Chapter 1463: To those memories that have been sealed away (3)
Jin Qing has always suspected that the reason why he was abandoned by others should be related to his strength and eating a lot.
Because Jin Qing has lived in an orphanage as long as he can remember.
The life in the orphanage left her with very pure memories.
Every day there is endless handiwork, little food, and groups of charity people who come to visit the orphanage.
In order to get more food from kind-hearted people, every child is trying his best to show his best side.
Every child has been educated, and the families who can come to the orphanage to raise children have very good conditions.
As long as they work harder, they might be able to be adopted.
In the eyes of these orphans, being adopted is equivalent to no longer having to do those arduous manual tasks day and night. ??
Not to mention fighting with other children over a bun or a piece of meat.
The dean's mother drew a big pie for them. As long as they were adopted, they could live a good life.
At the beginning, Jin Qing was also looking forward to being adopted.
Until one day, she discovered that Xiaohong, who had been adopted by a wealthy family, quietly ran back from the adoptive family.
Jin Qing asked her why she came back. Xiaohong wiped her tears and told Jin Qing that there was a monster in her room and her stomach hurt every night.
Jin Qing wanted to take Xiaohong to tell the dean about this, but Xiaohong firmly refused because she did not want to lose her current life.
There are so many children waiting to be adopted. If she is sent back, there will be many children who want to be adopted.
Jin Qing has always known that she is different from others, but because the kind mother of the dean kept telling her that anything that is different will be eliminated, she always carefully hides her differences.
strength.
But looking at it now
Jin Qing finally couldn't hold back the painful look of her former friend. She wanted to go back with Xiaohong and crush the monster with her own hands.
Unexpectedly, Xiaohong misunderstood Jin Qing's intentions. She was afraid that Jin Qing would compete with her to snatch her adoptive parents, so she ran away when Jin Qing wasn't paying attention.
Since then, Jin Qing has never seen Xiao Hong again.
It was Xiaohong's adoptive parents. Jin Qing had met them several times, and they came to adopt the child again.
Jin Qing was lying outside the window, watching Xiaohong's adoptive mother wiping tears at the dean. Jin Qing heard her tell the dean that Xiaohong had died of a sudden illness.
Xiaohong's father kept hugging his wife and whispering comfort in her ear, as if the most unbearable thing in the world was his wife's tears.
The dean also accompanied the woman and kept wiping his tears, but Jin Qing felt that the reason why the dean was crying was because he disliked the red envelope that the two men had just given him.
Jin Qing liked the original dean's mother because when the dean's mother looked at their group of orphans, she didn't have that scary greed in her eyes.
Jin Qing continued to live in the orphanage. It was not until she was 14 years old that she broke the neck of a man who had evil intentions towards her due to excessive defense, and her life in the orphanage truly ended.
That family member had some background. Not only did they accuse Jin Qing of deliberate murder, but they also tried every means to kill Jin Qing.
In the end, Jin Qing was forcibly sent to a juvenile detention center because he was tested to have severe anti-social tendencies and an explosive force level.
When he first entered the juvenile detention center, Jin Qing was terrified.
But slowly,
Jin Qing found that compared to the cunning orphanage, her time in the juvenile detention center was the most comfortable time in her life.
As long as she works and obeys instructions, she will have something to eat.
And because he unintentionally demonstrated his ability to tear steel bars into steel wires to the inmates, he frightened a group of "prison bullies" who came to make trouble.
Therefore, Jin Qing has become a transparent and untouchable figure in this juvenile detention center.
On the contrary, he spent eight years of supervision in the juvenile detention center peacefully.
I have to say that the brainwashing in the juvenile detention center was very successful.
In the past eight years, Jin Qing has behaved like a normal person and has never used her strength to fight with others.
She is like an ordinary young man, except that she eats more, there is nothing special about her.
When he was released from the juvenile detention center, Jin Qing was already 22 years old. ??
The best years of his life have gone astray again. He has not received formal education since he was a child, let alone normal social interpersonal relationships. Jin Qing has become seriously out of touch with society.
And her experience in the juvenile detention center made people avoid her even more.
Jin Qing squatted outside the juvenile detention center and made a fair judgment on himself.
If she wants to live, she must first have enough food, but the prerequisite for having enough food is that she has to find a serious job.
Jin Qing has no serious academic qualifications, and the children in the orphanage go to school late.
Jin Qing had just graduated from elementary school when she was 14 years old. If the sanctimonious dean hadn't tricked her into going to the music classroom after the graduation ceremony, she wouldn't have accidentally broken his neck, resulting in her not even having an elementary school diploma.
Get it.
Although I also learned some knowledge in the juvenile detention center, at most I could only read a few words and rarely
The management office will not issue her an academic certificate that can be used in society.
Under such circumstances, finding a good job is really just a dream at first.
Jin Qing has a very good understanding of himself. Apart from being able to eat, he has basically no other advantages.
When she went to Qiaotou to sing, her voice was not good enough. She really scared people and made them suffer, and she had to pay for it.
To be a bodyguard, her qualifications are not good enough.
Although she is strong, she has not undergone formal training after all, and she has also been in
Unless the employer has a mental problem, he will never hire a person with a criminal record like her as a bodyguard.
Find a good man to marry, but her looks are not enough.
Jin Qing is a very self-aware person, but her appearance is too ordinary.
Moreover, a good man is not blind, so how could he marry a woman with no education, no family, no social status, and no life skills?
This may sound like self-deprecation, but it is Jin Qing's truest understanding of himself.
The key is that what happened when she was 14 years old left her no longer interested in men.
The experience in the juvenile detention center made Jin Qing see clearly the ugly faces of men.
Although good men generally do not enter juvenile detention centers, Jin Qing always remembers a saying, the world is as dark as crows.
Men all have similar bad qualities, it's just that some show them and others can control them.
Walking all the way from the juvenile detention center to the outskirts of the city, Jin Qing stood on the edge of the national highway and hesitated whether he should make another mistake and go back to the juvenile detention center. After all, eating there was free!
Jin Qing, who was in great fear of starving to death, suddenly heard a voice like the sound of nature coming from the distance, "dinner is ready."