daughter of the second young master and her biological daughter... Why don't we let us in... Please, at least let the child follow her father... The child cannot be without a father..."
The blood-wrenching pain and sorrow are still deeply engraved in somewhere in her heart. Once consciousness passes by, what comes immediately is the sorrow and despair as always, such as the deep dark night, such as the dead blue sea, once surrounded by it, even the human being will be slightly oppressed and eroded.
"...In this situation, he will definitely not want you... Let the child go and see if he can impress him... Once he accepts the child, he will not be able to really ignore you. One day he will be able to... Don't talk about yourself again. Remember, for the sake of the child, you can do whatever you want, as long as they accept the child..."
The mother didn't know that when the relatives in the dark gave her face to give her the child a crying silently under the thick curtain...
That was a time she would never forget. She knelt on the street like a beggar, crying in pain under her mother's desperate pinching. How long did that period last? One month or two months? I had forgotten it, but finally, those people who were tall like gods walked out.
"...If I hadn't wanted to get dirty, my hands would have killed you long ago..."
“…The Wall family will not accept children with mediocre qualifications…”
"...Hmph, this little dirty guy is timid, has poor physique, is ugly, and has no future..."
What she could not forget was the feeling of the long sword covering her whole body with an incomparable momentum. At that time, she was even so scared that she wet her pants and was subjected to the willful ridicule of everyone. The only kind thing was the frowning girl, who was also the last ray of light that remained in her heart.
"What's the point of swinging a knife at a child without strength? This child is only five years old, how can you know that she must be unpromising..."
Because of that sentence, she got a promise...
"hinder……"
The eyes that opened from that sad and deep dream were just a faint pain and no fluctuations. Below was a dry meadow, covered with thick rain cloth, and the man had already put on his clothes on his naked body, but... the man had left...
The fire ignited the last thin tongue of flame not far away from him, and a few flashes left, leaving only the last embers. The dark red light emitting the last light and heat in the darkness, and the dense sound of rain seemed to come from a distant place. I was very hungry, but it was not as unbearable as it had been for three days. I am afraid that he had fed himself some food during the time he fell asleep. She sat up in distractedly, hugged her knees, and sat there quietly. The soul seemed to be about to leave her body, and her consciousness swayed slightly in her body.
There was dry firewood next to the fire, but she didn't move. After a while, her body stood up staggeringly and sank into the darkness. For a long time, the "thump" sound of a human body falling to the ground came from a distance.
She swayed and climbed up. She subconsciously reached out and touched her forehead. It was sticky and greasy, probably bleeding. Looking back, the red light pile appeared in the distance of her vision, like a dark mark. She withdrew her gaze and wanted to continue walking, and a subtle rustling sound also came into her ears.
That was the direction of the sound of rain. The foot sound mixed with the sound of porcelain collision gradually became clear. The figure appeared next to the fire, dragging a long rain cloth, and a few firewood branches were thrown into the fire. Some things were placed underground, empty, like another world where only the gaze and the gaze were present.
He is back...
The next moment the firelight began to become clear when it was thrown into the firewood branches. The man turned around and stood by the fire immediately, looking around, and shouting came.
"Furna——"
The sound spread in the darkness, and an echo came from afar. She stood there without moving, watching the man groping in the rain cloth from afar, picked up a torch, and searched in the darkness.
"Furna——"
"Speak out—"
"Are you there--"
"...I know you hate me, but it's all right. Now you have physical injuries. Let's take care of your body first and then have a good chat?"
"...I know you're here, come out!"
"...Anyway, take care of your injuries first. You are still having a fever, come back first!"
"...I'm sorry, I sincerely apologize. If you are angry with me, come at me and don't joke about yourself."
"...What's wrong with you like this! Just abuse yourself? Do you think I'll feel guilty if I do this?"
"... Come out! I count three times, I'm really angry if I don't come out!"
"...... Come out! Isn't it just that I've been on you once? It's worth your revenge on me with hurting myself? If I get you, I'll rape you again...I, alas, sorry..."
"...Really, if you don't come out, I really want to smoke...you..."
The shiny torch ran back and forth in the darkness, searching hard, and the shouting gradually became smaller and smaller, and in the end, it turned into a murmur that he muttered to himself. She looked at the figure like that, panicked and anxious... It turned out that he would show such a look to himself... The sound of the torch shaking became louder and louder. Finally, when the person holding the torch issued a cruel curse, the flame flashed past him, and after a moment it folded back, illuminating the pale face.
The one who appeared in front of him was a teenager who was breathing rapidly. He bent slightly, wiped off the sweat beads from his head and looked at him with a torch.
"…Huh… Sure enough, I…you fell? Why…”
It seemed as if he suddenly realized the relationship between the two at this moment, a wry smile flashed on his face: "Ha... it's very dark inside. If you want to walk around, bring a torch..."
After adjusting his breathing, the boy stood up and looked at the woman opposite him with a pale and haggard face, but his eyes were straight at him. Then, she opened her mouth slightly: "Do you... want to hit me..."
The voice was hoarse, but had a crystal texture like shattering glass. Tang Yi looked at her, was stunned for a moment, then had a complicated look in her eyes. He walked over gently, held her shoulder with one hand, and reached into her legs with the other hand, gently hugging the weak body.
"That's right...I'll hit you..."
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She lifted the leaf pot, boiled water, cleaned, applied medicine, and bandaged. She hugged his waist tightly, curled up beside him as if she was naked yesterday, allowing the other party to tie a thick white bandage on her forehead, looking at the face that was a little too weak for the man, and listened quietly to him.
"... When I first arrived here, I used this kind of leaves to boil water. It seemed that I had used it for more than a year. It was actually inconvenient to control the fire and the water, but this was the only thing I could do at that time..."
"...There are actually many good things in the forest, but people rarely use them. If there is a choice, I may wish I lived here since I was a child, because only then can I truly understand it, just like Xiaoxue..." After staring at her for a while, she found that there was not much change in her eyes, so she put rice porridge in a small bowl from the clay pot she brought and fed it into her mouth spoonful by spoonful.
"...After contacting too many external things, people may lose their spirituality. The forest is sometimes beautiful, but more often, it can only make me feel oppression and fear. The giant tree surrounding you like a high wall, omnipresent danger, almost solidified darkness, rare similarities... Why do people need friends, partners, space, and houses? I think that's just because we need space to breathe, assimilate more things, and gain local freedom. Otherwise, we will be swallowed by fear and darkness. If not, I wouldn't want Xiaoxue to be unhappy at all, and I will not try to communicate with the outside world again, and of course I will not meet you and hurt you..."
Speaking of this, he felt Ferna's hand holding her waist tighten slightly, and couldn't help but smile bitterly.
"... Actually, I don't come from a well-educated aristocratic family as you think. Of course, my original family is not inferior to the current aristocrats, but in fact I have never cared about money. My parents are both very outstanding people, or very outstanding. They each have their own lives, their own friends, and their own families. I, whom they share, seem to be ignored because it is difficult to classify... Ha, in short, I feel hurt, so I left my home and came here under the influence of some kind of power..."
"...We have something similar, so when Mrs. Sophia asked me to try to untie your knot, I agreed, but in fact, I didn't know how to work... Relatively speaking, I once had a friend who was more similar to you. I tried to reach out to her, but also failed. Two months before I decided to leave home, she died of an accident, but I didn't know whether she was always looking forward to this accident, whether she was looking forward to leaving that world, but your mental state is really similar to her..." He hugged her tightly, "...I'm scared, do you know?"
Furna didn't say anything, but just raised her head and looked at him quietly, slowly stretched out her hand, stroked his cheek, as if confirming whether the scene in front of her was real. Tang Yi gently held her hand, and a silent atmosphere filled the two of them. Because Furna was almost curled up close to his lower half, she didn't feel anything when she spoke with guilt. At this time, Tang Yi discovered that the medicinal properties of the pink fruit had passed, and she had rested enough. Looking at her weak and powerless appearance, her physiological reactions rose involuntarily.
It didn't matter if Furna continued to hold him for a day and a night without changing positions, but Tang Yi felt more and more uncomfortable. She quietly pulled the leaf pot and looked at the remaining water temperature. She twisted a towel to clean her cheeks and hands, and then said, "Uh... there are still some injuries on your body that hurts, right? Do you apply it yourself? I promise not to look..."
After saying this, he suddenly felt even warmer. The place where the other party was most seriously injured and needed a hot compress was the place that was severely damaged by himself? Even though he applied it for a while yesterday, the blood stasis had not dissipated, and he thought it was still swollen at this moment. Thinking of this, he didn't dare to say more, moved Furna's body to the dry meadow, got up and wanted to leave, but suddenly realized something was wrong.
Furna was lying on the meadow at this moment, but she didn't look like she was moving at all. Her hands were still holding her trouser legs with her eyes weakened, looking at the place she was holding. When she put down her, she untied her hands, but she immediately held her clothes. As she stood, the place where the two hands could grasp became more and more. She was so fragile at this moment. I think if she was about to take a step, her hands would immediately lose what she was holding. So she maintained her stance for a while. He sighed softly, squatted back, and hugged her again in his arms. As soon as her face was close to his chest, Furna's hand hugged his waist again.
Without saying a word, looking at her expression at this moment, Tang Yi didn't know what she was thinking. She silently pulled the dry rain cloth that had been covered with Furna, and he wrapped the bodies of the two. When the temperature in the rain cloth gradually increased, he stretched out his hand and began to unbutton the buttons on Furna's clothes.
One, two, three... When he took off his clothes for her, he picked her up like a child, then took off her trousers, until his crystal clear body became naked...
Without any resistance, Furna just quietly shrank in his arms, allowing him to wipe every part of her body with a towel...
"Do you want to...beat me..."
Chapter completed!