The discussion about who Jiang Qinghuai liked and who he should choose did not last long. After chatting and gossiping for a while, everyone washed up and turned out the lights to get ready for sleep.
Jiang Qinghuai put down the bed curtain and lay in the darkness, lost in thought.
Whether you like someone or not is a very strange and strange thing.
She could confirm that when she reunited with Wei Qingfan at the beginning of college, she did not like him, and she was worried that he would misunderstand him by bringing her cousin and his sister together.
However, in the next two years, Wei Qingfan did not show any outstanding qualities at all!
His grades were good, but only good, not even among the top ten in the class;
His popularity is good, but only good, and many people are even dissatisfied with him;
He has a good personality, but he is only good. He is even a little too unmotivated. He does not participate in club activities at all and is not active in class activities.
He seemed to have never thought about what to do after graduation. Apart from going to class, the only thing he seemed to do was chase girls.
And he’s chasing other girls!
Moreover, I have been chasing that girl from Peking University for two years, and I still only accompany her to the library...
When she thought of this, she remembered that he comforted her, but only said "work hard". She couldn't help but grind her teeth and thought to herself in annoyance: No wonder she didn't catch up! She deserves to be unable to catch up!
There was another sentence that flashed past her subconsciously and was ignored by her: "Fortunately, I didn't catch up..."
After this thought crossed her mind, she turned over, feeling increasingly depressed and frustrated.
I had already decided long ago that I would like rich people in the future, so how could I fall in love with such a boy?
Forget it if the family has no money, I am not capable yet, forget it if I am incapable, I still can’t make progress...
She has been struggling with this matter for a long time, not only because she betrayed her "principles of love", but also because she felt that she didn't like Wei Qingfan.
Because after careful reflection, she can confirm that what if...that's what if! If she likes Wei Qingfan, then what she likes about him is not in the university, but in that rainstorm three years ago.
She was completely soaked in the heavy rain, and her tall, awkward and funny back was exposed in front of her in her underwear.
In fact, even the brief contact in the examination room when we first met during the provincial competition was more interesting than getting along in college.
So here comes the question...
If I like him, and I like him because of these things, why didn’t I like him when I first started college?
Why did you realize you like him only after two years of meaningless relationship with him?
This is unreasonable!
Then there is only one answer, that is, I don’t like him!
It's impossible that I already liked him but didn't realize it, right?
It’s impossible that the chance encounter was just a seed, and it took two years of getting along in college for the seed to sprout, right?
How can you be so smart if you are so slow?
Love can be love at first sight, but can its seeds lie dormant for so long?
Therefore, there is only one answer: I don’t like him. These are all illusions!
I don't care if he remembers his birthday... Last year, I wanted to settle a score with him. It was just a joke. At best, it was because I clearly mentioned my birthday while chatting with my roommate next to him during class, but he didn't remember it, which made people sad.
I'm just a little angry... It's not that I care about him, it's that I'm angry that he doesn't care about me.
As the saying goes, if you care about me, you will care about my words!
As for him and that girl from Peking University... I am just curious, and maybe a little angry that she is so stupid to chase a girl. If I were a boy, I would definitely chase one and win the next one!
After doing some psychological construction, denying the fact that he liked Wei Qingfan, and reaffirming his intention to find a rich man in the future, Jiang Qinghuai's ups and downs finally calmed down, and he felt relaxed again.
You have to be a selfish person!
From childhood to adulthood, everything that happened around her and the reality she could see clearly told her: good people will not be rewarded, and selfless people will not end well.
Dad is a good person. People who like him and people who hate him all know that he is a good person.
Dad is a good man, and everyone knows he is a good man, but only a few people like him, and most people hate him!
Dad has done too many good and stupid things, and I can't make the same mistakes again!
Those who work for everyone often freeze to death outside the door.
People will gladly accept firewood and then lock people out!
Only selfish people can have a good life!
It's enough to take care of yourself, it's enough to live your own little life!
In this case, the family will not be broken up, the children will not be ridiculed and bullied, and I will not be dismissed from my job because I am dedicated to fighting injustices for the public...
She thought this way, and became more and more determined in her thoughts. She then quietly wiped away the tears that appeared on her face at some point, opened her mouth, and took a deep breath in the darkness to adjust her emotions.
"My mother left my father because he was poor and had no future... If I marry a man with no money, even if I get married, I will definitely leave in the future... I will do this, so my children will too
Like me, if someone laughs at me for not having a mother, I will be laughed at and bullied..."
"So we need to find a rich man... If Wei Qingfan has no money and is not motivated, he will definitely have no future... You can't like him... Even if you do, you can't like him... Especially you can't marry him..."
All kinds of thoughts made her upset, and she couldn't fall asleep for a long time. She didn't know when she fell asleep, so she got up in confusion and went to class.
When she arrived in the classroom, she had just sat down when she suddenly felt her phone vibrate. She picked it up and took a look. It was actually a message from Wei Qingfan: let's go to the playground together after studying in the evening?
As one of the common places for love in every university, Jiang Qinghuai naturally understood what it meant to visit the playground. His heart beat faster and he subconsciously wanted to turn his head to look in the direction of Wei Qingfan, but held back and typed a reply: "Is something wrong?
"
Wei Qingfan replied instantly: "I have something to tell you."
Jiang Qinghuai hesitated for a moment, and then replied: "Okay."
In the blink of an eye, after the evening self-study, she and Wei Qingfan came to the playground and walked around for half a circle, but Wei Qingfan didn't say anything. She couldn't help but ask: "What on earth is going on?"
Wei Qingfan looked at her and said, "I confessed my love today..."
"ah?"
Jiang Qinghuai felt his heart beat faster again, "Then what? Did she agree?"
"have no idea."
Wei Qingfan still stared at her with stern eyes, "I confessed to her not so that she could agree, but just to give an explanation to myself, to my high school crush, and to give an explanation to my two-year pursuit in college. I thought she would agree.
because……"
When he said this, he paused, and then suddenly stretched out his hands, grabbed Jiang Qinghuai's shoulders, and looked at her with gentle and warm eyes.
Jiang Qinghuai felt flustered for a while and struggled hurriedly, but failed.
Wei Qingfan said: "Because I found that I actually didn't like her that much, so I chased her for two years. I just accompanied her to the library. I never thought about letting her be my girlfriend. Maybe the pursuit was just
It’s just a kind of inertia or mental knot... Qinghuai~"
He called out in a gentle tone and stared at Jiang Qinghuai, "The person I like is you... be my girlfriend, okay?"
Jiang Qinghuai was stunned, surprised and frightened. He struggled hard and shook his head: "No! I won't like you... I told you, I like rich people..."
"I will study hard, work hard, and make good money!"
Wei Qingfan seriously promised, "I swear to you! I will definitely study hard and get a scholarship! Take the postgraduate entrance examination! Go to a big company and make a lot of money... I will become a rich man! Trust me, okay?"
Jiang Qinghuai was a little moved and hesitant, but still shook his head and rejected him.
Wei Qingfan was rejected, but he did not give up. Instead, he studied hard as promised. In the second semester of his sophomore year, he ranked first in his class and received the National Inspirational Scholarship!
Then, he got a place for graduate school, and the night he got the good news, he came to her to confess his love again.
"Qinghuai, I do it all for you... I really don't have much pursuit or ambition, but for you, I am willing to make progress! I will work hard... believe me!"
Jiang Qinghuai still didn't agree, but he could feel that his guard was getting looser.
Even if he wants to be a selfish person, the "self" here is not just himself, but also his own people... Wouldn't it be better if Wei Qingfan could work hard to make progress and the people he likes become rich?
Finally, after graduation, they got together.
The family environment of both of them was not good. Wei Qingfan's parents lived in the county and farmed land, so they could not afford for him to study for graduate school. She also had good grades, but Wei Qingfan was better, so he decided to give up studying.
Study, go to work and make money first.
"Anyway, I'm working part-time during college, so it'll be fine..."
She comforted Wei Qingfan softly.
Then, that night, he proposed to her.
Wei Qingfan is very ambitious, and his grades were very good during his graduate studies. Before he graduated, he found a very good job, with a monthly salary of more than 10,000 yuan.
He took her home. Her father-in-law and mother-in-law's family was not rich, but they were very nice people and treated her very well. They loved her as their own daughter, which made up for the parental care she had been lacking since she was a child, and finally allowed her to taste it.
The happy taste of a normal family.
The two got married and soon had a daughter, whom she named Wei Bijia.
The word "Jianjia" comes from the Book of Songs, which refers to reeds. It matches Wei Qingfan's surname very well. Reed is related to water, so it fits well. Moreover, because of the poem "Jianjia Cangcang", these two words themselves have a beautiful meaning.
of poetry.
She chose these two words as her daughter's name, which is naturally full of beautiful happiness and meaning.
However, life soon took another direction.
Wei Qingfan began to frequently tell her about the injustices in life. He talked all day long about topics such as vegetarian meals, labor exploitation, social income distribution, and the rise of the nation. He also began to fight against some unacceptable phenomena in the company.
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It's not surprising. He was this kind of person when he was young. Didn't I like him in the first place because of that heroic act of bravery to save a beautiful woman?
In a sense, he and his father are the same kind of person...
It's not surprising that they have the same ending.
Finally, one day Wei Qingfan went out angrily and confidently to reason with the boss of the company, and then came back dejected with his things in hand.
Jiang Qinghuai knew the result without asking.
Wei Qingfan was fired.
"It's okay. If you have the skills, where can you find a job? Don't worry, I can change my job soon and I can still support you and Jian Jia..."
Wei Qingfan looked for a job with confidence, but his original company was very influential in the industry. He encountered resistance from other companies and was unable to find the job he wanted for a long time.
Wei Qingfan's mood dropped rapidly to a palpable level, and his family's situation quickly became difficult...
One day, she found her daughter crying secretly in the room, and then she realized that everyone was laughing at her because everyone wore beautiful and famous brand clothes, but she could only wear old clothes or very cheap clothes...
Time seemed to flow back in an instant, and she saw her own reflection in the girl named Wei Jianjia.
It seems that there is also the shadow of his mother.
The same choice was placed in front of him.
I am still young and beautiful. If I choose to divorce, I can live a very good life alone.
As for the price...
Don’t you want to be a selfish person?
As long as you don't have to bear the cost yourself, it's not a cost.
However, when you look at your well-behaved and sensible daughter, how can you be so cruel as to abandon her?
"Jianjia, dear, mom will make money and buy you a nice new dress..."
She comforted her daughter, then quit her job just for the sake of having a job, found a more profitable job, and began to put more energy into her work.